 which was, you know, there were images in the baby's bed, like three or two pains, or my perceived pain from the past, of loss and love and death. And so, I'd like to know how to break that tie, to break that association without perception of pain and perceive pain. So, when I watched the movie, I came into this force with very open, very open, very accepting, and I'm not used to some differences, but same things, and so on. And I had that sense. And then these pains came up in the movie causing frustration and distraction from what I'm learning here. And it caused an interference that carried through until I identified the frustration that's come through into, like, orange today. So, these pains and interference associated sense of loss within the mind of me. Got away, my learning, my opening, accepting, my path, the one that's with this understanding. So, in the sense of this identity, I'm trying to think of this in what I've learned from these pains, associated pains in my body, in my heart, with my life. I mean, from three of these, or having a different perception of these, to take one more step, to get closer to true self, through loving myself and being loved. In the sense of what you're talking about, the grievances being a call to love, you would be called to love yourself. You might be. So, how do you put yourself from those pains? Yeah, it's a very good question, in the sense that the pain of separation has been dissociated, in other words, it's been pushed way down into the mind and out of awareness. And so, the healing means that you have to invite what was dissociated or what was repressed and pushed out of awareness back up into awareness. The idea is instead of being asleep and unconscious, having an unconscious mind is to be fully conscious, wholly conscious of everything. Like they say in quantum physics and a lot of the research on the brain, and so forth about how we're just using a sliver of our capacity or potential. We want to open up that sliver to become fully conscious. And it's to the ego, it's a painful process, even to allow those memories back into awareness. It's like a trigger, like you watch that movie and it kind of reminds you and triggers these associations that are in there so that a healing can occur, a re-association, a re, you might say a reconfiguration or a reinterpretation can occur, which brings the peace. So, honestly, that's basically what the spiritual journey is. I mean, it's when people say, I wish I could do this pain-free. You know, please tell me that pain is optional. And I say, well, it is optional, but for most people, the mind is so addicted to it and clings so firmly to it that once it's exposed, it seems to be uncomfortable or intense. And there's a lot of intensity that comes with these memories and these associations coming to the surface. So, what's coming to mind is a movie that we use a lot of times in our teaching called Way of the Peaceful Warrior with Dan Milman. This is a true story of his life, where he's this gymnast and he meets this teacher, Socrates, who suddenly appears on top of a gas station, a service station one day and rocks his world. And it's quite an intense teaching-learning relationship because you could say at some level, Dan Milman has invited the healing to occur and Socrates has appeared as the teacher. And you might say, as far as pushing his buttons or bringing up these false associations, it happens quite rapidly and with a lot of intensity. You know, we do have to move through the darkness to the light. And so, as we're moving through the darkness, the ego is wanting to interpret what's happening as threatening. It's wanting to shut down the whole process of healing because it's saying it's too painful, it's too hurtful, and in the end, ego believes it will lead to destruction, which is the ego's definition of healing. It's getting destroyed and it's determining that this whole process is destructive. So, I think what you've done is you have a willingness to heal, so you came to the movies and then you allowed yourself to feel those feelings. And this is a good thing, you know, not a bad thing. And it does seem to take time in the sense of processing time. Like you said, until lunchtime today, you were just really giving your attention and energy. Honestly, I was very frustrated and I was evaluating you. And I was like, you know, I'm starting to say I'm, and I was like, why am I doing this? Because I didn't come into this like this. Why am I, I mean David, it's like, I think that movie brought some things out for you. And I was like, you know, I think you're right. Because I was making it, my ego was trying to take apart, take apart something like the movie or you where I was trying to make it about other things, not the feelings that it brought up in me. Yeah, but yeah, because pain, frustration and all of this, very, it was just, I was starting to dice things up. Try to find a way out. And that's typically how it works with movies or with different scenarios or with relationships. You notice how you engage in a relationship and you feel a strong attraction and a call into the relationship and your heart seems like it's starting to open up. And then it's the same thing that happens when these negative emotions, these upsetting emotions start to come up. Then this ego voice kicks in and it's gonna try to explain away the reason, the external reason for these emotions. Get away from this person, you know, avoid this and so on and so forth. And it's again, trying to protect itself from being exposed. It's like the ego is like this spider that's down like this dark well. And if you start to heal, let's say you take your flashlight and you start to shine your flashlight down in the well, the spider will move away from the light because it needs darkness. So it'll, the light beam goes down and the spider moves over and you move the beam over the spider moves again and then eventually you say, this is enough of this, you get a big beam and you light up the whole well and the ego's like, yikes. Like a game over. When you expose all of the darkness to the light, it's game over for the ego. You will never be tempted by it again. You will laugh at its voice and so much so that, you know, like that John Denver song, Let Me Drown in Your Laughter, the ego literally dissolves in laughter because the laughter is so strong and so intense that eventually it just feels like laughter is all that there is, you know, that you can laugh at anything and everything and there's no ego temptation to try to blame somebody or there's no emotions there's no negative emotions, no upset or hurt or pain. So it's a reinterpretation that has to occur in order to be free of that pain and that's basically what we're gonna do this whole weekend. We're gonna show clips, everything we talk about in terms of metaphysics, practical application, giving examples, doing experiential exercises, it's all aimed at. I did find it interesting just to, I just thought of conserving myself as a human and then when these pains came up and then my reaction to it as far as the sense of, so their voice, like the voice over in the movie, the negative voice speaking of the ego trying to attack, you know, I'm not, I think it was in the sense of sort of a protective mechanism, at least something learned. Yes. Like that.