 Yes, yes, yes. Fuck a lot of people here. Police in the country. Forest in use. We're 20 live. Joe Well. They're harassing us again. I don't know why, but they're harassing us, you know what I'm saying? He already thinks the car is stolen because it's a Honda. Motherfucker, take it stolen. And I'm Puerto Rican taking stolen. You know what I'm saying? He's a number- This party is making right behind me, and we don't give a fuck. This is how we do it. Look, look, I got shit in my hand. What is it? I'm gonna have to find it, I ain't find shit. What up? Are you a smart for the camera? No, I'm not. What you gotta be able to say is so funny to me, is that? What you gotta say is to us, boy or no, kids? All right, boys, have a nice day. Louis, to me, was one of my big brothers from around the way, who washes this street. And I knew him as Capewood guy. A lot of people know him as Martha, Louis. I knew him as Capewood guy. Wall Street's Capewood guy. And I think that who he was, to me personally, was a brother with somebody that you can always count on, no matter what. From the littlest things, we used to have conversations about the stupidest things, too. And he would still be interested in it. And that was the type of character he was, but although you may think, oh, a lot of people have titles for him, a lot of people have a lot of things that would rate him or make him seem like a bad person, when all in reality, he just had a big heart. And that's what happens to people with a big heart. Like, they just really, they really get hated on, they really get portrayed as something that they're not. And I think that that's what a lot of people did to Louis. He was pure. You know what I'm saying? He was real pure. You know, you talk to him, and he can be the person to talk to you. For me, he was always that person that could give you good advice, because he was really a good person to talk to, you know what I mean? He was real. He was real cool. You know what I'm saying? Man, Brother Tars, I was a fan. And he was just a person who was so smart. I ate anything he wanted to do. You know what I mean? That's made it right there. You know what I mean? He knew what he was doing with my nigga. He was like a brother to us, you know? I don't know. Every time we're getting into problems with dudes, he'll be there. And then we always tell him, man, if he got into problems with females to call us, you know, so it was like, he was like our big brother. He was a good dude, man. He wasn't about games or no bullshit. Mad humble. My turn, my man. My turn was like, the man you want to be next to, you know? Even if you had beef with him, maybe he was cool with him. Wanted to be next to him. Maybe we just bring joy to the day, like a day, a nice day out. And Mad, they're paraba fuera, everybody around him. Not on some beef, should not have some rowdy shit, but dammit, a tranquilo challenge, you know? That's how we used to go about our days with him. Just chilling, he used to do his thing, you know? That I don't know about. What I know about is, Mad had a light of the party, like my mancito said. Before it was bangs, nigga, you know what I'm saying? We used to just chill, nigga. Before, I used to ride bikes, I used to play ball, man. I used to play baseball right here, man. Nigga, a little family, you know what I'm saying? Man, nigga, we played football right here on the street, man. You feel me? From the top of the block, nigga, I nigga would throw it all the way down there past that red factory, man, nigga. You feel me? Not even trying to force it, man, nigga. That's how niggas jump saying every day, nigga. Then you know how shit happens, niggas grow up. But, nigga, he knew me since, nigga. I couldn't even come out the stoop, you feel me? That's for life, nigga. That's how deep this shit is for my nigga, dawg, it's for life, man, nigga. I remember it every day of my life. Sometimes I think I have it in front of me. I was a big boy, a big boy. A boy who, mentally, didn't grow up as a man, although he had a size of a bulldog. But he was a boy, he played everything, a boy, a big boy, which is a boy who doesn't hurt you. A boy who respected, respected both the small and the big. At least what I was able to see here. I can't say anything against him, right? That nigga was a real dude, you know what I mean? And if he didn't know you were holding a war, he was real good to the nigga, he'll wrap you to the end, you know what I mean? And that's how I felt with him, you know what I mean? Wherever we see each other, I'll go raw down both boys, then you'll show me mad love like your pee. It was good, my nigga, you know what I'm saying? I didn't even murder for like a year, I come like that, but the time that I did spend with him and I did chill with him, he showed me a lot, he was a kind person. He was, he was actually more of a kid, a kid person. I was working, trying to inspire me. Pretty! I killed him, tell me, what are you going to do? I'm going to put my hands up for that. It doesn't help at all. He always did everything for the kids, like he would see the kids and he would do things more for the kids. He was a real friendly person, I mean, I can't explain it. He had so much love for everyone. He was like one of the main people that could really come on. Like, if anything, he told me that I was special and stuff, because when I was little, he used to tell everybody on the street and stuff to tell me to dance, because as you know in the beginning you see me dancing, and ever since then, he used to tell people to give me like dollars for me to dance and stuff, and he used to give me a cardboard and stuff, and like, I always used to make him laugh, and like, he always used to surprise me with like stupid stuff, like anything. I know him since he was like 14, I met him through my brother. My brother's Joe, that's number one. So ever since then though, we've always kicked it, like it was cool, like he was a good friend, he was always there. He was always there, coming around the block, he was there. Early as shit in the morning, he was like, I guess he probably slept out there. Louis was, to me, he was a caring person. I feel like he was the favorite for everyone. He would put everyone first but himself. Louis, I thought he was a real nigga. He didn't take no shots from nobody, like if he had to do something, he would do it, if he had to do it by himself, he would do that too. He was the type of dude like, if he's eating, you're gonna eat with him, you feel me? Like everybody eating with him, you feel me? That's the way he was. Real nigga, man. There was a very few times that I've seen him down, he was always happy and he liked to help people and he looked out for everybody. He was just a great person. He was a person who was always there for you, who always gave you anything you needed. If he knew that you was in need, he was the first one to be there. And he was the first one that would come to mind, like who would do this for me, who would be there for me right now? You automatically think Louis. And I think that he's just that, he just had a big heart, especially for the hip. He didn't even have to be his drum. If you was in an interaction with somebody in a conflict with somebody right then, then he'll shut it down. Excuse me, what's happening here? Do you need my help? Do you need anything from me? I didn't even have to be his drum. But if you were someone he loved and he cared about, he definitely came through all the time. And I don't mean that through violence or anything like that. That could be a simple conversation. It