 Come on people now, smile on your brothers, everybody get together, try to love one another right now. If you hear the song I sing, you will understand. You hold the key to love and fear, oh in your trembling hand. Just one key unlocks them both, it's there at your command. Come on people now, smile on your brothers, everybody get together, try to love one another right now. The movie yesterday brought up so much fear with, you could probably tell. With all that, I don't know, going into purpose and it's like that same within Australia, it's like that leaving my job, staying with the job, the loans and all that, it brought up so much fear with me yesterday. It's still staying with me today like it came out now again. It's sort of like going to panic immediately when I start thinking about do I quit my job, the Holy Spirit, how will that, like how can He provide for me? I have such a hard time trusting that. I remember, I started to get a clue of this whole thing and I was like hmm, I had student loans and I remember I was pretty much through with the academia thing but it was like in debt and so it was kind of like, I remember I thought well I'm going to have to let the Holy Spirit guide me on how to deal with these debts because this has to be practical. It's not just some pie in the sky thing. You have to, whatever we've done with the ego to wind ourselves into the world of deprivation, debt, whatever, it doesn't really matter. It doesn't matter whether it's financial debt or a friend of mine, Chris, he talked to me about maybe a little over a month ago and he was just saying he had to go back and talk to his mother because in his mind his mother was his debt. Thirdly, it felt like in his mind his mother was his debt and he had to go face that and give and extend whatever he had withheld. It can be people, it can be finances, it can be debts of promises made that were not kept or commitments made that were not kept. It's kind of like in 12-step program where they talk about doing like an inventory like just going through your mind and saying to the Holy Spirit, okay, come clean, just show me anything, show me where my unfinished business is in my mind. It can be a number of things. But I remember in my case I remember I thought well I had the course, I had the debts and I thought I'm going to have to handle those. So I really started getting into prayer and openness and asking and I really felt like that a job would come along that would, it would mainly be for undoing the ego as fast as possible but I think a side effect would be starting to pay off the debts because that was something that had to be dealt with. And so it's really, instead of trying to project it out into the future like how will I be provided for, how is this going to play out in the future, it was more like being open to the next step. And for me it was taking a full-time job at Ohio Valley Goodwill and as a case manager and wow, the lessons I got there, things were coming at me so fast. I would be doing my Course in Miracles lesson, praying, meditating, listening to all this inspired music on the way there. It was a really intense job just because it was so humbling. It's like where they say knock a chip off the block, knock the pride off. It was like there was so much encrusted pride from all those years of education and just life in general, tough pride, like layers of thick pride. It was almost like that job. It was like an eight-month assignment but it was almost like Jesus was getting like a chisel out and just clink, clink, clink, clink, chipping away the pride. Every day it seems the pride was taking hit after hit after hit as I worked with all these clients and I seemed to be, you know, all these difficulties. I mean sometimes I would do deep breathing when I was going to work because I would think, oh man, I don't know if I can handle this. I didn't think after the first three or four days that I would even last in the job. It was one of these human services job where I was still trying to use my past learning to do something and none of the past learning was working and Holy Spirit was like saying, now we're going to teach you how to pray, how to really open up to me and listen. And so it was quite intense those eight months and then there was another part-time job after that was to kind of finish off the debts but that was intense too, really, really intense lessons. And it's always a little bit, it's the toughest at the first. I mean when you get going in this and you start to really dedicate your life to it, it's usually, like the Course says, the branching of the road is the toughest part because you still believe you can go back to the old way. That's why the branch is so difficult. I mean once you start to go along the real alternative or the new direction, the first few steps are the most difficult just because you really believe you can go back. And then when you really go through those first few steps and you keep going and going, that's when the momentum just starts to gain in your mind. You start to really feel like, okay, I'm going to do this, this is my life's work, I'm going to wake up, I'm going to do the forgiveness work if it's the last thing I do. And so those steps are important and it's really the prayer of the heart. It's like, I think for a lot of us we have these beliefs that are convinced, we've convinced ourselves that that we don't have valuable skills the Holy Spirit can use or valuable abilities we think it's just too much unworthiness to think even about the steps and we've got all those howl questions. What kind of job will I have? We want to know everything because give it to me all right out in a plan and it just doesn't work that way. We have to take those little baby steps of faith and I remember I got interviewed for that job and I went in and I got the job and the first job was intense, but after that it just started to turn and loosen up so that other assignments that came in after that there was more of a momentum. I just kept working with the Course and practicing and practicing. You practice in your relationships, you practice with every opportunity that comes your way. Like when you wake up in the morning you don't want to miss one golden opportunity to where they release and forgive. It's too precious to miss any opportunity and that's what starts to turn the tide, turn the whole momentum. And one thing I can tell you that might save a little time is the Holy Spirit doesn't want you to reinvent the wheel. So if you start to take a look at your life if you go in yourself and you do like an inventory whatever skills and abilities you seem to have developed from the ego and in the ego's framework the Holy Spirit can use them in the plan of awakening. So for example for me I was in university for ten years so I picked up some vocabulary along the way. You hang around the university long enough you're bound to do that. You read enough books, listen to enough professors whatever it's just what you've exposed yourself to so that was something the Holy Spirit could use. But it's different for everybody. It uses skills that we have and it's just amazing with willingness how the Holy Spirit can use whatever skills that are in there without having to reinvent the wheel. So, you know that's one thing that can be helpful about these kind of retreats and gatherings is you start to get a sense that you have some strengths you have some things that you excel in spiritually and you get that the Holy Spirit will use those skills and abilities even if you're just beginning to become aware of what they are the Spirit can use those and does use those and that's what the awakening is about. So, you know like we were talking, Melissa was talking about you got to get your fill of the kitchen here and you picked up a lot of skills or maybe just became aware of a lot of skills that you have as far as organizing things and so on and so forth she was even talking about maybe down the road maybe a B&B retreat center or something now I open my mind to these principles I open