 You can now follow me in all my social media platforms to find out who my latest guest will be and don't forget to click the subscribe button and the notifications button so you're notified for when my next podcast goes live. And yeah, they both beat me up and I went home crying and my mum said, what's happened? And I said, I've just been beaten up by the two brothers. They lived on my estate. So she got me in a car and she gave me a bat and she said, brother lived there. I said, yeah, she stopped outside. She would get out of the car and knock on the door. And he'd just be the life out of me. So I had to grab him and I beat him. And I got disqualified. Got banned for a year in amateur boxing. I think I was the only first one to bite someone. She must have stopped a good day. Fuck. Fuck sick. Love was just blind. I ended up turning to booze and drugs. And we're still fighting to try and get the money for that. To try and turn my life around. I wanted to turn my life around. I wanted the money, but it wasn't. It was just a vicious circle. I was making money to spend money, to drink money and to sniff money. Working for drug dealers. They've ended up killing one geezer. I ended up driving a motor, doing runs. When I was younger and pulled up, some geezer opened a car door and he went like that down the back of the seat, pulled out a gun. I was like, fucking hell, what's happening now? I'd do a video. Hey, what's happening now? We're doing, smiling. Have a great day, people. Mother, put the phone down. I'll cry. I'll cry. And I took a load of pills. You get to that stage where you don't want to be. Don't mean to, like, get upset, but I've been there. It does, it does really. Get on where you're just doing the same things. I just want people to listen. Boomer on. Today's guest, we've got Chazza. How are you? Chazza, how are you, mate? It's a pleasure. Good to see you. Good to see you, buddy. You're looking well. Yeah, it looks like you've been all right, not me. I want you to get some colour. Mad story, Chazza. You know yourself. You're one of the boys. Party scene. You're boxing, career. Bare knuckle boxing. You've battled your own depression. Good friends with my boy, Dapper. But a roller coaster. But a lot of people can relate to these podcasts because I think a lot of people have kind of been in that same boat. Trying to make everybody laugh. Drink, drugs. Pretending to be something that we're not. But glad to have you on, brother. It's been a long time coming. Thank you so much. I'm glad to be on just to express my story for the real people out there. You know, the people that are at the bottom and that go through mad stuff. And there's just normal people working class. And that's all I want to do is just show that if I can do it, anybody can do it. I always go back to the start of my guests. Where do you grew up and how it all began? Grew up on a council estate. I moved in with my nan on the estate when I was three. Lived there. It was a rough estate. You had to fight the way to the top in that estate. There was nothing given to you. Got bullied as a kid. Coming through, we're like, sorry. I got kicked out of junior school. What for? Argued with a teacher and then I kicked him in the shins. Told him to f off. Just a little, I was just a little tear away. Then, yeah, I went to high school. I got kicked out of high school. So I've got no education whatsoever. Grating now. Always the funny kid. Always the classroom clown. And my dad always said to me, if you want to be a man and you don't want to go to school, then go and get a job. And I was 14. So I found myself a job. It was over that. I'll go to a naughty school. It was called the Collins Beach Center where the naughty kids go. So I went and got a job. And right, it's right. I had to pay my dad half my wages for rent. I think I was on £12 a day. So I had to give half of that to my old man. Made me the person I am today. What was it like getting bullied? How did that affect you from then to now? It was horrible. I hated it. You know, I used to wear shoes too big for me. Everyone used to call me flipper foot. My old man was Dr. Martin's. So I used to always get bullied. And I remember coming home one day across the field. We still had a field. And two brothers, they sat on a wall and they waited for me to come. And I knew it. It was every day they was doing it. Screaming and shouting, abusing, slapping around the head. And yeah, they both beat me up. And I went home crying. And my mum said, what's happened? And I said, I've just been beating up. But the two brothers, they lived on my estate. So she got me in a car and she gave me a bat. And she said, where they lived there? I said, yeah. And she stopped outside. She would get out of the car and knock on the door. She'd been doing one by one. And my mum's a bit old school. I had no choice. I was scared and knocked on the door. And down my mum's door, I never forget. And I just stood there and said, where's your boys? They've just beaten me up. I want to fight them one on one. She said, put the bat down. So I put the bat down. The two boys come out. And the mum come back to the door while the boys were standing there. And she was like, are you sure you