 Tiwa, the future of St. John Paul II, visited Philadelphia. Interesting, huh? We got another pope about to visit Philadelphia coming up this year. Now back then, St. John Paul II, one of the most Marian Popes in the history of the church, said this, we are now standing in the face of the greatest historical confrontation humanity has ever experienced. American society or the Christian community realized this fully, facing the final confrontation between the church and the anti-church, between the gospel and the anti-gospel, between Christ and the anti-Christ. This confrontation lies within the plans of divine providence. It is therefore in God's plan, and it must be a trial which the church must take up and face courageously. Years later, we find ourselves in the midst of a culture that acts as if God is dead, but of temptation and sin, and the atrocities of abortion and euthanasia, the plagues of pornography and human trafficking, and the redefinition of marriage are slowly killing the life of God within us. Before Christ's second coming, the church must pass through a final trial that will shake the faith of many believers. Jesus says that people will literally be scared to death in anticipation of what is coming upon the world, something so dreadful that even the powers of heaven will be shaken. The persecution to come will be the form of religious deception, offering humanity and apparent solution to their problems at the price of apostasy from the truth. The supreme religious deception is that of the anti-Christ, by which man glorifies Isaiah, who was the word that became flesh. My brother says this is in Christ, this is not a time for cowards, this is not a time for wimps, it assures us that truth is our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, and he guarantees us if you live in his truth, his truth will do what? Set you free, free to person who God created you to be, made in his image and likeness. Our Blessed Mother always leads us to Jesus, who strengthened us with his body and blood in the Holy Eucharist so that we can overcome the weakness to sin and break the hold that Satan has on us. Let us heed the words of our Son, Jesus Christ, by being vigilant at all times and pray that we have the strength to escape the tribulations that are imminent. We can only be prepared if we are willing to turn away from the darkness and step into his wonderful light. Fatima, our Lady to the Seers, and she showed them a vision of hell. Lucia writes our Lady showed us a great sea of fire, which seemed to be under the earth, plunged in this fire where demons and souls in human form, like transparent burning embers, all blackened or burnished bronze, floating about in conflagration, now raised into the air by the flames that issued from within themselves together with great clouds of smoke, now falling back on every side like sparks in a huge fire without weight or equilibrium, and amid shrieks and groans of pain and despair which horrified us and made us tremble with fear. Now, our young people are seeking this truth, but because they don't know who Jesus is in the church today, when they tell you between my faith and every day, for them, well, why? Because they don't know Jesus. They say, well, we can worship God any way that we want, and they don't understand, and what are our young people in today? Ouija boards, and it's Charlie, Charlie thing. Look, here's what I explained to young people, because they don't understand, they think this is a joke, they think this is a game, but Satan is trying to kill them, Satan is trying to destroy them, and they think that these Ouija boards, because of the movies coming out, they think Charlie, Charlie, they think all this is a game. Look, look, some of you are old enough to remember vampires, right, back in the back, back when the vampires were really cool, not the ones today, that can walk out to the light and all this kind of stuff. Now, if a vampire walked up to your house, and you turned around and walked away, can Dracula come in your house? No. He can only come into your house if you invite him. That is exactly what's going on with these Ouija boards, and it's Charlie, Charlie, these young people are inviting Satan, are inviting demons, are inviting the forces of evil to come into their life, to come into their hearts, and they think it's a game, and it's not. This stuff is real. They need witnesses and examples of the truth. So many people say, oh, I wish to lead them to Jesus Christ, oh, I wish much would be led to be Jesus. Who's supposed to lead them? We are Jesus, and it's Holy Catholic Church. The greatest disciple, the greatest disciple was also the greatest saint in the history of the church. Now think about this for a second. The greatest saint in our church, ain't a pope, ain't a bishop, a human, to listen to the voice of God and allow his voice to change your life is a wife and a mother. Two things, two things that are shunned by our culture. Culture that's trying to destroy our faith by eradicating religious freedom, ignoring completely the natural moral law, and demolishing the sacred institution of marriage by attempting to redefine it. Our blessed mother revealed