my mind to what skills I seem to have in terms of the world and then I give them over to the Holy Spirit and say you bring me the best opportunity for this undoing, for the mind clearing I had a friend Dorothy who she did not have a high school education she was from Great Britain but she didn't have a high school education but she had kind of an aversion to schools and I remember one time she told me when she didn't have a job and didn't have any money and didn't know what to do that she said to the Holy Spirit I'm in charge now you bring me my next job and it wasn't long after that where she had a couple job interviews and the job that she got offered was to work in a school and she was like oh the very last place on earth that I would be comfortable working she had said to the Holy Spirit the first job that has offered me and the first job that was offered her was in a school I had some friends that are in Sweden Anna and Alex and Alex went through a phase where he had left the profession of psychology and he was kind of looking for work and so on and so forth and he was just praying and he said to God God I will take pretty much any job that you offer me as long as it does not involve children and the job that he was offered was working as kind of a school psychologist in a school working with children all day after that he became kind of like what do they call it when you foster parents having children in his home that's still going on as soon as he offered up the prayer I'll do any job you want except with children then it's been a flood of children coming in because remember this is about undoing initially those early steps are about undoing whatever your resistances are okay because it sounds like you're saying we have two things that you know we would be valued by spirit for our skills for our resume stuff which just doesn't play at all with me because we're all the same and our worth is established by God and has nothing to do with what we do and then okay so then if it's not the skills you have Holy Spirit will throw you into something you never did before that you don't want to do as a way to knock down your pride well I can see that but I still don't get this part about like planning what we want to do like as ministers or it's max of achievement or ambition or compromise well the first thing was you were saying Holy Spirit used these skills or our resume or this and that if we're all the same but that's precisely it the mind that's asleep and dreaming does not know we're all the same if it did it wouldn't need the skills it would see that the whole world of skills and abilities was an illusion but when the mind doesn't see that it's all the same it doesn't see that it's an illusion it's really a call for help in mind training call for a complete transformation in consciousness so the Holy Spirit has to use what the ego made to reinterpret the world in other words words are symbols that the ego made there are no words in heaven no words in nirvana those are symbols that symbols twice removed from reality and the Holy Spirit uses the words to take the mind to a state of mind that's beyond the words so you could say that the Holy Spirit is coming through you using the words to comfort and to bless to reassure to be an inspiration and it's the same with the other skills it's not like the Holy Spirit is like some kind of an employment agency you know it's like okay what do you got for me I can type how many words a minute it's not like the Holy Spirit is like the higher employment agency the mind that's asleep it believes it's a separate human being it believes in lack it believes in deprivation it believes in things like jobs because all it knows is lack and it's going to have to survive somehow the reciprocity belief is strong and so on and so forth and progressively those skills and abilities whatever they were however they were learned put into function like I was saying you had published a book and those skills whatever went into publishing a book got used in helping compile and put together and book form the teachings that became awakening to a course of miracles that book so I know you always brush that off as lightly like wow it was a big collaborative effort and I did very little but those were skills part of the repertoire that were used but isn't that that just happens that's obvious what should I pay attention to here it's obvious it's as obvious as you want it to be in the sense that I think when you have a desire to be truly helpful just like that woman in the movie last night she had a intense focus on well on healing quick because she felt like her time was about to run out and she just went at it almost with precision work like a surgeon going in with a finite amount of time to save a life she went into her buying phase and her pretty good skills at buying she did it pretty rapidly and actually when we were talking about the colors and the textures and everything it got used in a very symbolic way and it definitely took the focus off of her throat off of the laryngitis off of the difficulty with breathing a whole new rhythm when she was going for that intense healing it's pretty much the same with the Holy Spirit it's like it's really just getting your attention focused on being truly helpful it's getting your attention focused on the giving mode back in the mid-1990s I had a girlfriend and I would hear all these different explanations it's a holy book it's a scripture one teacher said don't let it touch the ground just all kinds of things about the Course and I remember one time I heard somebody ask her what is the Course in Miracles because I'd heard so many answers of people trying to explain this phenomenon or whatever it was and they were having great difficulty explaining it and she said that's how when a baby has scattered attention and they're irritated and annoyed and crying and so on and so forth how you sometimes take a rattle and you can shake the rattle and get their attention so their head turns over to the noise she said that's what a Course in Miracles is I'd never heard that kind of definition of rattle Course in Miracles is like a rattle and what it was was it was a very simple metaphor at shifting the focus of attention and really the Course who was described said thank God the path for intellectuals for people who are well educated this is the rattle for the well educated mind that needs to turn in another direction it's really not that big of a tweak just like it's not that big of a turn for the baby's head but it's a very important one I think I've interpreted to be truly helpful is to forgive and what I do in the world that's really a mind activity what I do in the world or nothing that's pretty much an interpretation the original oratex had a phrase in there listen to my words and learn of me or learn forgiveness and do what I say listen, learn and do it was a three-part instruction and the last one was do for the mind that is highly trained and the mind that is highly ready and able to go into deep states and mystical experiences yup, the doing aspect is almost nothing it's zero zilch now what I've just described does not apply to 99.9999 percent of the population on planet earth it's just, we could say that mind training is in its infancy you know, it's like more like a baby that is starting to fall and not a teenager shooting hoops it's not that far along yet it's down to the crawling stage and therefore it's really important to be very tuned in and very humble initially at just working on your attitude, paying attention to your attitude because when he talks about that in the manual where he said our change is required in the teacher of God's situation he says for most they're given a slowly evolving curriculum but he does say kind of one general rule is that changes are required in the attitude the attitude so before we start looking at making huge life changes you know, it's like take a look at your attitude does your attitude line up with the B attitudes of the of the gospels and then it's like that's where you