 Well, I think years ago what I started to do, you know, just like in 12 steps where they have you do an inventory and things I think that those are all really helpful steps. What for me it was I started to just honestly look at my actions and my motivations and my things I was valuing in this world, and I saw that it was just all of the things that I was working so hard at were all based on fear of consequences. You know, like if somebody just kind of came and waved a magic wand and said, you know, if you didn't have to do any of that, if you could just be joyful and peaceful and blissful, and there was no consequences to kind of anything, then what is it that would really light your heart up? You know, sometimes even in career counseling they use that approach. What color is your parachute? You know, they what what really is is where your heart is, you know what what would you really give yourself over to if you could do anything and so when I started to realize that most of my life was based on fear of consequences. I Just had this moment where I thought this is no way to live at all. This is this isn't living This is fear. I'm just acting and reacting out of fear and and then you know then when the world bombards you with all these thoughts of you know better do this watch out for that be careful of this You're not safe. I mean if you if you looked at the thought behind a lot of advertising is You're not safe. The world's not a safe place. It's gonna get you. It's gonna get you be careful watch out Be careful. I just thought this isn't worth it. You know, I It's not worth another day. It's not even worth another moment to live that way So then you start to turn inside to that core Motivation like okay, just suppose I could live my life out of out of love What if I could live my life out of out of trusting? instead of fearing and and Not take another step. In other words, it's if fear comes in as the motivator To go whoa, whoa, whoa here. Wait a minute. I'm not just going to do a knee-jerk reaction and go out and spend some money or buy something or take action to try to To hold off that fear or try to dissipate that fear, but what how can I live from from inspiration? And that's why I was saying at the beginning that the course of miracles is really calling us to be miracle workers, you know That's just something most of us didn't consider at most of our parents were not saying okay little Jimmy when you grow up You're gonna be a miracle worker, you know You know how many of us were encouraged to be miracle workers? No, we end up having to at some point in our life go That feels good. I don't know fully what that is But I'm willing to move in the direction of that because it has a resonance It there's something to really share and extend So, you know to me, that's the thing. It's there's no kind of formula to it but there there definitely was a sense of I Wanted to give I wanted to share I wanted to extend when I started having these mystical Experiences they were so vast and expansive just like like like my whole consciousness was just Expanding in ways and I was seeing new vistas and visions and things and then I thought well What would be the most joyful thing but to extend that and In very much of an involuntary basis like, you know showing up to have heart-to-heart Talks and gatherings and not having them preplanned not knowing who was gonna show up what would be presented whatever just going out there and just winging it and Letting the joy kind of spill out through me and I thought this is great Then people would say well, yeah, it may be great and you haven't a lot of fun on it But you can't make a living at it and it's like I don't know. Why would I? Assume that you know, why wouldn't I assume that that if it's my greatest joy to shine and share that Everything I would seem to need to do that would be provided, you know, I could go with that thought that seems a lot more loving and Positive, yeah, okay. Let's test it out. Let's give it a test and then when I tested it You know in the early years like back in the 1980s, you know, I was going out No apartment, no condo, no house, not paying rent Just winging it. It's almost like, yeah, well Jesus did it 2,000 years ago It should be just as equally applicable today as it was 2,000 years ago And it was always so much more fun than then even having a career and staying in hotels and You know having Ironed sheets and all kinds of things, you know to be in people's homes and and Get to share with them like family like everyone's family It was like much more fun than the hotel, you know circuit and everything and I thought oh, this is much more fun And so it became fun It became gleeful joyful and then everything that I seemed to need was Provided almost like it was a skit and the spirits like okay, you're gonna need some props for your skit So I'll give you some props, but don't ever be concerned or invested in the props Because that's not really what the plays about, you know, the props are not the storyline The props are not the message the props are used to convey the message But the props don't have any meaning in and of themselves. I found that very much enjoyable, too I was sharing like with the sky skylight go of her Her dogs and then now she's on the road and here's dogs dogs dogs She's David David those dogs who comes here those dogs, you know And that you can do that with anything even if you had children you hit the road children children children You know, what did Khalil Gibran say your children are not your children They are the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself Whoo, that's kind of cool But you know, it's like you can still have the joy of the dogs of the children of things And yet you have the essence that's underneath it and you don't have the weight and the worry and the concern of The possession as soon as we feel like we can possess it Then the question arises. Do you have the possessions or do the possessions have you? You know, that's the real question. You know, oh, it's like it becomes a way of life It starts off as a practice, but then it becomes a way of life. It becomes as natural as breathing You know where it first it seems to be like a conscious effort You know, just like that somebody's freeing themselves from an addiction It seems like they have to put a little bit of effort to free themselves from that addiction Until they're free and then they're like, oh, yeah, this is great. This is the way life should be It's like if you if like you were you were swimming or something, you know Initially, you know, you it takes some time to develop the strokes and takes energy and effort But then after a while, you know It just needs to be a rhythm and a flow and you just it starts to feel much more easy and natural and The toughest part is is when we're turning away from an old belief system That really has never served us, you know, it's it seems like the ego goes kicking and screaming a bit Like what are you doing? I I made you I own you I am your master. You are the slave and you're like, no, I don't don't think so Not gonna feed you anymore Not gonna give you my mind's energy, you know, and then it just gets easier and easier and easier I like that part where Jesus says miracles are involuntary and they should not be under conscious control It's when we start to try to direct and control Anything really that we we get out of our natural nature of just pure beingness and we start to try to You know force something or make something fit. That's where the difficulty comes in