to Lucia that this way of thinking and acting and being has eternal consequences. So many people think all I have to do is be a good person. I was preaching a parish mission earlier this year, and I was greeting people after Mass, and a woman comes up with her beautiful children, say, hey, hi guys, how is everybody? Hey, and I act because she had a wedding on, so I asked, hey, where's your husband today? And I'm thinking, I was thinking he's in the bathroom, he's bringing the car around. And she said, well, Deacon, he's not here. So the benefit of that, I thought, well, maybe he's a fireman. He's on days on at the station. Maybe he's a physician. He's on rounds at the hospital. But as she said, well, Deacon, you got to understand my husband, he's a good person. If you met him, oh, Deacon, you'd really like him. He's so kind and generous. He's such a wonderful provider for our family. He gives you the shirt off his back. But he just doesn't see the need to go to Mass every Sunday because he says he could worship God any way that he wants. So I said, oh, I see. Well, when you get home, tell your husband something from Deacon Harold. Commandments. He said, no, he did not. Jesus said, I know you've done all that wonderful, but it's one more thing you have to do. Sell everything you have, give it to the poor, and come follow me. In other words, everything you think is important, everything that you're holding on to, everything that you think is important in this life, give it to me. Trust me, let go and let God. And he couldn't do it. My brothers and sisters of Christ, we got too many Catholics walking around there. They think that all they have to do is be good people and they'll get to heaven and they won't. It is up to the true disciples of our Lord Jesus Christ and the Blessed Virgin Mary to show them the light of truth. Now, how is Satan going about with this deception that the Holy Father talked about? What does that look like today? We have to go back to Genesis. Now, everything was great until we got to Genesis 3 and the snake shows up. Now, it's interesting of all the things that God created, not who the Satan go after first, the family, not the trees, not the ocean, not the fish, not the orcas, he goes after the family. That was his number one target then and his number one target now, you, your wife, your husband, your children, your grandchildren. Satan is trying to destroy covenant relationship with God and he's trying to do it through the family. We were at lunch yesterday and someone was saying that they were on a plane and they overheard someone sitting next to them saying that they were fasting. So he said, oh, this guy's fasting. So he just asked, hey, I overheard you were fasting. What are you fasting for? He said he was in the church of Satan and he was fasting to destroy families. See, this ain't no joke. This is real. We are in a war for our very souls. And how does the enemy destroy it? Who does he go after first? He goes after the family and who in the family does he go after first? The woman. Why her? You ever wonder that? St. John Paul II says in Moliere stignitatem on the dignity of vocation of women, that in God's eternal plan it is woman in whom the order of love in the created world of persons first takes root. What does that mean? In God's mind from all eternity when he planned to take love because first John 4 16 says what God is love, his very essence and nature in being, his usia in Greek is his stuff, his love itself. He pours that love into man, man and female he created them. The Holy Father is saying that that love first took root first established a home, first formed the foundation within the heart of the woman first, that a woman is the very heart of God's love. Every woman, whether she's nine or 90, whether she's married, has children or she comes a none. By the very nature of her relationship with God she is a life giver and a life bearer and Satan knew that. So Satan says to himself if I can destroy that everything else will fall and guess what he was right. How does he do it? See I think Satan is the one who developed the term recycling because he hasn't changed anything from what he did back in the day to what he's doing now. He hasn't changed anything. Let me give you an example. Now we're near Pittsburgh so I'm assuming we got Steelers fans in here. Now imagine okay hold on now. So imagine the Steelers show up to camp this summer and they're handed a playbook and they flip through the playbook every page is blank except for one page has one play. That's it entire playbook one play. How many games would they win? None. Why? Because every time they touch the ball the other team knows what they're going to do every time. There's no way they can win. My brother and sister in Christ Satan only has one play in his playbook and we keep losing. Year after year century after century millennium after millennium we keep getting our butts kicked by one play. I'm going to show you how that play works right now. One play two parts. Here's the first part of his play. Notice his first words to her is a question. Did God say or in the NAB New American Bible did God really say that you are not to eat of