know, it would be the most helpful way to start taking a look inside like where if I've got pride, if I've got arrogance if I'm not humble and there's maybe I'm into analysis maybe I need a lot of proof like so called in the world a lot of evidence before I'll I'll believe something and so on and so forth you can start to take an inventory in that way because there is an aspect to those stepping stones which does seem to be involving doings and even in the I need you nothing section he does say, you know, he describes this quiet place where the activity of the body ceases to demand attention he then comes right back and says you'll be sent on many busy doings from that place of silence and stillness so it's really given me 365 lessons and he's telling me I'll probably be sent on many busy doings in the mind training instead of sitting around and just getting in the lotus position and going through 8, 10, 12, 15 hours of meditation, he does call meditation tedious and time consuming and he offers the holy relationship as the way out as the means that will serve best and look at what we've been doing here with everyone mind training pouring out your thoughts, expression sessions this is a a relationship intensive here, no doubt about it and that's more in alignment with how we're practicing with the mind training than the old traditional ways which can be effective but also take a lot longer time I mean you know it's like expect a miracle if you start to really get into this mindset like okay I'm gonna be a miracle worker and I don't know the form that that will take and I don't need to know the form and I can just say I am willing to be used, that could be the prayer of the heart use me in that capacity and there's obviously good opportunities around here but it's not like it's not like you have to go back to an outside world it's more like just from being in this experience it gives you a pretty good glimpse of another way of being more of an expansive way of being it doesn't have the same rigidness the same heavy emphasis on rituals and so on and so forth I've met people that go through an experience like this and they start to be a little more contemplative about things, they watch their thoughts much more they're really much more in touch with their emotions and all those things are really helpful that will serve as you go along in a big way and if you really have this great openness to say okay show me what's next prayer to make the prayer to the Holy Spirit and make it obvious really mean it with all your heart have the passion in your voice just try it out oh you try that with the Holy Spirit make it obvious it does seem so much like unfoldment stages if we are in ego driven ambition regarding skills and talents fulfilling ego agenda seems like that does fall away and it has for a lot of us where there's just no drive no ambition at all no goals, no anything and then out of that emptied out completely surrendered state involuntarily you just start to experience that you're being used but there's no drive there it's not personal anymore it's in a personal life you're being lived and utilized it's so incredible to take a step to do expose to have the willingness to be shown because it does change your mind it's incredible you can learn, I mean when I share a lot about my journey it's all about, the only reason I'm doing that is to save time and I know well just in the time I've known her she's just shared about this beautiful long journey of many many stages and I could recognize the story of her life I could recognize all the steps and I could recognize that sense of holding back and feeling of not worthy to do things and long periods of years of holding back and then, you know it's like the art and the music just came bursting forth almost like one of those those fast motion photography, you know where they take fast motion photography on the ground you see it and all of a sudden you see this thing going up like this and the leaves and the blossoms of the flower come out when you do fast motion it seems like more in the later part of your life the music you were convinced that you couldn't sing that nobody really wanted to hear you and all those things that the ego uses and then you recorded a CD and you're just traveling on the world sharing and singing and all these harmonies and overlaying the harmonies on the CD but that's been a pretty recent phenomenon and the same with the art all the spectacular paintings of art that are out on the website and so on and so forth but the steps I mean that's what I appreciate is when I hear the story I can recognize the steps you know Jesus always talks in the course about a little willingness but he does use the word great word's great willingness at one point to see that every event encounter and circumstance is helpful it takes great willingness to see that all things work together for good it doesn't take a little willingness it takes great willingness what is great willingness but what seems to be the realization of many many many many moments of willingness in a lifetime and what we're talking about a lifetime you know it's just the time between birth and death but from the reincarnation perspective which is really just a metaphor that it takes many lifetimes to develop these kind of skills and to approach forgiveness Jesus just like okay go to planet earth and get the job done and everything there was so called lifetimes that seemed to precede that an accumulative effect to reach that point of readiness for what we would call the lifetime back in Nazareth 2,000 years ago and we've talked I know all of them I've talked a lot about that because they're always saying like an appreciation of that even though in the end the experience is that it's all an instant it's like you have to work with that which you can comprehend and grasp and while time seems to be so real you have to allow the Holy Spirit to use the symbols of time to reach your mind those cliches from the Course and those reflections that sound to many people like cliches they really don't work and it's probably the biggest complaints I hear around the world oh Course and Miracle students oh god what a bunch you know these all this stuff about illusion illusion and you'll notice that if you look back at the Gospels you don't really find Jesus that the world is an illusion if you read through all of the teachings in the New Testament you don't really see an emphasis on that but the Course and Miracle students oh it's just an illusion it's an illusion cliche city meet the group of walking cliches it's all an illusion and you have to start to see that it takes enormous mind training to hold and to stay in that state that the world is an illusion that's what we call the Atonement the complete forgiveness there's nothing in the Course that Jesus says now I want you to go around and tell your brothers and sisters on planet earth it's a real important message go tell your president, your congressman your neighbors your friends, tell your mother and your father go tell mama and dad the world is an illusion there's no instructions in the book to do that to go speak those words I've found in my life that I went so deep into the Course then when I started traveling the world do you know that most people in this world are not into metaphysics at all if you travel, if you go on trains and buses and planes and cars and rest areas you go to restaurants and laundry mats and bus stations you do kind of the cross the cross world tour and you try to just pay attention to the people that you're with while you're doing it you will soon discover that if you feel like you're in metaphysics you're in the minority in this world you know do you ever turn on a political debate and see a discussion between politicians about metaphysics do you hear it in the butcher shop in the grocery store what are people talking about they're talking as if the dream world is a reality very rarely do you find people talking with the world's an illusion so that would be sometimes we use the term metaphysical