 Chapter 1 Part 7 of the story of an African farm by Olive Shreiner. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain, read by Sally McConnell in Betty's Bay, South Africa, in March 2010. He sets his trap. May I come in? I hope I do not disturb you, my dear friend, said Burnapart late one evening, putting his nose in at the cabin door where the German and his son set finishing their supper. It was now two months since he'd been installed as schoolmaster in Tant Sunny's household, and he had grown mighty and more mighty day by day. He visited the cabin no more, sat close to Tant Sunny drinking coffee all the evening, and walked about loftily with his hands under the coattails of the German's black cloth, and failed to see even a nigger who wished him a deferential good-morning. It was therefore with no small surprise that the German perceived Burnapart's red nose at his door. Walk in, walk in, he said joyfully. Boy, boy, see if there's coffee left. Well, none. Make a fire. We have done supper, but my dear friend, said Burnapart, taking off his hat. I came not to sup, not for mere creature comforts, but for an hour of brotherly intercourse with a kindred spirit. The press of business and the weight of thought, but they alone, may sometimes prevent me from sharing the secrets of my bosom with him for whom I have so great a sympathy. You perhaps wonder when I shall return the two parns. Oh, no, no, make a fire, make a fire, boy. We will have a pot of hot coffee presently," said the German, rubbing his hands and looking about, not knowing how best to show his pleasure at the unexpected visit. For three weeks the Germans diffident, good evening, had met with a stately bar. The chin had Burnapart lifting itself higher daily, and his shadow had not darkened the cabin doorway since he came to borrow the two parns. The German walked to the head of the bed and took down a blue bag that hung there. Blue bags were a speciality of the Germans. He kept above fifty stowed away in different corners of his room, some filled with curious stones, some with seeds that had been in his possession fifteen years, some with rusty nails and bits of old harness, in all a wonderful assortment, but highly prized. We have something here not so bad," said the German, smiling knowingly, as he dived his hand into the bag and took out a handful of almonds and raisins. I buy these for my chickens. They increase in size, but they still think the old man must have something nice for them. And the old man, well, a big boy may have a sweet tooth sometimes. May he not? Ha-ha! said the German, chuckling at his own joke, as he heaped the plate with almonds. Here is a stone, two stones to crack them. No late patent improvement, well, Adam's nutcracker, ha-ha, but I think we shall do. We will not leave them uncracked. We will consume a few without fashionable improvements. Here the German sat down on one side of the table, burnt apart on the other, each one with a couple of flat stones before him and the plate between them. Do not be afraid, said the German, do not be afraid. I do not forget the boy at the fire. I crack for him. The bag is full. Why? This is strange, he said suddenly, cracking open a large nut. Me, kernels! I have not observed that before. This must be retained. This is valuable. He wrapped the nut gravely in paper and put it carefully in his waistcoat pocket. Valuable. Very valuable, he said, shaking his head. Ah, my friend, said Burnaparte, what joy it is to be once more in your society. The German's eye glistened, and Burnaparte seized his hand and squeezed it warmly. They then proceeded to crack and eat. After a while Burnaparte said, stuffing a handful of raisins into his mouth, I was so deeply grieved, my dear friend, that you and Tantzani had some slight unpleasantness this evening. Oh, no, no, said the German. It's all right now. A few sheep missing, but I make it good myself. I give my twelve sheep, and work in the other eight. It is rather hard that you should have to make good the lost sheep, said Burnaparte. It's no fault of yours. Well, said the German, this is the case. Last evening I count the sheep at the crawl, twenty are missing. I ask the herd, he tells me they are with the other flock. He tells me so distinctly. How can I think he lies? This afternoon I count the other flock. Sheep are not there. I come back here. The herd is gone. The sheep are gone. But I cannot—no, I will not believe he stole them. Said the German, growing suddenly excited. Someone else, but not he. I know that boy. I knew him three years. He is a good boy. I have seen him deeply affected on account of his soul, and she would send the police off to him. I say I would rather make the lost good myself. I will not have it. He has fled in fear. I know his heart. It was, said the German, with a little hesitation, under my words that he first felt his need of a saviour. Burnapart cracked some more almonds, then said yawning, and more as though he asked for the sake of having something to converse about than from any interest he felt in the subject. And what has become of the herd's wife? The German was a light again in a moment. Yes, his wife! She has a child six days old, and Tunt Sunny would turn her out into the fields this night. That! said the German, rising. That is what I call cruelty, diabolical cruelty. My soul abhors that deed. The man that could do such a thing I could run him through with a knife, said the German, his grey eyes flashing, and his bushy black beard adding to the murderous fury of his aspect. Then suddenly subsiding he said, But all is now well. Tunt Sunny gives her word that the mage shall remain for some days. I go to Uwe Muller's to-morrow to learn if the sheep may not be there. If they are not, then I'll return. They are gone. That is all. I make it good. Tunt Sunny is a singular woman, said Burnapart, taking the tobacco bag the German passed to him. Singular! Yes! said the German. But her heart is on her right side. I have lived long years with her, and I may say I have for her an affection, which she returns. I may say, added the German with warmth, I may say there is not one soul on this farm for whom I have not an affection. Ah, my friend, said Burnapart, when the grace of God is in our hearts, is it not so with us all? Do we not love the very worm we tread upon, and as we tread upon it? Do we know the distinctions of race, or of sex, or of colour? No. Love is so amazing, so divine, it fills my soul, my life, my all. After a time he sank into a less fervent mood and remarked, The coloured female who waits upon Tunt Sunny appears to be of a virtuous disposition. An individual who—virtuous, said the German, I have confidence in her. There is that in her which is pure, that which is noble. The rich and high that walk this earth with lofty eyelids might exchange with her. The German here got up to bring a coal for Burnapart's pipe, and they sat together talking for a while. At length Burnapart knocked the ashes out of his pipe. It is time that I took my departure, dear friend, he said. But before I do so shall we not close this evening of sweet communion and brotherly intercourse by a few words of prayer? Oh, how good and how pleasant a thing it is for brethren to dwell together in unity. It is like the dew upon the mountains of Hermann, for there the Lord bestowed a blessing, even life for evermore. Stay and drink some coffee," said the German. No, thank you, my friend, I have business that must be done tonight," said Burnapart. Your dear son appears to have gone to sleep. He is going to take the wagon to the mill to-morrow. What a little man he is! A fine boy! But though the boy nodded before the fire, he was not asleep. And they all knelt down to pray. When they rose from their knees, Burnapart extended his hand to Walder and patted him on the head. Good night, my lad, he said. As you go to the mill to-morrow we shall not see you for some days. Good night. Good-bye. The Lord bless and guide you, and may he bring you back to us in safety to find us all as you have left us. He laid some emphasis on the last words. And you, my dear friend, he added, turning with redoubled warmth to the German, Long, long shall I look back to this evening, as a time of refreshing from the prisons of the Lord, as an hour of blessed intercourse with the brother in Jesus. May such often return. The Lord bless you, he added, with yet deeper fervour, richly, richly. Then he opened the door and vanished out into the darkness. He-he-he, love, Burnapart, as he stumbled over the stones, if there isn't the rarest lot of fools on this farm that ever-god-almighty stuck legs to. He-he-he, when the worms come out, then the blackbirds feed. Ha-ha-ha! Then he drew himself up, even when alone he liked to pose with a certain dignity. It was second nature to him. He looked in at the kitchen door. The hot-and-tot maid who acted as interpreter between Tunt Sonny and himself was gone, and Tunt Sonny herself was in bed. Never mind, Bond, my boy, he said as he walked round to his own room. Tomorrow will do. He-he-he! End of Chapter 7, Chapter 1, Part 8 of the Story of an African Farm by Olive Shreiner. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain, read by Sally McConnell in Bette's Bay, South Africa, in March 2010. He catches the old bird. At four o'clock the next afternoon, the German roared across the plain, returning from his search for the lost sheep. He rode slowly, for he had been in the saddles and sunrise and was somewhat wary, and the heat of the afternoon made his horse sleepier as it picked its way slowly along the sandy road. Every now and then a great red spider would start out of the caroo on one side of the path, and run across to the other, but nothing else broke the still monotony. Presently behind one of the highest of the milk-bushes that dotted the roadside, the German caught sight of a kaffa-woman, seated there evidently for such shadow as the milk-bush might afford from the sloping rays of the sun. The German turned the horse's head out of the road. It was not his way to pass a living creature without a word of greeting. Coming nearer he found it was no other than the wife of the absconding kaffa-herd. She had a baby tied on her back by a dirty strip of red blanket. The strip hardly larger was twisted round her waist, for the rest her black body was naked. She was a sullen, ill-looking woman, with lips hideously protruding. The German questioned her as to how she came there. She muttered in broken dutch that she had been turned away. Had she done evil? She shook her head sullenly. Had she had food given her? She grunted a negative and fanned the flies from her baby. Telling the woman to remain where she was, he turned his horse's head to the road, and rode off at a furious pace. Hard-hearted, cruel, oh my God, is this the way? Is this charity? Yes, yes, yes, ejaculated the old man as he rode on. But presently his anger began to evaporate. This horse's pace slackened, and by the time he reached his own door he was nodding and smiling. This mountain quickly he went to the great chest where his provisions were kept. Here he got out a little meal, a little mealies, a few roaster cakes. These he tied up in three blue handkerchiefs, and putting them into a sail-cloth bag he strung them over his shoulders. Then he looked circumspectly out at the door. It was very bad to be discovered in the act of giving. It made him red up to the roots of his old grizzled hair. No one was about, however, so he rode off again. Beside the