 1 Lucy It lay down in a hollow, rich with fine old timber and luxuriant pastures, and you came upon it through an avenue of limes, bordered on either side by meadows, over the high hedges of which the cattle looked inquisitively at you as you passed, wondering perhaps what you wanted, for there was no thoroughfare, and unless you were going to the court, you had no business there at all. At the end of this avenue there was an old arch and a clock-tower, with a stupid, bewildering clock which had only one hand, and which jumped straight from one hour to the next, and was therefore always in extremes. Through this arch you walked straight into the gardens of oddly court. A smooth lawn lay before you, dotted with groups of rhododendrons, which grew in more perfection here than anywhere else in the county. To the right there were the kitchen gardens, the fish pond, and an orchard bordered by a dry moat, and a broken ruin of a wall, in some places thicker than it was high, and everywhere overgrown with trailing ivy, yellow stone-crop, and dark moss. To the left there was a broad, graveled walk, down which, years ago, when the place had been a convent, the quiet nuns had walked hand in hand. A wall bordered with espaliers, and shadowed on one side by goodly oaks, which shut out the flat landscape, and circled in the house and gardens with a darkening shelter. The house faced the arch, and occupied three sides of a quadrangle. It was very old, and very irregular and rambling. The windows were uneven, some small, some large, some with heavy stone mullions and rich stained glass, others with frail lattices that rattled in every breeze, others so modern that they might have been added only yesterday. Great piles of chimneys rose up here and there behind the pointed gables, and seemed as if they were so broken down by age and long service, that they must have fallen, but for the straggling ivy which, crawling up the walls and trailing even over the roof, wound itself about them and supported them. The principal door was squeezed into a corner of a turret at one angle of the building, as if it were in hiding from dangerous visitors, and wished to keep itself a secret. A noble door for all that, old oak, and studded with great square-headed iron nails, and so thick that the sharp iron knocker struck upon it with a muffled sound, and the visitor wrung a clanging bell that dangled in a corner among the ivy, lest the noise of the knocking should never penetrate the stronghold. A glorious old place. A place that visitors fell in raptures with, feeling a yearning wish to have done with life and to stay there for ever, staring into the cool fishponds, and counting the bubbles as the roach and carp rose to the surface of the water. A spot in which peace seemed to have taken up her abode, setting her soothing hand on every tree and flower, on the still ponds and quiet alleys, the shady corners of the old-fashioned rooms, the deep window-seats behind the painted glass, the low meadows and the stately avenues, eye even upon the stagnant well, which, cool and sheltered as all else in the old place, hid itself away in a shrubbery behind the gardens, with an idle handle that was never turned, and a lazy rope so rotten that the pale had broken away from it and had fallen into the water. A noble place. Inside as well as out. A noble place. A house in which you incontinently lost yourself, if ever you were so rash as to attempt to penetrate its mysteries alone. A house in which no one room had any sympathy with another. Every chamber running off at a tangent into an inner chamber, and through that down some narrow staircase leading to a door, which, in its turn, led back into that very part of the house from which you thought yourself the furthest. A house that could never have been planned by any mortal architect, but must have been the handiwork of that good old builder, Time, who, adding a room one year, and knocking down a room another year, toppling down a chimney co-evil with the Plantagenets, and setting one up in the style of the Tudors, shaking down a bit of sacks and wall, allowing a Norman arch to stand here, throwing in a row of high, narrow windows in the reign of Queen Anne, and joining on a dining-room after the fashion of the time of Hanoverian George I, to a refectory that had been standing since the conquest, had contrived in some eleven centuries to run up such a mansion as was not elsewhere to be met with throughout the county of Essex. Of course, in such a house there were secret chambers. The little daughter of the present owner, Sir Michael Oddly, had fallen by accident upon the discovery of one. A board had rattled under her feet in the great nursery where she played, and on a tension being drawn to it, it was found to be loose and so removed, revealed a ladder, leading to a hiding-place between the floor of the nursery and the ceiling of the room below. A hiding-place, so small, that he who had hid there must have crouched on his hands and knees, or lain at full length, and yet large enough to contain a quaint old carved oak chest, half filled with priests' vestments, which had been hidden away, no doubt, in those cruel days when the life of a man was in danger, if he was discovered to have harboured a Roman Catholic priest, or to have mass set in his house. The broad outer moat was dry and grass-grown, and the laden trees of the orchard hung over it with gnarled, straggling branches, that drew fantastical shadows upon the green slope. Within this moat there was, as I have said, the fish-pond, a sheet of water that extended the whole length of the garden, and bordering which there was an avenue called the Lime-tree-walk, an avenue so shaded from the sun and sky, so screened from observation by the thick shelter of the overarching trees, that it seemed a chosen place for secret meetings or for stolen interviews, a place in which a conspiracy might have been planned, or a lover's vow registered with equal safety, and yet it was scarcely twenty paces from the house. At the end of this dark arcade there was the shrubbery, where, half-buried among the tangled branches and the neglected weeds, stood the rusty wheel of that old well of which I have spoken. It had been of good service in its time, no doubt, and busy nuns have perhaps drawn the cool water with their own fair hands, but it had fallen into disuse now, and scarcely any one at Audley Court knew whether the spring had dried up or not. But sheltered as was the solitude of this lime-tree-walk, I doubt very much if it was ever put to any romantic uses. Often in the cool of the evening, Sir Michael Audley would stroll up and down smoking his cigar, with his dogs at his heels, and his pretty young wife dawdling by his side. But in about ten minutes the baronet at his companion would grow tired of the rustling limes and the still water, hidden under the spreading leaves of the water-lilies, and the long green vista with the broken well at the end, and would stroll back to the drawing-room, where my lady played dreamy melodies by Beethoven and Mendelssohn till her husband fell asleep in his easy chair. Sir Michael Audley was fifty-six years of age, and he had married a second wife three months after his fifty-fifth birthday. He was a big man, tall and stout, with a deep, sonorous voice, handsome black eyes, and a white beard—a white beard which made him look venerable against his will, for he was as active as a boy, and one of the hardest riders in the country. For seventeen years he had been a widower with an only child, a daughter, Alicia Audley, now eighteen, and by no means too well pleased at having a stepmother brought home to the court. For Miss Alicia had range supreme in her father's house since her earliest childhood, and had carried the keys, and jingled them in the pockets of her silk aprons, and lost them in the shrubbery, and dropped them into the pond, and given all manner of trouble about them from the hour in which she entered her teens, and had, on that account, diluted herself into the sincere belief that for the whole of that period she had been keeping the house. But Miss Alicia's day was over, and now, when she asked anything of the housekeeper, the housekeeper would tell her that she would speak to my lady, or she would consult my lady, and if my lady pleased it should be done. So the baronet's daughter, who was an excellent horsewoman and a very clever artist, spent most of her time out of doors, riding about the green lanes, and sketching the cottage children, and the plowboys and the cattle, and all manner of animal life that came in her way. She set her face with a sulky determination against any intimacy between herself and the baronet's young wife, and amiable as that lady was, she found it quite impossible to overcome Miss Alicia's prejudices and dislike, or to convince the spoiled girl that she had not done her a cruel injury by marrying Sir Michael Audley. The truth was that Lady Audley had, in becoming the wife of Sir Michael, made one of those apparently advantageous matches which are apt to draw upon a woman the envy and hatred of her sex. She had come into the neighborhood as a governess in the family of a surgeon in the village near Audley Court. No one knew anything of her, except that she came an answer to an advertisement which Mr. Dawson, the surgeon, had inserted in the Times. She came from London, and the only reference she gave was to a lady at a school in Brompton, where she had once been a teacher. But this reference was so satisfactory that none other was needed, and Miss Lucy Graham was received by the surgeon as the instructress of his daughters. Her accomplishments were so brilliant and numerous that it seemed strange that she should have answered an advertisement offering such very moderate terms of remuneration as those named by Mr. Dawson. But Miss Graham seemed perfectly well satisfied with her situation, and she taught the girls to play sonatas by Beethoven, and to paint from nature after Creswick, and walked through a dull out-of-the-way village to the humble little church three times every Sunday, as contentedly as if she had no higher aspiration in the world than to do so all the rest of her life. People who observed this accounted for it by saying that it was part of her amiable and gentle nature always to be light-hearted, happy, and contented under any circumstances. Wherever she went she seemed to take joy and brightness with her. In the cottages of the poor her fair face shone like a sunbeam. She would sit for a quarter of an hour talking to some old woman, and apparently as pleased with the admiration of a toothless crone as if she had been listening to the compliments of a marquee. And when she tripped away, leaving nothing behind her, for her poor salary gave no scope to her benevolence, the old woman would burst out into senile raptures with her grace, beauty, and her kindliness, such as she never bestowed upon the vicar's wife who half fed and clothed her. For you see, Miss Lucy Graham was blessed with that magic power of fascination by which a woman can charm with a word or intoxicate with a smile. The woman loved, admired, and praised her. The boy who opened the five-barred gate that stood in her pathway ran home to his mother to tell of her pretty looks, and the sweet voice in which she thanked him for the little service. The verger at the church who ushered her into the surgeon's pew, the vicar who saw the soft blue eyes uplifted to his face as he preached his