ghosting ghosting over something using the cliche it's all an illusion to just go through your life and make that kind of it's like putting a band-aid putting a bunch of band-aids and little posted notes all over everything the illusion going around sticking them on everything and if you did that in life and people came up and said what are you doing and you told them they'd say you are crazy going around putting posted notes up illusion on everything that's where the mind training has to come in that's where the practicality we've been talking a lot about feelings really being honest with yourself about what you are feeling and using that as your practice that's what I did first before I tried any grand moves was I thought I am totally out of touch with my feelings I am totally in a state of denial and repression and I don't even know how thick or deep it goes but I could make an assessment it was a pretty accurate assessment at the beginning that I was totally totally out of touch with my feelings and that if I was going to make any real headway on the spiritual journey I really needed to get some access to those feelings and trust the Holy Spirit to show me how to do that so Lee was at the monastery these kind of movies on a daily basis or working on projects watching your minds meetings, groups, all kinds of encounters all designed to really get in touch with your feelings in a major way so to me that was a huge step for me and a very practical step feel the feelings wow seems like a real simple statement but it wasn't so easy at the beginning it seemed quite quite difficult surround yourself with inspirational music or inspirational movies or hang out with inspirational people those are the kind of things I did initially I decided well I didn't feel like I was in a place where I could just let my mind just soar higher and higher so I just I made back in the days cassette tapes but I would make inspirational cassette tapes with most inspirational music I could find because I felt good when I listened to it so I figured I better just waiting for the radio to once in a while play something inspirational that would take matter into my own hands and listen to inspirational music all through the day you know why not what's stopping you meeting inspirational people thinking outside the box asking questions that no one dares to ask asking those questions and having people tell you you are a fool you cannot just keep asking those kind of questions those are not practical and yet you say I think it's pretty practical I'm wanting to ask the deeper questions they won't go away so I'm going to ask them and see if that takes me deeper those are all I think practical things to do they don't necessarily require huge shifts in form it's just more practicing mentally shifting the focus mentally initially it doesn't cost any money either to start to shift your mind in a mental way and focus more on the mind watching and the mind training it takes willingness and effort but not necessarily a lot of money it was good for me because I didn't have a lot of money so I couldn't have afforded ten thousand dollars and retrain your mind maybe another lifetime when I get into that panic moment like I did yesterday I've got to quit my job and then I make up all this construct of what's going to happen how am I going to take care of it that's just me overdoing it yeah I think it can be a bit of overdoing in the sense that if you are attempting like radical moves like splitting your job and so on and so forth it would be good in the form that would come next but to have kind of an inkling of a direction about that like I know for me there was a period of time where I was really practicing with the course doing my lessons doing the mind training and basically I was thinking well I'm going to take these jobs and it's going to be the undoing of pride and it's going to be a very humbling experience when I take these jobs and I'm going to really work in paying off my loans but I really felt like I had to give it over in terms of I didn't know what jobs would be the best the kind of work that I would even do that was the thing so I think initially it's like there needs to be like a context I think more and more is I go along and the more and more people I work with with the monastery for example and with the idea of starting a center over here in Europe like Carla and Susanna are looking at now and what we're doing over in Australia is we're starting to work on just like you have trade schools to learn bricklaying or to learn a trade just like we have educational schools that are designed to learn skills I think that's really kind of where we're heading is we're working on I mean Mary Baker Eddy had a school of metaphysics in Boston that people literally came to and studied the metaphysics of course there's a great self-study book for that but we're more now working on ways where people can come together and pour their energy and their skills and abilities and their mind in very focused ways and very collaborative ways towards the undoing that's a phase that I think we're doing now I know with the monastery Lisa recently was talking to me and she said this is like a school people come here it's like a school of undoing is what seems to be developing and in one sense I think once you start to raise some of this stuff up consciously then you do see that there's a need for undoing and you do start to open yourself to pay attention to the mechanisms of the undoing bye and that can be helpful too in the sense that you're more consciously aware of the undoing process so instead of trying to do do do or to fulfill in other ways try to meet self-concept goals you start to realize you're ready for the self-concept to be dismantled then you watch a movie like the one we watched yesterday and you think wow that was relatively quick dismantling you know uh maybe it was under the context of I'm going to die soon anyway so what have I got to lose but like we were saying at the end you don't have to be diagnosed with a terminal illness to do this you know it's like just giving yourself that that sense of okay well I'm let the undoing begin and make it obvious and so on and so forth and I have just seen so many cases and experiences in my life where very unexpected things can seem to happen in a rapid succession that are part of the undoing I think that movie was a good illustration of that you know she didn't plan on hearing from the doctor that she was going to die that quickly she didn't plan on getting fired she didn't plan on having her boyfriend say I need space you know get out of my face she didn't plan on when she got into that that big loft apartment she just sat there kind of crumpled over I don't think she had any plans for that but they did happen in kind of rapid succession I think so rapid that she pretty much she lost track of time while it was happening it was happening so fast to me that's just an inspirational film and I've seen lots of them and I really I love seeing character transformation films like that that's kind of a rapid succession character transformation symptoms leaving and all this and that and a total she changed everything in her words and you know I think you just have to start to open the changes can seem pretty radical but they can also be very very very helpful I know there was I had an assistant back in like 1990's like around 1997 to like 2002 or something around those areas and basically Kathy she was so willing and things happened in my life so fast and it was almost like I was in these fast orbits that things around me happened very fast with people people I would meet and they still tell me that that they've gone through major life changes when they met me and I don't see them for three or four years and they go you won't believe where I'm at now where my life is like when I first met you then whoa it was a huge dismantling and that happened and that happened my friend Susanna in the Canary Islands she translated for me in Columbia for ten days and when she got back to