 It's this level confusion that the people like this idea of I am responsible because it's an empowering kind of an idea And that's at the mind level, but the mind is responsible at the thought level Then people will take a lot of new age thinking they'll take things like sickness They take an idea like I am responsible for this and then they take an idea at the form level for cancer for this Sickness for the sore throat or whatever for two different levels, you see one time responsible for my thoughts And the other one is like down here I'm a little person in the body, and I'm sick and then they try to hook these two together and guilt Is is what happens because people go. Oh my gosh. I created This cancer I feel oh my gosh I feel more guilty than ever or I attracted the terrible Situations with terrible relationship to me. I feel guilty What the course is is really when you really get into it the way to clear clear of this ego trap is that I Am responsible for what I see in other words. Here's the script. Here's what's happening Perceptionally in my life events which could be anything going on down here and the course is saying You know, what is the purpose that you're going to give to that? What is the lens are you going to look through the ego lens or the Holy Spirit's lens of this? Are you going to hold on to the ego's purpose for this and where are you going to use the Holy Spirit? Which just sees it as another opportunity to See it in a miraculous way to kind of go about the battlefield The right mind is completely up here at a mind level in other words the Holy Spirit is not down here in the form level But as soon as the mind perceives itself as down here Proceeds the issue the form issues as being the main issues and forgets about the purpose Then there's a level confusion the identity confusion takes place So I guess give you some concrete examples of this would be The ideas of medicine Pills and all those kind of things basically that you take a pill that can bring healing or is it operations can bring healing or that There's all kinds of things even more subtle things like reiki and different energies and everything that Chakras and so on so forth as long as they're their body base You know in any way then and it is a belief that there's healing properties in them And somehow the mind has forgotten that all only at the mind level is where the World creativity is and it's some kind of causation has been given to the form level And that's where the level confusion comes in in the mind But as soon as the mind believes that there's anything causative down here Like I cut this cancer because I worked in for an old and it was a high radiation plate and My body was exposed to high levels of radiation and therefore I got this cancer. Well, that's saying that for an old or the environment Cog the cancer. Yeah, so hopefully you'll get a cure by exposing yourself to more radiation therapy Yeah You can see where the medical model and not only the medical model But but basically we're talking about the whole world is saying that there are causative things Not only things that can heal you and make you well But obviously the things that hurt you are are in the world Now this has been a real Core teaching for me because the more I've gotten into this And the more I see that everything I guess like lesson 136 says sickness is a decision And and it really brings it back to how here I'm making a decision at the mind level because the mind feels that it's guilty It feels like it's separated from God and therefore it doesn't want to see The mind is thick so it projects the sickness on the body and goes huh You know The mind doesn't want to really look at the fact that it's thick because it so it wants to be right It said it wants to be right about what it is. You see it wants to be right about separating from God and Making up a kingdom. So so this is the trick now the key though is is To get real clear about these levels about the mind versus the form level because you know Basically, there's a rich fear of healing that's back in the back of the book when Jesus talks about you know healing and everything How it's accomplished and everything he says before you can heal you have to really look at the great fear of Healing that you don't really want to be healed and and that's why a lot of times it seems as if you know There's too much fear for a miracle or a mind shift that that in one sense Early in the text Jesus says magic is not bad in other words Magic and pills and operations are evil But he's saying that as long as you're too fearful you may want to mix of the magic and miracles You know, you don't want to if you're having a throbbing headache. You're sitting there trying to Have a change of mind and it's not working so to speak and and headaches getting worse It could be very fearful, you know to keep trying to do that that he's kind of saying take the time Take the aspirin reduce your fear level and that the miracle can't come until it's welcome In other words, it's too fearful for your mind for To invite the Holy Spirit then you may need a mix of magic and miracles But you can see that ultimately what we want to talk about is coming to Alderman healing where you can really just have It's in the mind shift stay on purpose and not even have the symptoms and that comes from not confusing the two levels so You know everything that seems to happen like I can give you a good concrete example again because it gets pretty physical I one day I came home and I was gonna cook the food in my microwave So I put the food in the microwave and I turned it on for a couple minutes and everything And I was doing something else in the kitchen all of a sudden I felt real nauseous He talked about the throb Nauseous feeling in here and just taking my stomach and then I Started feeling like diarrhea That's feeling kind of like back there You know real strong and real quick and and from being in the course what I what I'm good at instead of just looking at the Behavioral level. I'm always watching my thoughts and just noticing what they are and the thoughts were you know, oh my gosh I'm not gonna be able to eat this food and just put in the microwave for them to stick and then I thought I should be catching the flu Catching the flu, which I grew up learning that you catch Ball player from out there and you know from unclean places and it's mad and it's don't wear your sweaters and you know Then the next one was I wonder if it's gonna be a 24-hour bug or a 48-hour bug You know, it's you see how once you kind of go in the ego train of thinking you're catching something from outside then all of us were found for that and then My lesson for the day Was in my awareness and it was lesson 136 Which is not coincidentally Sickness Sickness is a defense against the truth So as soon as I had the thoughts That's not from the course sickness is a defense against the truth then all of a sudden all these related thoughts I started remembering thoughts from the lesson You know the start to come to mind and think this was a decision that I was just afraid of God's love and I was I was So afraid of love the love in my mind and the Holy Spirit that it was like a quick Defense mechanism was to project it down under the body Project the guilt onto the body and it's like a witness to kind of say to God see I'm right about myself I am teeny and all vulnerable. I'm not whole and incident Magnitude like you say and it's kind of like it's a pretty strong witness If you're if you're gonna use a little color witness to the barstand that is big It's gonna speak for vulnerability and teeny. This is really strong And and I was able to look at that though and I and I started thinking more about the thing And then I was just sitting there on the toilet and it was kind of like That wait a minute here. I mean I thought I mean I've been studying the course and going into things It was kind of like either what Jesus has been teaching me all along Is true or this is true, you know So I could catch the flu and it's a miss And it's kind of like I had the experience of going to my mind as I was sitting there and kind of coming to the branching of the road Where I could bring it trace it back and to see That this is either true or it's not kind of a thing You know when you really bring it back down to sickness is an idea. Where did it come from from God? Did God create sickness? I kept tracing it back down and I started feeling Power starting well up into me and the joy of just feeling the spirit, you know, and I just went I remember going This is impossible kind of just very emphatic, you know kind of like seeing the branching of the road I'm going this is impossible and instantly the Feeling of nausea the diarrhea just like boom like in an instant just left and I remember thinking It was a real powerful experience, you know for that thing of in an instant You know people can talk about this and you know give theories and this and that but it was one of those Yeah, yeah, it really gave me that sense of like yeah Just seeing clearly the impossibility of sickness And also it gave me that sense of boy I have to watch my mind because I had that sense of like here were all these thoughts that was going through my mind that I was believing in and investing in That fortini thought and backwards thought by Colin something can happen outside of me So that's kind of a concrete example of like why it's important for us to really watch our mind What about the guilt that happened? Say that you hadn't said that you did You didn't work that way about the level yes And people bring it up the groups live and that's where the in a sense That's where the level of confusion comes in in the sense that that the mind and the form level Form and content that we talked about time is still confused. And so what happens is They may say the words, you know, please Holy Spirit. I want to see this differently But but there's still that confusion that's in the mind and really the mind is still Invested feel so afraid of that in the sense that it really wants to be sick