simple sermon, the porter from the railway station, who brought her sometimes a letter or a parcel, and who never looked for reward from her. Her employer, his visitors, her pupils, the servants, everybody, high and low, united in declaring that Lucy Graham was the sweetest girl that ever lived. Perhaps it was the rumour of this which penetrated into the quiet chamber of oddly court, or perhaps it was the sight of her pretty face looking over the surgeon's high pew every Sunday morning. However it was, it was certain that Sir Michael Oddly suddenly experienced a strong desire to be better acquainted with Mr. Dawson's governess. He had only to hint his wish to the worthy doctor for a little party to be got up, to which the vicar and his wife and the baronet and his daughter were invited. That one quiet evening sealed Sir Michael's fate. He could no more resist the tender fascination of those soft and melting blue eyes, the graceful beauty of that slender throat and drooping head, with all its wealth of showering flaxen curls, the low music of that gentle voice, the perfect harmony which pervaded every charm, and made all doubly charming in this woman, then he could resist his destiny. Destiny! Why she was his destiny! He had never loved before. What had been his marriage with Elysia's mother but a dull, jog-trot bargain made to keep some estate in the family that would have been just as well out of it? What had been his love for his first wife but a poor pitiful smoldering spark, too dull to be extinguished, too feeble to burn? But this was love. This fever, this longing, this restless, uncertain, miserable hesitation, these cruel fears that his age was an insurmountable barrier to his happiness, this sick hatred of his white beard, this frenzied wish to be young again, with glistening raven hair and a slim waist, such as he had twenty years before, these wakeful nights and melancholy days so gloriously brightened if he chanced to catch a glimpse of her sweet face behind the window-curtains as he drove past the surgeon's house. All these signs gave token of the truth, and told only too plainly that, at the sober age of fifty-five, Sir Michael Audley had fallen ill of the terrible fever called love. I do not think that, throughout his courtship, the baronet once calculated upon his wealth or his position as reasons for his success. If he ever remembered these things, he dismissed the thought of them with a shudder. It pained him too much to believe for a moment that any one so lovely and innocent could value herself against a splendid house or a good old title—no. His hope was that, as her life had been most likely one of toil and dependence, and as she was very young—nobody exactly knew her age, but she looked little more than twenty—she might never have formed any attachment, and that he, being the first to woo her, might by tender attentions, by generous watchfulness, by a love which should recall to her the father she had lost, and by a protecting care that should make him necessary to her, in her young heart, and obtain from her fresh and earliest love the promise of her hand. It was very romantic, daydream, no doubt, but for all that it seemed in a very fair way to be realized. Lucy Graham appeared by no means to dislike the baronet's attentions. There was nothing whatever in her manner that betrayed the shallow artifices employed by a woman who wishes to captivate a rich man. She was so accustomed to admiration from everyone, high and low, that Sir Michael's conduct made very little impression upon her. Again he had been so many years a widower that people had given up the idea of his ever marrying again. At last, however, Mrs. Dawson spoke to the governess on the subject. The surgeon's wife was sitting in the school-room busy at work, while Lucy was putting the finishing touches on some water-colour sketches done by her pupils. "'Do you know, my dear Miss Graham,' said Mrs. Dawson, "'I think you ought to consider yourself a remarkably lucky girl.' The governess lifted her head from its stooping attitude, and stared wonderingly at her employer, shaking back a shower of curls. They were the most wonderful curls in the world, soft and feathery, always floating away from her face, and making a pale halo round her head when the sunlight shone through them. "'What do you mean, my dear Mrs. Dawson?' she asked, dipping her camel's hair brush into the wet aquamarine upon the pallet, and poising it carefully before putting in the delicate streak of purple, which was to brighten the horizon in her pupil's sketch. "'Why, I mean, my dear, that it only rests with yourself to become Lady Audley, and the mistress of Audley Court.' Mrs. Graham dropped the brush upon the picture, and flushed scarlet to the roots of her fair hair, and then grew pale again, far paler than Mrs. Dawson had ever seen her before. "'My dear, don't agitate yourself,' said the surgeon's wife soothingly. "'You know that nobody asks you to marry Sir Michael unless you wish. Of course it would be a magnificent match. He has a splendid income, and is one of the most generous of men. Your position would be very high, and you would be enabled to do a great deal of good. But, as I said before, you must be entirely guided by your own feelings. Only one thing I must say, and that is, that if Sir Michael's attentions are not agreeable to you, it is really scarcely honourable to encourage him.' "'His attentions?' "'Encourage him,' muttered Lucy, as if the words bewildered her. "'Pray, pray don't talk to me, Mrs. Dawson. I had no idea of this. It is the last thing that would have occurred to me.' She leaned her elbows on the drawing-board before her, and clasping her hands over her face, seemed for some minutes to be thinking deeply. She wore a narrow black ribbon round her neck, with a locket, or a cross, or a miniature perhaps, attached to it. But whatever the trinket was, she always kept it hidden under her dress. Once or twice, while she sat silently thinking, she removed one of her hands from before her face, and fidgeted nervously with the ribbon, clutching at it with a half-angry gesture, and twisting it backward and forward between her fingers. "'I think some people are born to be unlucky, Mrs. Dawson,' she said, by and by. "'It would be a great deal too much good fortune for me to become Lady Oddly.' She said this with so much bitterness in her tone, that the surgeon's wife looked up at her with surprise. "'You, unlucky, my dear,' she exclaimed, "'I think you are the last person who ought to talk like that. You, such a bright, happy creature, that it does every one good to see you. I'm sure I don't know what we shall do if Sir Michael robs us of you.' After this conversation they often spoke upon the subject, and Lucy never again showed any emotion whatever when the baronet's admiration for her was canvassed. It was a tacitly understood thing in the surgeon's family that whenever Sir Michael proposed the governess would quietly accept him, and indeed the simple Dawson's would have thought it something more than madness in a penniless girl to reject such an offer. So one misty August evening, Sir Michael, sitting opposite to Lucy Graham at a window in the surgeon's little drawing-room, took an opportunity while the family happened by some accident to be absent from the room of speaking upon the subject nearest to his heart. He made the governess, in a few but solemn words, an offer of his hand. There was something almost touching in the manner and tone in which he spoke to her, half in deprecation, knowing that he could hardly expect to be the choice of a beautiful young girl, and praying rather that she would reject him, even though she broke his heart by doing so, than that she should accept his offer if she did not love him. I scarcely think there is a greater sin, Lucy," he said solemnly, then that of a woman who marries a man she does not love. You are so precious to me, my beloved, that deeply as my heart is set on this, and bitter as the mere thought of disappointment is to me, I would not have you commit such a sin for any happiness of mine. If my happiness could be achieved by such an act, which it could not, which it never could," he repeated earnestly, nothing but misery can result from a marriage dictated by any motive but truth and love. Lucy Graham was not looking at Sir Michael, but straight out into the misty twilight and dim landscape far away beyond the little garden. The bair in it tried to see her face, but her profile was turned to him, and he could not discover the expression of her eyes. If he could have done so, he would have seen a yearning gaze which seemed as if it would have pierced the far obscurity and looked away, away into another world. Lucy, you heard me. Yes, she said gravely, not coldly, or in any way as if she were offended at his words. And your answer? She did not remove her gaze from the darkening countryside, but for some moments was quite silent. Then turning to him, with a sudden passion in her manner, that lighted up her face with a new and wonderful beauty which the bair in it perceived even in the growing twilight, she fell on her knees at his feet. No, Lucy! No! No! he cried vehemently. Not here! Not here! Yes. Here! Here! she said, the strange passion which agitated her making her voice sound shrill and piercing, not loud, but preternaturally distinct. Here and nowhere else! How good you are! How noble and how generous! I love you! Why there are women a hundred times my superiors in beauty and in goodness who might love you dearly, but you ask too much of me. Remember what my life has been. Only remember that. From my very babyhood I have never seen anything but poverty. My father was a gentleman, clever, accomplished, handsome, but poor, and what a pitiful wretch poverty made of him. My mother—but do not let me speak of her. Poverty. Poverty, trials, vexations, humiliations, deprivations. You cannot tell. You who are among those for whom life is so smooth and easy, you can never guess what is endured by such as we. Do not ask too much of me, then. I cannot be disinterested. I cannot be blind to the advantages of such an alliance. I cannot. I cannot. Beyond her agitation and her passionate vehemence, there is an undefined something in her manner which fills the baronet with a vague alarm. She is still on the ground at his feet, crouching rather than kneeling, her thin, white dress clinging about her, her pale hair streaming over her shoulders, her great blue eyes glittering in the dusk, and her hands clutching at the black ribbon about her throat, as if it had been strangling her. Don't ask too much of me, she kept repeating. I have been selfish from my babyhood. Lucy, Lucy, speak plainly. Do you dislike me? Dislike you? No, no. But is there anyone else whom you love? She laughed aloud at his question. I do not love anyone in the world, she answered. He was glad of her reply, and yet that and the strange laugh jarred upon his feelings. He was silent for some moments, and then said with a kind of effort. Well, Lucy, I will not ask too much of you. I dare say I am a romantic old fool. But if you do not dislike me, and if you do not love any one else, I see no reason why we should not make a very happy couple. Is it a bargain, Lucy? Yes. The baronet lifted her in his arms and kissed her once upon the forehead. Then quietly bidding her good night, he walked straight out of the house. He walked straight out of the house, this foolish old man, because there was some strong