any trees in the garden? Girl did he say that to you? Simply this. To plant the seeds of confusion and doubt in her mind not only about what God said but who God is in her life. To plant the seeds of confusion and doubt not only about what God said but who God is in your life. See because up until this point they're consciences and what is the conscious? The practical application of the natural moral law. Do good and void evil. So the conscious wants to point toward God toward what St. Thomas Aquinas called the sunum bonum. The greatest good. The beatific vision. Life with God forever in heaven. And by asking that question plant the seeds of confusion and doubt that compass needle that points north starts to swing away from God swing away from the beatific vision swing away from our ultimate end and confusion and doubt and ultimate points toward who? Yourself. How do we know the question worked? Look at her answer. God said we may eat of any tree we may eat of freely eat of the trees the garden but God said we are not to eat the fruit of the tree in the midst of the garden neither shall you touch it lest you die. Now what's the problem with that answer? God never said nothing about touching the tree. He said don't eat the fruit of the tree. So she's already confused about what God said. But she got the last part right lest we die. Woo. Satan hears that word death died. It's a mavent in Hebrew. And it means not just physical death. It means to cut yourself off from God's life. To cut yourself off from the life of God. So Satan hears that word. Why does Satan say that? Because he's a liar. He says you won't die because God is jealous. God wants to keep all the power to himself. And he knows that when you eat of the tree you will be like you don't need God because you're your own God. Think about what that sounds like in the church today. What do I have to go to church every Sunday? I can work for God any way that I want. Who says some white guy from Argentina with a beanie on his head can tell me what to do with my body with the spirit of apathy and embarrassment about sharing our faith. We keep the faith to ourselves and contain within the walls of the church. We're Catholic in here on Sunday, but somebody else Monday to Saturday. When we are challenged by our friends and loved ones about why we are Catholic we cower. When the culture tries to shove subjective truth down our throats we worry about being politically correct. When unborn children are slaughtered in marriages we define we remain silent or turn the other way. Our Lord Jesus Christ and his blessed mother gives us faith that allows us to give ourselves completely to the living God and make no excuses for why we are Catholic. The salvation of the world began through Mary and through her most and through her it must be accomplished. In the second coming of Jesus Christ Mary must be known and openly revealed by the Holy Spirit so that Jesus may be known, loved, and served through her. Mary must terrible as an army in battle array to the devil and his followers especially in these latter times. For Satan knowing that he has little time and even less now more than ever to destroy souls intensifies his efforts and his onslaughts every day. He will not hesitate to stir up savage persecutions and set treacherous snares from Mary's faithful servants and children whom he finds more difficult to overcome than others. Now if you have a problem with this image of the Blessed Virgin Mary as a warrior I ask you to go back to Genesis chapter 2 when it says that God is not good for man to be alone. Why? Because we're made in the image and likeness of God amen and God exists as a family as a communion of persons Father Son and Holy Spirit. So the family on earth must be in the image of the family of heaven so man by himself makes no sense so God says I'm going to create a helper fit for him. Now helper does not mean maid does not mean someone who cooks my food picks up my clothes does my laundry drives my kids to soccer practice. For in Hebrew the word in Hebrew is actually a compound word it's help mate. And whenever the Jewish people use those two words together it meant someone who stands opposite or parallel to you who helps, aids, assists, surrounds, protects, and defends in battle for him. It was the battle going to be this Christ imitating his poverty his humility and his contempt for the world. They will point out the narrow way to God in pure truth according to the Holy Gospel and not according to the thinking of the world. Their hearts will not be troubled they will not fear any man however powerful he may be. They will have the two-edged sword of the word of God in their mouths and the bloodstain standard of the cross on their shoulders. They will carry the crucifix in their right hand and their rosary and the left and the names of Jesus and Mary on their hearts. This is my rosary. Now some of you are looking at this at Deacon I think those are bullets they are. This rosary was designed by Master Sergeant Michael Contone Army Special Forces who was a lax fallen away Catholic who had a massive conversion experience through the Blessed Virgin Mary when he served in Afghanistan. After