milk-bush sat the kappa-woman still, like Hagar, he thought, thrust out by her mistress in the wilderness to die. Telling her to loosen the handkerchief from her head, he poured into it the contents of his bag. The woman tied it up in sullen silence. "'You must try and get to the next farm,' said the German. The woman shook her head. She would sleep in the field. The German reflected. Kappa-women were accustomed to sleep in the open air, but then the child was small and after so hot a day the night might be chilly. That she would creep back to the huts of the homestead when the darkness favoured her, the German's sagacity did not make evident to him. He took off the old brown salt-and-pepper coat and held it out to her. The woman received it in silence and laid it across her knee. "'With that they will sleep warmly. Not so bad.' Ha-ha!' said the German, and he rode home, nodding his head in a manner that would have made any other man dizzy. "'I wish he would not come back to-night,' said him, her face wet with tears. "'It will be just the same if he comes back to-morrow,' said Lindl. The two girls sat on the step of the cabin, waiting for the German's return. Lindl shaded her eyes with her hand from the sunset light. "'There he comes,' she said, whistling, ah, Jerusalem de Schöne! So loud I can hear him here! Perhaps he has found the sheep.' "'Found them?' said Lindl. He would whistle just so if he knew he had to die to-night. "'You look at the sunset, eh, chickens?' the German said as he came up at a smart canter. "'Ah, yes, that is beautiful,' he added as he dismounted, pausing for a moment with his hand on the saddle to look at the evening sky, where the sun shot up long flaming streaks, between which and the eye-thin yellow clouds floated. "'Hey, you weep,' said the German as the girls ran up to him. Before they had time to reply, the voice of Tantzani was heard. "'You child! Of the child! Of the child! Of the child! Of her kethers dog! Come here!' The German looked up. He thought the Dutch woman, come out to cool herself in the yard, called to some misbehaving servant. The old man looked round to see who it might be. "'You old vagabond of a praying German! Are you deaf?' Tantzani stood before the steps of the kitchen. Upon them sat the lean hotentot. Upon the highest stood burn-apart blinkens. Both hands folded under the tails of his coat, and his eyes fixed on the sunset sky. The German dropped the saddle on the ground. "'Bish-bish-bish! Who made this be?' he asked, and walked towards the house. They were very strange. The girls followed him, him still weeping, lindle with her face rather white, and her eyes wide open. "'And I have the heart of a devil, did you say? You could run me through with a knife, could you?' cried the Dutch woman. "'I could not drive the cavern made away because I was afraid of you, was I? Oh, you miserable rag! I loved you, did I? I would have liked to marry you, would I?' Would I? Would I?' cried the boar woman. "'You cat-stale you docks-poor! Be near my house tomorrow morning when the sun rises,' she gasped. "'And my gaffers will drag you through the sand. They would do it gladly, any of them for a bit of tobacco, for all your prayings with them.' "'I am bewildered. I am bewildered,' said the German. Standing before her and raising his hand to his forehead. "'I do not understand. "'Ask him! Ask him!' cried Tant Sonny, pointing to Bernapot. "'He knows! You thought he could not make me understand, but he did. He did you old fool! I know enough English for that. You be here!' shouted the Dutch woman. "'When the morning star rises, and I will let my gaffers take you out, and drag you till there is not one bone left in your old body that is not broken as fine as babooty meat, you old beggar, all your rags are not worth that they should be thrown out onto their sheep,' cried the boar woman. "'But I will have them for my sheep, not one rotten hoof of your old mare do you take with you. I will have her, or for my sheep that you have lost, you godless thing!'' The boar woman wiped the moisture from her mouth with the palm of her hand. The German turned to Bernapot, who still stood on the step absorbed in the beauty of the sunset. "'Do not address me. Do not approach me, lost man,' said Bernapot, not moving his eye nor lowering his chin. "'There is a crime from which all nature revolts. There is a crime whose name is loathsome to the human ear. That crime is yours. That crime is in gratitude. This woman has been your benefactress. On her farm you have lived. After her sheep you have looked. Into her house you have been allowed to enter and hold divine service, an honour of which you were never worthy. And how have you rewarded her? Basely. Basely. Basely. But it is all false, lies and falsehood. I must. I will speak,' said the German, suddenly looking round bewildered. "'Do I dream? Are you mad? What may it be?' "'Gro, dog!' cried the Dutch woman. "'I would have been a rich woman this day if it had not been for your laziness, praying with the caffers behind the corral walls. Go, you caffers dog!' "'But what, then, is the matter? What may have happened since I lived?' said the German, turning to the hot-and-tot woman, who sat on the step. She was his friend. She would tell him kindly the truth. The woman answered by a loud ringing laugh. "'Give it him, old Mrs. Give it him!' It was so nice to see the white man who had been master hunted down. The coloured woman laughed, and threw a dozen mealy grains into her mouth to chew. All anger and excitement faded from the old man's face. He turned slowly away, and walked down the little path to his cabin with his shoulders bent. It was all dark before him. He stumbled over the threshold of his own well-known door. Him, sobbing bitterly, would have followed him. But the boar woman prevented her by a flood of speech which convulsed the hot-and-tot. So low were its images. "'Come, him!' said Lundel, lifting her small, proud head. Let us go in. We will not stay to hear such language.' She looked into the boar woman's eyes. Tant Sunny understood the meaning of the look, if not the words. She waddled after them, and caught M by the arm. She had struck Lundel once years before, and had never done it again, so she took M. "'So you will defy me too, will you, you Englishman's ugliness?' She cried, as with one hand she forced the child down, and held her head tightly against her knee. With the other she beat her first upon one cheek, and then upon the other. For one instant Lundel looked on. Then she laid her small fingers on the boar woman's arm. With the exertion of half its strength, Tant Sunny might have flung the girl back upon the stones. It was not the power of the slight fingers, tightly though they clenched her broad wrist, so tightly that at bedtime the marks were still there. But the boar woman looked into the clear eyes, and at the quivering white lips, and with a half-surprised curse relaxed her hold. The girl drew M's arm through her own. "'Move,' she said to Bonaparte, who stood in the door, and he, Bonaparte, the invincible in the hour of his triumph, moved to give her place. The hotentots ceased to laugh, and an uncomfortable silence fell on all the three in the doorway. Once in their room, M sat down on the floor and wailed bitterly. Lundel lay on the bed with her arm drawn across her eyes, very white and still. "'Woo-hoo!' cried M. "'They won't let him take the grey mare, and Waldo has gone to the mill. Oh! Oh! And perhaps they won't let us go and say goodbye to him. Oh! Oh! Oh!' "'I wish you would be quiet,' said Lundel, without moving. Does it give you such felicity to let Bonaparte know he's hurting you? We will ask no one. It will be supper-time soon. Listen, and when you hear the chink of the knives and forks, we will go out and see him.' M suppressed her sobs and listened intently, kneeling at the door. Suddenly someone came to the window and put the shutter up. "'Who was that?' said Lundel, starting. "'The girl, I suppose,' said M. "'How early she is this evening.' But Lundel sprang from the bed and seized the handle of the door, shaking it fiercely. The door was locked on the outside. She granded her teeth. "'What's the matter?' asked M. The room was in perfect darkness now. "'Nothing,' said Lundel quietly. "'Only they have locked us in.' She turned and went back to bed again. But ere long M heard a sound of movement. Lundel had climbed up into the window and with her fingers felt the woodwork that surrounded the panes. Slipping down, the girl loosened the iron knob from the foot of the bedstead, and climbing up again she broke with it every pane of glass in the window, beginning at the top and ending at the bottom. "'What are you doing?' asked M., who heard the falling fragments. Her companion made no reply, but leaned on every little cross-bar which cracked and gave way beneath her. Then she pressed with all her strength against the shutter. She had thought the wooden buttons would give way. But by the clinking sound she knew that the iron bar had been put across. She was quite quiet for a time. Clambering down she took from the table a small one-bladed pen-knife, with which she began to pick at the hard wood of the shutter. "'What are you doing now?' asked M., who had ceased crying in her wonder and had drawn near. "'Trying to make a hole,' was the short reply. "'Do you think you'll be able to?' "'No, but I'm trying.' In the agony of suspense M. wetted. "'For ten minutes,' Lindell pecked. The hole was three-eighths of an inch deep, then the blade sprang into ten pieces. "'What has happened now?' asked M., blubbering afresh. "'Nothing,' said Lindell. "'Bring me my night-gown, a piece of paper, and the matches.' Wondering, M. fumbled about till she found them. "'What are you going to do with them?' she whispered. "'Burn down the window. But would the whole house take fire and burn down, too?' "'Yes. But will it not be very wicked?' "'Yes, very, and I do not care.' She arranged the night-gown carefully in the corner of the window, with the chips of the frame about it. There was only one match in the box. She drew it carefully along the wall. For a moment it burnt up blue, and shewed the tiny face with its glistening eyes. She held it carefully to the paper. For an instant it burnt up brightly, then flickered, and went out. She blew the spark, but it died also. Then she threw the paper onto the ground, trod on it, and went to her bed and began to undress. M. rushed to the door, knocking against it wildly. "'Oh, Tant Sunny! Tant Sunny! Oh, let us out!' she cried. "'Oh, Lindell, what are we to do?' Lindell wiped a drop of blood off the lip she had bitten. "'I am going to sleep,' she said. "'If you like to sit there and howl till the morning, do. Perhaps you will find that it helps. I never heard that Harling helped anyone.' Long after when M. herself had gone to bed and was almost asleep, Lindell came and stood at her bedside. "'Here!' she said, slipping a little pot of powder into her hand. "'Rub some onto your face. Does it not burn when she struck you?' Then she crept to her own bed. Long, long after when M. was rarely asleep, she lay still awake, and folded her hands on her little breast and muttered, "'When that day comes and I am strong, I will hate everything that has power, and help everything that is weak.' And she bit her lip again. The German looked out at the cabin door for the last time that night. Then he paced the run slowly and sighed. Then he drew out pen and paper and sat down to write, rubbing his old gray eyes