 My name is Isabella, I'm from Vancouver, Washington. And who is this gentleman? This is my amazing husband, Roman. Awesome, thank you guys for coming. Now, what was the thing that you struggled with in your life? Can you please share? Yes, so it kind of started when, so I went to visit my family last year and kind of started getting like self-doubts, negative thoughts, how like I'm not good enough, how like I'm a nobody. And I don't know why, like I disregarded seeing the stuff that I'm good at, I just started believing the stuff that I'm bad at. And I started slowly by that, and then slowly like worse thoughts came, how like maybe there's no God or like even like suicidal thoughts and it came to a point like life just got so hard, I had to quit my job, I couldn't focus at all, like even doing laundry just seemed like a big mountain to climb over because the thoughts just kept bombarding me. And at times it was like the worst where I even like attempted suicide and my husband thankfully was right by me and like saved me. So those kind of like intrusive thoughts you accepted them and they turned into the severe depression that you were struggling, right? How long, what's the period of time when you were struggling with that? Until I fully got free, it was about seven months when I was like just laying in bed and like I would watch a lot of sermons and still like the devil's like there's no God, you're like hopeless. And I also became very like isolated. I'm like everybody hates me, like I just want to like even hide in my own house. It was really bad. But thanks to God. Yeah, here I am. So before we go, so could you please share how did it affect your daily life and your relationship with your husband and when were you in search of solution for that? How it affected our marriage, we kind of had no marriage like, I don't know life was just, it was just going in circles the same thing every day. Like I'd wake up, I'd hope like, okay, new day I'm going to start fresh and it was just the same. Like from the time I would wake up to the nighttime like just bad thoughts and people couldn't really understand like some people like just be happy, you know, you have a good husband, you have a good job, you have a good house and they don't understand like it was much more deeper than that. And my mistake was that I was not experienced in this and I started like accepting these thoughts and if I, like my dad said, you can't stop a bird from flying above your head but you can stop from it laying a nest and like I didn't realize how these thoughts they can start out being really small and eventually like they can just overtake your life. And share a little bit, how did that affect your job that you know you even had to quit your job because of that? Yeah, basically I even started asking our clients to pray for me you know it was getting kind of out of hand I couldn't focus like my, since I had so many thoughts like I kind of kept slurring my words like things kind of didn't start making sense I just didn't know what to do and I reached out, at first I didn't want to tell anybody about my husband, I'm like this is so embarrassing and then people kind of started noticing like I wasn't happy and just stuff and then I reached out to my family and I would even have to come over like my husband worked part time he had to always be by me like if he wasn't I would have to go to my mom in laws because I didn't feel safe by myself and then I reached out to my relatives and like my aunt like it's just like let's go to, I went to a few conferences I even came to hear for the deliverance prayer and like I was afraid to go up on stage and like people are gonna like hate me or just think I'm weird and she like grabbed my wrist she's like let's go like you know this isn't something to be afraid of like the devil just wants to keep you say like isolated and yeah and so how long ago was it when you came here for the prayer we have these monthly prayer lines we pray for deliverance and for those who don't know and she was one of them that she came and she was so afraid like she said when she was talking to me on the back over there she thought I was hating her like those intrusive thoughts and she was so fearful to be prayed for but thank God for her husband and her aunt that actually you know kind of came alongside and kind of pushed her to be in the prayer line and what was your experience in the prayer line and how did you receive your freedom yeah so I came up here to pray and my freedom I didn't like snap you know right away it was like a slow big process so first I started making myself socialized with people and I started really searching for God because the devil like I even told my husband I'm like is there a God like why would God allow this to happen from you know to me and I started really searching and praying like fasting my husband would encourage me and even my aunt like all the stuff that I would say about myself I'm like hate myself I'm a nobody she like tick those words wrote them down and then she's like we're gonna reject these right now and break them and then she made me start saying even just simple stuff like I'm thankful I have arms just kind of stuff to like get me back on my feet and it's been about yeah seven months since the whole process and when I kind of like just well I basically had a thought to go to a naturopath because back in the day I went to my doctor and he's like you're depressed you're some antidepressants we're not going to take your blood like you just wanted kind of to put me on pills and I went to her and I had low vitamin D and I believe when you're physically weak that's when the devil starts attacking you spiritually so it's like tied in and I was like I said I became suicidal I'm like I can't live like this what is this life and my husband like did not give up on me he was by my side we prayed and slowly like now I'm free everything's life is beautiful like it was from like black and white to like life in color I just love people so much want to help everyone and Jesus is amazing come on guys put your hands together for God well this is so amazing we're just so happy for you to see this black and white difference of what God can do in person's life you know to deliver a person from depression intrusive thoughts and suicidal tendencies we're just so happy for you thanks for sharing so now we want to hear a little bit from your husband Roman come over here come on guys if you clap let's clap so Roman how did this issue affected you personally and your marriage and how were you able to kind of go through this with her can you please share a little bit like she said very difficult because I actually didn't know what each day would bring when it got really bad to where I couldn't leave her by herself she would just like I would leave to work she's like okay I'll do some stuff and then she texts me like oh my gosh I can't do this all these thoughts I need to go somewhere I'm like okay go to my mom's house so it was very difficult so we started searching for like where is this attack coming from because I know that like if you leave a door open somewhere for the devil then he has the right to attack you and so yeah it gave me kind of more kind of confidence in like searching and getting closer to God and kind of searching what were in our lives did something that we didn't do right and so it this kind of whole process happened that I see now looking back that I never prayed for things like that involved something like this where I could see my wife is struggling I could see like the devil's attacking her and she's saying like I need to die I'm like no that's not you that's the devil and I started looking online and people sending me stuff and her aunt sent me stuff and as well as coming to here here and so to me like a lot of this stuff I was not aware of even growing up as a Christian in a family that there's a big spiritual world out there and that it's real and and so it gave me more confidence I prayed for her and like I kind of took up that boldness to like rebuke these demons and so yeah grew me spiritual a lot and and now I can kind of see other situations and I'm like I see that that's the devil like those are not those people God created people in his image and the devil just turned it around and and tainted these people and and so yeah throughout this journey it really spiritually grew me and my wife and we get closer to God and we are a lot stronger than we were before guys thank God come over here again would you please share what advice to people who might be struggling with depression or suicidal tendencies or intrusive thoughts and just battling this spiritual darkness what would you suggest to them well first when you start getting negative thoughts don't let them go further just talk to somebody as soon as possible because it can overtake your life also don't isolate yourself that just causes more like depression even though you are here but it's not the enemy just wants you to be by yourself and then third like don't limit God some people are like oh I feel like God won't do this but God created everything in the world he's powerful and just keep praying keep seeking God and God will eventually come through thank you guys so much for sharing thank you for watching this content I know this was a blessing to you we would like to ask you to subscribe to our channel and click on the bell on our channel so that each time we upload something you can be notified don't forget to share this content with your friends and family and on social media we're so thankful to you better is not good enough the best is yet to come