emotion at work in his breast. Neither joy nor triumph, but something almost akin to disappointment. Some stifled and unsatisfied longing which lay heavy and dull at his heart, as if he had carried a corpse in his bosom. He carried the corpse of that hope which had died at the sound of Lucy's words. All the doubts and fears and timid aspirations were ended now. He must be contented, like other men of his age, to be married for his fortune and his position. Lucy Graham went slowly up the stairs to her little room at the top of the house. She placed her dim candle on the chest of drawers, and seated herself on the edge of the white bed, still and white as the draperies hanging around her. No more dependence, no more drudgery, no more humiliations, she said. Every trace of the old life melted away. Every clue to identity buried and forgotten. Except these. Except these. She had never taken her left hand from the black ribbon at her throat. She drew it from her bosom as she spoke, and looked at the object attached to it. It was neither a locket, a miniature, nor a cross. It was a ring, wrapped in an oblong piece of paper. The paper partly written, partly printed, yellow with age, and crumpled with much folding. End of CHAPTER I Through the end of his cigar into the water, and leaning his elbows upon the bulwarks, stared meditatively at the waves. How weirsome they are, he said, blue and green and opal, opal and blue and green, all very well in their way, of course, but three months of them are rather too much, especially. He did not attempt to finish his sentence. His thoughts seemed to wander in the very midst of it, and carry him a thousand miles or so away. Poor little girl! How pleased she'll be, he muttered, opening his cigar case, lazily surveying its contents. How pleased and how surprised! Poor little girl! After three years and a half, too, she will be surprised. He was a young man of about five and twenty, with dark face bronzed by exposure to the sun. He had handsome brown eyes, with a lazy smile in them that sparkled through the black lashes, and a bushy beard and mustache that covered the whole lower part of his face. He was tall and powerfully built. He wore a loose gray suit and a felt hat, thrown carelessly upon his black hair. His name was George Tallboys, and he was aft cabin passenger on board the Goodship Argus, laden with Australian wool, and sailing from Sydney to Liverpool. There were very few passengers in the aft cabin of the Argus, an elderly wool stapler returning to his native country with his wife and daughters, after having made a fortune in the colonies, a governess of three and thirty years of age, going home to marry a man to whom she had been engaged fifteen years, the sentimental daughter of a wealthy Australian wine-merchant, invoiced to England to finish her education, and George Tallboys were the only first-class passengers on board. This George Tallboys was the life and soul of the vessel. Nobody knew who or what he was or where he came from, but everybody liked him. He sat at the bottom of the dinner-table, and assisted the captain in doing the honors of the friendly meal. He opened the champagne bottles, and took wine with every one present. He told funny stories, and led the life himself with such a joyous peel, that the man must have been a churl who could not have laughed for pure sympathy. He was a capital hand at speculation, and vantayin, and all the merry games which kept the little circle round the cabin-lamps so deep in innocent amusement, that a hurricane might have howled overhead without their hearing it. But he freely owned that he had no talent for wist, and that he didn't know a knight from a castle upon the chessboard. Indeed, Mr. Tallboys was by no means too learned a gentleman. The pale governess had tried to talk to him about fashionable literature, but George had only pulled his beard and stared very hard at her, saying occasionally, ah, yes, by Jove, and to be sure, ah! The sentimental young lady, going home to finish her education, had tried him with Shelley and Byron, and he had fairly laughed in her face, as if poetry were a joke. The wool stapler sounded him on politics, but he did not seem very deeply versed in them, so they let him go his own way, smoke his cigars and talk to the sailors, lounge over the bulwarks and stare at the water, and make himself agreeable to everybody in his own fashion. But when the Argus came to be within about a fortnight sail of England, everybody noticed a change in George Tallboys. He grew restless and fidgety, sometimes so merry that the cabin rung with his laughter, sometimes moody and thoughtful. As hard as he was among the sailors, they were tired at last of answering his perpetual questions about the probable time of touching land. Would it be in ten days, in eleven, in twelve, and thirteen? Was the wind favourable? How many knots an hour was the vessel doing? Then a sudden passion would seize him, and he would stamp upon the deck, crying out that she was a rickety old craft, and that her owners were swindlers to advertise her as the fast-sailing Argus. She was not fit for passenger traffic. She was not fit to carry impatient living creatures with hearts and souls. She was fit for nothing but to be laden with bales of stupid wool that might rot on the sea and be none the worse for it. The sun was drooping down behind the waves, as George Tallboys lighted a cigar upon this august evening. Only ten days more the sailors had told him that afternoon, and they would see the English coast. I will go ashore in the first boat that hails us, he cried. I will go ashore in a cockle-shell. By Jove, if it comes to that, I will swim to land. His friends in the aft cabin, with the exception of the pale governess, laughed at his impatience. She sighed as she watched the young man, chafing at the slow hours, pushing away his untasted wine, flinging himself restlessly about upon the cabin sofa, rushing up and down the companion ladder and staring at the waves. As the red rim of the sun dropped into the water, the governess ascended the cabin stairs for a stroll on deck, while the passengers sat over their wine below. She stopped when she came up to George, and standing by his side, watched the fading crimson in the western sky. The lady was very quiet and reserved, seldom sharing in the after-cabin amusements, never laughing and speaking very little. But she and George Talboys had been excellent friends throughout the passage. "'Does my cigar annoy you, Miss Morley?' he said, taking it out of his mouth. Not at all. Pray, do not leave off smoking. I only came up to look at the sunset. What a lovely evening." "'Yes, yes, I daresay,' he answered impatiently. "'It's so long, so long—ten more interminable days and ten more weary nights before we land.' "'Yes,' said Miss Morley, sighing, "'do you wish the time shorter?' "'Do I?' cried George, "'indeed I do, don't you?' Scarcely. "'But is there no one you love in England? Is there no one you love looking out for your arrival?' "'I hope so,' she said gravely. They were silent for some time. He smoking his cigar with a furious impatience, as if he could hasten the course of the vessel by his own restlessness. She looking out at the waning light with melancholy blue eyes—eyes that seemed to have faded with pouring over closely printed books and difficult needlework—eyes that had faded a little, perhaps, by reason of tears secretly shed in the lonely night. "'See,' said George suddenly, pointing in another direction from that toward which Miss Morley was looking, "'there's the new moon.' She looked up at the pale crescent, her own face almost as pale and wan. "'This is the first time we have seen it.' "'We must wish,' said George. "'I know what I wish.' "'What?' "'That we may get home, quickly.' "'My wish is that we may find no disappointment when we get there,' said the governess sadly. "'Disappointment?' He started as if he had been struck, and asked what she meant by talking of disappointment. "'I mean this,' she said, speaking rapidly, and with a restless motion of her thin hands. "'I mean that as the end of the voyage draws near, hope sinks in my heart, and a sick fear comes over me that at the last all may not be well. The person I go to meet may be changed in his feelings toward me, or he may retain all the old feeling until the moment of seeing me, and then lose it in a breath at sight of my poor wan face. For I was called a pretty girl, Mr. Tall Boys, when I sailed for Sydney fifteen years ago. For he may be so changed by the world as to have grown selfish and mercenary, and he may welcome me for the sake of my fifteen years' savings. Again, he may be dead. He may have been well, perhaps, up to a week of our landing, and in that last week may have taken a fever, and died an hour before our vessel anchors in the mercy. I think of all these things, Mr. Tall Boys, and act the scenes over in my mind, and feel the anguish of them twenty times a day. Twenty times a day, she repeated, why I do it a thousand times a day. George Tall Boys had stood motionless, with his cigar in his hand, listening to her so intently, that as she said the last words, his hold relaxed, and the cigar dropped in the water. I wonder, she continued, more to herself than to him. I wonder, looking back, to think how hopeful I was when the vessel sailed. I never thought then of disappointment, but I pictured the joy of meeting, imagining the very words that would be said, the very tones, the very looks. But for this last month of the voyage, day by day, and hour by hour my heart sinks, and my hopeful fancies fade away, and I dread the end as much as if I knew that I was going to England to attend a funeral. The young man suddenly changed his attitude, and turned his face full upon his companion, with a look of alarm. She saw in the pale light that the colour had faded from his cheek. What a fool! he cried, striking his clenched fist upon the side of the vessel. What a fool I am to be frightened at this! Why do you come and say these things to me? Why do you come and terrify me out of my senses, when I am going straight home to the woman I love, to a girl whose heart is as true as the light of heaven, and in whom I no more expect to find any change than I do to see another sunrise in tomorrow's sky? Why do you come and try to put such fancies in my head when I am going home to my darling wife?" Your wife, she said, that is different. There is no reason that my terror should terrify you. I am going to England to rejoin a man to whom I was engaged to be married fifteen years ago. He was too poor to marry then, and when I was offered a situation as a governess in a rich Australian family, I persuaded him to let me accept it, so that I might leave him free and unfettered to win his way in the world, while I saved a little money to help us when we began life together. I never meant to stay away so long, but things have gone badly with him in England. That is my story, and you can understand my fears. They need not influence you. Mine is an exceptional case." "'So is mine,' said George impatiently, "'I tell you that mine is an exceptional case, although I swear to you that until this moment I have never known of fear as to the result of my voyage home. But you are right. Your terrors have nothing to do with me. You have been away fifteen years. All kinds of things may happen in fifteen years. Now it is only three years and a half this very month since I left England. What can have happened