could just be checking something real quick. He would do it. In my eyes, my thought was a real ass nigga. I know a lot of people said that. He was a true friend. Whenever you needed something, he was there for you. He was always making jokes and it was always like, when you were around him, everybody was on amp. You just make people laugh and like a party all the time with him. You know, who's gonna come closer to me, especially a nigga that kept it humble, kept it official with nigga. You know, never fucking came out of this cavity towards nobody. With us, he was official. He's like a family member, you know? A shell like that. Out here, we wash from family. We ain't no gang. We keep it official with everybody. Filming on top of that, you know, that nigga to us was more like a brother to us, you know? My father, number one time we was viewed closer right out. He stopped everything he was doing to go get his daughter something she needed. He was loyal. You know, he was a good friend. He never let two people he knew have beef. You know, until he would try to mediate so it wouldn't even have to get to beef. I met him, you know, before he died, like a couple years before he died. And before that, before I even knew him that I spoke to him. I used to hear his name ringin' bells. My thought is, my thought is, I'm like, damn, who is this guy? I gotta meet this guy, you know? Even on the basketball court, when it was little, 13, 14, you know what I'm saying? He always played ball. You know what I'm saying? Like, attitude was always right, but he don't disrespect him. He ain't gonna disrespect you. You know what I mean? So, my thought was that dude, man. He was that dude. Absolutely. He was a better nigga, though. That was my dude on the scene, baby. For years, man. I met this dude when the dude was like 7, maybe. Playing ball, you know what I mean? My thought's my man to the bone. You always kept it at 100. He's from Boston Street. I'm from at PSP, you feel me? And I've been knowing him since I came to the state. So, Mata's a real dude to the bone. If you keep it cool with him, he keep it cool with you. You callin' that rap? I met Mata a couple of years back. I was in high school. We were in this little group called Pink Illusions, and one of the girls named Natalie. That was her blog. So, she introduced us to other guys from Boyl's thing. And Mata was the main nigga who always stood out. Always. Always knew how to keep everything live, even if we had nothing to do. I met him as Mata. When they said Lewis, I didn't know who was Lewis. I always knew him as Mata. I always seen him every morning. Every morning I would look out my window and boyl some street, and the first person I would see was him, was Red Rock and his Boston Herald. And smoking his cigarette. And you know, he used to always yell, It's me, bitches. To my friends and stuff like that. And I'm like, oh, that's Mata. We always got police to be in the hood, playing hide and go. The cops and robbers, new school versus old school. All that shit. I was wrong for all that shit. I even got wedges from that nigga. We grew up together. You know, my cousins live right there, like two houses down. I don't know if you could point the camera that way. That house right there. That was a family's house. I used to come down from New York all the time. I never really lived in Boston. My cousin Gary and Bismarck lived right here in the street. He was always here playing baseball. I used to come out, I used to be my cousins. That's how I basically got introduced to everybody when I was about 11, 12 years old. We used to chill all the time, come out. His cousin David, that's my man. His father, my father's mad cool. Every time I seen him, to me, it wasn't even Matta. It was just somebody that I grew up with. Somebody that I played baseball with, like La Plaquita and riding bikes and GTs and dinos. Before it was anything like any drama, any beef, none of that guns. We didn't know none of that, man. It was just kids playing. As I grew older, in a way, people just chose their path and their way. We never really started chilling as much, but every time we seen each other, I used to come through from New York to visit my family. Everybody know my father, Manuel, you know what I mean? He always used to be out here and he used to be like, yo, what up? You know your friend when you little? Basically, that's what it was. It wasn't even about nothing. We never talked about no beef to tell you the truth. He gave a voice to those that were silenced. He was the voice of those people who were even intimidated to say something. He was the voice of those people that were that were scared to say something. He brought light, you know what I'm saying? It's almost like you would think of him as like everybody would think of him like, oh, I'm the, you know, I'm the, can I square on here? I'm the shit. Or you would think people like, oh, I'm the shit. I'm this. I'm that. I hold this. I hold that. It's not even like that. He kind of did it because of, for other people. So like, why does he get recognized by his baseball coach? You know, by his Barbara, by people down the street. By, you know what I'm saying? You're not down the street. You know who used to cook for the neighborhood. Like, why is he known for that? Why is he known even to her? Because of that, like he used to always be that voice. He used to say things what it was, how it was, when it was like, he used to just put it out there. And I think that's why he was known. And he had a way of like speaking to people, even like to be a hithas or even to my mom. You know what I'm saying? Like my mom, when he spoke to her, he knew how to respect her. He knew how to like attend to her. He knew the level of respect. He had values. He had morals. And he's shown them, you know what I'm saying? And that's what made who he was. He was such a character that like, he was one of those people that walks in and like you don't even know him. And he'll just sit there and kick it with you, you know? And he'll vibe with you. And he'll let you know what it is. He was a man of his word. You feel me? He ain't like would do that. You know what I'm saying? Would say sending your faith and not mean it. You know what I'm saying? He was legit. You know what I'm saying? Everybody know who he was. That's why his love stretches from here to Kadawala in my nigga. You feel me nigga? Everybody know Maataka Kola. You know what I'm saying? Louis Stonkosa. You know what I'm saying? He was a warrior. He was a good person. He had a good heart. Like he looked out for everyone. And at one point in my life, I lost a dead brother, a close friend. I would call a brother. And Maataka Louis was around for the time that that happened. And he was like, oh whenever you need a shoulder to cry on dog, I'm here. Like you know Kadawala was my boy too. He was my brother too. You know? And my brother always played ball with him. And they loved being on the same team because they were so dominant together. I used to hate being on the opposing team because you know they would just dominate us on the basketball court. Those two. So he was a very powerful person. He was a warrior. He never let his emotions show sometimes. So whenever I see him up and up, he talked to me. We talk about some of those things of what he's going through. His babies. His babies. His kids. His family. To get a lifestyle. You know what I'm saying? How he's been doing. We always talk about trying to be positive. Trying to change things. And he always wanted to go down that road. It was just cut