 Nobody told me how lonely being a man is but to have known and I think a lot of trans men feel this is we knew what that felt like before we transitioned we knew what it felt like to like have people wanna hug us and have people want to talk to us. If I had a feminine side I would feel bad about what I'm getting ready to say. I don't have a feminine side. Okay so I'm only using the term trans man just so that you all could know what I'm talking about. There's no such thing as a trans man. You either are a man or you're not. There's no such thing as at least I'm not using the term cis man or cis gender. No no man woman. But here's a lady who decided to become a man. I guess the woman liked women and wanted to join the other club. You know I don't know what's the old saying if you can't beat them join them but she found out the hard way. Now I will say this though I will say this. She grew a heck of a beard did she not I don't know what it is that she took if that's some sort of what do you call it some sort of inserts or something plugged in or glued on or whatever but assistant it's pretty good it's a pretty good beard for lady I'll give you that but she's crying because she became a man and realized two things one outwardly and I would have thought you'd like a man you like a soft man but still you like a man I would have guessed you were a man just looking at you so kudos to your surgeon but what she's finding out that though you look like something on the outside doesn't change what you are on the inside you do realize that men and women are different but let's just listen to her speak a little bit more about how hard and how lonely it is to be a man nobody told me how lonely being a man is at closer friendships with random women I met in the bathroom before I transitioned at clubs because of how open women are then I've had and I eight years of transitioning let me just say this it's not lonely being a man men just don't crave that sort of attention that you you want to talk about this talk about that yeah if you're with your fellas and you say hey listen I'm going to the bathroom who wants to go with me you're not my friend anymore we we can't hang if that's what you're gonna do if that comes out of your mouth we're not friends anymore because women are just so much more vulnerable indeed man but to have known and I think a lot of trans men feel this is we knew what that felt like before we transitioned we knew what it felt like to like how people want to hug us and have people want to talk to us see that's where you went wrong see man I'm not I don't know when I've really been looking for people to want to hug me and and to want to get to know me I'm not looking to cry let me just pull a passage up the Bible says that in the beginning God verse 7 chapter 1 he says God created man in his own image in the image of God he created them male and female he created them he created two different genders you come along and you want to change the rules and think that hey it's going to adapt that's not the case sweetie and friendships are so much harder to build and people are colder and what's hard is none of this invalidates how real and raw women and people who are in marginalized groups feel about cis white men all of that's valid but I also now understand why the suicide rate is so much higher than men the reason is because women aren't men men aren't women aren't you bunker needed have it right when he said girls or girls and men were men we should with those kind of days we want to have back when we all knew it understood that girls or girls and men were men that's just the case kind of just give you another scripture to lady the Bible says in chapter 3 of Genesis verse 16 says the woman after the sin he says I will greatly multiply your pain in childbirth that's for ladies that for me when my children were born I didn't feel any pain my wife did she she did that I'm not making light of that but that's because that's her rule that we didn't ask God to fix that I know they would like to but he says in pain you bring forth children yet your desire will be for your husband and he will rule over you therein lies the problem you don't like the fact that men have this position that God has given and so as you said if you can't beat them join them but even still you are not going to feel whole the reason why the suicide rate is high amongst all homosexuals not just trans because you're trying to be something that you're not you're trying to accomplish something that God never intended you to become you're trying to go to a place that God will not let you you will never be if you're born a woman you will never be a man your bone structure is different your hips are different everything about you is different including your mind the way that you think you can't even I don't know I don't know any men that think this way I don't know any men that are going around looking for a lot of attention a lot of that there are some I guess there are like the way the world is going and then I have to kind of look cross-eyed as well maybe they are maybe they're one of you ladies trying to be a man but you have it shouldn't have taken you this long it should have taken you to become a man to realize that this is how men are men are different because this is lonely and I'm an emotionally mature man no you're not an emotionally mature man you listen you are a an emotionally mature woman what you're doing what you're exhibiting if a woman does that that's fine no one has a problem with that if a guy does that we're going to get you some help fellas if we're going to get you some help if if I see a man this way but a woman I understand because we understand that we are made differently our desires our needs are different I know how to build friendships and it is still really really hard so in conclusion when you say it's hard being a man no it's not it's hard for a woman to be a man just like if a man want to be a woman be hard for him it's not hard for a woman to be a woman if she's a woman it's not hard for a man to be a man if he's a man are there some difficulties in life just normally yes there are but trying to be something that God did not intend for you to be you're going to always run into this brick wall and so my prayer you seem to have you seem to have had a good surgeon because again with the beard and everything maybe you can go back to that surgeon said listen I made a mistake I don't know how much cost you how much it's at your back but I promise you the pain the guilt the despair the broken hardness that won't ever go away as long as you are in a body that's not yours and so go back to him and say can we fix this but even more than that go to the father and ask him to forgive you place your faith in him and see if he can't make you whole I promise you he can't