with his knuckles before he began. "'My chickens! You did not come to say goodbye to the old man? Might you?' "'Ah, well, there is a land where they part no more, where saints immortal reign. I sit here alone, and I think of you. Will you forget the old man? When you wake to-morrow he will be far away. The old horse is lazy. But he has his stick to help him. That is three legs. He comes back one day with gold and diamonds. Will you welcome him?' "'Well, we shall see. I go to meet Waldo. He comes back with a wagon, then he follows me. Poor boy! God knows! There is a land where all things are made right. But that land is not here. My little children serve the Saviour. Give your hearts to him while you are yet young. Life is short. Nothing is mine, otherwise I would say, Lundl, take my books. Em, my stones. Now I say nothing. The things are mine. It is not righteous, God knows. But I am silent, let it be. But I feel it. I must say I feel it. Do not cry too much for the old man. He goes out to seek his fortune, and comes back with it in a bag, it may be. I love my children. Do they think of me? I am old Otto, who goes out to seek his fortune. O-F. When he concluded this quaint production, he put it where the children would find it the next morning and proceeded to prepare his bundle. He never thought of entering a protest against the loss of his goods, like a child he submitted and wept. He had been there eleven years, and it was hard to go away. He spread open on the bed a blue handkerchief, and put on it one by one the things he thought most necessary and important. A little bag of curious seeds which he meant to plant some day. An old German hymn-book, three misshapen stones that he greatly valued, a Bible, a shirt, and two handkerchiefs. Then there was room for nothing more. He tied up the bundle tightly and put it on a chair by his bedside. That is not much. There cannot say I take too much, he said looking at it. He put his knotted stick behind it, his blue tobacco bag in his short pipe, and then inspected his coats. He had two left, a moth-eaten overcoat and a black alpaca out at the elders. He decided for the overcoat it was warm certainly, but then he could carry it over his arm and only put it on when he met someone along the road. It was more respectable than the black alpaca. He hung the grapecoat over the back of the chair and stuffed a hard bit of roaster cake under the knot of the bundle, and then his preparations were completed. The Germans started contemplating them with much satisfaction. He had almost forgotten his sorrow at leaving in his pleasure at preparing. Suddenly he started. An expression of intense pain passed over his face. He drew back his left arm quickly, and then pressed his right hand upon his breast. Ah! the sudden pang again, he said. His face was white, but it quickly regained its colour. Then the old man busied himself in putting everything right. I will leave it neat. They shall not say I did not leave it neat, he said. Even the little bags of seeds on the mantelpiece he put in rose and dusted. Then he undressed and got into bed. Under his pillow was a little story-book. He drew it forth. To the old German a story was no story. Its events were as real and as important to himself as the matters of his own life. He could not go away without knowing whether that wicked earl relented, and whether the Baron married Emelina. So he adjusted his spectacles and began to read. Occasionally, as his feelings became too strongly moved, he ejaculated, ah! I thought so. That was a rogue! I saw it before. I knew it from the beginning. More than half an hour had passed when he looked up to the silver watch at the top of his bed. The march is long tomorrow. This will not do, he said, taking off his spectacles and putting them carefully into the book to mark the place. This will be good reading as I walk along tomorrow, he added, as he stuffed the book into the pocket of the great coat. Very good reading. He nodded his head and lay down. He thought a little of his own troubles, a good deal of the two little girls he was leaving, of the earl, of Emelina, of the Baron, but he was soon asleep. Sleeping as peacefully as a little child upon whose innocent soul, sorrow, and care cannot rest. It was very quiet in the room. The coals from the fireplace threw a dull red light across the floor, upon the red lines on the quilt. Eleven o'clock came, and the room was very still. When o'clock came, the glimmer had died out, though the ashes were still warm and the room was very dark. The grey mouse, who had its hole under the toolbox, came out and sat on the sacks in the corner. Then, growing bolder, the room was so dark, it climbed the chair at the bedside, nibbled at the roaster-cake, took one bite quickly at the candle, and then sat on its haunches, listening. It heard the even breathing of the old man, and the steps of the hungry cathodog going his last round in search of a bone or a skin that had been forgotten. And it heard the white hen call out as the wild cat ran away with one of her brood, and it heard the chicken cry. Then the grey mouse went back to its hole under the toolbox, and the room was quiet. And two o'clock came. By that time the night was grown dull and cloudy. The wild cat had gone to its home on the copy. The cathodog had found a burn and lay gnawing it. An intense quiet reigned everywhere. Slowly in her room the boar woman tossed her great arms in her sleep, for she dreamed that a dark shadow with outstretched wings fled slowly over her house, and she moaned and shivered. And the night was very still. But quiet as all places were, there was a quite peculiar quiet in the German's room. Though you strained your ear most carefully, you caught no sound of breathing. He was not gone, for the old coat still hung on the chair, the coat that was to be put on when he met anyone, and the bundle and stick were ready for tomorrow's long march. The old German himself lay there, his black wavy hair just touched with grey, thrown back upon the pillow. The old face was lying there alone in the dark, smiling like a child's, oh, so peacefully. There is a stranger whose coming, they say, is worse than all the ills of life from whose presence we flee away trembling. But he comes very tenderly sometimes. And it seemed almost as though death had known and loved the old man, so gently it touched him. And how could it deal hardly with him, the loving, simple, child-like old man? So it smoothed out the wrinkles that were in the old forehead, and fixed the passing smile, and sealed the eyes that they might not weep again. And then the short sleep of time was melted into the long, long sleep of eternity. How has he grown so young in this one night? they said when they found him in the morning. Yes, dear old man, to such as you time brings no age. You die with the purity and innocence of your childhood upon you, though you die in your grey hairs. End of Chapter 9 Part 1, Chapter 9 of the story of an African farm by Olive Shreiner. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain, read by Sally McConnell in Bettys Bay, South Africa, in March 2010. He sees a ghost. Bonaparte stood on the ash heap. He aspired across the plain a moving speck, and he chucked his coat-tails up and down in expectancy of a scene. The wagon came on slowly. Waldo lay curled among the sacks at the back of the wagon, the hand in his breast resting on the sheep-sharing machine. It was finished now. The right thought had struck him the day before, as he sat half asleep, watching the water go over the mill-wheel. He muttered to himself with half-closed eyes. Tomorrow smooth the cogs. Tighten the screws a little, show it to them. Then after a pause, over the whole world, the whole world, mine that I have made, he pressed the little wheels and pulleys in his pocket till they cracked. Presently his muttering became larder. And 50 pounds, a black hat for my dadder, full and a blue silk, very light, and one purple like the earthbells. And white shoes, he muttered on, a box full, full of books. They shall tell me all, all, all. He added, moving his fingers desiringly. Why the crystals grow in such beautiful shapes? Why lightning runs to the iron? Why black people are black? Why the sunlight makes things warm? I shall read, read, read. He muttered slowly. Then came over him suddenly what he called the presence of God, a sense of a good, strong something folding him round. He smiled through his half-shut eyes. Ah, Father, my own Father, it is so sweet to feel you like the warm sunshine. The Bibles and books cannot tell of you, and all I feel you. They are mixed with men's words. But you! His muttering sank into inaudible confusion, till opening his eyes wide it struck him that the bran plain he looked at was the old home farm. For half an hour they had been riding in it, and he had not known it. He roused the leader who sat nodding on the front of the wagon in the early morning sunlight. They were within half a mile of the homestead. It seemed to him that he had been gone from them all a year. He fenced he could see Lindell standing on the brick wall to watch for him, his father passing from one house to the other, stopping to look. He called aloud to the oxen. For each one at home he had brought something. For his father a piece of tobacco, bought at the shop by the mill. For Emma Thimble, for Lindell a beautiful flower dug out by the roots at a place where they had art spanned, for Tunt Sunny a handkerchief. When they drew near the house he threw the whip to the kefir leader and sprang from the side of the wagon to run on. Burnapot stopped him as he ran past the ash heap. Good morning, my dear boy, where are you running to so fast with your rosy cheeks? The boy looked up at him glad even to see Burnapot. I'm going to the cabin, he said, out of breath. You won't find them in just now, not your good old father, said Burnapot. Where is he? asked the lad. There, beyond the camp, said Burnapot waving his hand oratorically towards the stone-walled ostrich camps. What is he doing there? asked the boy. Burnapot patted him on the cheek kindly. We could not keep him any more, it was too hot. We buried him, my boy, said Burnapot, touching with his finger the boy's cheek. We couldn't keep him any more. He he he laughed Burnapot as the boy fled away along the low stone wall almost furtively as one in fear. At five o'clock Burnapot knelt before a box in the German's room. He was busily unpacking it. It had been agreed upon between Tunt Sonny and himself that now the German was gone, he, Burnapot, was to be no longer schoolmaster but overseer of the farm. In return for his past scholastic labours he had expressed himself willing to take position of the dead man's goods and room. Tunt Sonny hardly liked the arrangement. She had a great deal more respect for the German dead than the German living and would rather his goods had been allowed to descend peacefully to his son. For she was a firm believer in the chinks in the world above, where not only ears but eyes might be applied to see how things went on in this world below. She never felt sure how far the spirit world might overlap this world of sense, and as a rule prudently abstained from doing anything which might offend unseen auditors. For this reason she abstained from ill using the dead Englishman's daughter and niece, and for this reason she would rather the boy had had his father's goods. But it was hard to refuse Burnapot anything when she and he sat so happily together in the evening