short. You know? It was just something that he never got to fulfill. I first met when playing ball all around J.P. and we started. It was basically Elm Hill versus Voice at the Time. Playing ball. And he was just always cool. Always happy. You know what I mean? If he was down, he'd probably meet up, bump into him and say, He'll probably just say one dumb thing or do something to make you laugh and don't make your day. We used to go down the street to the store. He was like nine years old at 10. We used to see him going to the store all the time. So that's how we met. And from there, we just got cool. We started from there. Basketball, baseball. Attending together. Just playing together every day. And it was like, I don't know why. I don't know why. When we left, there was a whole bunch of us that happened. He was young. He filmed me. He used to always chill. We just got that vibe. And looking at it now, we're like brothers and sisters. My name is Noemi Pineda. I'm the older sister of Mata. She didn't like me that much because I've always been like a little bit of a group teacher, but a fan. For those who don't know him, I loved him a lot. Not only because he was the only one in the family, but because he always told me he was. Even though he wasn't going to do it, he always told me he was. When he advised me to do something wrong, he said, yes, yes, I'm going to change. When he came very late, he told him the other day, look, you have to try to get here early because mommy is not sleeping. Yes, yes, I'm going to arrive early. All the girls said yes, even though it would take five minutes. One day, since he was my only brother, we took all the women, he was the only one, and my husband's family were the ones who were building the house. I told him to please help me paint. To help me paint the porche because I was tired from there. Well, I looked for the paint, I looked for the brush. He told me, yes, yes, yes, I'm going to paint the whole porche. I promise you that I'm going to paint it so that you don't claim anything again. Okay. Wow. I entered the house and when I went out, it was like 15 minutes. I painted three tables. He was gone. He was just, he was gone. I'm like, I thought you were supposed to finish. I mean, what is this? Solo llamo y le digo mira, pero tú me dijiste a mí que me iba a pintar el porche. What's going on? I mean, he's like, oh no, no, no. No, no. My nigga just called me. I mean, my nigga. What kind of talk is that? Yeah, yeah, my nigga just called me. Don't worry, tomorrow, I'm going to finish the work. Until now, nothing, no. I end up finishing the day in port. Yo soy Luis Manuel Troncoso, papá de Luis Troncoso. Él estaba pequeñito y había otro niño que le daba golpe todos los días. Entonces yo salí para afuera y lo vi al otro niño dándole golpe. Y yo buscé un palo y le dije vaya a pelear para afuera. Que no, que no va a pelear porque lo otro es muy chiquito. Yo dije, usted va a pelear con él ahora mismo. Entonces él salió para afuera y desde ese día él lo agarró con el palo, le dio y el otro niño más nunca se volvió a meter con él. Después que se hizo hombre éramos muy amigos. Peleábamos todos los días. Yo y él, todos los días peleábamos. Me decía muchas palabras malas y yo le decía palabras a él también pero que entonces él bajaba la cabeza, bajaba por ahí y subía de una vez para acá arriba y le daba. Mi nombre es Lidia Pineda yo soy la mamá de Luis Troncoso para mí Luis era un buen muchacho porque nunca con la familia de él en la casa yo nunca tuve problemas con él aunque siempre le decía una vez me dijo que iba a hacer el GD le pidió el dinero a la otra hermana de él y se lo dio y yo le dije Luis irá y darte el dinero porque tú no estás haciendo el GD en esa me dijo que se le perdió el dinero entonces después borbió y me lo pidió a mí y yo se lo dije pero esta vez yo te voy a llevar y yo fui y lo llevé y lo dejé allá y él nunca hizo el GD y para sacar la licencia o le pedí a la hermana de él la hermana de él siempre le daba el dinero también para la licencia y él se lo dio como otra vez y a la última fue que la lo sacó entonces cuando nos mudamos aquí yo siempre como que lo protegía a él porque yo siempre me quedaba hasta la 2 y a la 3 chequeando por la por la ventana entonces tenía un problema que siempre botaba la llave y me tiraba piedra por la ventana y ya yo le le había cogido el hilo de que cuando yo ya ventada sonaba ayer a porque me estaba tirando piedra para que le abriera la puerta pero yo de Luis ya yo le conocía hasta el paso de la de caminar aquí y el paso de como él me tocaba la puerta ya yo decía esa era Luis y cuando alguna vez venía se acotaba a ir en este mueble y yo me acotaba en el otro y ahí no ponía no hablar y cuando se acotaba un rato en este mueble él cogía para la cocina y el ser me decía oh pero yo me parezco un pollo yo me parezco un pollo porque tu mamá cocina roya bichuel y pollo y se comía un ching y se acotaba o salía para acá y otra vez pero yo nunca me voy a conformar de la muerte de él porque yo yo todavía lo estoy esperando Like I knew him here like inside the house and people when I would go out they'd be like oh you're Luis's little sister he's mad cool and I wouldn't see it because I'm his little sister like I'd see like this dorky like my brother like it wouldn't be the same but then when we started like when our ages started to kind of like coming together and we were chilling with the same people and like doing the same things then I saw like oh wow he's not as dorky and as silly as he is at home he's like mad big out here he was like he was in love with his daughters with both of them like he was mad happy I was jealous because I was like wow now you have two little girls I'm not biggest boy and he was just like nah chill like he was still spoiled with me and like still spoiled with them too but pretty soon you know it's not gonna happen right like this is gonna end for you I was mad at that but he loved them a lot enough to you know I don't know with them and now his daughters is just like him they have like the whole like his attitude his swag kind of like and it's crazy because they're just two that year that I got pregnant like I went on vacation to the Dominican Republic the December and like I was already pregnant but I didn't know and he was kind of telling me that I was pregnant but I'm like I'm not pregnant like so he comes I was in the bathroom and he knocks on the door he's like what happened I'm like what do you think he's like you're pregnant he's like I told you like like he was like like he was just so confident about it like he already had been like and he was just he was excited I was just like that was the last thing I wanted at the moment but you know but I was like I'm happy and thankful that it happened the way it did because you know my daughter wouldn't be here like he was just excited like he even he took a picture of the pregnancy test and he had it like on his phone he was just showing everybody he was a loving father he loved his girls so so so much I remember one day Rosie had his oldest daughter Liani and she accidentally told him that she scratched her in the cheek he was so mad he was so mad he was so furious and from there on I was like he really loves his daughter he really did love her he used to talk about them all the time who's that oh my god who's that baby who's that baby who's that who's that who who that's too little okay that one a kiss a kiss not a one that's a puppy that's a puppy that's a puppy teach him how to play teach him how to play that's a puppy you need to have this one