his conversion through the heart of the Blessed Mother he made well this is a replica of his rosary because his our father beads were 50 caliber shells. I actually saw that rosary he went like this and that rosary hit the ground why do I have this rosary because these bullets are 40 caliber and 9 millimeter shells pushed in together why because every time you pray to rosary you pull a bullet through Satan's heart the beads on this rosary are made from ox bone the bones of an ox why Psalm 92 you have given me the wild ox's strength you anointed me with the purest oil my eyes looked and triumphed on my foes my ears heard gladly of their fall it's a battle cry the cord is made from industrial strength commercial grade fishing line fishers of men the knots there's seven knots for the seven sacraments ten knots for the ten commandments and three knots all throughout the rest of the rosary for the Trinity Father Son and Holy Spirit the cross is a casillo cross let me so let me tell you something this is a man's I mean women can use it too but it's a man's rosary and I'll tell you something it's a whole different experience meditating on the the mysteries of Jesus Christ with a bullet in your hand when you give your life over to the Blessed Mother explain to you the power I only have time to do the short version the power of the rosary the Blessed Virgin Mary now I don't think it says it in my bio but I was born on the island of Barbados in the West Indies my father was pagan my mother was a convert to the Catholic faith she was Methodist and became Catholic I am the oldest child of their union and I am therefore the very first baptized Catholic in the history of our family when we move to the United States when we move to the United States my father did not come with us why my father is a famous calypsonian he sang soca music it's kind of like the Caribbean version of disco okay of like r&b he's very popular my father loved three things in his life womenizing alcohol and cigarettes my father had 17 other children besides the four of us with other women number 17 just made his presence known to us on facebook three months ago if you've ever grown up in a house with alcohol I don't even have to tell you of the crazy embarrassing moments that happened in a house like that I don't know how my mother stayed married to him for as long as she did I think she wanted to have at least some semblance of a family my father I never saw my father in church ever in fact I asked my mom was mommy when's the last time pop was in church she pulls out some photos of a wedding that's the last time I ever saw your father in a church the only time I ever heard him use God's name was in vain ugly messy nasty divorce and after that was over I still maintained a decent relationship with my dad until I joined the Benedictines when I was accepted into the monastery out of courtesy and respect I went to see my father and I told him what I was doing he said something it went something like this you're gonna do you are the first person in our family ever to go to college you get an academic scholarship to Notre Dame he's to tell his friends my son goes to Notre Dame my son goes to Notre Dame you get an economics and business degree and now you're gonna waste your life living with a bunch of men what's wrong with you what am I supposed to tell my friends nobody could tell his friends and then we didn't speak for 18 years as far as I was concerned my father was dead in fact when my children asked where's our grandfather because my wife's father died when she was 18 I never even met him he died of cancer way way before we even met so my kids asked where they were my I said he's dead hated my father now some of you may be saying well deacon that's a strong word yeah it is and I meant and I meant it I hated him I wouldn't have cared if I never would have seen him again for the rest of my life now fast forward I leave the monastery because my mother has a heart attack almost dies I have to leave to take care of my family now I'm the oldest I had to take care of my sister who was still in high school make sure she ate and got the school take care of my mother while she convalesced and then I went to a wedding of some ND friends of mine and at this wedding I met this woman from the enchanted land of Oregon he was to say I did not go back to the monastery and I moved from New Jersey to Oregon and you know the rest now when I was leaving to move out west I had a conversation with my mother my mother was like four eight okay short we have a word short family my mother said son before you leave I just want to ask you to do one thing I said mommy anything so I want you to pray for your father it was one of the only times of my life I ever remember looking at my mother in the face and saying no she just looked at me I don't think you heard what I said son the only thing I want you to do is to pray for your father okay mommy I'll pray for pop whatever and so I would tag my father in at the end of my prayers didn't mean it I'll be I'm being honest with you I didn't mean it I just did it because I told my mother I would so the years go by now but you know what my heart softened