 What I have wanted for my life is never going to be. And I don't say that to be a downer, a bummer, really a negative person. I say it because it's accurate. As a person who lives in a body that is in chronic pain with chronic illness and a leg that is missing that continues to have issues, the reason I say that out loud and I'm trying to look at dead in the eyes is because A, I think it's important to grieve it if you are someone in a similar position, but B, by actually acknowledging that, it allows us to reframe what a happy life looks like, what success or achievement, peace, happiness, whatever it is looks like for you. If I allow myself to get stuck picturing and working for this life that is never gonna happen for me because of the body that I live in, I'm just bashing my head up against a wall over and over and over again causing more suffering than is necessary. So while I grieve the fact that I'm never gonna have a fully functional body, that I am gonna live in pain, that that is really, really hard to make peace with, I'm also working on reframing what my version of dream life looks like that is actually achievable.