the Canary Islands her whole life as she knew it capsized it went down so fast like the Titanic sinking it wasn't anything she was even consciously aware of from you for ten days and then when she got back everything crashed her relationship her career, her family everything took a dive and it's just recently that she's pulled kind of out of that deep nose dive and total dismantling to a point that now she's much more on her purpose she's the one wanting to open maybe our first center over here in Europe such a thorough dismantling of everything else now she's zooming higher and faster and faster with gaining much more confidence very rapidly and Carla I think who's off today with the quad I think she's going to join with Susanna and leave her life as an artist in New York and come over here to Spain and launch into a scores and miracles center over here now that's another example another story of a rapid turnaround I think those kind of things are happening more and more but those are just examples KJ of what I think starts to become even in the realm of the possibility of the next step it seems to be that goes easier and faster when you're with a group that are going through the same thing I think I've been watching this thing go on for this is like the end of the fifth week and we've had some major dismantling and some people's lives are really falling apart at the seams without too much resistance just cracking cracking cracking cracking then breakthroughs, breakthroughs that Francis was singing today it was like coming her life's going to like this but then like getting that email from your mother and then what we talked about in the expression session she's pulling out of the nose dog there she goes she's singing her song to her mother but that's pretty much the way that it goes it's a dismantling and when you're going through it together it just seems to accelerate and also the pulling out of it is the same thing when Francis pulls out then others seem to benefit from that whoa look at her go she was almost ready to hit the ground this pulls out that's important pulling out of the nose dog emotionally you know how that feels when you're in the nose dog you're just going down, down, down and it feels like you're going for a crash landing a hard crash landing and then when you pull out that's inspirational and I think that's a big part of it I was inspired by those that I met when I first started with the course and the Holy Spirit said I'm going to go and I'm going to take you to meet people that are working with the course in a very dedicated way on a full time basis that was an interesting trip it wasn't so much what the people said but after I started going around and meeting these people that were working with it on a full time basis and it dedicated their life to it that was very inspiring to me just that they were doing it to meet them in rapid succession one after another after another remember that first trip out I'm going across the country I met a psychiatrist that was doing the course full time with white hair in St. Louis I went on down I went down to Sedona I met Robert Perry Beverly Hutchinson her mother went out there I just went on this trip and was guided to meet people along the way some that I planned on meeting and others that just came across my path but after that first trip of meeting all these people that were doing it full time I just thought I guess I could do it too if all of them can do it I guess I can do it too see it was an inspirational trip wasn't so much the words I said but they were doing it and I was inspired by that and I was inspired by the books I read and the stories that people told me of the pioneers just like you have the pioneers of the United States or the pioneers of the founding forefathers of different countries and civilizations I found the course of miracles pioneers and they inspired me that they had the putzpa to try to change their mind so radically and turn away from the ego so I think that's another part of it so for that dismantling if I'm in an environment where a lot of shit comes up like I shouldn't be talked to this way this job is beneath me and all that that would actually be perfect that sounds like my first environment that's where I am it's like inside the worst place for comfort and then all the pain and all the fear would come from resisting, learning and letting go yeah I think too the other thing about working on oil rig is what is it you work for a couple weeks and then you have how long off four so you get your little compressed intense session for two weeks and then four weeks which is more unstructured time in that sense that's pretty valuable too instead of just being in a job that's completely structured all the time without any unstructured time it just gives you a lot of flexibility for travel for meditation for being used by the spirit so you could be out and about all over the place doing all kinds of assignments for the Holy Spirit in that unstructured time and then just facing a lot of we'll say dismantling of pride on the oil rig as you're getting in touch with your emotions that's a intense process and you can see where it helps to be with others that are going through that same process of getting in touch with their emotions but you know the Holy Spirit is very very practical so if you do have debts or you have things that are loose ends that have to be tied up it's like you know, well it has to be done and what better use of time is there than to start clearing things up just starting wherever you start you know that's what I did I had no clue how it was going to happen but I just kind of started okay, here's where I'm at and I just kind of went along day by day you know doing my mind training, doing my lessons and being content to let the miracles come into my life and then the other stuff to get handled in some way and it will get faster too you know, it's going to pick up as you go along as the dedication continues it's going to be opportunities opportunities I would go to like these things and I didn't go to anything that was six weeks long or even four weeks long but even when I would go to a workshop or a day long thing or a weekend thing it would be very inspiring I would really look forward to it and I would get rid of my batteries then I would go back with my practice in a very steady, steady, steady way but I would just get supercharged you know, where I'd have the opportunity and I'd save my money for these kind of events I mean to me that was the most impactful use of my resources they call that the biggest bang for the buck what is it? I would go to spiritual workshops or get particular books or you know, whatever that felt like would really give me a jump start get my momentum really going surging the spirit is very practical I found all the way in my life everything has been highly practical it's not kind of a wishful thinking kind of shoot for this and shoot for that it's been very practical thank God if you look at the life of Jesus in those three years only 12 times that he really used those words follow me and that was for the apostles did you think about all the encounters he had, all the people he met all the places he traveled and he only used those follow me words like 12 times it's not really a lot the message saying it really to the whole universe but practically speaking he only spoke those words as far as leave your job leave your families leave everything right now, drop it now and follow me he only used that 12 times and for those 12 that said yes, what a wild ride they had no idea what that yes meant they didn't have roller coaster rides back in those days but it was more intense than the nastiest roller coaster ride at an amusement park it was an emotional roller coaster ride and it didn't end when Jesus left it just was that was just the beginning exposing and flushing up the unconscious mystics and saints like Saint John the dark night of the soul you read some of the writings of mystics and saints it's like dark, dark, dark like they were publishing