 So yeah, erm, this time a month ago, me and Beth was planning to meet the next day. We're doing it again! Happy first of the month! I'm getting drunk. I just went down to see my pin number, it hasn't, but I got photos instead, so let's open the photos. I don't know about my photos from a website called FreePrint, if you don't know who they are there's a link in the description, it's not Spawn. At all. I wish I was Spawn. Please Spawn me. Spawn me, I'm back to making videos now! Right, so, you can also get free photo tiles. Right, I've got 80, I've got 14 in this pair. And what I did is I got some stuff that makes me happy printed. Some stuff from while I was in hospital that I'm going to part my pin board. So there's a photo of me, because I'm fabulous, and I got a printout of a message that someone sent me while I was in hospital. Photo of my book being read and I got a photo of me when I was on holiday. Er, Brighton. Brighton's happy place. I like Brighton. Brighton Sunset. And now we get onto the fun ones of me and Beth. Me, Beth and Jordan. Then I got some more YouTube ones done, like comments on my Instagram that have made me happy. Er, I got a few of the 5x5 ones. I got my flower and I got me and Kate. I'm going to plug in my microphone so you get me at 5am on my laptop. Basically this video is about reintegrating into the community. I've also seen Beth again, because Beth is like Beth. Beth is amazing. I'm looking a lot of pieces. Er, I think that the main purpose of this vlog was to show that I'm trying to get back out there in the community after a month of being in psychiatric care. That was kind of the whole pre-my idea behind the vlog. Er, it was kind of well undone as well. Like, you know, yeah. Did I not hear before going out or... Yes. I have bleach and dye and I hope I've brought them back out. Oh, I've got some dyes on. I can't straight anymore. Oh, I can't. Fucking loser. Gantrip. Do you see it? Nope. Oh, right, yeah. Of course it is. Are you calling me dumb? Like, honestly, like, dumb people are like, they're needed, you know. If everyone was smart, then they'd be fucking, like, born as fuck, you know. I'm a cool ass mother. That's not as opinion. Shut the fuck up, babe. I'm concerned for her well, but... She managed to do something for once. I can't believe it. You didn't even ask her paypal yesterday. Oh, yeah. So, yes, yeah. I was like in the club and I was like, I had to call Lydia to teach her how to use PayPal. For having scoos, yo daddy! Oh, I'm serious. I was walking up and I thought, oh, I love that. Like, wait, we just got judged for our scars. Yeah, we did. Also, I love my bruise. I've got the same on my fucking ass. What do I say? Fuck those people who judge for having scars. Like, it's not a bad business. It's now Sunday. I'm alone in the hotel room because Beth kind of got another key taken off her and is at her house with a friend. That story is a complicated one and I wouldn't need Beth here to tell that and she's clearly not. So I will be doing that when Beth's on the phone at some point. This morning I've got until, like, half-eleven to leave here. So then I thought I'm going to walk to, like, Starbucks or Costa and sit there and just sit there editing for a bit because I've got nothing else to do in Raxham. I'm going to film some videos this morning and one of them videos is about my morning medication. I just went to my medication all about the medications. The medication changed. I used to go when I was inpatient. And, like, all my videos at the moment are kind of about, like, the inpatient stuff. Like, this vlog for me was getting back in the community and learning to kind of be around people again because I think that it's like a month of having no real, like, outside connection to people. It's quite hard to just reintegrate into beliefs as I have been. And that's the message I wanted to put in this vlog and I'm going to put it as a voiceover. Going out drinking is an okay thing. Just some medications I couldn't take at night. Like, I couldn't take the L'Orasse de France. I couldn't take the Zoppy Claw. I could have even done it, so I did. And I'm fine. Like, it was a good night. It was worth it. I washed my hair because we did them chalk colours and my hair was really bright and colourful, but I don't want to walk around with bright clothes. I like it like this, but it's faded and it's blonde on top. I'm going to dye my roots when I get paid for money back. I wasn't going to dye it properly this weekend, but yesterday I just... Hacking up to leave the hotel. Penguin bars are so addictive. I've got no idea how addictive penguin bars are. About another half an hour, I'm going to head off early and go to Costa and just sit in there because... Why not? So instead, I'm just going to get a thumbnail. I'm ready to leave and go. No, it's alright. I'm ready to go back to London. Please, let me go back. Like, I'm not going to say it's all easy getting back used to be able to myself for being able to get out the hospital since last Wednesday. So, I thought that I was able, and if you guys are just coming to the hospital, push yourself. Every little thing you do is an achievement. Hi, I'm home and cold and it's raining outside. So for my life, I'll catch you guys in the next vlog. I'm going to end this here. Peace out.