drinking coffee, Burnapot telling her in the broken Dutch he was fast learning how he adored fat women and what a splendid farmer he was. So at five o'clock on this afternoon Burnapot knelt in the German's room. Somewhere here it is, he said, as he packed the old clothes carefully out of the box, and finding nothing packed them in again. Somewhere in this room it is, and if it's here Burnapot finds it, he repeated. You didn't stay here all these years without making a little pile somewhere my lamb. You weren't such a fool as you looked, oh no! said Burnapot. He now walked about the room, diving his fingers in everywhere, sticking them into the great crevices in the wall and frightening out the spiders, wrapping them against the old plaster till it cracked and fell in pieces, peering up the chimney till the soot dropped on his bald head and blackened it. He felt in little blue bags, he tried to raise the hearthstone. He shook each book till the old leaves fell down in showers on the floor. It was getting dark, and Burnapot stood with his finger on his nose, reflecting. Finally he walked to the door behind which hung the trousers and waistcoat the dead man had last worn. He had felt in them, but hurriedly, just after the funeral the day before, he would examine them again. Sticking his fingers into the waistcoat pockets, he found in one corner a hole. Sticking his hand through it, between the lining and the cloth, he presently came into contact with something. Burnapot drew it forth, a small square parcel sewed up in sailcloth. He gazed at it, squeezed it. It cracked as though full of banknotes. He put it quickly into his own waistcoat pocket and peaked over the half-door to see if there was anyone coming. There was nothing to be seen but the last rays of yellow sunset light, painting the caroo bushes in the plain and shining on the ash heap where the fowls were pecking. He turned and sat down on the nearest chair, and taking out his penknife, ripped the parcel open. The first thing that fell was a shire of yellow-faded papers. Burnapot opened them carefully one by one and smoothed them out on his knee. There was something very valuable to be hidden so carefully, though the German characters he could not decipher. When he came to the last one he felt there was something hard in it. You've got it, Bond, my boy! You've got it! He cried, slapping his leg hard. A gene nearer to the door for the light was fading he opened the paper carefully. There was nothing inside but a plain gold wedding-ring. Better than nothing, said Burnapot, trying to put it on his little finger, which, however, proved too fat. He took it off and set it down on the table before him, and opted it with his crosswise eyes. When that auspicious hour, sunny, he said, shall have arrived when panting I shall lead thee lighted by Hyman's torch to the cannubial altar upon thy fair amoranthine finger my joyous bride shall this ring repose. Thy fair body, oh my girl, shall Burnapot possess. His fingers in thy money-bags he therein too shall miss. Having given utterance to this flood of posy, he sat lost in joyous reflection. He therein too shall miss, he repeated, meditatively. At this instant, as Burnapot swore and swore truly to the end of his life, a slow and distinct rap was given on the crown of his bald head. Burnapot started and looked up, no rim or strap, hung down from the rafters above, and not a human creature was near the door. It was growing dark, he did not like it. He began to fold up the papers expeditiously. He stretched out his hand for the ring. The ring was gone, gone, although no human creature had entered the room, gone, although no form had crossed the doorway, gone! He would not sleep there, that was certain. He stuck the papers into his pocket. As he did so, three slow and distinct taps were given on the crown of his head. Burnapot's jaw fell. Each separate joint lost its power. He could not move. He dared not rise. His tongue lay loose in his mouth. Take all, take all! He gurgled in his throat. I don't want them, take! Here a resolute tug at the gray curls at the back of his head caused him to leap up yelling wildly. Was he to sit still, paralyzed, to be dragged away bodily to the devil? With terrified shrieks he fled, casting no glance behind. When the dew was falling and the evening was dark, a small figure moved towards the gate of the farthest ostrich camp, having a bird before it. When the gate was opened and the bird driven in and the gate fastened, it turned away, but then suddenly paused near the stone wall. Is that you, Waldo? said Lindell, hearing a sound. The boy was sitting on the damp ground with his back to the wall. He gave her no answer. Come! she said, bending over him. I have been looking for you all day. He mumbled something. You've had nothing to eat. I've put some supper in your room. You must come home with me, Waldo. She took his hand and the boy rose slowly. She made him take her arm and twisted her small fingers among his. You must forget, she whispered. Since it's happened I walk, I talk, I never sit still. If we remember we cannot bring back the dead, she knit her little fingers closer among his. Forgetting is the best thing. He did not watch it coming, she whispered presently. That is the dreadful thing to see it coming. She shuddered. I wanted to come so to me, too. Why do you think I was driving that bird? she added quickly. That was Hunts, the bird that hates Burnapart. I let him out this afternoon. I thought he would chase him and perhaps kill him. The boy showed no sign of interest. He did not catch him, but put his head over the halfway door of your cabin and frightened him horribly. He was there busy stealing your things. Perhaps he will leave them alone now, but I wish the bird had trodden on him. They said no more till they reached the door of the cabin. There is a candle and supper on the table. You must eat, she said authoritatively. I cannot stay with you now, unless they find out about the bird. He grasped her arm and brought his mouth close to her ear. There is no God! He almost hissed. No God! Not anywhere! She started. Not anywhere! He granded out between his teeth and she felt his hot breath on her cheek. Wada, you are mad! She said drawing herself from him instinctively. He loosened his grip and turned away from her also. In truth, is it not life's way? We fight our little battles alone. You yours, I mine. We must not help or find help. When your life is most real, to me you are mad. When your agony is blackest, I look at you and wonder. Friendship is good, a strong stick, but when the hour comes to lean hard, it gives. In the day of their bitterest need, all souls are alone. People stood by him in the dark, pityingly, wonderingly. As he walked to the door, she came after him. Eat your supper. It will do you good, she said. She rubbed her cheek against his shoulder and then ran away. In the front room the little woolly kaffa girl was washing Tunt Sunny's feet in a small tub, and Burnapart, who sat on the wooden sofa, was pulling off his shoes and stockings, that his own feet might be washed also. There were three candles burning in the room, and he and Tunt Sunny sat close together with the lean hotentot not far off. For when ghosts are about, much light is needed. There is great strength in numbers. Burnapart had completely recovered from the effects of his fright in the afternoon, and the numerous doses of brandy it had been necessary to administer to him, to affect his restoration, had put him into a singularly pleasant and amiable mood. That boy, Waldo, said Burnapart, rubbing his toes, took himself off coolly this morning as soon as the wagon came, and has not done a stiver of work all day. I'll not have that kind of thing now, I'm master of this farm." The hotentot made, translated, Ah! I expect he's sorry that his father's dead, said Tunt Sunny. It's nature, you know. I cried the whole morning when my father died. One can always get another husband, but one cannot get another father, said Tunt Sunny, costing a side-long glance at Burnapart. Burnapart expressed a wish to give Waldo his orders for the next day's work, and accordingly the little woolly-headed caffer was sent to call him. After a considerable time the boy appeared and stood in the doorway. If they had dressed him in one of the swallow-tailed coats and oiled his hair till the drops fell from it, and had lay as smooth as an elder's on sacrament Sunday, they would still have been something unanointed in the aspect of the fellow. As it was, standing there in his strange old costume, his head presenting much the appearance of having been deeply rolled in sand, his eyelids swollen, the hair hanging over his forehead, and a dogged sullenness on his features, he presented most the appearance of an ill-conditioned young buffalo. Be lovable, Lord! cried Tunt Sunny. How he looks! Come in, boy! Couldn't you come and say good-day to me? Don't you want some supper? He said he wanted nothing, and turned his heavy eyes away from her. There's a ghost being seen in your father's room, said Tunt Sunny. If you're afraid you can sleep in the kitchen. I will sleep in our room, said the boy slowly. Well, you can go now, she said, but be up early to take the sheep. The herd? Yes, be up early, my boy, interrupted Bonaparte smiling. I am to be master of this farm now, and we shall be good friends. I'd trust very good friends if you try to do your duty, my dear boy. The herd turned to go, and Bonaparte, looking benignly at the candle, stretched out one unstockinged foot, over which Waldo, looking at nothing in particular, fell with a heavy thud upon the floor. Dear me, I hope you're not hurt, my boy, said Bonaparte. You'll have many a harder thing than that, though, before you've gone through life. He added consolingly as Waldo picked himself up. The lean, hot-and-tot laughed till the room rang again, and Tunt Sunny titted until her sides ached. When he had gone the little maid began to wash Bonaparte's feet. Oh, Lord Beloved Lord, how he did fall! I can't think of it! cried Tunt Sunny, and she laughed again. I always did know he was not right, but this evening any one could see it. He added, wiping the tears of mirth from her face. His eyes were as wild as if the devil was in them. He never was like other children. The dear Lord knows if he doesn't walk alone for hours talking to himself. If you sit in the room with him you can see his lips moving the whole time, and if you talk to him twenty times he doesn't hear you. Daft eyes, he's as mad as mad can be. The repetition of the word mad conveyed meaning to Bonaparte's mind. He left off paddling his toes in the water. Mad? Mad? I know that kind of mad, said Bonaparte, and I know the thing to give for it. The front end of a little horse-swip, the tip. Nice thing, takes it out, said Bonaparte. The hot-and-tot laughed and translated. No more walking about and talking to themselves on this farm now, said Bonaparte. No more minding of sheep and reading of books at the same time. The point of a horse-swip is a little thing, but I think he'll have a taste of it before long. Bonaparte rubbed his hands and looked pleasantly across his nose. And then the three laughed together grimly. And Waldo, in his cabin, crouched in the dark in a corner with his knees drawn up to his chin. End of part one, chapter nine. Chapter one, part ten of the story of an African farm by Olive Shreiner. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain, read by Sally McConnell in Betis Bay, South Africa, in March 2010. He shows his teeth. Dos sat down among the Karoo Bushes, one yellow ear drawn over his wicked little eye, ready to flap away any adventurous fly that might settle on his nose. Around him in the morning sunlight fed the sheep. Behind him lay his master polishing his machine. He found much comfort in handling it that morning. A dozen philosophical essays or angelically attuned songs for the consolation of the bereaved could never have been to him what that little sheep-sharing machine was that day. It was struggling to see the unseeable, growing drunk with the endeavour to span the infinite, and rising before the inscrutable mystery it is a renovating relief to turn to some simple, feelable, wearable substance, to something which has a smell and a colour which may be handled and turned over this way and that. Whether there be or be not a hereafter, whether there be any use in calling aloud to the unseen power, whether there be an unseen power to call to, whatever be the true nature of the eye who call, and of the objects around me, whatever be our meaning, our internal essence, our cause, and in a certain order of mind's death and the agony of loss inevitably awaken the wild desire, at other times smothered, to look into these things. Whether be the nature of that which the limits of the human intellect build up on every hand, this thing is certain, a knife will cut wood, and one cogged wheel will turn another, this is sure. Waldo found an immeasurable satisfaction in the handling of his machine, but dos-winked and blinked, and thought it all fratfully monotonous out there on the flat, and presently dropped to sleep, sitting bolt upright. Suddenly his eyes opened wide, something was coming from the direction of the homestead. Winking his eyes and looking intently, he perceived it was the grey mare. Now dos had wondered much of late what had become of her master. Seeing she carried someone on her back, he now came to his own conclusion, and began to move his tail violently up and down. Presently he pricked up one ear, and let the other hang. His tail became motionless, and the expression of his mouth was one of decided disapproval bordering on scorn. He wrinkled his lips up on each side into little lines. The sound was soft, and the grey mare came on so noiselessly, that the boy heard nothing till Burnaparte dismounted. Then dos got up and moved back a step. He did not approve of Burnaparte's appearance. His costume in truth was of a unique kind. It was a combination of the town and country. The tails of his black-plop coat were pinned up behind to keep them from rubbing. He had on a pair of mole-skin trousers and leather-gaters, and in his hand he carried a little whip of rhinoceros hide. Burnaparte so started and looked up. Had there been a moment's time he would have dug a hole in the sand with his hands, and buried his treasure. It was only a toy of wood, but he loved it, as one of necessity loves what has been born of him, whether of the flesh or spirit. When cold eyes have looked at it, the feathers are rubbed off our butterfly's wing for ever. What have you here, my lad? said Burnaparte, standing by him, and pointing with the end of his whip to the medley of wheels and hinges. The boy muttered something inaudible, and half-spread his hand over the thing. But this seems to be a very ingenious little machine, said Burnaparte, seating himself on the anteep, and bending down over it with deep interest. What is it for, my lad? It is a very nice little machine, said Burnaparte. How does it work now? I had never seen anything so ingenious. There was never a parent who heard deception in the voice that praised his child, his first born. Here was one who liked the thing that had been created in him. He forgot everything. He showed how the shares would work with a little guidance, how the sheep would be held, and the wool fall into the trough. A flush burst over his face as he spoke. I tell you what, my lad, said Burnaparte emphatically, when the explanation was finished. We must get you a patent. Your fortune is made. In three years' time there'll be not a farm in this colony where it isn't working. You're a genius. That's what you are, said Burnaparte, rising. If it were made larger, said the boy, raising his eyes, it would work more smoothly. Do you think there would be any one in this colony would be able to make it? I'm sure they would, said Burnaparte. And if not, why? I'll do my best for you. I'll send it to England. It must be done somehow. How long have you worked at it? Nine months, said the boy. Oh, it is such a nice little machine, said Burnaparte. One can't help feeling an interest in it. There is only one little improvement, one very little improvement I should like to make. Burnaparte put his foot on the machine and crushed it into the sand. The boy looked up into his face. It looks better now, said Burnaparte, doesn't it? If we can't have it made in England, we'll send it to America. Goodbye. Ta-ta! He added. You're a great genius, a born genius, my dear boy. There's no doubt about it. He mounted the gray mare and rode off. The dog watched his retreat with cynical satisfaction. But his master lay on the ground with his head on his arms in the sand, and the little wheels and chips of wood lay on the ground around him. The dog jumped onto his back and snapped at the black curls, till, finding that no notice was taken, he walked off to play with the black beetle. The beetle was hard at work, trying to roll home a great ball of dung it had been collecting all the morning. But Doss broke the ball, and ate the beetle's hind legs and then bit off its head. And it was all play, and no one could tell what it had lived and worked for, a striving and a striving, and an ending in nothing. End of Chapter 1, Part 10. Chapter 1, Part 11 of the Story of an African Farm by Olive Shreiner. This livery-box recording is in the public domain, read by Sally McConnell in Betty's Bay, South Africa, in March 2010. He snaps. I have found something in the loft," said M. Tuvaldo, who was listlessly piling cakes of fuel on the crawl wall a week after. It is a box of books that belonged to my father. We thought Tunt Sunny had burnt them. The boy put down the cake he was raising and looked at her. I don't think they're very nice, not stories, she added, but you can go and take any you like. So saying she took up the plate in which she had brought his breakfast, and walked off to the house. After that the boy worked quickly. The pile of fuel Burnapart had ordered him to pack was on the wall in half an hour. He then went to throw salt on the skins laid out to dry. Using the pot empty, he went to the loft to refill it. Burnapart Blankens, whose door opened at the foot of the ladder, saw the boy go up and stood in the doorway waiting for his return. He wanted his boots blacked. Doss, finding he could not follow his master up the round bars, sat patiently at the foot of the ladder. Presently he looked up longingly, but no one appeared. Then Burnapart looked up also and began to call, but there was no answer. What could the boy be doing? The loft was an unknown land to Burnapart. He had often wondered what was up there. He liked to know what was in or locked up places and out of the way corners, but he was afraid to climb the ladder. So Burnapart looked up, and in the name of all that was tantalising, questioned what the boy did up there. The loft was used only as a lumber-room. What could the fellow find up there to keep him so long? Could the boar woman have beheld Waldo at that instant? Any lingering dart which might have remained in her mind as to the boy's sanity would instantly have vanished. For having filled the salt-pot he proceeded to look for the box of books among the rubbish that filled the loft. Under a pile of sacks he found it, a rough pecking-case nailed up, but with one loose plank. He lifted that, and saw the even backs of a row of books. He knelt down before the box and ran his hand along its rough edges, as if to assure himself of its existence. He stuck his hand in among the books and pulled out two. He felt them, thrust his fingers in among the leaves, and crumpled them a little, as a lover feels the hair of his mistress. The fellow gloated over his treasure. He had had a dozen books in the course of his life. Now here was a mine of them opened at his feet. After a while he began to read the titles, and now and again opened a book and read a sentence, but he was too excited to catch the meanings distinctly. At last he came to a dull, brown volume. He read the name, opened it in the centre, and where he opened began to read. It was a chapter on property that he fell upon—communism, foreurism, since simonism—in a work on political economy. He read down one page and turned over to the next. He read down that without changing his posture by an inch. He read the next and the next, kneeling up all the while with the book in his hand and his lips parted. All he read he did not fully understand. The thoughts were new to him. But this was the fellow's startled joy in the book. The thoughts were his. They belonged to him. He had never thought them before, but they were his. He laughed silently and internally with the still intensity of triumphant joy. So then all thinking creatures did not send up the one cry, As thou, dear Lord, hast created things in the beginning, So are they now, so ought they to be, so will they be world without end, And it doesn't concern us what they are, our men. There were men to whom not only copies and stones were calling out Imperatively. What are we, and how came we here? Understand us, and know us! But to whom even the old, old relations between man and man, And the customs of the ages called, and could not be made still and forgotten. The boy's heavy body quivered with excitement. So he was not alone, not alone. He could not quite have told anyone why he was so glad, and this warmth had come to him. His cheeks were burning. No wonder that Burnapart called in vain, and Doss put his paws on the ladder, And whined till three-quarters of an hour had passed. At last the boy put the book in his breast, And buttoned it tightly to him. He took up the salt-pot, and went to the top of the ladder. Burnapart, with his hands folded under his coat-tails, Looked up when he appeared, and accosted him. You've been rather a long time up there, my lad. He said, as the boy descended with a tremulous haste, Most unlike his ordinary slow movement. You can't hear me calling, I suppose. Burnapart whisked the tails of his coat up and down as he looked at him. He, Burnapart blinkens, had eyes which were very far-seeing. He looked at the pot. It was rather a small pot to have taken three-quarters of an hour in the filling. He looked at the face. It was flushed. And yet Tant Sunny kept no wine. He had not been drinking. His eyes were wide open and bright. He had not been sleeping. There was no girl up there. He had not been making love. Burnapart looked at him sagaciously. What would account for the marvellous change in the boy coming down the ladder, From the boy going up the ladder? One thing there was. Did not Tant Sunny keep in the loft billtongs and nice smoked sausages? There must be something nice to eat up there. Aha! That was it! Burnapart was so interested in carrying out his chain of inductive reasoning that he quite forgot to have his boots blacked. He watched the boy shuffle off with the salt-pot under his arm. Then he stood in his doorway and raised his eyes to the quiet blue sky and audibly