in such a short time as that?' Miss Morley looked at him with a mournful smile, but did not speak. His feverish ardour, the freshness and impatience of his nature were so strange and new to her that she looked at him half in admiration, half in pity. "'My pretty little wife, my gentle, innocent, loving little wife, do you know, Miss Morley?' he said, with all his old hopefulness of manner, that I left my little girl asleep with her baby in her arms, and with nothing but a few blotted lines to tell her why her faithful husband had deserted her.' "'Deserted her?' exclaimed the governess. "'Yes. I was an ensign in a cavalry regiment when I first met my little darling. We were quartered at a stupid sea-port town, where my pet lived with her shabby old father, a half-pay naval officer, a regular old hub-n-bug, as poor as Job, and with an eye for nothing but the main chance. I saw through all his shallow tricks to catch one of us for his pretty daughter. I saw all the pitiable, contemptible, palpable traps he set for us big dragoons to walk into. I saw through his shabby, genteel dinners and public-house-port, his fine talk of the grandeur of his family, his sham pride and independence, and the sham tears of his bleared old eyes when he talked of his only child. He was a drunken old hypocrite, and he was ready to sell my poor little girl to the highest bidder. Luckily for me I happened just then to be the highest bidder, for my father is a rich man, Miss Morley. And as it was love at first sight on both sides, my darling and I made a match of it. No sooner, however, did my father hear that I had married a penniless little girl, the daughter of a tipsy old half-pay lieutenant, than he wrote me a furious letter, telling me he would never again hold any communication with me, and that my yearly allowance would stop from my wedding-day. As there was no remaining in such a regiment as mine, with nothing but my pay to live on, and my pretty little wife to keep, I sold out, thinking that before the money was exhausted I should be sure to drop into something. I took my darling to Italy, and we lived there in splendid style as long as my two thousand pounds lasted. But when that began to dwindle down to a couple of hundred or so, we came back to England. And as my darling had a fancy for being near that tiresome old father of hers, we settled at the watering-place where he lived. Well, as soon as the old man heard that I had a couple of hundred pounds left, he expressed a wonderful degree of affection for us, and insisted on our boarding in his house. We consented, still to please my darling, who had just then a peculiar right to have every whim and fancy of her innocent heart indulged. We did board with him, and finally he fleeced us. But when I spoke of it to my little wife, she only shrugged her shoulders, and said she did not like to be unkind to her poor papa. So poor papa made away with our little stock of money in no time, and as I felt that it was now becoming necessary to look about for something, I ran up to London, and tried to get a situation as a clerk in a merchant's office, or as an accountant, or bookkeeper, or something of that kind. But I suppose there was the stamp of a heavy dragoon about me, for do what I would I couldn't get anybody to believe in my capacity, and tired out and downhearted I returned to my darling, to find her nursing a son and heir to his father's poverty. Poor little girl, she was very low-spirited, and when I told her that my London expedition had failed, she fairly broke down, and burst into a storm of sobs and lamentations, telling me that I ought not to have married her if I could give her nothing but poverty and misery, and that I had done her a cruel wrong in making her my wife. By heaven! Miss Morley, her tears and reproaches drove me almost mad, and I flew into a rage with her, myself, her father, the world, and everybody in it, and then railed out of the house. I walked about the streets all that day, half out of my mind, and with a strong inclination to throw myself into the sea, so as to leave my poor girl free to make a better match. If I drown myself, her father must support her, I thought. The old hypocrite could never refuse her a shelter. While I live she has no claim on him. I went down to a rickety old wooden pier, meaning to wait there till it was dark, and then drop quietly over the end of it into the water. But while I sat there smoking my pipe, and staring vacantly at the seagulls, two men came down, and one of them began to talk of the Australian gold-diggings and the great things that were to be done there. It appeared that he was going to sail in a day or two, and he was trying to persuade his companion to join him in the expedition. I listened to these men for upward of an hour, following them up and down the pier with my pipe in my mouth, and hearing all their talk. After this I fell into conversation with them myself, and ascertained that there was a vessel going to leave Liverpool in three days, by which vessel one of the men was going out. This man gave me all the information I required, and told me, or over, that a stalwart young fellow such as I was, could hardly fail to do well in the diggings. The thought flashed upon me so suddenly, that I grew hot and red in the face, and trembled in every limb with excitement. This was better than the water at any rate. Suppose I stole away from my darling, leaving her safe under her father's roof, and went and made a fortune in the New World, and came back in a twelve-month to throw it into her lap, for I was so sanguine in those days that I counted on making my fortune in a year or so. I thanked the man for his information, and late at night strolled homeward. It was bitter winter weather, but I had been too full of passion to feel cold. And I walked through the quiet streets, with the snow drifting in my face, and a desperate hopefulness in my heart. The old man was sitting drinking brandy and water in the little dining-room, and my wife was upstairs, sleeping peacefully, with the baby on her breast. I sat down and wrote a few brief lines, which told her that I never had loved her better than now, when I seemed to desert her, that I was going to try my fortune in the New World, and that if I succeeded I should come back to bring her plenty and happiness, but that if I failed, I should never look upon her face again. I divided the remainder of our money—something over forty pounds—into two equal portions, leaving one for her, and putting the other in my pocket. I knelt down and prayed for my wife and child, with my head upon the white counter-pain that covered them. I wasn't much of a praying man at ordinary times, but God knows that was a heartfelt prayer. I kissed her once, and the baby once, and then crept out of the room. The dining-room door was open, and the old man was nodding over his paper. He looked up as he heard my step in the passage, and asked me where I was going. "'To have a smoke in the street,' I answered, and as this was a common habit of mine he believed me. Three nights after I was out at sea, bound from Melbourne, a steerage passenger with the diggers' tools for my baggage, and about seven shillings in my pocket. "'And you succeeded,' asked Miss Morley. Not till I had longed as spared of success—not until poverty and I had become such old companions and bedfellows—that looking back at my past life, I wondered whether that dashing, reckless, extravagant, luxurious, champagne-drinking dragoon could have really been the same man who sat on the damp ground gnawing a moldy crust in the wilds of the new world. I clung to the memory of my darling, and the trust that I had in her love and truth was the one keystone that kept the fabric of my past life together—the one star that lit the thick black darkness of the future. I was hail-fellow well-met with bad men. I was in the centre of riot, drunkenness, and debauchery, but the purifying influence of my love kept me safe from all. Thin and gaunt, the half-starved shadow of what I once had been, I saw myself one day in a broken bit of looking-glass, and was frightened by my own face. But I toiled on through all, through disappointment and despair, rheumatism, fever, starvation, at the very gates of death I toiled on steadily to the end, and in the end I conquered. He was so brave in his energy and determination, in his proud triumph of success, and in the knowledge of the difficulties he had vanquished, that the pale governess could only look at him in wondering admiration. "'How brave you were,' she said. "'Brave,' he cried, with a joyous peel of laughter. "'Wasn't I working for my darling?' Through all the dreary time of that probation, her pretty white hand seemed beckoning me onward to a happy future. Why I have seen her under my wretched canvas tent sitting by my side, with her boy in her arms, as plainly as I had ever seen her in the one happy year of our wedded life. At last, one dreary foggy morning, just three months ago, with a drizzling rain wetting me to the skin, up to my neck in clay and mire, half-starved, enfeebled by fever, stiff with rheumatism, a monster nugget turned up under my spade, and I was in one minute the richest man in Australia. I fell down on the wet clay, with my lump of gold and the bosom of my shirt, and for the first time in my life cried like a child. I travelled post-haste to Sydney, realized my price, which was worth upward of twenty thousand pounds, and a fortnight afterward took my passage for England in this vessel, and in ten days, in ten days, I shall see my darling. But in all that time did you never write to your wife? Never. Till the night before I left Sydney. I could not write when everything looked so black. I could not write and tell her that I was fighting hard with despair and death. I waited for better fortune, and when that came I wrote telling her that I should be in England almost as soon as my letter, and giving her an address at a coffee-house in London where she could write to me, telling me where to find her, though she is hardly likely to have left her father's house. He fell into a reverie after this, and puffed meditatively at his cigar. His companion did not disturb him. The last ray of summer daylight had died out, and the pale light of the crescent moon only remained. Presently George Tallboys flung away his cigar, and, turning to the governess, cried abruptly, "'Miss Morley, if, when I get to England, I hear that anything has happened to my wife, I shall fall down dead.'" "'My dear Mr. Tallboys, why do you think of these things? God is very good to us. He will not afflict us beyond our power of endurance. I see all things, perhaps, in a melancholy light, for the long monotony of my life has given me too much time to think over my troubles.' And my life has been all action, privation, toil, alternate hope, and despair. I have had no time to think upon the chances of anything happening to my darling. What a blind, reckless fool I have been! Three years and a half, and not one line, one word from her, or from any mortal creature who knows her! Heaven above, what may not have happened! In the agitation of his mind he began to walk rapidly up and down the lonely deck, the governess following, and trying to soothe him. "'I swear to you, Miss Morley,' he said, "'that till you spoke to me to-night, I never felt one shadow of fear, and now I have that sick, sinking dread at my heart which you talked of an hour ago. Let me alone, please, to get over it my own