there who's that wait, how do you want to wait is she a puppy do you want this one you don't want this one puppy I'm sorry that's a baby puppy you're the baby of the puppy I'm the baby of the puppy that day I remember we were going to a baby shower that day that afternoon and that morning I went out to buy a gift and he stayed with Leonie like he was watching her while I went out and then like when I came back we was just chilling and like I don't know where he decided to go to JP and I told him like not to go because we had something to go in a couple of hours and he's like nah I'm just gonna go for a little bit back by four o'clock yeah I was wearing that day I started in front of my stairs we was actually walking to the park on Brooke's side and all of a sudden like they just decided to go play basketball so we went to Stony Brook I remember getting out of work at 3.30 and passing by Stony Brook and I remember like I had a headache but my mom always like when we were passing by we'd always look for this big dude and make sure there's Lewis we know he's there and I remember we passed by there and we seen him we seen everybody playing basketball and then I looked and then laid back again because I had a headache and we just went on our way and then we got here like around it was 4.30 almost 5 and I was laying down and I got a phone call and it was from my home girl Natalie she was like yo they shot your brother and I thought like I don't know since it was him I felt like oh my god he's untouchable like it was probably like he's fine it's nothing big nothing can happen to him because whatever that's what you think like you don't automatically assume while he's dead someone text me or someone call something happened something where it happened they told her but then my phone was ringing a lot at the same time and they kept saying oh you know I think Lewis got into a fight and I said oh my god let's see what's going on so I grabbed her and I told her don't tell anything to my mom I said don't say anything let's find out what's going on because I kind of I have been I think maybe the strongest one but then you get to the point you get to the line that you're not strong anymore you just collapse so you don't know what to do things we left the house I told her don't say anything to my mom until we really find out what's going on hey I just think it would just a fight oh maybe a fight so my phone was ringing a lot and people kept calling me and insisting that something happened worse than a fight but I wasn't expecting anything worse than that because he wasn't really a troublemaker or anything like that I think ever since you know since he was little motivated for him to fight you really have to push his buttons so I really thought that he would just it was a fight nothing else a fight you know something went wrong maybe he got hurt but I never thought I'd never picture anything worse than that I was there with all of them and it was playing basketball probably like 20 minutes or 30 minutes since the games that's when everything happened I was right beside him you know what I'm saying everybody went to the hood to go run ball you know what I'm saying some other niggas idea was like yo let's go run ball niggas didn't even really want to but we went everybody went and the niggas that wanted to play ball didn't even fucking play ball my niggas mate he was shitting on niggas playing ball you feel me that's 100 you know what I'm saying smacking boys making wet and threes I remember all that shit you know what I'm saying like it was yesterday and niggas was all occupied you feel me everybody was all occupied at the moment you know what I'm saying and I went to the store niggas was sick, niggas was chilling niggas was all occupied thinking about other shit you feel me at the moment niggas was playing ball we just finished scoring and we were walking back and right there that's when everything happened I had my shorts on so I reached for my sweatpants because I had my sweatpants on the rocks and that's on dogs once I grabbed my sweatpants I heard the first shot so I just stayed still like I didn't even look I just stayed still looking at my shorts once I heard the first shot because you know it sounded like you know niggas anyways boom then I heard the second you know what I'm saying then the rest so niggas just bounced I heard everybody's head bounce we've run down you know the first thing I'm looking at everybody who's next to me you feel me next to me you know what I'm saying my niggas made it I went straight back up niggas and you know what I'm saying I went crazy man on dogs I thought he was good I thought he was just gonna make it I thought he was gonna be alright I don't know I was like shocked I didn't know that shit happened at the time I couldn't believe it I knew it was real because I seen everybody's faces like shit ain't no joke I get out of my phone rings it was Rosie she's like oh I'm with my sister my brother just got shot just um take care my mother and my father just make sure they don't um pick up the phone and I'm thinking like oh they shot my dad he got that I'm thinking like nothing happened to him I seen him on the ground and I got up to a run and I was like come on my dad you know they left I'm thinking that he's covering himself for like shields so he dropped to the ground but I kept calling his name he didn't answer so when I started walking up to him that's when I seen that he wasn't okay my phone kept ringing ringing ringing and it was it was one of his friends so like I thought he was calling for him because you know when they couldn't get in contact with him they'll just call me let me just answer and tell them that he's not here so when I answered like then he was like come along like he was like yelling at me on the phone like oh what the f**k and picking up your phone and I'm like girl what the f**k I'm like I'm f**king sleeping and that person was just like yo my dad just got shot in the head and like it just you know I was still like half asleep it took me a minute to like register that through my head like what and then he just like hung up I don't know what happened and I remember I just screamed like and I woke up my daughter we drove to Austin Medical kind of stand there like for maybe 20 minutes and I'm like damn if they're not here yet because they told us they took him in the ambulance but I said come on now it's 15 15 minutes and they and they haven't say anything so I said to my sister I said to Rosie hey I think we gotta keep it moving but then my mom was calling too and all these phone calls kept coming one after the other I said something and not right so I started calling ignoring all the calls that were coming in and I started calling every single hospital around to see where they took him then I finally called bringing a woman's because I'm driving everywhere but I want to make sure that the place I go next he will be there so I said to her and she's like can you describe him for me in order for me to kind of give you some information over the phone because I'm not able to do it and she's like I'm really sorry I said I'm just gonna describe him if you see someone that look like look at the description that I'm gonna give you just let me know over and see you know that I'm kind of close to something so I said you know he's tall he's heavy said you know he's he just got his hair cut you know and he must have his idea of something on him and for sure he has a white t-shirt even though I didn't see him that day I didn't I didn't see him that day he just