want to do this? And I was like, not really. I said, but I've got to. And my mum's told me to, she was like, go back and give this to your mum. And she gave me a leaflet to a boxing gym. So I went back in the car and I said to her, mum, just give me this leaflet. They don't want to fight. I made it as if they didn't want to fight. But it was me really that didn't want to fight. But I was thinking I had to do it. And that was that. I went to the boxing gym and fell in love with boxing at a young age. And become good at it. Who did you feel your first part in session? Can you remember? Yeah, I can't. It was the fact where the anger, everything as a young kid, by getting bullied growing up and getting the verbal abuse at school and wish on a please everyone and that day you sparred. And it was just like, yeah, you just let your aggression out. Obviously I wasn't good. But the buzz to actually release was just amazing. Yeah, that's a lot of weight off me. People get bullied and scared. I believe a lot of people who fight, in fact probably everybody who fights is the fight because of fear. The fight because of the pain in the past or what they've been through and holding that kind of, I don't know what it is, man. That was the fear of accomplishment, the feeling of you feel you're a man. Listen, man, you don't need to fight to be a man, but it's that feeling that those chemicals, whatever it is after you've had a scrap with somebody that just makes you feel, fuck me, I feel alive, but you only feel alive for maybe half an hour, 10 minutes and then that kind of goes. And then you're impound. Did you start craving the buzz for that? Yeah, I just, I fell in love with it and I felt it was just a massive release and I become good at it. And it was as well, James, it was people knowing, people knowing that, well, you can throw a couple of punches here. And it was after the people started stepping back and leaving me alone. You know, it wasn't the fact that I really, I did fall in love with the sport, I'm not saying I never, but at the start it was more go there to learn to defend myself and I was seeing people stepping back and not really abusing me anymore and not really trying to bully me anymore because the bullies were going to get bullied eventually because they knew, if you know someone's a boxer, you're going to think twice before... Yeah, picking on them. Picking on them. Did you ever get revenge on the bullies? Yeah, yeah, when I bashed them up later on when I was 17. How'd that make you feel? I was still young and still stupid and yeah, I felt good. I felt like, yeah, fuck you. Now who's laughing? What was it like getting your first damage out of you? Buzzing. Buzzing. I had a great image at career James. I had 50 fights at the amateur, I lost 12. Got to the ABA finals. I lost to Tony Duckey, Patrick Duckey's brother. Great fire. Great pro. He won the ABAs. Schoolboy champion. Nationals. I won a lot of titles at the amateur. I just loved him. Small hall, close fights. Smell of cigarettes in the crowd. All the drunken old men. Dad's verse, dad's screaming and shouting. You can't get them days back. After your first fight, did you win? Yeah, I won, yeah. Did you ever have that nerves when you were getting buried to then go on your first fight? Or was it totally different? Totally different. Totally different. I'd learnt my trade and I knew what I could do. Confident. Yeah, I was really confident. I was different in the image. I was a little chubby kid and I was just a hustle bustle when I was just going there for a fight. It was great. I remember I got a box for London, represented London. I don't know if you remember, Lewis Cadman. Danny Cadman, that was great. I boxed a Cadman. Danny Cadman. He was the England captain. And I boxed him in the London ABAs. I'm not so sure if it was the Semis. And they said, Chaz, pull out the fight. He's too good for you. He was a great boxer. Boxed for England and everything. And he just beat a life out of me, so I had to grab him and I beat him. And I got squalified. Got banned for a year in amateur boxing. I think I was the only first one to bite someone. They all jumped in the ring, was trying to attack me. They had to put me in a change of room. Anyway, about a year and a half later, I got to the semifinals again in the ABAs and they said, you've got Cadman again. Let's go. We just drop it out. I said, no way. I'm here. And I was losing the fight. Second round, as the ref said, break, I just thought, shut my eyes. I went, warm with a left hook. Caught him on a chin. St. John's Ambulance had to come in and take care of him. Yeah, uproar, uproar. And then I ended up getting called up to fight for England. And we went to the airport and my trainer in my gym used to represent the England squad. And I see him at the desk. He was talking. Long story and he's come back. And I said, what's this? He said, look, whoever was represented in your weight didn't want to take this fight. So we've called you up. I said, so I'm just a sub. I'm just someone you're going to call up. He said, look, I didn't want to tell you, Chaz, but yeah, we had to get a ticket now. Look, he's your fighter. He's Italian. He's unbeaten. He's mustard. And