propounded this riddle to himself. What is the connection between the naked back of a certain boy with a great coat on and a salt-pot under his arm and the tip of a horse whip? Answer. There was no connection at present, but there will be soon. Burnapart was so pleased with the sally of his wit that he chuckled a little and went to lie down on his bed. There was bread-baking that afternoon and there was a fire lighted in the brick oven behind the house, and Tant Sunny had left the great wooden-elbered chair in which he passed her life and waddled out to look at it. Not far off was Waldo, who, having thrown a pail of food into the pig-sty, now leaned over the sod-wall looking at the pigs. Half of the sty was dry, but the lower half was a pool of mud, on the edge of which the mother saw lay with closed eyes her ten little ones sucking. The farther pig, knee-deep in the mud, stood running his snout into a rotten pumpkin and wriggling his curled tail. Waldo wondered dreamily as he stared why they were pleasant to look at. Even singly they were not beautiful, taking together they were. Was it not because there was a certain harmony about them? The old sow was suited to the little pigs and the little pigs to their mother, the old bore to the rotten pumpkin, and all to the mud. They suggested the thought of nothing that should be added, of nothing that should be taken away. And he wondered on vaguely, was not that the secret of all beauty, that you look on? So he stood dreaming and leaned further and further over the sod-wall, and looked at the pigs. All this time Burnapart Blinkins was sloping down from the house in an aimless sort of way, but he kept one eye fixed on the pig-sty, and each gyration brought him nearer to it. Waldo stood like a thing asleep when Burnapart came close up to him. In the old days, when a small boy playing in an Irish street-gutter, he, Burnapart, had been familiarly known amongst his comrades under the title of Tripping Ben. This from the rare ease and dexterity with which, by merely projecting his foot, he could precipitate any unfortunate companion onto the crown of his head. Years had elapsed, and Tripping Ben had become Burnapart, but the old gift was in him still. He came close to the pig-sty. All the defunct memories of his boyhood returned on him in a flood, as with an adroit movement he inserted his leg between Waldo and the wall, and sent him over into the pig-sty. The little pigs were startled at the strange intruder, and ran behind their mother, who sniffed at him. Tunt Sonny smote her hands together and laughed, but Burnapart was far from joining her, lost in reverie he gazed at the distant horizon. The sudden reversal of head and feet had thrown out the volume that Waldo carried in his breast. Burnapart picked it up and began to inspect it as the boy climbed slowly over the wall. He would have walked off sullenly, but he wanted his book, and waited till it should be given him. Ha! said Burnapart, raising his eyes from the leaves of the book which he was examining. I hope your coat has not been injured. It is of an elegant cut—an heirloom, I presume, from your paternal grandfather. It looks nice now. Lord! Oh, Lord! cried Tunt Sonny, laughing and holding her sides. How the child looks, as though he thought the mud would never wash off! Oh, Lord! I shall die! You, Burnapart, are the funniest man I ever saw! Burnapart Blinkins was now carefully inspecting the volume he had picked up. Among the subjects on which the darkness of his understanding had been enlightened during his youth, political economy had not been won. He was not, therefore, very clear as to what the nature of the book might be, and as the name of the writer, J. S. Mill, might, for anything he knew to the contrary, have belonged to a venerable member of the British and foreign Bible society, it by no means threw light upon the question. He was not in any way sure that political economy had nothing to do with the cheapest way of procuring clothing for the army and navy, which would be certainly both a political and economical subject. But Burnapart soon came to a conclusion as to the nature of the book and its contents, by the application of a simple rule now largely acted upon, but which, becoming universal, would save much thought and valuable time. It is of marvellous simplicity, of infinite utility, of universal applicability, it may easily be committed to memory, and runs thus. Do you come into contact with any book, person, or opinion, of which you absolutely comprehend nothing, declare that book, person, or opinion to be immoral, bespatter it, vituperate against it, strongly insist that any man or woman harboring it is a fool or a nave or both, carefully abstain from studying it, do all that in you lies to annihilate that book, person, or opinion. Acting on this rule so wide in its comprehensiveness, so beautifully simple in its working, Burnapart had perched Tunt's sonny with the book in his hand. Waldo came a step nearer, eyeing it like a dog whose young has fallen into evil hands. "'This book,' said Burnapart, "'is not a fit and proper study for a young and immature mind.' Tunt's sonny did not understand a word and said, "'This book,' said Burnapart, bringing down his finger with energy on the cover, "'this book is slech, slech, darvel, darvel.' Tunt's sonny perceived from the gravity of this countenance that it was no laughing matter. From the words slech and darvel, she understood that the book was evil, and had some connection with the prince who pulls the wires of evil over the whole earth. "'Where did you get this book?' she said, turning her twinkling little eyes on Waldo. "'I wish that my legs may be as thin as an Englishman if it isn't one of your fathers. He had more sins than all the cavers in caverland, for all that he pretended to be so good all those years, and to live without a wife because he was thinking of the one that was dead, as though ten dead wives could make up for one fat one with arms and legs.' cried Tunt's sonny, snorting. "'It was not my father's book,' said the boy savagely. "'I got it from your loft.' "'My loft? My book? How dare you!' cried Tunt's sonny. "'It was Im's father's. She gave it to me.' He muttered more sullenly. "'Give it here. What is the name of it? What is it about?' she asked, putting her finger upon the title. "'Burn apart,' understood. "'Political economy,' he said slowly. "'Dear Lord,' said Tunt's sonny, "'cannot one hear from the very sound what an ungodly book it is? "'One can hardly say the name. Haven't we got curses enough on this farm?' asked Tunt's sonny eloquently. "'My best-imported merino lamb dying of nobody knows what, "'and the shorthorn cow costing her two calves, "'and the sheep eaten up with the scab and the drought. "'And is this a time to bring ungodly things about the place "'to cool down the vengeance of Almighty God to punish us more? "'Didn't the minister tell me when I was confirmed "'not to read any book except my Bible and hymn book "'that the devil is in all the rest? "'And I never have read any other book,' said Tunt's sonny "'with virtuous energy. "'And I never will.' "'Walter saw that the fate of his book was sealed "'and turned sullenly on his heel. "'So you will not stay to hear what I say?' cried Tunt's sonny. "'There, take your polity-golity-gominy, "'your devil's book,' she cried, "'flinging the book at his head with much energy.' "'It merely touched his forehead on one side "'and fell to the ground. "'Go on,' she cried. "'I know you are going to talk to yourself. "'People who talk to themselves always talk to the devil. "'Go and tell him all about it. "'Go on, run!' cried Tunt's sonny. "'But the boy neither quickened nor slackened his pace "'and passed sullenly round the back of the wagon-house. "'Books have been thrown at other heads before "'and since that summer afternoon "'by hands more white and delicate "'than those of the boy-woman, "'but whether the result of the process has been, "'in any case, wholly satisfactory, may be questioned. "'We love that with a particular tenderness. "'We treasure it with a peculiar care. "'It has for us quite a fictitious value "'for which we have suffered. "'If we may not carry it anywhere else, "'we will carry it in our hearts and always to the end.' "'Burn apart blinkens when to pick up the volume, "'now loosened from its cover, "'while Tunt's sonny pushed the stumps of wood farther "'into the oven. "'Burn apart came close to her, "'tapped the book knowingly, nodded and looked at the fire. "'Tunt's sonny comprehended "'and taking the volume from his hand "'through it into the back of the oven. "'It lay upon the heap of coals, "'smoked, flared and blazed, "'and the political economy was no more, "'gone out of existence, "'like many another poor heretic of flesh and blood. "'Burn apart grinned, "'and to watch the process brought his face so near the oven door "'that the white hair on his eyebrows got singed. "'He then inquired if there were any more books left in the loft. "'Learning that there were, "'he made signs indicative of taking up armfuls "'and flinging them into the fire. "'But Tunt's sonny was dubious. "'The deceased Englishman had left all his personal effects "'especially to his child. "'It was all very well for Burnapart to talk of burning the books. "'He had had his hair spiritually pulled, "'and she had no wish to repeat his experience. "'She shook her head. "'Burnapart was displeased. "'But then a happy thought occurred to him. "'He suggested that the key of the loft "'should henceforth be put in his own safe care and keeping, "'no one gaining possession of it without his permission. "'To this Tunt's sonny riddly assented, "'and the two walked lovingly to the house to look for it. "'End of chapter one, part 11. "'Chapter one, part 12, "'of the story of an African farm by Olive Shreiner. "'This LibriVox recording is in the public domain, "'read by Sally McConnell in Betty's Bay, South Africa, "'in March 2010. "'He bites.' "'Burnapart Blinkins was riding home on the grey mare. "'He had ridden up that afternoon, partly for the benefit "'of his health, partly to maintain his character "'as overseer of the farm. "'As he rode on slowly, he thoughtfully touched the ears "'of the grey mare with his whip. "'No, Bon, my boy,' he addressed himself, "'don't propose. "'You can't marry for four years on account of the will. "'Then why propose? "'Weedle her. "'Tweedle her. "'Teedle her. "'But don't let her make sure of you.' "'When a woman,' said Burnapart, "'sagely resting his finger against the side of his nose, "'when a woman is sure of you, she does what she likes with you. "'But when she isn't, you do what you like with her.' "'And I,' said Burnapart, "'here he drew the horse up suddenly and looked. "'He was now close to the house "'and leaning over the pigsty wall in company with him, "'who was showing her the pigs was a strange female figure. "'It was the first visitor that had appeared on the farm "'since his arrival, and he looked at her with interest. "'She was a tall, pudgy girl of fifteen, "'weighing a hundred and fifty pounds "'with baggy, pendulous cheeks and upturned nose. "'She strikingly resembled Tansani in form and feature, "'but her sleepy good eyes lacked the twinkle "'that dwelt in the boar-woman's small orbs. "'She was a-tired in a bright green print, "'who wore brass rings in her ears "'and glass beads round her neck, "'and was sucking the tips of her large finger "'as she looked at the pigs. "'Who is that that has come?' asked Burnapart "'when he