loved the white t-shirt so much that I knew that it was probably the closest thing that was gonna have me to his description so she's like yes yes we have someone that look yeah we have someone that is kind of you know is close to the information that you're giving me yes we have someone that just arrived a couple of minutes ago yes the description that you're giving me you know they are correct yes he does have the white t-shirt on so I just said okay alright oh thank you you know so we're heading there we're already outside almost because we're we went through every single red light that you can think of I said hey I'm sorry but if you stop me I'm just gonna tell you I gotta you know I gotta get close enough I gotta be there so when we got there the place was crowded and they wouldn't let us see him and they left us there for like hours and hours and I don't know I felt inside of me like after like half an hour I was like I told the security guard I was like why don't you guys just tell us he's dead because I mean what are you guys waiting for because it was just like how it was like if he would have been alive they would have said okay so let's have like his mom or her sister come inside and see him or they would have said okay he's fine but we need to do this and this and that and they wouldn't tell us anything and the hospital got packed there was people like they had to call for extra security it was crazy there was people outside there was people outside across the street like they it was out of control like the amount of people that were at the hospital well on my way to work Kathy called me crying hysterically and I'm like Kathy what's wrong she goes they shot Martha I'm like what what do you mean they shot Martha she's like yeah she's crying hysterically she's telling me to go and meet her that she's scared because they told her that he stopped breathing at a point and I'm like Kathy calm down because he'll be good you know it's Martha like a lot of people get shot and they are right and Martha was a strong ass nigga I honestly thought he would have made it my mother was still calling and I just said to her yes you know we found him but I just think he got into a fight you know nothing big and I'm there already and I'm like oh no nothing big happened I'm going to wait until I see him then I'm going to call you back and then she get insisting like are you sure I said no no no I haven't seen him yet you got to wait until I see him then I'm going to call you alright bye bye I got to go in and I can be on the phone that going in never happened I never end up going in yeah then they took us into a little room and the nurse she was cool she was just like we have to call the some person to come in and tell you guys and I'm like okay can you just tell us what's really going on and she was just like okay I'll just tell you but don't react until she wants to react but it was crazy because how do you not react when they tell you that your brother is dead like she's just like I'm just going to tell you guys because I know you guys already know I mean they made it pretty obvious and it was just it was really hot outside and it was just taking a walk and then my sister called me and you know I couldn't really hear what she was saying because she was crying and then she was like oh you know I'm I'm like okay you know I'm thinking like okay a lot of people get shot you know I'm thinking he's okay so she hung up with me and she really didn't know what to tell me that's all she said and she said she was going to come back so I was confused but then my boyfriend was like oh my boy just called me and he was there where it happened and he got shot in the head that's when I was like whoa hold on and I was walking to my house you know because I was in the store and I kept on crying and crying and he was telling me to calm down because you know there was a lot of people around and I'm crying but you know like I couldn't believe I'm like okay what you mean he got shot in the head so I just kept on crying and crying and when I got home I waited for my sister to come home and that's when we hugged each other and we started crying like damn you know you're serious you know and then she told me that you know she had passed away I couldn't believe it I don't believe it I don't believe in God or what I heard my niggas voice and my niggas told me 10 minutes before my mom called me and my mom passed away I love you rest in peace you know what I'm saying she called me up 15 minutes after I heard my niggas voice you know what I'm saying I'm over here hearing my niggas voice and he said you know what much they got me but he was smiling I know how my niggas smiled I've seen that smile a million times and my niggas was smiling and he was like they got me but you know what I'm good when I'm mad they got me but I'm good when I'm mad don't you worry I'm good when I'm mad you know what I'm saying and I still couldn't believe you know you know how people say your mind is playing tricks on I didn't really I heard it I heard the words and I just couldn't believe I was like nah fuck that they gave me the phone call my mom dude was hitting me up niggas she told me what it was niggas she dropped the bomb on me you know what I'm saying my niggas I love them I love them a lot and he used to tell me that when I grow up that to do good he never wanted to see me in the streets cause if he sees me in the streets he's gonna kick my ass in some shit and I always used to laugh when I when I when I found out that he was dead I was like my father's house and I was sleeping and I was very knocked out not how I do and my uncle woke me up he's like yo your sister's on the newspaper I'm like yeah right and I thought it was for the double Dutch stuff that she does and then I saw her blacking macho and then I saw Martha's picture and it said 20 year old man shot dead I couldn't believe it and then I fold the paper up just so you can see his face only and I went on my space saw everybody's picture and I did not want to believe it for nothing and when I went home I saw everybody crying everybody like the main people my house was crying I couldn't believe it and I was crying because like the day before he got shot before I left to my grandmother's house he he gave me a dollar and he told me what was I doing on the streets I'm like nothing riding bikes with my friends he's like oh well you better stay out the streets just stay out make sure nothing happens to you and give me money and go to the store I'm like alright and then I sit down and never smoke it was hard because I was trying to keep my aunt sane she was just facing back and forth with her hands on her head my uncle was he was okay he put on the news and I was trying to just keep my aunt away from the room so she won't see anything once the news hit they got information that Martha had passed away everyone in the room just shut down I remember walking out and just my aunt hadn't seen the video yet I mean the news and I just remember coming out with my hands like I can't believe it and once my aunt seen that her eyes like it was I can't even describe it like the pain in her eyes was crazy she felt like disappointed she was so furious she was so sad she just collapsed and I honestly didn't know what to do I seen them like a day before that on top of Boyleson I was getting something to eat with my wife and my kid we spoke briefly we spoke about how hard it was it was nice out there was a lot of talk going on he was his regular self just was doing him he was happy we had that big smile on