 Hello. I decided to come outside for a while because I've been in front of my screen way too many hours and I'm feeling a bit like my eyes are hurting a lot. So I'm gonna read a comment I received and it says, is it just me or our most INTPs quite good looking but they chose, they choose not to acknowledge it especially towards others. In fact, they do quite the opposite. So I wanted to talk about this because I guess I didn't put words into this topic until now. I have always been very protective with my, with my existence I guess since high school I have been wearing a lot of clothes like hoodies, big pants and everything big because I really feel comfortable in big clothes. But also it's not just about a physical comfort but also I don't feel like exposing myself. I don't know. It's just a personal thing but at the same time I think I have a style you know like I don't do it because I want to look ugly or anything like that. I literally think I look good by wearing those things. So I don't know if it's a matter of not acknowledging something. I got lost. I forgot what I was talking about. But yeah, for example right now I am in my pyjamas, Star Wars pyjamas and this is my hairstyles, all my hair doesn't get old tangled and maybe it's weird to make vlogs like this with no makeup like nothing at all. And yeah I guess people want to look good on YouTube like you're showing your face to them to the world. You definitely want to look good and the best you can I guess that's what is expected from everyone in general. Like look as good as you can look and I guess I need to balance things because I make music videos where I actually do my makeup and hair and I dress up and all that and it's a lot of work. And if I did that for every single video I would be overwhelmed and I wouldn't have the energy to do it. And also I don't find it necessary. I think it's very important. I mean I didn't think about this until now that I'm saying it. I didn't do it because I thought it was important to show myself the way I am. I just did it naturally. But now that I think about it I guess it's very important that I keep doing it because we're full of fake standards of beauty around social media and I don't want to be another person that shows herself as a perfect person because she doesn't have acne or she's she has this gorgeous hair and all that that like I don't know look I am showing my acne right now my nails by the way like also um I have a lot of acne and I have been with acne for a very long time and I also have another issue in my skin rosacea in in Spanish I don't know if in English it's the same. So I have to make a treatment every day changing the topic here focus um so yeah I I guess I struggled with an image image for such a long time because of my acne what is this oh my back um I struggled with my image for such a long time that I guess I got over it I don't know I I just hear a pimple is growing so yeah I want to show myself to the world you know I don't feel like lying anymore I don't feel like it's not lying dressing up and wear makeup it's not a lie it's just what you want to do and I sometimes want to wear makeup so badly and I want to dress up so badly I just want to look the way I feel I'm getting a bit loud right I'm like getting angry or something with with someone I'm sorry oh look these are babies yeah those plans are for Madagascar they are in dangerous species um so yeah I was trying to say that we should feel comfortable with ourselves but also feel comfortable by changing ourselves with anything we want we just have to look the way we feel and the way we want to and if it looks like I am trying to not acknowledge the fact that I am good-looking because I know I am don't tell me otherwise um it's because I am lazy it's because I don't see it necessary and if I want to do something with my vlogs is show the actual process and the reality and how I do things and not acting in the vlog because that would drain me so much so yeah that's what I wanted to share just an insight take the pieces you need my plans are pretty they should be changed they don't have enough space anymore to grow