a little bit so I would send announcements for our wedding no response birth announcements for each of the kids no response birthday no response Christmas a no response I said that's okay because if I die and I stand before Jesus and we start going through the commands by the time we get to number four hey I tried so now my first series starts to air on EWTN in 2005 behold the man this was now 17 years now remember I tried my father in 18 years this is year 17 my series starts now it starts to air internationally my relatives of Barbados call my father say isn't that your son on TV my son so he turns the channel and there I am so he starts watching now the next week he wants to watch me again now I don't know any of this is going on he starts but he gets the time wrong so he flips to EWTN and I'm not on but there's some old nun and she laughs like he starts speaking and my father got sucked in now this goes on for a year now at this time I'm still working in my secular job I was the police chief at the university I was in law enforcement for a long time that's another story like I said this is a short version so I'm driving home from work and my cell phone rings I look at the New Jersey prefix I think it's my brother hello son police shock what is this and he starts speaking when I hung up the phone it said 31 12 31 minutes and 12 seconds and he spent most of that time talking to me about Jesus no wait wait wait don't get happy because I wasn't do myself this only gets better from here trust me on EWTN I'm the one traveling to Singapore and Malaysia South Africa and Japan and all these places talking about Jesus he doesn't know Jesus all that man did was destroy our faith if this is from you you're gonna have to show me I'd be careful what you asked for I had not received an invitation to speak in my home state of New Jersey 10 days later I get an invitation to speak at a parish 3.1 miles away from where my father lives so now I go to do the thing and I go back home I stay with my brother and so my brother arranged for me to see my dad and this whole time I'm my spiritual director you know what is this gonna be like you know so my father walks in and the first thing I noticed and I actually was shocked by his appearance he had had prostate cancer he had lost half of his body weight he was a big guy like me and now he walked in I was like what I almost didn't record his hair he had big patches of hair missing because of the chemo and I was like what he goes hi son I was just I was completely shocked by his appearance and it's as good to see you son I said yeah pop and we it was very awkward and I waited to hear I'm sorry son for the hell that I put you and your mother and your siblings through I'm sorry for all those embarrassing shameful moments with the alcohol I'm sorry for stepping out that you had to be the man in charge at 12 years old while I was out sleeping around with the I'm waiting to hear I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry all my father would talk about was what kind of man he is now and the Lord showed me a huge lesson that night the Lord said to me in my heart look you know what happened back then and he knows what happened back then there's nothing either one of you can do to change it so deal with the person I have in front of you you know my record had been stuck it was skipping well some of you may not even be old enough to remember what a record is all right we have we have a set of twins and I remember the twins were about seven years old and they saw a record for the first time and said daddy what's this I said this is a record we used to play music and this is it they're like hold on how did this fit in the car they thought it was a disc and you put in the car so like I said my father was a singer so he goes I'm I'm still writing music son do you want to hear my latest song whatever pop go ahead so he puts on the song and it's a music track and he starts to sing here are some of the lyrics Lord Jesus have mercy on me my eyes are wide open yet I failed to see me Lord Jesus I beg you have mercy I'm so sorry Lord forgive me I love you I want to live a life that's honest and true Lord show me the way I can't go on living without you Lord Jesus I beg you have mercy so as he's singing this song I'm saying to myself there is no way you can fake this and when he finished singing I don't know what possessed me to do this but I literally walked up to my father I'm standing literally toe to toe with him looking him in the face I'm only five six he's five ten he's not that much taller than me remember we're a short family I looked at man in the face and I said I'm gonna ask you a question right now if you've ever loved me even once as your son don't lie to me if you're gonna lie then say nothing happened to you all this Jesus and mercy had I not been standing in that man's face to hear what came out of his mouth next I would never have believed it this unbaptized pagan who never set foot in a church as far as I know who destroyed our family in all seriousness looked me in the face and said the blessed mother and divine mercy could not speak my brother to this day still mocks me he said man all right