his face the next day my cousin called me Dorchester and he was telling me but he wasn't saying his name right so I was like who are you talking about he was saying something and then when I realized he said Martha I was like nah get out of here I was in Dorchester so I automatically jumped in the whip came right over here to this side of town seeing what was going on to come find out it was true and I mean I didn't I was really in disbelief I didn't believe it for a day or two it didn't hit me you know what I mean it really didn't hit me so this day I still it still it sunk in but I still think I'm going to see him I still feel like I see people that look like him I swear to God it's him where were you when he passed do you remember where you were I was in the school for the white man I was in jail I don't want to get into that but it sure fucks me up where were you I used to ask for you every fucking every other three weeks I used to see that name like yeah where the fuck is he at where the nigga popping out I used to know him I used to go by my window and shit went back to the pool went out somewhere and shit that's something that I try to keep you know what I'm saying so I can keep myself moving because man that shit will fuck my whole whole movement he's definitely you know what I'm saying that shit up that many people don't get that much this is the way Mata wrote in the streets and this is something I learned from him because he told me this and you know all the people I've heard it before you know it's better he was respected than to be feared he wasn't a dude that was feared he was respected he used to respect people like I said he treats you how you treat him so if you came out of him in a good vibe he was going to come at you in a good vibe most of the time people came up to him like oh I heard about you you a cool dude like oh you're Mata from Boston so people used to come up to him and show him love so that was the type of dude he was a dude that used to protect his hood he used to protect the people he was around he was like a protector he was out here and he made sure this was good we was good because he was out here and he wasn't going to let nothing go down he was that type of dude he used to show you love and protect you if you can't help you in any way and just always make sure you're good that's why everybody loved him he was that type of dude it was a tragedy that I never thought that I would see anyone that's the way in front of my eyes or my arms or however you want to see it I mean it was tragedy to me and ever since it's happened my life has been downhill it's like tragedy after tragedy after tragedy and I could not explain how I felt that day and I could never be able to explain exactly how I feel because that has affected me and not only me it's also affected my son's life a lot my thought was an idol to my son he knew what to say to my son my son loved him and I can't really I don't like to get into details about it because it hurts me so much you know and I'm just glad in a way that I was there I wish I wasn't there but it also gave me a privilege to at least hold him for some time and be able to tell him that everything's gonna be okay and that I loved him despite whether I knew him 5, 10 years it didn't matter but at least when he passed he didn't pass him out he passed with somebody that he knew I mean I was fine for a little bit but I just keep having tragedy after tragedy in my life so I mean it hasn't ended I just lost my son's father of me so Tito lost his mom and I lost my best friend in October so it's like I don't know right now in my point of life how much more I have to go through this but I've always said that God is never gonna give me something I can't handle and I have to move on from this and I know I have to but I feel right now it's not the time I feel like I can move on from this I will but as long as I feel the way that I feel I'm never gonna forget about him that was my first time experience with him and I'm glad that I was there to at least hold him and look at him and his face and tell him that he'll be okay this is what type of nigga this was we call this nigga at like 1 o'clock in the morning talk about yo let's get some shovels nigga nigga it's for real we go to Franklin Park nigga we start digging a hole nigga it's for my dog though my dog and I got run over by a car and he helped me bury it and shit but me, him, Joao, my girl went up to Franklin Park on the clock in the morning I'm serious I get calls like yo we gonna go dig a hole again nigga ain't ask me no questions but just to be sure that the nigga ain't give a fuck nigga it's family it's my pleasure right there nigga I'm gonna use this little brother nigga if I want my sons nigga that nigga was like an older brother to me man I used to wear that nigga's clothes nigga you know what I'm saying that's how cool me that nigga was I used to take showers in his house and shit nigga that nigga will be missed nigga but never forgotten nigga we out here we love you man again he was real like if he loved you he loved you he always had you and you know you can always hide him back he knows who's his people to this day he knows you know what I'm saying he knows who's real not man he wasn't real nigga he always had you back no matter what you could have just met him one day right there like I come through my voice from around door chest like yo this is my nigga made it right there like oh yeah what's good baby oh I made it nigga like yo you want to smoke yo bro son yo sparking me yo man what's that doing he was a good person though man a real person somebody will be there for you anytime any day perfect but I remember he was talking to me about like how we all got to eat like everybody everybody got to get money cause because they just got to support each other like that's how it is like if we all get money together then we all going to move up he was just trying to keep people as one like together that's a lot not a lot of people could do that I don't know people that could do that like he used to bring mad people out here like girls girls used to come down beat the horn man nigga it's like like 5 like 5 out of 10 cars that drove down boys they would say what up to my that's how many people knew him he knew a lot of people and shit he was a real dude that's why everybody had love for him I can't really say you could move forward you know move on because like I keep saying that somebody that he's always going to be my memory and you know to the day I'm old with the guys like we when we talking about yo you know like he's always going to come up because he was around and my memories like you know I was here like this was the hood all things that people can think about just happens and like you always going to have that memory like yo you remember that day was over oh yeah Matta was there remember yeah yeah like he's always going to pop up so there's no way you can move on there's no way to like not think about it just got to like just learn from the experience and just everybody just you know see what happens and you know you got to get from all the negative the little bit of positive you know like from the environment just grab that and just you know try to run with that and you know because there's no way you can move forward there's no way to move on he's always going to be there even for the people that didn't know him that well like that just seen him around say what's up to him that's just just changed that life completely right there just that John not being used to him coming down the