way.' She drew silently away from him, and seated herself by the side of the vessel, looking over into the water. Such tall boys walked backward and forward for some time, with his head bent upon his breast, looking neither to the right nor the left, but in about a quarter of an hour he returned to the spot where the governess was seated. "'I have been praying,' he said, praying for my darling.' He spoke in a voice little above a whisper, and she saw his face ineffably calm in the moonlight. End of Chapter 2 CHAPTER III The same August sun, which had gone down behind the waste of waters, glimmered redly upon the broad face of the old clock over that ivy-covered archway which leads into the gardens of Audley Court. A fierce and crimson sunset. The mullioned windows and twinkling lattices are all ablaze with the red glory. The fading light flickers upon the leaves of the limes in the Long Avenue, and changes the still fish pond into a sheet of burnished copper. Even into those dim recesses of briar and brushwood, amidst which the old well is hidden, the crimson brightness penetrates in fitful flashes, till the dank weeds and the rusty iron wheel and broken woodwork seem as if they were flecked with blood. The lowing of a cow in the quiet meadows, the splash of a trout in the fish pond, the last notes of a tired bird, the creaking of wagon-wheels upon the distant road, every now and then breaking the evening silence, only made the stillness of the place seem more intense. It was almost oppressive, this twilight stillness. The very repose of the place grew painful from its intensity, and you felt as if a corpse must be lying somewhere within that gray and ivy-covered pile of a building, so deathlike was the tranquility of all around. As the clock over the archway struck eight, a door at the back of the house was softly opened, and a girl came out into the gardens. But even the presence of a human being scarcely broke the silence, for the girl crept slowly over the thick grass, and gliding into the avenue by the side of the fish pond, disappeared in the rich shelter of the limes. She was not, perhaps, positively a pretty girl, but her appearance was of that order which is commonly called interesting. Interesting it may be, because in the pale face and the light gray eyes, the small features and compressed lips, there was something which hinted at a power of repression and self-control not common in a woman of nineteen or twenty. She might have been pretty, I think, but for the one fault in her small oval face. This fault was an absence of color. Not one tinge of crimson flushed the wax and whiteness of her cheeks. Not one shadow of brown redeemed the pale insipidity of her eyebrows and eyelashes. Not one glimmer of gold or auburn relieved the dull flaxen of her hair. Even her dress was spoiled by this same deficiency. The pale lavender muslin faded into a sickly gray, and the ribbon knotted round her throat melted into the same neutral hue. Her figure was slim and fragile, and in spite of her humble dress she had something of the grace and carriage of a gentlewoman. But she was only a simple country girl, called Phoebe Marks, who had been nurse-made in Mr. Dawson's family, and whom Lady Audley had chosen for her maid after her marriage with Sir Michael. Of course this was a wonderful piece of good fortune for Phoebe, who found her wages trebled and her work lightened in the well-ordered household at the court, and who was therefore quite as much the object of envy among her particular friends, as my lady herself to higher circles. A man, who was sitting on the broken woodwork of the well, started as the ladies-made came out of the dim shade of the limes, and stood before him among the weeds and brushwood. I have said before that this was a neglected spot. It lay in the midst of a low shrubbery, hidden away from the rest of the gardens, and only visible from the garret windows at the back of the West Wing. "'Why, Phoebe,' said the man, shutting a clasp-knife with which she had been stripping the bark from a black-thorn stake,—'you came upon me so still and sudden, that I thought you was an evil spirit. I've come across through the fields, and come in here at the gate again the moat, and I was taking a rest before I came up to the house to ask if you was come back.' I can see the well from my bedroom window, Luke,' Phoebe answered, pointing to an open lattice in one of the gables. I saw you sitting here, and came down to have a chat. It's better talking out here than in the house, where there's always somebody listening.' The man was a big, broad-shouldered, stupid-looking clod-hopper of about twenty-three years of age. His dark red hair grew low upon his forehead, and his bushy brows met over a pair of greenish-gray eyes. His nose was large and well-shaped, but the mouth was coarse in form and animal in expression. Rosie cheeked, red-haired, and bull-necked. He was not unlike one of the stout oxen grazing in the meadows round about the court. The girl seated herself lightly upon the woodwork at his side, and put one of her hands, which had grown white in her new and easy service, about his thick neck. "'Are you glad to see me, Luke?' she asked. "'Of course I'm glad, lass,' he answered, borishly, opening his knife again and scraping away at the hedge-stake. They were first cousins, and had been play-fellows in childhood, and sweethearts in early youth. "'You don't seem much as if you were glad,' said the girl. "'You might look at me, Luke, and tell me if you think my journey has improved me.' "'It ain't put any color into your cheeks, my girl,' he said, glancing up at her from under his lowering eyebrows. You're every bit as white as you was when you went away.' "'But they say travelling makes people genteel, Luke. I've been on the continent with my lady, through all manner of curious places. And you know, when I was a child, Squire Horton's daughters taught me to speak a little French, and I found it so nice to be able to talk to the people abroad.' "'Genteel!' cried Luke Marks, with a horse-laugh. "'Who wants you to be genteel, I wonder? Not me, for one. When you're my wife, you won't have over much time for gentility, my girl. French, too?' "'Dang me, Phoebe. I suppose when we've saved enough money between us to buy a bit of a farm, you'll be parley-vooing to the cows?' She bit her lip as her lover spoke, and looked away. He went on cutting and chopping at a rude handle he was fashioning to the stake, whistling softly to himself all the while, and not once looking at his cousin. For some time they were silent. But by and by, she said, with her face still turned away from her companion. What a fine thing it is for Miss Graham that was to travel with her maid and her courier and her chariot and four, and a husband that thinks there isn't one spot upon all the earth that's good enough for her to set her foot upon. "'Aye, it is a fine thing, Phoebe, to have lots of money,' answered Luke. "'And I hope you'll be warned by that in my last to save up your wages again we get married.' "'Why, what was she in Mr. Dawson's house only three months ago?' continued the girl, as if she had not heard her cousin's speech. What was she but a servant like me, taking wages and working for them as hard or harder than I did? You should have seen her shabby clothes, Luke, worn and patched, and darned and turned and twisted, yet always looking nice upon her somehow. She gives me more as ladies made here than ever she got from Mr. Dawson then. Why, I've seen her come out of the parlour with a few sovereigns and a little silver in her hand that Master had just given her for her quarter's salary, and now look at her. "'Never you mind her,' said Luke. "'Take care of yourself, Phoebe, that's all you've got to do. What should you say to a public house for you and me by and by, my girl? There's a deal of money to be made out of a public house.'" The girl still sat with her face averted from her lover, her hands hanging listlessly in her lap, and her pale gray eyes fixed upon the last low streak of crimson dying out behind the trunks of the trees. "'You should see the inside of the house, Luke,' she said. "'It's a tumble-down-looking place enough outside, but you should see my ladies' rooms, all pictures and gilding and great-looking glasses that stretch from the ceiling to the floor, painted ceilings, too, that cost hundreds of pounds,' the housekeeper told her, and all done for her. "'She's a lucky one,' muttered Luke, with lazy indifference. "'You should have seen her while we were abroad, with a crowd of gentlemen hanging about her. Sir Michael not jealous of them, only proud to see her so much admired. You should have heard her laugh and talk with them, throwing all their compliments and fine speeches back at them as it were, as if they had been pelting her with roses. She said everybody mad about her wherever she went—her singing, her playing, her painting, her dancing, her beautiful smile and sun-shiny ringlets. She was always the talk of a place as long as we stayed in it. Is she at home to-night? No. She has gone out with Sir Michael to a dinner-party at the beaches. They've seven or eight miles to drive, and they won't be back till after eleven. Then I'll tell you what, Phoebe. If the inside of the house is so mighty fine, I should like to have a look at it. You shall, then. Mrs. Barton, the housekeeper, knows you by sight, and she can't object to my showing you some of the best rooms. It was almost dark when the cousins left the shrubbery and walked slowly to the house. The door by which they entered led into the servants' hall, on one side of which was the housekeeper's room. Phoebe Marks stopped for a moment to ask the housekeeper if she might take her cousin through some of the rooms, and having received permission to do so, lighted a candle at the lamp in the hall, and beckoned to Luke to follow her into the other part of the house. The long black oak corridors were dim in the ghostly twilight. The light carried by Phoebe looking only a poor speck in the broad passages through which the girl led her cousin. Luke looked suspiciously over his shoulder now and then, half frightened by the creaking of his own hobnailed boots. "'It's a mortal dull place, Phoebe,' he said, as they emerged from a passage into the principal hall which was not yet lighted. "'I've heard tell of a murder that was done here in old times.' "'There are murders enough in these times as to that,' Luke,' answered the girl, ascending the staircase, followed by the young man. She led the way through a great drawing-room, rich in satin and ormelu, buell and inlaid cabinets, bronzes, cameos, statuettes, and trinkets, that glistened in the dusky light. Then through a morning-room, hung with proof-and-gravings of valuable pictures, threw this into an ante-chamber, where she stopped, holding the light above her head. The young man stared about him, open-mouthed and open-eyed. "'It's a rare, fine place,' he said, and must have cost a heap of money.' "'Look at the pictures on the walls,' said Phoebe, glancing at the panels of the octagonal chamber, which were hung with clothes and poussin, woovermans and kipes. I've heard that those alone are worth a fortune. This is the entrance to my lady's apartments, Miss Graham, that was. She lifted a heavy green cloth curtain which hung across a doorway, and led the astonished countryman into a fairy-like boudoir, and thence to a dressing-room, in which the open doors of a wardrobe and a heap of dresses