because I did a parish mission in Jersey my dad and my brother came and my brother said I still remember man when pop told you that blessed virgin Mary stuff and at the vineyard the look on your face I literally could not speak I could not form words in my mouth now I go back home to Oregon now by this time my mother is living with us she lived the last three years of her life in Oregon with our family she said is it true son I said mommy you can't fake what I saw a few months later my father now we're speaking at least once a month my father calls me up son I'm coming to Oregon I want to see my grandchildren remember my father's never met my wife or my children and I said okay pop when do you want to come he told me the weekend that's a bad weekend for me pop I got stuff on because that's the only weekend I can come so I'm coming I said okay so now I have to go back and tell my family but we got a problem I told the kids he was dead then what do I went to my wife I said how do I get out of this so long he says well Jesus did raise the dead didn't he so the kids were still fairly young my oldest was only 10 and so I said God kids gather around guess what I'm so fast forward my father flies out to Oregon meets my wife and my kids now there are a number of things that happened that weekend that were miraculous I'm only going to share because of the time I'm only going to share a couple things with you that happened that weekend now he came on a Thursday some cool things happened Thursday Friday Saturday is a men's conference in Portland I'm not speaking but I always go to support the guys because I need fellowship too just because I'm Deacon Harold don't mean I don't need no fellowship I'm with my brothers too so I said pop I'm going to this men's conference do you want to come he said sure he's never been to anything Catholic before in his life so he comes to the conference and he sees the men the praise and worship and the men are there raising holy hands and my father said I didn't know Catholics could do it like this one of the speakers was Father Donald Callaway oh so I'm sitting with my dad across we have these round tables I'm sitting across from my dad Father Callaway starts telling his story you know he gets to the part about when he was kicked out of Japan at 15 years old because by then he was doing prostitution he was doing drug running he was doing money laundering he was running with Japanese gangs 15 was put on a plane by Japanese military police and told never to come back to this country again my father leans over across the table that guy's a priest yeah pop so father keeps telling my signals he leans over my father he's worse than me so now Father Callaway gets to the part of his story that changed everything for him what changed everything an encounter with Mary so now my father literally grabs my arm and starts shaking Mary son son he's Mary it's like I said I know pops I said he's Mary's I said pop I know pops and so after I gotta I gotta meet this guy I gotta meet this guy so I know Father Callaway so I it's now Father Callaway supposed to be signing books instead he's off talking to my dad those two are going back and forth back and forth about Mary and I'm standing there going look at this you know I said I'll sign for your father man's conference and we're driving back home my father wants to take the family out to dinner it's a Saturday night now my mom was living with us but during this time she was in a convalescent home because she had a bout of congestive heart failure and she needed more care than we can give her at home so I said pop let me drop you home let me go see mommy and then we can go out to dinner he said no let's go see your mother now I had not seen my father in 18 years of spoken in my mother had not seen her spoken in for over 20 years so we're actually driving by the place was only a mile from our house and I don't have time to warn my mother so we pull into the driveway we get out we go to I said pop let me go in first so I go in my mom's laying in the bed I come around to the side of the bed I sit down I lean over I kiss my mom and she goes son I said mommy walks my father I will never forget the look on my mother's face when my dad walked in it was like her eyes big it was like shock anger joy all wrapped up into one I get up off the bed my father comes around to the side of the bed he sits down he reaches out and graphs my my mother's hands now my mother's name was Eleanor and he says hello Eleanor and they start talking and I leave the room so I close the door and I'm standing outside five minutes 10 minutes 15 minutes I asked the nurse for a chair 20 minutes now after 20 minutes I'm thinking what's going on because this is the first conversation I remember them having where there wasn't yelling or something being thrown half an hour later my father comes out okay son let's go uh okay pop so I go in and kiss my mom goodbye she said uh who was that I said I know mommy I'm getting used to this too now my mother told me my mother died by the way four months to the day to the hour that my father last saw her my mother never told me what they talked about ain't my business husband and