street always always be 8 in the morning and he'll be right there in the corner one of the first motherfuckers out here like the neighborhood, the city the world just lost on the ghetto John F. Kennedy, Martin Luther King type status like it's just bigger than words he was bigger than words like he was just he was a soul and spirit of a whole era of a whole time a whole whole community you know what I'm saying his era may have been short lived but it was powerful and it was something of legends it's something that Hollywood needs to make a movie about you know what I'm saying I'm from a very different mentality old school when the L ran in Emerson square station at that time I'm talking about Old Moon, Earl Selito Froggy dudes that grew up in our neighborhood we were just some tight kids we were just looking out for each other's back and at that time what made it really different was that because everybody had to come to our neighborhood to get to their neighborhood they figured they could do their dirt in our neighborhood and so that dirt man that if my mother was walking on the street why did my mother have to worry about tucking her jewelry and in response to that threat we were together and said you know it just can't be like that and you're talking about the time that the Hispanic people come in a handful and there was no such thing as Dominican, Puerto Rican or none of that beef stuff if you spoke Spanish and made rice and beans we were all the same in the years I served my time in prison I started hearing the little Puerto Rican at the Dominican beach then I started hearing Moza having beef with Moza in Boston with this and that and that all comes in basically because it's all pre-programmed mentality because we're fighting for a block that technically we never own and then we end up in the same jail block with the dudes that are supposed to be our enemies and then when we get a man we find out that the system kind of sets her up in a way that you're a Latino so you're in this Latino jail block and then they break you up even further you're Puerto Rican or you're Dominican and when I got locked up there weren't a whole lot of ex-men that got locked up at that time so when I got locked up the only people that I knew from around the way were some of the A's from the categories and so they were brothers and when I hung with them the Bolliquas from Springfield or you know Dominican from Connecticut or whatever would quickly tell me yo what you doing because when it hits off in here are you with them or you with us because by the shade of your color your skin and because you have a little bit of like accident in you they're going to assume you're with us so when the night start throwing you're going to get to catch a battle and it was the first time ever I felt that racism type of stuff happened you know kind of come off of it but I think the escalation comes in as you know as we become more embodying to this American mentality that violence is the way of life you know what I'm trying to say it becomes sort of a custom I mean there's a reason why those games sell where they sell it starts from a very young age you know I don't even go back I mean the most bloodiest history in America didn't come during this time it came in the 30s during prohibition when they took something away they took alcohol away everybody went crazy okay and when they were killing each other that was one thing when they were killing each other and I'm talking about the lentitos killing each other over alcohol you quickly see how the laws got flipped and they stopped doing that but when it's us killing each other and nothing they don't do first plain simple they're looking for us they win any which way they win when one of us drop they win when one of us gets locked because you become slave labor right from the jump 50 cents a day and that's where it ends up going to I mean when I see a Martha I just see a Hector of that time I didn't know a Martha in that personal life but I knew Hector in that personal life I knew the musician the artist who enjoyed painting murals the guy who played chess a lot of people didn't know that he competed around the whole state chess tournaments beating white boys and chinos in chess you know had all the capacity there to be something better but you know when you grow up thinking that your world is a four block radius you're already growing up thinking you're pre-incocerated and then you become physically incarcerated and then you end up being where it's the ultimate incarceration so you're locked anyway and so when I see talks of gobbles and this and that and I heard about Martha you know it's just history repeating itself you know what I mean and somebody else is going to rise to the ranks and somebody else is going to continue to play the game you know I'm not a preacher because to tell you the truth you know I know how it really is out there sometimes you could try to change it as an individual but sometimes it's a struggle within you and that kind of led me back here to spontaneous celebration in a way because I wanted to come back to the name that I grew up in because I remember the first promise that I made to myself was damn it me and Hector had somebody like me who knows where we would have been where we would have gone because it was potential and always known alive this thing about I hate when it's the violence against ourselves you know what I mean because we're still the smallest number we're the growing population but we're the least that owns anything in America you know we're the least that controls our own destiny you know we're the least that leaves gifts back for our children and it's only been in the very last short couple of years that yeah a couple of us has risen to points of leadership and responsibility you know what I mean and you know especially at this time our president is black you know what I mean it's a big control and rapidly you know and put our hands around it and control it again you know because to be an entrepreneur in America you know what I mean we're all delighted the skin the favorite they're gonna give that person you know when you have a young man like Dante trying to break into this movie and this documentary and even music scene and stuff like that you know what I mean sometimes it really does it's all about who you know to get you to that door and you know move you to the next level and we need to become those people who can open those doors for those kind of people I mean because you're gonna play this game for so long you know you can only do it for so long and I'm not saying I'm not like I said I'm not a preacher I don't tell nobody what's the difference between right and wrong you know what's right for you and if you feel like what you're doing is right and that you can deal with the consequences that come with it then that's what manhood is about but pay those consequences by yourself don't make other people pay those consequences for you you know if he was around right now he'd probably be an inspirational leader for a lot of these young motherfuckers that don't know what they're doing you know nowadays and so for him to have that respect it's beautiful to see the you know like the output that he had at his memorial which was you know big it was humongous y'all should have been there it was basketball court and games and barbecues and all the kids was there it was beautiful it was amazing everybody was showing up and he would have very much appreciated that and you know he knew he was loved you know it's just a sad it just kind of