 It's the other things that really keeps me going, it's the people like you and the people that are autistic and deal with mental health that are able to say, it's alright, it's okay not to be okay, you know, it really looks like we are a really emotional person, but yeah, mental health has affected me in more ways than one, earlier I mentioned that I was taking a tragic job by one of my friends, they left, they left without my explanation, you know, I just had to be left and deal with that sort of thing, in some moment I just became so shut off from everything. There's this concept called meat crime, whereas where somebody deliberately prevents someone who's autistic or is disabled to take advantage of them. Oh yeah, when you're pretending to be friends, I don't think the friendship was fake, I just think there was an opportunity behind it.