their writings for the rest of the world like, okay I've been down to the unconscious I have just one word for you dark maybe a bit more pronounceable dark if I was translating you I should do that also dark but you have to say it into the dark you have to have the microphone it's all funny because it's like it's really where you're coming from because we were looking at Lee came up with this pronunciation from how we would say it and Lee, Isabelle has not heard you say the word guilt so just say the word guilt to her guilt that's what we went we went it just doesn't have a heavy feel to it it's very light like you're smiling she can hardly even say it anymore without smiling for a year without thinking for a year without thinking there it is you hear that higher pitch you can't help but laugh but that's what it seems to be more and more that we're getting lighter and lighter with that feeling because there's such joy and lightness and laughter and that's the presence of transcendence how can you not be happy when you start to just feel that and express that more and more it just feels lighter and lighter if you're hanging around this group you'll hear lots of happy songs and it's just that's the beauty of it it's like a natural expression and it's just you start to find that happier you feel you're just really aware that you're drawing a lot of witnesses to happiness it's not like you're special or lucky or fortunate or any of those things because that doesn't make any sense at all but it's just that as you open to the happiness you see a happy world you draw happy witnesses and that's what makes it a lot easier you know you can't you end up having laughing parties and cuddle puddles and all kinds of things that are so light you know you think okay this is good stuff when I was at Canary Islands my friend Susana was just saying oh over there in Colombia she said everybody was just cracking up she said when we first got there she said we laugh a lot in Spain but oh we're not prepared for there's so much laughter and lightness and especially too I mean maybe some people would say well that's like somewhat cultural but we were with course and miracle students everywhere who were really kind of waking up so it was even more pronounced even more lightness and laughter then and maybe average so to speak you know and that was beautiful that was a great heart-opening experience for me still very grateful absolutely spectacular yes okay well if anybody's got anything else it's another great movie night I have a question yes remember when you were talking I was thinking about the people that I worked with at my last job a terminal ill deceased people young people old people and I just I tried to work with that how can I see them as a witness for like happiness or you know I tried to understand when I was at work I always follow my love and inspiration and but I wasn't really able to to do that so no I had quit my job but like if I went back there would still be there so I'd like you know I don't see it because I don't go there but you mean something else well it's like I mean I remember being guided to work at hospice and it was a really valuable experience because I was pretty deep into the mind training at that point when I went to hospice to work pretty steady there and I guess it was just my frame of mind because when I went there I seem to draw a lot of comments because people it was almost like I was like a breath of fresh air I was like a breeze blowing through the hallways but I didn't feel the heaviness to me that was not a heavy situation it was quite light and I was quite joyful there at hospice and whether I was taking trays of food to patients or talking to patients it was quite mystical too because I would be called into rooms and we would have these deep kind of metaphysical talks, short metaphysical encounters where it's like people, their souls were like asking me their deepest questions and I was, Holy Spirit was answering them and then they would often check out instead of raising the dead or healing the sick at a really high checkout rate I could go clear award out because you see it's not about resurrecting the body it's not about healing symptoms it's about the release of guilt and all my messages to these people that are in hospice that were hanging on literally trying to hang on to the world and hang on to the body I was telling them in different ways what a great job you've done mission fulfilled you're sinless you're guiltless I was seeing them for who they were and they responded many times by laying the body aside because they were just hanging on to it out of guilt feeling they were going to hurt loved ones and leave loved ones behind in difficult situations and so on and so forth and I was like that's nonsense there's nothing to do with anything and so I was doing a lot of communication with them with my mind and it was all about innocence it was about pure divine innocence and that's why the checkout rate was so high and I think that's important to remember it's like when you've been trained as a medical doctor the background the training has been to save lives the training has been to heal the sick and the sick being sick bodies and once you start to realize that really healing is all about innocence and it's about giving the mind permission and allowance to release and relax and let go and once you see that that's all that it's about and it's not about trying to preserving life in the body because there never was life in the body there is no life in the body to save and you can see how medical professions got everything backwards and twisted upside down but in that sense I wasn't handicapped because I didn't have anything of the medical profession in my mind anymore I had gone through myself, gone to doctors and dentists and things over the years but then my mind had been freed of that you know and in kind of a pretty radical way I was pretty freed of it so I wasn't handicapped by any false ideas and it's very much like I've heard people say if they've been pretty steeped in Christianity or Catholicism or whatever a lot of times they have great difficulty with the course because they have so many past connotations of what the words mean and Jesus is taking with the course the meanings into a much higher realm they have much more difficulty letting go and they will tell me I wish I wasn't so steeped in this religion because it's blocking my growth with the course I'm reacting and responding to these old words and what they mean what I thought they meant and Jesus is using them in an entirely different context pointing in a whole different direction towards skilllessness towards pure innocence and not towards any sense of wrongdoing or shame or punishment or whatever so in that sense you know all that was learned about the medical model or all that was learned about Christianity you know can be a tremendous block to the awakening the more you have learned in this world the more handicapped you are and the less you have learned in this world the closer you are to awakening I mean I work with Jesus and Yelikas is like yay! living smile on her face yay yay for the Yelikas and the Isabel Cristinas and the world yay for the ones that aren't steep too much because they're like the witnesses of what's possible get ready for the young generation the crystal children the ones that are showing up now that are so bright and happy they're witnesses to your own mind to what's possible so that's really beautiful and then we always had great reminders from the movies of the ones that are so simple and so bright when I work with the handicapped and the mentally retarded it was such a great job because when I was working with young people maybe 18, 19, 20, 21 when they were diagnosed with mental retardation what a happy bunch we were I mean we really were happy and it showed me how everything in this world is upside down and backwards to the world it was like all these poor people they will never have a full functioning life and they were so happy they were almost