flung about a sofa, showed that it still remained exactly as its occupants had left it. "'I've got all these things to put away before my lady comes home, Luke. You might sit down here while I do it. I shan't belong.' Her cousin looked around in gawky embarrassment, bewildered by the splendor of the room, and after some deliberation selected the most substantial of the chairs, on the extreme edge of which he carefully seated himself. "'I wish I could show you the jewels, Luke,' said the girl. "'But I can't, for she always keeps the keys herself. That's the case on the dressing-table there.' "'What? THAT?' cried Luke, staring at the massive walnut wood-and-brass-enlaid casket. "'Why, that's big enough to hold every bit of clothes I've got! And it's as full as it can be of diamonds, rubies, pearls, and emeralds,' answered Phoebe, busy as she spoke in folding the rustling silk-dresses, and laying them one by one upon the shelves of the wardrobe. As she was shaking out the flounces of the last, a jingling sound caught her ear, and she put her hand into the pocket. "'I declare,' she exclaimed, "'my lady has left her keys and her pocket for once in a way. I can show you the jewellery, if you like, Luke.' "'Well, I may as well have a look at it, my girl,' he said, rising from his chair and holding the light while his cousin unlocked the casket. He uttered a cry of wonder when he saw the ornaments glittering on white satin cushions. He wanted to handle the delicate jewels, to pull them about and find out their mercantile value. Perhaps a pang of longing and envy shot through his heart as he thought how he would have liked to have taken one of them. Why, one of those diamond things would set us up in life, Phoebe,' he said, turning a bracelet over and over in his big red hands. "'Put it down, Luke! Put it down directly!' cried the girl with a look of terror. How can you speak about such things?' He laid the bracelet in its place with a reluctant sigh, and then continued his examination of the casket. "'What's this?' he asked presently, pointing to a brass knob in the framework of the box. He pushed it as he spoke, and a secret drawer lined with purple velvet flew out of the casket. "'Lookie here!' cried Luke, pleased at his discovery. Phoebe Marks threw down the dress she had been folding, and went over to the toilet-table. "'Why, I never saw this before,' she said. "'I wonder what there is in it?' There was not much in it—neither gold nor gems—only a baby's little worsted shoe rolled up in a piece of paper, and a tiny lock of pale and silky yellow hair evidently taken from a baby's head. Phoebe's eyes dilated as she examined the little packet. "'So this is what my lady hides in the secret drawer,' she muttered. "'It's a queer rubbish to keep in such a place,' said Luke carelessly. The girl's thin lip curved into a curious smile. "'You will bear me witness where I found this,' she said, putting the little parcel into her pocket. "'Why, Phoebe, you're not going to be such a fool as to take that!' cried the young man. "'I'd rather have this than the diamond bracelet you would have liked to take,' she answered. "'You shall have the public house, Luke.' End of CHAPTER III. CHAPTER IV OF LADY AUDLY SECRET. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Elizabeth Clutt. LADY AUDLY SECRET. By Mary Elizabeth Braddon. CHAPTER IV. In the first page of the Times. Robert Audly was supposed to be a barrister. As a barrister was his name inscribed in the law-list. As a barrister he had chambers and fig-tree-court, temple. As a barrister he had eaten the allotted number of dinners, which formed the sublime ordeal through which the forensic aspirant wades on to fame and fortune. If these things can make a man a barrister, Robert Audly decidedly was one. But he had never either had a brief, or tried to get a brief, or even wished to have a brief, in all those five years, during which his name had been painted upon one of the doors in fig-tree-court. He was a handsome, lazy, care-for-nothing fellow, of about seven and twenty, the only son of a younger brother of Sir Michael Audly. His father had left him four hundred pounds a year, which his friends had advised him to increase by being called to the bar, and as he found it, after due consideration, more trouble to oppose the wishes of these friends than to eat so many dinners, and to take a set of chambers in the temple. He adopted the latter course, and unblushingly called himself a barrister. Sometimes when the weather was very hot, and he had exhausted himself with the exertion of smoking his German pipe and reading French novels, he would stroll into the temple gardens, and lying in some shady spot, pale and cool, with his shirt-collar turned down in a blue-silk handkerchief tied loosely about his neck, would tell grave benchers that he had knocked himself up with overwork. The sly old benchers laughed at the pleasant fiction, but they all agreed that Robert Audly was a good fellow, a generous-hearted fellow, rather a curious fellow, too, with a fund of sly wit and quiet humor under his listless, dawdling, indifferent, irresolute manner. A man who would never get on in the world, but who would not hurt a worm. Indeed his chambers were converted into a perfect dog-kennel by his habit of bringing home stray and benighted currs, who were attracted by his looks in the street, and followed him with abject fondness. Robert always spent the hunting season at Audly Court. Not that he was distinguished as a nimrod, for he would quietly trot to covert upon a mild-tempered, stout-limbed bay-hack, and keep at a very respectful distance from the hard-riders, his horse knowing quite as well as he did, that nothing was further from his thoughts than any desire to be in at the death. The young man was a great favourite with his uncle, and by no means despised by his pretty, gypsy-faced, light-hearted, hoidonish cousin, Miss Alice Audly. It might have seemed to other men that the partiality of a young lady who was sole heiress to a very fine estate was rather well worth cultivating, but it did not so occur to Robert Audly. Alicea was a very nice girl, he said, a jolly girl with no nonsense about her, a girl of a thousand. But this was the highest point to which enthusiasm could carry him. The idea of turning his cousin's girlish liking for him to some good account never entered his idle brain. I doubt if he even had any correct notion of the amount of his uncle's fortune, and I am certain that he never for one moment calculated upon the chances of any part of that fortune ultimately coming to himself. So that when, one fine spring morning, about three months before the time of which I am writing, the postman brought him the wedding cards of Sir Michael and Lady Audly, together with a very indignant letter from his cousin, setting forth how her father had just married a waxed, dollish young person no older than Alicea herself, with flaxen ringlets and a perpetual giggle. Before I am sorry to say that Miss Audly's onimus caused her thus to describe that pretty musical laugh which had been so much admired in the late Miss Lucy Graham. When I say these documents reached Robert Audly, they elicited neither vexation nor astonishment in the lymphatic nature of that gentleman. He read Alicea's angry crossed and recross letter without so much as removing the amber mouthpiece of his German pipe from his mustached lips. When he had finished the perusal of the epistle, which he read with his dark eyebrows elevated to the centre of his forehead—his only manner of expressing surprise, by the way—he deliberately threw that and the wedding-cards into the waste-paper basket, and putting down his pipe prepared himself for the exertion of thinking out the subject. I always said the old buffer would marry, he muttered, after about half an hour's reverie. Alicea and my lady, the stepmother, will go at it hammer and tongs. I hope they won't quarrel in the hunting season, or say unpleasant things to each other at the dinner-table. Rouse always upset a man's digestion. At about twelve o'clock in the morning following that night upon which the events recorded in my last chapter had taken place, the baronet's nephew strolled out of the temple, Blackfriars Ward, on his way to the city. He had, in an evil hour, obliged some necessitous friend by putting the ancient name of Audley across a bill of accommodation, which Bill not having been provided for by the drawer, Robert was called upon to pay. For this purpose he sauntered up Ludgate Hill, with his blue necktie fluttering in the hot August air, and thence to a refreshingly cool banking-house in a shady court out of St. Paul's churchyard, where he made arrangements for selling out a couple of hundred pounds worth of consoles. He had transacted this business, and was loitering at the corner of the court, waiting for a chance handsome to convey him back to the temple, when he was almost knocked down by a man of about his own age, who dashed headlong into the narrow opening. Be so good as to look where you're going, my friend," Robert remonstrated mildly to the impetuous passenger. You might give a man warning before you throw him down and trample upon him. The stranger stopped suddenly, looked very hard at the speaker, and then gasped for breath. "'Bob!' he cried, in a tone expressive of the most intense astonishment. I only touched British ground after dark last night, and to think that I should meet you this morning. "'I've seen you somewhere before, my bearded friend,' said Mr. Oddly, calmly scrutinizing the animated face of the other. "'But I'll be hanged if I can remember when or where.' "'What!' exclaimed the stranger reproachfully. "'You don't mean to say that you've forgotten George Tall Boys?' "'No, I have not,' said Robert, with an emphasis by no means usual to him. And then, hooking his arm into that of his friend, he led him into the shady court, saying, with his old indifference, "'And now, George, tell us all about it.'" George Tall Boys did tell him all about it. He told that very story which he had related ten days before to the pale governess on board the Argus. And then, hot and breathless, he said that he had twenty thousand pounds or so in his pocket, and that he wanted to bank it at Messiers, who had been his bankers many years before. "'If you'll believe me, I've only just left their counting-house,' said Robert. "'I'll go back with you, and we'll settle that matter in five minutes.'" They did contrive to settle it in about a quarter of an hour, and when Robert Oddly was for starting off immediately for the crown and scepter at Greenwich, or the castle at Richmond where they could have a bit of dinner, and talk over those good old times when they were together at Eaton. But George told his friend that before he went anywhere, before he shaved or broke his vest, or in any way refreshed himself after a night journey from Liverpool by express train, he must call at a certain coffee-house in Bridge Street, Westminster, where he expected to find a letter from his wife. As they dashed through Ludgate Hill, Fleet Street and the Strand, in a fast handsome, George Tall Boys poured into his friend's ear all those wild hopes and dreams which had usurped such a dominion over his sanguine nature. "'I shall take a villa on the banks of the Thames, Bob,' he said, for the little wife and myself, and will have a yacht, Bob, old boy, and you shall lie on the deck and smoke while my pretty one plays her guitar and sings songs to us. She's