stood drinking his coffee in the front room. "'Why? My niece to be sure!' said Tansani, "'the hot-and-tot made, translating. "'She's the only daughter of my only brother, Paul, "'and she's come to visit me. "'She'll be a nice mouthful to the man that can get her,' "'added Tansani. "'Her father's got two thousand pounds "'in the green wagon box under his bed, "'and a farm and five thousand sheep, "'and God Almighty knows how many goats and horses. "'They mowed ten cows in midwinter, "'and the young men are after her like flies "'about a bowl of milk. "'She says she means to get married in four months, "'but she doesn't yet know to whom. "'It was so with me when I was young,' said Tansani. "'I've sat up with the young men four and five nights a week, "'and they will come riding again "'as soon as ever they know that the times up "'that the Englishman made me agree not to marry in.' "'The boor woman smirked complacently. "'Where are you going, too?' asked Tansani presently, "'seeing that Burnapart rose. "'Ha, I'm just going to the crawls. "'I'll be in to supper,' said Burnapart. "'Nevertheless, when he reached his own door, "'he stopped and turned in there. "'Soon after he stood before the little glass, "'a raid in his best white shirt with a little tux, "'and shaving himself. "'He had on his very best trousers, "'and had heavily oiled the little fringe "'at the back of his head, "'which, however, refused to become darker. "'But what distressed him most was his nose. "'It was very red. "'He rubbed his finger and thumb on the wall "'and put a little whitewash on it. "'But finding it rather made matters worse. "'He rubbed it off again. "'Then he looked carefully into his own eyes. "'They certainly were a little pulled down "'at the outer corners, "'which gave them the appearance of looking crosswise. "'But then they were a nice blue. "'So he put on his best coat, "'took up his stick, "'and went out to supper, "'feeling on the whole well satisfied. "'Aunt,' said Prano to Tansani, "'when that night they lay together "'in the great wooden bed. "'Why does the Englishman sigh so when he looks at me?' "'Ha!' said Tansani, "'who was half asleep, but suddenly started, wide awake. "'It's because he thinks you look like me. "'I tell you, Trana,' said Tansani. "'The man is mad with love of me. "'I told him the other night I couldn't marry, "'toil M was sixteen, "'or I'd lose all the sheep her father left me. "'And he talked about Jack working seven years "'and seven years again for his wife. "'And of course he meant me,' said Tansani pompously. "'But he won't get me so easily as he thinks "'he'll have to ask more than once.' "'Oh!' said Trana, "'who was a lumpish girl and not much given to talking. "'But presently she added, "'Aunt, why does the Englishman "'always knock against a person when he passes them? "'That is because you are always in the way,' said Tansani. "'But aren't,' said Trana presently. "'I think he's very ugly.' "'Shoo!' said Tansani. "'It's only because we're not accustomed "'to such noses in this country. "'In his country he says all the people have such noses "'and the redder your nose is, the higher you are. "'He is of the family of the Queen Victoria, you know,' said Tansani, wakening up with her subject. "'And he doesn't think anything of governors "'and church elders and such people, "'they are nothing to him. "'When his aunt with the drops he dies, "'he'll have enough money to buy all the farms "'in this district.' "'Oh,' said Trana, "'that certainly made a difference. "'Yes,' said Tansani. "'And he's only 41, though you'd take him to be 60. "'And he told me last night "'of the real reason of his boredness.' "'Tansani then proceeded to relate how at 18 years of age "'Bernapot had courted a fair young lady. "'How a deadly rival, jealous of his verdant locks, "'his golden flowing hair, "'had with a damnable and insinuating deception "'made him a present of a pot of permartum. "'How, applying it in the evening, "'on rising in the morning he found his pillows "'truined with the golden locks "'and looking into the glass, "'beheld the shining and smooth expanse "'which henceforth he must bear. "'The few remaining hairs were turned to a silvery whiteness "'and the young lady married his rival. "'And,' said Tansani solemnly, "'if it had not been for the grace of God "'and reading of the Psalms, "'he said he would have killed himself. "'He says he could kill himself quite easily "'if he wants to marry a woman and she won't. "'Ah, love Verot,' said Trana, "'and then they went to sleep. "'Everyone was lost in sleep soon, "'but from the window of the cabin the light streamed forth. "'It came from a dung-fire over which Waldo set brooding. "'Hour after hour he sat there, "'now and again throwing a fresh lump of fuel onto the fire, "'which burnt up bravely and then sank into a great bed "'of red coals, which reflected themselves "'in the boy's eyes as he sat there brooding. "'Brooding. Brooding. "'At last, when the fire was blazing at its brightest, "'he rose suddenly and walked slowly to a beam "'from which an ox-rim hung. "'Listening it, he ran a noose in one end "'and then doubled it round his arm. "'Mine. Mine. "'I have a right,' he muttered, "'and then something louder. "'If I fall and am killed, so much the better.' "'He opened the door and went out into the starlight. "'He walked with his eyes bent upon the ground, "'but overhead it was one of those brilliant southern nights "'when every space so small that your hand might cover it "'shows fifty cold white points, "'and the milky way is a belt of sharp, frosted silver. "'He passed the door where Bonaparte lay dreaming "'of Trana and her wealth, "'and he mounted the ladder steps. "'From those he clambered with some difficulty "'onto the roof of the house. "'It was of old rotten thatch "'with a ridge of white plaster, "'and it crumbled away under his feet at every step. "'He trod as heavily as he could. "'So much the better if he fell. "'He knelt down when he got to the far gable, "'and began to fasten his rim to the crumbling bricks. "'Below was the little window of the loft. "'With one end of the rim tied round the gable, "'the other end round his waist, "'how easy to slide down to it, "'and to open it through one of the broken panes and go in, "'and to fill his arms with books, "'and to clamber up again. "'They had burnt one book. "'He would have twenty. "'Every man's hand was against him. "'His should be against every man's. "'No one would help him. "'He would help himself. "'He lifted the blank, damp hair from his knit forehead, "'and looked round to cool his hot face. "'Then he saw what a regal knight it was. "'He knelt silently and looked up. "'A thousand eyes were looking down at him, "'bright and so cold. "'There was a laughing irony in them. "'So hot, so bitter, so angry. "'Poor little mortal.' "'He was ashamed. "'He folded his arms and sat on the ridge of the roof "'looking up at them. "'So hot, so bitter, so angry. "'It was as though a cold hand had been laid upon "'his throbbing forehead, "'and slowly they began to fade and grow dim. "'Tent sunny in the burnt book, "'burn apart in the broken machine, "'the box in the loft, "'he himself sitting there, "'how small they all became, "'even the grave over yonder. "'Those stars that shone on up above so quietly, "'they had seen a thousand such little existences. "'A thousand such little existences "'fight just so fiercely, "'flare up just so brightly and go out. "'And they, the old, old stars, shone on forever. "'So hot, so angry. "'Poor little soul,' they said. "'The rim slipped from his fingers. "'He sat with his arms folded, looking up. "'We,' said the stars, "'have seen the earth when it was young. "'We have seen small things creep out upon its surface, "'small things that prayed and loved and cried very loudly, "'and then crept under it again. "'But we,' said the stars, "'are as old as the unknown. "'He leaned his chin against the palm of his hand "'and looked up at them. "'So long he sat there that bright stars set, "'and new ones rose, and yet he sat on. "'Then at last he stood up "'and began to loosen the rim from the gable. "'What did it matter about the books? "'The lust and the desire for them had died out. "'If they're pleased to keep them from him, they might. "'What matter? "'It was a very little thing. "'Why hate and struggle and fight? "'Let it be as it would.' "'He twisted the rim around his arm "'and walked back along the ridge of the house. "'By this time, Burnapart Blenkins had finished "'his dream of Trana, "'and as he turned himself round for a fresh dose, "'he heard the steps descending the ladder. "'His first impulse was to draw the blanket over his head "'and his legs under him, and to shot. "'But recollecting that the door was locked "'in the window carefully bolted, "'he allowed his head slowly to crop out "'among the blankets and listen intently. "'Whosoever it might be, "'there was no danger of getting at him. "'So he clambered out of bed, "'and going on tiptoe to the door "'applied his eye to the keyhole. "'There was nothing to be seen. "'So, walking to the window, "'he brought his face as close to the glass "'as his nose would allow. "'There was a figure just discernable. "'The lad was not trying to walk softly, "'and the heavy shuffling of the well-known feltskuns "'could be clearly heard through the closed window "'as they crossed the stones in the yard. "'Burnipot listened till they had died away "'around the corner of the wagon-house, "'and feeling that his bare legs were getting cold, "'he jumped back into bed again. "'What do you keep up in your loft?' "'inquired Burnipot of the Boerwoman the next evening, "'pointing upwards and elucidating his meaning "'by the addition of such Dutch words as he knew, "'for the lean Hottentot was gone home. "'Dried skins,' said the Boerwoman, "'and empty bottles and boxes and sacks and soap. "'You don't keep any of your provisions there. "'Sugar now,' said Burnipot, "'pointing to the sugar-basin and then up at the loft.' "'Tunt Sonny shook her head. "'Only salt and dried peaches?' "'Dried peaches, hey?' said Burnipot. "'Shut the door, my dear child. "'Shut it tight,' he called out to him "'who stood in the dining-room. "'Then he leaned over the elbow of the sofa "'and bought his face as close as possible "'to the Boerwomans, and made signs of eating. "'Then he said something she did not comprehend. "'Then said, Waldo, Waldo, Waldo, "'pointing up to the loft and made signs of eating again. "'Now an inkling of this meaning "'dawned on the Boerwomans' mind. "'To make it clearer, he moved his legs "'after the manner of one going up a ladder. "'Appear'd to be opening a door, "'masticated vigorously, said, "'peaches, peaches, peaches, "'and appeared to be coming down the ladder.' "'It was now evident to Tunt Sunny "'that Waldo had been in her loft and eaten her peaches. "'To exemplify his own share in the proceedings, "'Burnipot lay down on the sofa "'and shutting his eyes tightly, said, "'Night, night, night.' "'Then he sat up wildly, appearing to be "'intently listening, mimicked with his feet "'one coming down a ladder, and looked at Tunt Sunny. "'This clearly showed how, "'rised in the night, he had discovered the theft. "'You must have been a great fool to eat my peaches,' "'said Tunt Sunny. "'They are full of mites as a sheepskin "'and as hard as stones. "'Burnipot, fumbling in his pocket, "'did not even hear her a mark, "'and took out from his coat tail a little horse whip, "'nicely rolled up. "'Burnipot winked at the little