like their souls were going you fools you fools that diagnose us and think that we're the problem we are deprived of intellectual skills and capabilities what good do all your intellectual learnings do for you when you have stress and doubt and go plodding along every day living by the clock and punching a time clock and driving your Mercedes and your Rolls Royces and whatever what good has this affluence done when it brings you no joy and no peace of mind if their souls could speak and articulate that's what they would say but they didn't have to speak it you could see it in their eyes you could see it in their faces they were simple much much more simple much closer to the truth I feel such gratitude working with those types of clients so to speak it was just a beautiful blessing to my mind David I don't know the answer you gave it doesn't help me it doesn't say anything because it was it wasn't about saving lives anymore it was about these things you talk about now just to talk to work with the people and to help them to come to be at peace to take away the guilt very very open communication looking at all these sides you can feel intuitively if there was something in the family that needs to be spoken about we open up for that all the time like we do here anyway every day every day and there was a lot of joy a lot of humor, a lot of laughter a lot of fun, a lot of creativity and but the witnesses doesn't go away you know that's what I'm asking for why what do you really mean what is the witness that I shall see there the people dying in front of me what is it that my mind shall see I see the innocence yes and I see the people who are at peace when they die but what is it that I'm to see that's what I'm asking you yeah I think that was maybe a phase in your life and it feels like like now you're just like Noelle went through more phases with art and music and everything it's like the happiest I see you is when the creative spirit is just flowing through you like a child without any kind of a sense of what you're talking about or to the extent that you could feel a connection there you could feel the joy you could feel the helpfulness that was all good it's like listening to some of Noelle's stages in her life or some of mine but I think now you're called into higher and higher realms it's like Jesus saying why would you use the wings of a sparrow and you could use the mighty wings of an eagle to soar you could start to look and say all that was helpful and maybe you couldn't see past the death or the sickness to some extent but it's like that was just part of the training that was just a stage that was just a phase and when you get into playing your flute or your trumpet, your clarinet when you get into dancing when you make your paintings with these bright brilliant colors so expressive now and everything like this that's another use that doesn't have a lot of connection to the life that you lived as a doctor as a gynecologist or in those kind of settings you're describing and everything it's just taking you up it's like instead of going through lifetimes you can think of that as like a past life and now you're in another life and there are many many possibilities in this new life and you're just excited like a little girl with curiosity and anticipation to see how those will unfold and it's beautiful too I mean I didn't imagine any of this for myself I had no imagination of like this as a life you know I was inspired by music and I just couldn't I couldn't have fathomed anything the way my life is gone I mean it just seemed to go on and on and on to more and more realms that were way beyond anything that I could have ever imagined just like huge vistas opening up and then you go oh my god and then another one another huge vista then another huge vista like how many huge vistas can you have in a lifetime it just kept coming and coming and coming and you know I think it's still happening for me I think it's like recently just getting paired up with Noelle and she's very very expressive in many many many ways today I find out something else that's expressive I didn't know she could pick up a golf ball with her toes I mean wow she has very dexterous toes but they're I can pick up a quarter with my toes pick up a quarter even you find these little expressive skills and abilities and there's so many opportunities when you travel a lot traveling singing talking about wonderful metaphors and examples drawing from the pool of whatever's there that Noelle has lots and lots and lots of experiences it's a deep pool and we both have access to this deep pool so it's just another vista of interesting possibilities to go into no idea what clue what kind of songs or humor or expression or whatever will come through but that's the way you approach life you approach life just opening up the parameters and saying it's your life to use God, Holy Spirit use it for the highest good and when you make that your prayer it's quite amazing it's quite powerful what the potentialities that are all there that are just that are not in awareness they suddenly start to come in skills, abilities being used in ways that you never foresaw before like for me I mean I enjoyed watching movies but not giving these kind of interpretations to movies and these weren't the kind of movies I was watching you know 20 years ago it's just opened and opened and people keep passing them along so to me that's what makes it the adventure of it it's certainly not boring I'm just open to the adventure and the collaborations I have a feeling there will be more collaborations right before I flew to Europe this time I filmed two movies two movies before I came here both of them were in the same place actually they were both in a studio in Louisiana and Noel was there for I guess for both of them it was kind of funny for her to watch because I was asked all these rapid-fire questions and I had to give shorts succinct answers to the questions and so that was kind of a fun one but and I have a feeling you know it's just going to continue with things like media, these different expressions means of expression the Holy Spirit will just continue to use those you know in just ways that we can't imagine at this point they talk about teleportation well that could be an interesting thing instead of having something to fly see Noel's really open to that I'm ready molecular transfer there it is beam us up, beam us here, beam us there you know in fact I guess Jackie went to the bed but she was telling us about a friend of hers who's bi-locating now so these kind of things that people say oh well that's Star Trek and blah blah blah a lot of things in Star Trek maybe we're supposed to be way way off in the future I don't know it seems like they're much more in the realm of of the possibility of the possible possibilities imagine just if one little thing clicked like teleportation how different the world would be all those buses and trains and boats and you know playing all these things you know all this time and there's no emotion to to being different places I mean some of you have heard of our mystical mind-training program and it's called it's an educational program called Moodle it's a platform but I don't know how many of you have heard of Sleutel even Noel who's not into technology got all excited when I talked about Sleutel and people think I'm pulling their legs when I start talking about Sleutel is a three-dimensional educational program so we have great movie clips and music and meditations and things on the internet that people can access with the click of a button but Sleutel is virtual reality added to the content that we're putting up there so for example you could go into Sleutel and take on an avatar body and go flying off to the musician's pavilion or something and join with people who are in other locations in the world as you join electronically virtually on the web for this kind of content so instead of feeling like you're just going through this alone you can get your avatar body and go off exploring in the virtual