wife ain't my business but she said this to me after my father left she said son remember when you were leaving to go to Oregon what I asked you to do oh yeah I told you no she said starting on that day I started praying a rosary a day for your father and I said wait a minute whoa whoa stop mommy wait a minute what do you mean you pray you prayed a rosary every mommy what happened after year 10 what happened after year 15 you kept praying rosaries for pop every day 17 how come you didn't stop she believed with all she only asked god for one thing before she died only one thing that her and my father would be reconciled and that's exactly what happened in that room that night in the hospital the power of the rosary the power of the rosary now I wish the story could end there but just one more little caveat the next day my father went to mass first time I ever saw my father in church it was sunday father's day and I preached in my parish on father's day so I gave the father's day homily with my the first time I ever saw my father in my life in the church sitting in the front row where my mother used to sit now one more quick down there says time's up but the holy spirit said keep talking hold on to your seats this was when this all this happened by the way this was 2006 okay now 2012 I'm on a year of faith to I had a privilege of speaking in australia ireland in italy in october of 2012 I'm in the middle of my tour in italy my brother calls me hey man you need to come home you need to come through jersey on your way back I said what are you talking about pops cancer is back they found a mass in his cecum the cecum is what connects the small and the large intestine they can't operate because he can't pass the heart test for the surgery he'll die in surgery they're just gonna hit it with some chemo but they're telling me he won't make it till christmas you need to come home so at great expense but I didn't mind I changed my ticket to come home through jersey I spent three days with my dad I want to tell you about the power of the blessed virgin marion forgiveness two things happened during those three days one of the things that I did was I asked my father to forgive me for hating him for 18 years now in the thinking of the world I was justified all the stuff I could name all the stuff that because I still remember what happened but you know what my past does not dictate my present or my future my past my past shaped me into the person I am today but it doesn't determine how I act from this day forward I knelt down in front of my father and asked him to forgive me for hating him for 18 years and he forgave me the next day I was leaving to go back to go back to Oregon my brother was throwing my stuff in the car my father was sitting on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands and I said pop it's gonna be okay he just nodded his head I said would you like to pray pop so I knelt down first time I ever prayed with my father we said a prayer and then I after the prayer I said pop I love you only time I ever remember my life ever telling my father I loved him my father looked at me and said I love you too son tears in his eyes I always have and I always will then I left I thought this is it I'm never going to see my father again I go back home to Immaculate Heart Catholic Church my parish where I'm assigned and I say to the pastor I tell my you know because my father's like a hero at Immaculate Heart I mean you know he that's where you know he was in church that's the first place he ever went to church is the Catholic I mean in the Catholic Church and so I tell Father Nicholas he goes oh I tell him about the tomb don't worry Mary will take care of it I said okay father whatever you know I so he basically ordered everyone in the parish to start praying rosaries for my father so the months go by December 12th get a call from my brother hey man I'm at the hospital with pop and I'm thinking okay here we go I gotta start planning to buy a ticket for a funeral I'm preparing myself he's gone my brother says hey man Hari Hari that's my don't son that's my pet name that they call me don't worry about that he says Hari the tumor is gone I said hold on no hold on I said oh yes I mean it shifted into the intestine that he goes no man I'm standing here looking at the x-ray it's not there I said holy cow so I go back and I call father because I'm doing a mass that evening so I go to Father Nicholas Father Nicholas my brother's called he said the tumor is gone he said nonchalant well I told you Mary would take care of it come on now my father turned 81 years old a few months ago still alive and kicking the man is on fire for Jesus Christ now you know when I talk about my dad I feel like the guy in the vineyard you know I came in at 8 o'clock in the morning my father came in at 545 but my brothers this is in Christ as I end my time with you today no matter how dark it gets the light of the new pentacost kindled by the children of Mary will grow ever brighter to set this world ablaze with the fire of the Holy Spirit amen it is that same Holy Spirit that will move us from sorrow to joy from despair to hope and from death to everlasting life