for all the world like one of those, what's its names, who got poor old Ulysses into trouble,' added the young man, whose classic lore was not very great. The waiters at the Westminster Coffee-House stared at the hallowed, unshaven stranger, with his clothes of colonial cut and his boisterous, excited manner, but he had been an old frequenter of the place in his military days, and when they heard who he was they flew to do his bidding. He did not want much, only a bottle of soda water, and to know if there was a letter at the bar directed to George Tall Boys. The waiter brought the soda water before the young men had seated themselves in a shady box near the disused fireplace. No, there was no letter for that name. The waiter said it with consiment and difference, while he mechanically dusted the little mahogany table. George's face blanched to a deadly whiteness. Tall Boys, he said, perhaps you didn't hear the name distinctly. T-A-L-B-O-Y-S. Go and look again, there must be a letter. The waiter shrugged his shoulders as he left the room, and returned in three minutes to say that there was no name at all resembling Tall Boys in the letter rack. There was Brown and Sanderson and Pinchbeck, only three letters altogether. The young man drank his soda water in silence, and then, leaning his elbows on the table, covered his face with his hands. There was something in his manner which told Robert Oddly that his disappointment, trifling as it may appear, was in reality a very bitter one. He seated himself opposite to his friend, but did not attempt to address him. By and by George looked up, and mechanically taking a greasy Times newspaper of the day before from a heap of journals on the table, stared vacantly at the first page. I cannot tell how long he sat, blankly staring at one paragraph among the list of deaths, before his dazed brain took in its full meaning. But after considerable pause, he pushed the newspaper over to Robert Oddly, and with a face that had changed from its dark bronze to a sickly, chalky, grayish white, and with an awful calmness in his manner, he pointed with his finger to a line which ran thus. On the twenty-fourth inst, at Ventner, Isle of White, Helen Tall Boys, aged twenty-two. End of CHAPTER IV CHAPTER V of Lady Oddly's secret. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Elizabeth Klett. Lady Oddly's Secret by Mary Elizabeth Braddon. CHAPTER V THE HEADSTONE AT VENTNER. Yes, there it was in black and white, Helen Tall Boys, aged twenty-two. When George told the governess on board the Argus that if he heard any evil tidings of his wife he should drop down dead, he spoke in perfect good faith. And yet here were the worst tidings that could come to him, and he sat rigid, white, and helpless, staring stupidly at the shocked face of his friend. The suddenness of the blow had stunned him. In this strange and bewildered state of mind, he began to wonder what had happened, and why it was that one line in the Times newspaper could have so horrible an effect upon him. Then by degrees even this vague consciousness of his misfortune faded slowly out of his mind, succeeded by a painful consciousness of external things. The hot August sunshine, the dusty window-panes and shabby painted blinds, a file of fly-blown play-bills fastened to the wall, the black and empty fireplaces, a bald-headed old man nodding over the morning advertiser, the slip-shod waiter folding a tumbled tablecloth, and Robert Audley's handsome face looking at him full of compassionate alarm. He knew that all these things took gigantic proportions, and then one by one melted into dark blots and swam before his eyes. He knew that there was a great noise, as of half a dozen furious steam engines tearing and grinding in his ears, and he knew nothing more, except that somebody or something fell heavily to the ground. He opened his eyes upon the dusky evening in a cool and shaded room, the silence only broken by the rumbling of wheels at a distance. He looked about him wonderingly, but half indifferently. His old friend Robert Audley was seated by his side, smoking. George was lying on a low iron bed-stead opposite to an open window, in which there was a stand of flowers and two or three birds and cages. You don't mind the pipe, do you, George? His friend asked quietly. No. He lay for some time looking at the flowers and the birds. One canary was singing a shrill hymn to the setting sun. Do the birds annoy you, George? Shall I take them out of the room? No. I like to hear them sing. But Audley knocked the ashes out of his pipe, laid the precious Meersham tenderly upon the mantelpiece, and, going into the next room, returned presently with a cup of strong tea. Take this, George," he said, as he placed the cup on a little table close to George's pillow. It will do your head good. The young man did not answer, but looked slowly round the room and then at his friend's grave face. Bob, he said, where are we? In my chambers, dear boy, in the temple, you have no lodgings of your own, so you may as well stay with me while you're in town. George passed his hand once or twice across his forehead, and then, in a hesitating manner, said quietly, that newspaper this morning, Bob, what was it? Never mind us now, old boy, drinks of tea. Yes, yes," cried George impatiently, raising himself upon the bed and staring about him with hollow eyes. I remember all about it. Helen, my Helen, my wife, my darling, my only love! Dead! Dead! George, said Robert Audley, laying his hand gently upon the young man's arm. You must remember that the person whose name you saw in the paper may not be your wife. There may have been some other Helen, tall boys. No, no, he cried. The age corresponds with hers, and tall boys is such an uncommon name. It may be a misprint for Talbot. No, no, no, my wife is dead! He shook off Robert's restraining hand, and rising from the bed walked straight to the door. Where are you going? exclaimed his friend. To Ventner, to see her grave. Not to-night, George, not to-night! I will go with you myself by the first train to-morrow. Robert led him back to the bed, and gently forced him to lie down again. He then gave him an opiate, which had been left for him by the medical man whom they had called in at the coffee-house in Bridge Street, when George fainted. So George tall boys fell into a heavy slumber, and dreamed that he went to Ventner, to find his wife alive and happy, but wrinkled old and gray, and to find his son grown into a young man. Early the next morning he was seated opposite to Robert Audley in the first-class carriage of an express, whirling through the pretty open country toward Portsmouth. They landed at Ventner under the burning heat of the midday sun. As the two young men came from the steamer, the people on the pier stared at George's white face and untrimmed beard. What are we to do, George? Robert Audley asked. We have no clue to finding the people you want to see. The young man looked at him with a pitiful, bewildered expression. The big dragoon was as helpless as a baby, and Robert Audley, the most vacillating and unenergetic of men, found himself called upon to act for another. He rose superior to himself, and equal to the occasion. Have you better not ask at one of the hotels about a Mrs. Tallboy's, George? he said. Her father's name was Maldon, George muttered. He could never have sent her here to die alone. They said nothing more, but Robert walked straight to a hotel where he inquired for a Mr. Maldon. Yes, they told him, there was a gentleman of that name stopping at Ventner, a Captain Maldon. His daughter was lately dead. The waiter would go and inquire for the address. The hotel was a busy place at this season, people hurrying in and out, and a great bustle of grooms and waiters about the halls. George Tallboy's leaned against the door-post, with much the same look in his face, as that which had frightened his friend in the Westminster Coffee House. The worst was confirmed now. His wife, Captain Maldon's daughter, was dead. The waiter returned in about five minutes to say that Captain Maldon was lodging at Landstown Cottage No. 4. They easily found the house, a shabby, low-windowed cottage, looking toward the water. Was Captain Maldon at home? No, the landlady said. He had gone out on the beach with his little grandson. Would the gentleman walk in and sit down of it? George mechanically followed his friend into the little front parlor, dusty, shabbily furnished and disorderly, with the child's broken toys scattered on the floor and the scent of stale tobacco hanging about the muslin window-curtains. Look! said George, pointing to a picture over the mantelpiece. It was his own portrait, painted in the old, dragooning days—a pretty good likeness, representing him in uniform with his charger in the background. Perhaps the most animated of men would have been scarcely so wise a comforter as Robert Audley. He did not utter a word to the stricken widower, but quietly seated himself with his back to George, looking out of the open window. For some time the young man wandered restlessly about the room, looking at and sometimes touching the knickknacks lying here and there. Her work-box was an unfinished piece of work, her album full of extracts from Byron and Moore, written in his own scrawling hand, some books which he had given her, and a bunch of withered flowers and a vase they had bought in Italy. Her portrait used to hang by the side of mine, he muttered. I wonder what they have done with it. By and by, he said, after about an hour's silence. I should like to see the woman of the house. I should like to ask her about— He broke down, and buried his face in his hands. Robert summoned the landlady. She was a good-natured, garrulous creature, accustomed to sickness and death, for many of her lodgers came to her to die. She told all the particulars of Mrs. Tallboy's last hours, how she had come to Ventner only ten days before her death and the last stage of decline, and how, day by day, she had gradually, but surely, sunk under the fatal malady. Was the gentleman any relative, she asked, of Robert Audley, as George sobbed aloud. Yes, he is the lady's husband. What! the woman cried. Him has deserted her so cruel, and left her with her pretty boy upon her poor old father's hands, which Captain Maldon has told me often, with the tears in his poor eyes. I did not desert her! George cried out, and then he told the history of his three-year struggle. Did she speak of me? he asked. Did she speak of me at—at the last? No. She went off as quiet as a lamb. She said very little from the first, but the last day she knew nobody, not even her little boy, nor her poor old father, who took on awful. Once she went off wild like talking about her mother, and about the cruel shame it was to leave her to die in a strange place, till it was quite pitiful to hear her. Her mother died when she was quite a child, said George, to think she should remember her and speak of her, but never once of me. The woman took him into the little bedroom in which his wife had died. He knelt down by the bed and kissed the pillow tenderly, the landlady crying as he did so. While he was kneeling, praying perhaps with his face buried in this humble, snow-white pillow, the woman took something from a drawer. She gave it to him when he rose from his knees. It was a long, tress of hair wrapped in silver paper. I cut this off when she lay in her coffin, she said, poor dear. He pressed this off lock to his lips. Yes, he murmured, this is the dear hair that I have kissed so often when her head lay upon my shoulder. But it always had a rippling wave in it then, and now it seems smooth and straight. It changes in illness, said the landlady. If you'd like to see where they have laid her, Mr. Tallboys, my little boy shall show you the way to the churchyard. So George Tallboys and his faithful friend walked to the quiet spot, where beneath a mound of earth, to which the patches of fresh turf hardly adhered, lay that wife of whose welcoming smile George had dreamed so often in the far antipodes. Robert left the young man by the side of this newly made grave, and returning in about a quarter of an hour, found that he had not once stirred. He looked up presently, and said that if there was a stone-mason's anywhere near he should like to give an order. They very easily found the stone-mason, and sitting down amidst the fragmentary litter of the man's yard, George Tallboys wrote in pencil this brief inscription for the headstone of his dead wife's grave. Sacred to the memory of Helen, the beloved wife of George Tallboys, who departed this life August twenty-fourth, eighteen, age twenty-two, deeply regretted by her sorrowing husband. End of Chapter 5. Chapter 6 of Lady Audley's Secret. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Coming by Elizabeth Klett. Lady Audley's Secret. By Mary Elizabeth Braddon. Chapter 6. Anywhere. Anywhere out of the world. When they returned to Lansdowne Cottage, they found the old man had not yet come in, so they walked down to the beach to look for him. After a brief search they found him, sitting upon a heap of pebbles, reading a newspaper, and eating Philberts. The little boy was at some distance from his grandfather, digging in the sand with a wooden spade. The crepe round the old man's shabby hat, and the child's poor little black frock, went to George's heart. Go where he would, he met fresh confirmation of this great grief of his life. His wife was dead. Mr. Maldon, he said, as he approached his father-in-law. The old man looked up, and, dropping his newspaper, rose from the pebbles with a ceremonious bow. His faded light hair was tinged with grey. He had a pinched hook, nose, watery blue eyes, and an irresolute-looking mouth. He wore his shabby dress with an affectation of foppish gentility. An eyeglass dangled over his closely buttoned-up waistcoat, and he carried a cane in his ungloved hand. "'Great Heaven!' cried George, "'Don't you know me?' Mr. Maldon started and colored violently, with something of a frightened look, as he recognized his son-in-law. "'My dear boy,' he said, "'I did not. For the first moment I did not. That beard makes such a difference. You find the beard makes a great difference. Do you not, sir?' he said, appealing to Robert. "'Great Heavens!' exclaimed George Tallboy's. "'Is this the way you welcome me? I come to England to find my wife dead within a week of my touching land, and you begin to chatter to me about my beard, you, her father.' "'True, true,' muttered the old man, wiping his bloodshot eyes. "'A sad shock, a sad shock, my dear George, if you'd only been here a week earlier.' "'If I had!' cried George, in an outburst of grief and passion. I scarcely think that I would have let her die. I would have disputed for her with death. I would! I would! Oh, God! Why did not the Argus go down with every soul on board her before I came to see this day?' He began to walk up and down the beach, his father-in-law looking helplessly at him, rubbing his feeble eyes with a handkerchief. I have a strong notion that that old man didn't treat his daughter too well, thought Robert, as he watched the half-pay lieutenant. He seems, for some reason or other, to be half-afraid of George. While the agitated young man walked up and down in a fever of regret and despair, the child ran to his grandfather, and clung about the tails of his coat. "'Come home, grandpa, come home,' he said. I'm tired.' George Tall Boyce turned at the sound of the babyish voice, and looked long and earnestly at the boy. He had his father's brown eyes and dark hair. "'My darling—my darling,' said George, taking the child in his arms, "'I am your father. Come across the sea to find you. Will you love me?' The little fellow pushed him away. "'I don't know you,' he said. "'I love grandpa and Mrs. Monks at Southampton.' "'George has a temper of his own, sir,' said the old man. He has been spoiled.' They walked slowly back to the cottage, and once more George Tall Boyce told the history of that desertion which had seemed so cruel. He told two of the twenty thousand pounds banked by him the day before. He had not the heart to ask any questions about the past, and his father-in-law only told him that a few months after his departure they had gone from the place where George left them, to live at Southampton, where Helen got a few pupils for the piano, and where they managed pretty well till her health failed, and she fell into the decline of which she died. Like most sad stories it was a very brief one. "'The boy seems fond of you, Mr. Maldon,' said George after a pause. "'Yes, yes,' answered the old man, smoothing the child's curling hair. "'Yes, George is very fond of his grandfather.' "'Then he had better stop with you. The interest of my money will be about six hundred a year. You can draw a hundred of that for George's education, leaving the rest to accumulate till he is of age. My friend here will be the trustee, and if he will undertake the charge, I will appoint him guardian to the boy, allowing him for the present to remain under your care.' "'But why not take care of him yourself, George?' asked Robert oddly. "'Because I shall sail in the very next vessel that leaves Liverpool for Australia. I shall be better in the diggings with the backwoods than ever I could be here. I am broken for a civilized life from this hour, Bob. The old man's weak eyes sparkled as George declared this determination. "'My poor boy, I think you're right,' he said. "'I really think you're right. The change, the wild life, the—the—' He hesitated and broke down as Robert looked earnestly at him. "'You're in a great hurry to get rid of your son-in-law, I think, Mr. Maldon,' he said gravely. "'Get rid of him, dear boy—oh, no, no—' But for his own sake, my dear sir, for his own sake, you know.' "'I think for his own sake he'd much better stay in England and look after his son,' said Robert. "'But I tell you I can't,' cried George. "'Every inch of this accursed ground is hateful to me. I want to run out of it as I would out of a graveyard. I'll go back to town to-night, get that business about the money settled early to-morrow morning, and start for Liverpool without a moment's delay. I shall be better when I've put half the world between me and her grave.' Before he left the house he stole out to the landlady, and asked some more questions about his dead wife. "'Were they poor?' he asked. Were they pinched for money while she was ill?' "'Oh, no,' the woman answered. Though the captain dresses shabby, he always has plenty of sovereigns in his purse. The poor lady wanted for nothing.' George was relieved at this, though it puzzled him to know where the drunken half-pay lieutenant could have contrived to find money for all the expenses of his daughter's illness. But he was too thoroughly broken down by the calamity which had befallen him, to be able to think much of anything. So he asked no further questions, but walked with his father-in-law and Robert Audley down to the boat by which they were to cross to Portsmouth. The old man bade Robert a very ceremonious adieu. "'You did not introduce me to your friend by the by, my dear boy?' he said. George stared at him, muttered something indistinct, and ran down the ladder to the boat before Mr. Maldon could repeat his request. The steamer sped away through the sunset, and the outline of the island melted in the horizon as they neared the opposite shore. "'To think,' said George, "'that two nights ago at this time I was steaming into Liverpool, full of the hope of clasping her to my heart. And to-night I am going away from her grave.' The document which appointed Robert Audley as guardian to little George Tall Boy's was drawn up in a solicitor's office the next morning. "'It's a great responsibility,' exclaimed Robert. "'I, guardian to anybody or any thing, I, who never in my life could take care of myself?' "'I trust in your noble heart, Bob,' said George. "'I know you will take care of my poor orphan boy, and see that he is well used by his grandfather. I shall only draw enough from George's fortune to take me back to Sydney, and then begin my old work again.' But it seemed as if George was destined to be himself the guardian of his son. For when he reached Liverpool, he found that a vessel had just sailed, and that there would not be another for a month. So he returned to London, and once more threw himself upon Robert Audley's hospitality. The barrister received him with open arms. He gave him the room with the birds and flowers, and had a bed put up in his dressing-room for himself. Grief is so selfish that George did not know the sacrifices his friend made for his comfort. He only knew that for him the sun was darkened, and the business of life done. He sat all day long smoking cigars, and staring at the flowers and canaries, chafing for the time to pass that he might be far out at sea. But just as the hour was drawing near for the sailing of the vessel, Robert Audley came in one day, full of a great scheme. A friend of his, another of those barristers whose last thought is of a brief, was going to St. Petersburg to spend the winter, and wanted Robert to accompany him. Robert would only go on condition that George went too. For a long time the young man resisted, but he found that Robert was, in a quiet way, thoroughly determined upon not going without him. He gave in, and consented to join the party. "'What did it matter?' he said. One place was the same to him as another. Anywhere out of England, what did he care where?' This was not a very cheerful way of looking at things, but Robert Audley was quite satisfied with having won his consent. The three young men started under very favourable circumstances, carrying letters of introduction to the most influential inhabitants of the Russian capital. Before leaving England, Robert wrote to his cousin Alicia, telling her of his intended departure with his old friend George Tallboys, whom he had lately met for the first time after a lapse of years, and who had just lost his wife. Alicia's reply came by return post, and ran thus. "'My dear Robert, how cruel of you to run away to that horrid St. Petersburg before the hunting season. I have heard that people lose their noses in that disagreeable climate, and as yours is rather a long one, I should advise you to return before the very severe weather sets in. What sort of person is this Mr. Tallboys? If he is very agreeable, you may bring him to the court as soon as you return from your travels. The Audley tells me to request you to secure her a set of sables. You are not to consider the price, but to be sure that they are the handsomest that can be obtained. Papa is perfectly absurd about his new wife, and she and I cannot get on together at all. Not that she is disagreeable to me, for as far as that goes, she makes herself agreeable to everyone, but she is so irretrievably childish and silly. Give me to be, my dear Robert, your affectionate cousin, Alicia Audley.