world for metaphysical encounters when I was telling Noel she was like where do I have to go do I have to have special gear do I have to put on headgear not that much but we've had Thomas and Sarah have already been off to their avatar bodies before the Sleutel was not the thing of the future it's actually here we just have to catch up to what's available now technologically speaking that Sleutel will be like mystical mind training in another dimension just adding on another dimension in terms of the interactions and so hold on to your hats it's going to get interesting as you go forward but there's lots and lots of possibilities when the spirit uses these things the spirit's use of technology will continue at an exponential rate you know already they're calling me a tech mystic because I'm into the tech but why not I'm having fun with it all quantum tech mystic I'm not bi-locating or trilocating but I'm multi-locating because people write to me and they tell me I show up in their dreams all over the world sometimes they'll say were you aware of what you told me last night which day was that what country were you in we'll have to do a log of David's that show up in different countries I remember in about that day that one day silent retreat remember I told you I had a dream about it and I did I don't remember exactly I think I remember something like in the dream you said Melissa just come I'll save you I did you saved me you came I came and my life changed within like two weeks I was coming to Spain and my life's changed so much since then I'm just so amazed because it did I was so willing to leave the pain of the life that I was leading and I didn't care what it took and you took the steps too we had our chats on our cell phones your Kentucky cell phone to start off with because you had moved from right where I was you're like what I moved out of here and you were just there but it's like talking on the phone to go through things it just takes a willingness to have that contact and that's what I thought when I started traveling around and meeting people and I remember that line from the course where Jesus says the willingness to communicate attracts communication and I didn't fully understand what that meant but now more and more I see I've just been so willing to share my heart to communicate and then the communication gets reflected back in wonderful loving ways like that so it's a very intimate connection and it really is life saving when you think about it because these deep dark emotions and these old patterns sometimes you gotta break the spell it's like a spell for one of these fairy tales like having a wicked queen cast a spell on you or something and you gotta find a way to break the spell and then you find it does work we're on our way and it just becomes easier and I just come and I'm so clean I think that's why I try not to worry as much as I used to worry because and I've learned it with this course that when I resist it makes it harder but when I just let it go it works perfectly more perfectly than I can ever imagine so thank you yeah you're welcome yeah you start to sing happy songs to the spirit I will follow you follow you wherever you go there isn't a mountain too steep just go go go go go follow follow climb climb higher and higher and higher no mountain high enough just you start to just go for it you know we all have a it's really a lifelong relationship and the welcome never ends and that's the beautiful thing of this we will just keep seeming to come together and come together and inspiring each other it is inspirational when we gather and we come together with this high purpose and music's coming through new movies will come through Moodle will come through Sludle will come through who knows there'll be something else beyond Sludle virtual hugs virtual snuggle puddles you know it's like who knows you know it's getting less and less dependent on time and space already it's getting less and less dependent on time and space we make those decisions now I'm just stretching yes yes yeah no question okay well Bo's got the light switch and he's ready to go he's ready I can tell we've reached the end of the session tonight but thank you all for coming and tomorrow morning I believe if it's a pretty sunny day I believe there they come home and just the quad is arrived the quad is just I didn't walk through but there's a quad yeah tell us a report before we turn the lights off what's the report from the quad today actually it was very interesting tell us we went to the airport to get a car to get the car changed we went to get a bag for cursing because hers broke and it was like being in the city was actually whoa this is a cocoon or palm on when I go away you can't then we started heading back and then we're just kind of feeling guidance to just have like a coffee somewhere and a nice couch because we've been so busy in the city and then as soon as we said okay couch overlooking somewhere nice and quiet Hilton sign just appeared right in front of us we think Hilton would be an obvious place to find things hey welcome the quad there wasn't like that at all we had to like the signs would disappear and we'd have to be like okay right left and we sort of kind of gave up at times or if we didn't know we'd end up in this little town not even knowing where we were we were just kind of going back getting on track and then we finally found this this big light way off in the middle of nowhere this castle Hilton castle or something but we saw it was her finca it was like we could have given up so many times but the finca Hilton kept coming in and then we finally got to it and you think the Hilton hotel had this grand entrance but our tiny car you enter through the narrow gate and you end up at your finca so we ended up in there and then we were just greeted with this like nobody else was in the whole place and it was just this beautiful hotel staff like hey do you want to have the bar or do you want to have a restaurant what do you want we're happy to see somebody in there so we got our comfy coaches and a quiet place just kind of took it step by step but having good conversations about a quiet dinner at messengers about messengers anything else just sit down away from the next did you say you want to call them up just the message just the message busy busy and didn't really feel good but it was much nicer going out in the country coming back to the cocoons welcome back to the room spaces, villas quiet music, meditation this afternoon we watched ghost town laughter lots of bubbling laughter especially the back row back there they tell you the back row is raucous as usual David as far as this it's not really a hike it's really technically just a walk or maybe they're thinking oh hike it's very very gentle slope of this little hill laughter little mountain it's a big hill laughter it's like that we're not going to the top there's just a sweet little area where you can sit amongst the olive trees and have a sweet little view the original thought was that we'd bring a picnic lunch up there with blankets and meditate and sing and share and whatever just spend some time out in nature I don't know what the weather is going to be like tomorrow so as far as the timing that was what we originally discussed I think and Isabelle your flight is at 12 so she probably has to be there about an hour for the 11 so yeah that's a factor if it's early enough she'd like to go on the walk or hikes whatever it is the breakfast hike breakfast hike she's hoping for a breakfast hike laughter do you have any fuel what time you would begin to walk up the hill slash mountain for the hike slash walk these are the two facilitators so it depends if you go with Jenny it will be a steeper climb and if you go with the perception with Noelle it will be much easier I haven't been there I would walk with Noelle laughter we're doing it in time for you to be able to go and if you wanted to have some hang out there let me go on the walk which I don't know about the last while not the light just that way