 That's the scariest thing to the ego and the most joyous thing is that in the end accepting that who you are Who your essence is is the gift? You don't have to look for gifts who you are is the gift, but it has no past reference point at all so What does that mean in everyday living? Well? It means that that You know like I I've seen Nikita in the communities when people come up They they may think they have a problem and she'll just kind of sit there and just kind of look into their eyes like What are you talking about? You know, it's kind of like Not being able to get a problem Because there's no past reference point. They'll say you remember that or that and just know I don't what are you talking about? a friend of ours was kept hearing over and over In his mind for like three days in a row give Nikita to David give Nikita to David He finally came up and he said what does that even mean give Nikita to David? What does that even mean and I said all it means is let go of every thought that you ever had of Nikita Just come completely blank and open without the sense that you know Who she is or who she ever was because it's just it's only perplexing When you try to relate using some kind of past reference point That's where you get into this idea of trying to resolve something, you know interpersonal relationships are really sticky Did you ever notice that? You know, I mean at some point it dawns on us like these interpersonal relationships are really Sticky like what's going on here, but it's I don't know but it's sticky It really feels sticky and the only way that we can get unstuck From the stickiness is to really honestly admit That we can't really judge anything from our past reference points You know because that was just a bunch of judgments and Unload behold the characters really seem to act it out. Well, you know, you hold on to a judgment And oh, yeah, I can act that out. I could give you the Academy Award You want some drama? Oh, it's very convincing. It's like you're you're at the theater or Shakespeare theater And you're in the front row and it's like oh bravo. That was vicious You know like I couldn't I lost myself in that but we don't want to lose ourselves in that We want to know thyselfs like the Greeks said know thyselfs real you So it's kind of fun because that's what our sessions are anymore You know, we don't really have themes or topics or whatever It's just a group of people coming together and then you know, there's all this joy and if somebody actually Thinks they have a problem It gets pretty funny pretty quick Because the problem is like trying to draw attention. The problem is like trying to say look at me Look at me. This is serious. This is really serious. And then you got we've got a whole group of people born And Don't look at me and this is serious I've got a real problem a real problem here and then there's this softness of Essence that's And you know how it is whenever you've even joined with someone when you seem to believe you have a problem And they see that you don't they just all come here They give you a hug. They don't join you And go oh, that's terrible Because that's that doesn't work, you know false empathy. Oh you poor thing You know, no matter how many times we were raised with oh you poor thing come here or let's commiserate together That's terrible. You know, you don't hear that anymore. You know, we I know this in our communities There's just nobody wants to jump in and support a problem Why would you if you had to take it on yourself in your mind? You know, so this is what we're coming to now. It's just this is joyful. It's light It was a couple days ago where we had something going on in our community and and one was Seeming the perceive a problem in somebody else and the key to just grab the one The problem was supposed to be just was touching his head going. No, you're just a boy. He just said boy Reading like he's innocent. He's just innocent. He's not that thing at all. Whatever you think you're seeing in him is not there It's and it's never been there That's what the the essence was and then the lightness came swirling in immediately because it diffused Seemed to diffuse something but there really wasn't anything to diffuse It was just again to stand in true empathy to stand in that innocence and that's it's a fun life That that really brings it into the joy and the fun when your whole purpose is to to see the truth See the love see the Christ. We did a church service recently. Wasn't it? Christ be before me Christ be behind me Christ be below me Christ be above me Christ be to my right side Christ in my left side, you know, it was love all around me It's really the essence of what is real and true. So I'm not going to fight against that I'm just going to Experience that and it all just came from someone telling a story of driving in a car and having fear and then that's that was the answer that came You see that everything's a reflection of your mind like when we were coming We were we were flying across on frontier and we were just flying into Cincinnati and and one of the people had had opened the newspaper on the back of the newspaper was was a weather map and It had all these like concentric circles of what they're calling like the polar Vortex, and I kept looking over it. It's like it's like it's right over Knoxville, and it's just radiating out like giant waves of color love purples and Blues and some greens and yellow was way out in California, but it was all these things. It was right over She's like, yeah, yeah, this is This is our reflection of our our gathering in Knoxville Isn't it cute that it's on a map, you know, it's like it was all And it's like Knoxville is like the boy It just radiated out and we could just see that it's like, oh, yeah, that's our first stop of our tour And it's it's moving south. Oh, so are we It's just all or flexion now That's just reflections of your mind when you start to interpret everything that you perceive even weather maps as Reflections of the love in your mind, then that's what this no problem thing is. It couldn't be anything else You know, and when you think about it really Cold and hot are not the problem You know, if it had been that simple, I think we would have tried some other kind of solution But it's been a perceptual problem Holding on to a false idea of identity and then this was a beautiful reflection of that very colorful, too