hurts my heart that you know we had to see it happen this way but one time I was on Boylston it was in 07 I believe it was cold as shit it was one of them days where it goes from heart to cold and I was cold as shit I'm a skinny ass nigga I need some meat in my life but I was freezing and without me even telling him yo I'm cold bro he knew how I need to go all the way to Brockton that's why I was living at the time and I was all the way out here so basically without me even saying that he came up to me that yo B yo you're going all the way to Brockton here's my hoodie and I forgot all about that he passed, gave it some time went in my closet and his hoodie was there yo that's basically when I could say that that's that first time that shit hit me where I missed one of my niggas you know what I'm saying for the simple fact that he had heart for me that day when I was cold you dig what I'm saying and Brockton's a long truth man I was in no cars walking I was on my feet on the training bus I remember that it was like a sign once I seen the hoodie you know what I mean I got a dosa and like I said I remember the last thing I told him was yo I want to do a music video so in a way this is my way of keeping my word to him you know what I'm saying and through this whole process like I was cool with Mata a lot of people were cool with Mata but we ain't living in his house we weren't you know what I mean his family God bless them but doing this project I got to go to his house and eat a plate of his mom's food and that shit was POM you know what I mean and I got to see a side of Mata that I never really had to see and that shit opens your eyes and you learn you learn, you learn this more you know what I mean just because he was on the block just because he wrecked boys it doesn't mean he was all bad it doesn't mean that's that's where he was created and after doing this whole documentary for a year with my people Dante Luna PS We The Best them holding the cameras down editing them it just opens your eyes when you see everything put together because at first you see one, two, three tapes you know what I mean you're there while your videotape is cool but when you put everything together and you see the actual impact he really did have and I hope y'all guys see this and actually that wasn't just any older than every cat you know he held it down for me in the beginning everybody was telling me like to forgive and forgive and forgive I don't know who they were telling me to forgive like who am I supposed to forgive I don't know who did it so they would be like oh just forgive and you don't understand just don't have that hatred because I was really mad for a long time and I'm still mad I was just mad and instead I see a lot of people taking that anger and turning it into negativity and I had my negative points yeah when something like that happens when you have someone taken away from you like that it's hard because it's like somebody stealing something from you that happiness something that just comes out of you when you hear something or something happens like that and what I try to do is I don't know I've been trying to get back into youth work and trying to get the community more involved than what happens on the streets because people see stuff like that and they listen and they pay more attention to what the news has to say instead of like what really goes on because as soon as my brother passed away they were like oh gang member this gang member that I didn't see him as a gang member I saw him more as like because you grow up seeing these people and it's like them little kids on the corner the same little kids that are always on the corner that used to play baseball in the middle of the street using the light poles as bases and stuff like that like that's what you see and then when people when the media and all that starts to say oh gang this gang that violence here violence that like the community takes that and like just sees it as something negative then they everybody else who's like around that starts to get like that negative stigma from what the media is saying so what I'm trying to do is with all this anger and like I don't know frustration and just like the sadness of losing my brother I'm taking all that in and I'm using it to build something from his name like I want to all these memorials every year I want to get them bigger and bigger so that the community like the JP community come together because it's kind of separated right now if you really look at it but wait his memorials I'm going to expand it and try to make something out of it like I don't know what I really want to make out of it but I want to make I know that I'm going to make something out of it either be like something to help the younger people in the community or the people that feel like they have to be in a certain place in JP like that can't they can't go to certain places or just young people that feel that way too so we're basically trying to you know create like a peace institute in the name of Lewis and you know to like to reach out to other people not just you know it's not just gonna be about Lewis but you know other families that you know been impacted by like the same situation because I mean this is something that unfortunately happens all the time in these streets and there's a lot of other families life out there you know the same way that we did like I lost my sister and I lost him but I lost her because you know she died of natural causes and then when I lost him somebody took him away from me so I was like confused on how to like react and how to keep like just keep their memory alive and stuff and it's like it's hard because some people get angry like if I bring my brother up like the conversation starts subtle but at one point like by the time the conversation is over people will be mad because he was taken away from us so like at times it's hard to just even talk about him without someone getting mad because of the way he passed away but I feel like with like this thing that I'm trying to make I wanted to since it's gonna be like it's gonna have to do with peace and violence and like bring the community together so maybe I don't know in five years my dream is to have like I don't know a foundation or like an organization in his name so that instead of like being mad when you hear his name or like turning it into anger because of the way he passed away turning it into some like something that like when you hear Louis Troncozo it'll be like oh that like it'll be nah oh my god that gangster that they killed at Stony Brook but it'll be like oh something good came out of his name like there's something positive going on with his name now Out of 365 days a year at least one day every year of our lives we celebrate our birthdays the day we were blessed with time they say the shortest distance between two points is a straight line but if that straight line was route 95 with the traffic jam then getting off the next exit and going local might be the shortest route time is a fourth dimension we forget about as long as we have time we'll always have the opportunity to change something about ourselves and learn something new we could read 10 books in one day and wake up the next and learn something we never knew before so time gives us new things to look forward to every day we wake up it's only when we die when our time stops when we really can find out who we are you know what he ain't doing it to the back of our cork yet he's on fire he ain't going home he's on fire y'all same huh 21 lights out in this park