rhinoceros horse whip, "'at the Boerwoman, and then at the door. "'Shall we call him Waldo? "'Waldo?' he said." Tunt Sunny nodded and giggled. There was something so exceedingly humorous in the idea that he was going to beat the boy, though for her own part she did not see that the peaches were worth it. When the kaffir maid came with the wash tub, she was sent to summon Waldo, and Burnipot doubled up the little whip and put it in his pocket. Then he drew himself up, and prepared to act his important part with becoming gravity. Soon Waldo stood in the door and took off his hat. "'Come in, come in, my lad,' said Burnipot, and shut the door behind. The boy came in and stood before them. "'You need not be so afraid, child,' said Tunt Sunny. "'I was a child myself once. "'It's no great harm if you have taken a few.' "'Burnipot perceived that her a mark "'was not in keeping with the nature of the proceedings "'and of the little drama he intended to act. "'Posing out his lips and waving his hand, "'he solemnly addressed the boy. "'Waldo, it greased me beyond expression "'to have to summon you for so painful a purpose, "'but it is at the imperative call of duty "'which I dare not evade. "'I do not state that frank and unreserved confession "'will obviate the necessity of chastisement, "'which, if requisite, shall be fully administered. "'But the nature of that chastisement "'may be mitigated by free and humble confession. "'Waldo, on some years you would your own father "'in whose place I now stand to you. "'Have you, or have you not? "'Did you, or did you not? "'Eat of the peaches in the loft.' "'Say you took them! "'Say you took them! "'Then he won't beat you much!' "'said the Dutchwoman, good-naturedly, "'getting a little sorry for him.' "'The boy raised his eyes slowly "'and then fixed them vacantly upon her. "'Then suddenly his face grew dark with blood. "'So you haven't got anything to say to us, my lad,' "'said Wernepot, momentarily forgetting his dignity "'and bending forward with a little snarl. "'But what I mean is just this, my lad. "'When it takes a boy three quarters of an hour "'to fill a salt-pot, "'and when at three o'clock in the morning "'he goes knocking about the doors of the loft, "'it's natural to suppose there's mischief in it. "'It's certain there is mischief in it, "'and where there's mischief in, it must be taken out,' "'said Wernepot, grinning into the boy's face. "'Then, feeling that he had fallen from the high gravity "'with which was a spice to the pudding "'and the flavour of the whole little tragedy, "'he drew himself up. "'Waldo,' he said, "'confessed to me instantly and without reserve "'that you ate the peaches. "'The boy's face was white now. "'His eyes were on the ground, "'his hands doggedly clasped before him. "'What, you do not intend to answer?' "'The boy looked up at them once from under his bent eyebrows "'and then looked down again. "'The creature looks as if all the devils in hell were in it.' "'Cried Tant Sunny. "'Say you took them, boy. "'Young things will be young things. "'I was older than you when I used to eat "'Biltong in my mother's loft "'and get all the little niggers whipped for it. "'Say you took them.' "'But the boy said nothing. "'I think a little solitary confinement "'might perhaps be beneficial,' said Burnapot. "'It will enable you, Waldo, to reflect on the enormity "'of the sin you have committed against our father in heaven. "'And you may also think of the submission you owe "'to those who are older and wiser than you are "'and whose duty it is to check and correct you.' "'Saying this, Burnapot stood up "'and took down the key of the fuel-house, "'which hung on a nail against the wall. "'Walk on, my boy,' said Burnapot, pointing to the door. "'And as he followed him out, he drew his mouth expressively "'on one side, and made the lash of the little horse-whips "'stick out of his pocket and shake up and down. "'Tant Sunny felt half sorry for the lad. "'But she could not help laughing. "'It was always so funny when one was going to have a whipping, "'and it would do him good. "'Anyhow, he would forget all about it "'when the places were healed. "'Had not she been beaten many times "'and been all the better for it?' "'Burnapot took up a lighted candle "'that had been left burning on the kitchen table "'and told the boy to walk before him. "'They went to the fuel-house. "'It was a little stone-irrichin' that jutted out "'from the side of the wagon-house. "'It was low and without a window, "'and the dried dung was piled in one corner, "'and the coffee-mill stood in another, "'fastened on the top of a short post, about three feet high. "'Burnapot took the padlock off the rough door. "'Walk in, my lad,' he said. "'Waldo obeyed sullenly. "'One place to him was as much the same as another. "'He had no objection to being locked up. "'Burnapot followed him in and closed the door carefully. "'He put the light down on the heap of dung in the corner "'and quietly introduced his hand under his coat-tails, "'and drew slowly from his pocket "'the end of a rope which he concealed behind him. "'I'm very sorry, exceedingly sorry, Waldo, my lad, "'that you should have acted in this manner. "'It grieves me,' said Burnapot. "'He moved round towards the boy's back. "'He hardly liked the look in the fellow's eyes, "'though he stood there motionless, "'if he should spring on him.' "'So he drew the rope out very carefully "'and shifted round to the wooden post. "'There was a slip-knot in one end of the rope, "'and a sudden movement drew the boy's hands to his back "'and passed it round them. "'It was an instant's work to drag it twice "'round the wooden post. "'Then Burnapot was safe. "'For a moment the boy struggled to free himself. "'Then he knew that he was powerless and stood still. "'Horses that kick must have their legs tied,' "'said Burnapot as he passed the other end "'of the rope round the boy's knees. "'And now, my dear Waldo, "'taking the whip out of his pocket, "'I am going to beat you.' "'He paused for a moment. "'It was perfectly quiet. "'They could hear each other's breath. "'Chasten thy son while there is hope,' said Burnapot, "'and let not thy soul spare for his crying. "'Those are God's words. "'I shall act as a father to you, Waldo. "'I think we had better have your naked back.' "'He took out his pen-knife "'and slipped the shirt down from the shoulder to the waist. "'Now,' said Burnapot, "'I hope the Lord will bless and sanctify to you "'what I am going to do to you.' "'The first cut ran from the shoulder "'across the middle of the back. "'The second fell exactly in the same place. "'A shudder passed through the boy's frame. "'Nice, eh?' said Burnapot, "'peeping round into his face, "'speaking with a lisp as though to a very little child. "'Nigh, eh.' "'But the eyes were black and lustrous "'and seemed not to see him. "'When he had given sixteen, "'Burnapot paused in his work "'to wipe a little drop of blood from his whip. "'Cold, eh? "'What makes you shiver so? "'Perhaps he would like to pull up your shirt, "'but I've not quite done yet. "'When he had finished, he wiped the whip again "'and put it back in his pocket. "'He cut the rope through with his pen-knife "'and then took up the light. "'You don't seem to have found your tongue yet. "'Forgotten how to cry?' said Burnapot, "'patting him on the cheek. "'The boy looked up at him, not sullenly, "'not angrily. "'There was a wild, fitful terror in the eyes. "'Burnapot made haste to go out and shut the door "'and leave him alone in the darkness. "'He himself was afraid of that look. "'It was almost morning. "'Well, do lay with his face upon the ground "'at the foot of the fuel-heap. "'There was a round hole near the top of the door "'where a knot of wood had fallen out "'and a stream of gray light came in through it. "'Heart was going to end at last. "'Nothing lasts forever, not even the night. "'How was it he had never thought of that before? "'For in all that long dark night "'he had been very strong, had never been tired, "'never felt pain, had run on and on, up and down, up and down. "'He had not dared to stand still "'and he had not known it would end. "'He had been so strong that when he struck his head "'with all his force upon the stone wall, "'it did not stun nor pain him. "'Only made him laugh. "'That was a dreadful night.' "'When he clasped his hands frantically and prayed, "'Oh, God, my beautiful God, my sweet God, "'once, only once, let me feel you near me tonight.' "'He could not feel him. "'He prayed aloud, very loud, and he got no answer. "'When he listened, it was all quiet. "'Like when the priests of Baal cried aloud to their God, "'Oh, Baal, hear us! "'Oh, Baal, hear us!' "'But Baal was gone a-hunting. "'That was a long, wild night, "'and wild thoughts came and went in it. "'But they left their marks behind them for ever. "'For, as years cannot pass "'without leaving their traces behind them, "'neither can nights into which have forced the thoughts "'and suffering of the years. "'And now the dawn was coming, "'and at last he was very tired. "'He shivered and tried to draw the shirt up "'over his shoulders. "'They were getting stiff. "'He had never known they were cut in the night. "'He looked up at the white light "'that came in through the hole at the top of the door "'and shuddered. "'Then he turned his face back to the ground and slipped again. "'Some hours later, Burnapot came towards the fuel-house "'with a lump of bread in his hand. "'He opened the door and peered in, "'then entered and touched the fellow with his boot. "'Seeing that he breathed heavily, though he did not rouse, "'Burnapot threw the bread down on the ground. "'He was alive. That was one thing. "'He bent over him and carefully scratched open "'one of the cuts with the nail of his forefinger, "'examining with much interest his last night's work. "'He would have to count his sheep himself that day. "'The boy was literally cut up. "'He locked the door and went away again. "'Oh, Lindell,' said En, entering the dining-room "'and bathed in tears that afternoon, "'I have been begging Burnapot to let him out and he won't. "'The more you beg, the more he will not,' said Lindell. "'She was cutting out aprons on the table. "'Oh, but I think it's late, and I think they want to kill him,' said Em, weeping bitterly, and finding that no more consolation was to be gained from her cousin. She went all blubbering, "'I wonder you can cut out aprons when Waldo's shut up like that?' For ten minutes after she was gone, Lindell worked on quietly. Then she folded up her stuff, rolled it tightly together, and stood before the closed door of the sitting-room with her hands closely clasped. A flash rose to her face. She opened the door quickly and walked in, went to the nail on which the key of the fuel-room hung. Burnapot and Tunt Sunny sat there and saw her. "'What do you want?' they asked together. "'This key,' she said, holding it up and looking at them. "'Do you mean her to have it?' said Tunt Sunny in Dutch. "'Why don't you stop her?' asked Burnapot in English. "'Why don't you take it from her?' said Tunt Sunny. So they looked at each other, talking, while Lindell walked to the fuel-house with the key, her underlip bitten in. "'Waldo?' she said as she helped him to stand up and twisted his arm about her waist to support him. "'We will not be children always. "'We will have the power, too, some day.' She kissed his naked shoulder with her soft little mouth. It was all the comfort her young soul could give him. End of Chapter 1, Part 12.