the fella that was in your place didn't want to take the fight. He says, look, you trained in my gym. It's up to you what you want to do. I said, fuck it. I'm here. Win, lose, or draw. I'm representing England. I went out there and beat him. Went out there and beat him. I had to be on my game. And then I started screaming and shouting. I fucking done it. You don't tell me I couldn't do it. He was mustard. I'm mustard. And then I said about England. I said, now I'm fighting for England. I said, the other fella didn't want it. I said, I took it and won. And they said, well, we can't do that. And then I just turned over with Kelly Maloney. Frank. Yeah, Frank. Good boy. Frank, you're boy Kelly. Yeah. How was that then? Like getting through the amateur careers. How was that as well that when you bit that person, why did you do that? Frustration and I knew I weren't going to win. The part that he feels if you're getting bullied again? He'd come back as if I couldn't get to him. Couldn't get past his jabby, which is too good. When I got close, it was frustration. Instead of losing it, it was just, yeah, it's in the back of your head all the time. I still think about it now, you know. I still go out and you'll get in Croydon where I'm from, you know. You'll get people come up to you. Give me a pound for a bus or give me a cigarette. And that still comes back to you. I'm like, not like I'm scared, but I'm like, sorry, I haven't got it in there. Let me see. Sorry, just leave me alone. Even though I can have a fight, but I'm still half looking like I'm scared. Because it's scarier for life, you know. It's no matter who you are. What was it like turning poor? A great buzz. A great buzz, you know. I grew up with the likes of Kevin Mitchell. Another good guy, show out with Kev. Big up Kev, yeah. He's a great guy. We was in the same camp together. Trained together. There's a few of us. It was just a buzz. It was like, right. My ambition was to be a world champion. That's what I wanted to do. I wanted to set my mum and dad up. I wanted to... I weren't really doing it for me. I was doing it to better. Like I said to you earlier, I'm still on my cancer state. Look, I want to get off. Things take time. My sister's just gone. My mum and dad's gone. But back in the days, I wanted to get them gone. I wanted to make that money. I wanted to go, there you go mum. There you go, get out. Because it ain't a nice place. You were 12 and 0, did you go 12 and 0? I went 12 and 0, yeah. 12 and 0. You must have been thinking... I thought I was unstoppable. I thought I was unstoppable. 12 and 0. And then... This is... I don't give a fuck. I remember being in the toilets at an Xbox's association. And it was Alan Minner who fought Marvin Hagler. He was standing next to me. And I said, fucking hell right now. And he went, all right Chaz. I said, your son's in line to fight me next. Ross Minner. And he said, you're too dangerous. I never know what Chaz is going to turn up. Because if I trained James, I was dangerous. But I started getting to that stage later on in my pro career where I thought I was too good. I was taking work training properly. I was taking the step back. And it was always like... Yeah, I've been to the gym. I used to find my trainer. I've just been for a 5k run. And I hadn't. Because I thought I was too good. And it got to me yet. And he said, my son won't fight. He's too dangerous. Never know what one's going to turn up. And then before you know it, et cetera, et cetera, I'd been on holiday and I'd come back. Because they told me they couldn't get me a fight for the Southern Area title. And it was a two weeks notice. Frank Maloney, Frank Warren. And they said, take the fight. Never in a billion years. I said, I've got over a stone to lose. I'm the champion. You can't tell me I've got to take the fight. And if you don't take the fight, you're going to have to go to Germany and get a boxing license. We're ruining your whole fucking career. And they offered me... I think I was the most paid. I got seven grand for a Southern Area title. It was big money back in them days. They offered me five. I said, no. I said, fuck it, I'll go to Germany. And they found me back. I said, there's seven grand. Take the fucking fight now. Don't cause a scene. So yeah, I had to take the fight. Money was good. But yeah, he definitely stopped it in the third. I think I got to the third. Another good fight. I knew I wasn't fit. I knew I hadn't trained. I was overweight. I was more concentrated on losing the weight. How was that feeling, first professional loss? I fucked off. That's when I went... Self destruct? Yeah. It was crazy. I ended up booking a flight in Ghana, Greece. Done a summer out there. Drunk every day. Let me self go. Come back. Thought I'd give it another shot. But my mind was just... When I got that first loss, you know, my mind was just never always on it. I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I was doing it instead of going to get a job or giving it 100%. I was always doing it half-hide and to nick the money. I knew I could have a fight. I've done well as a pro, but... there's regrets there, you know? I was always drinking it. Have you been drinking or taking gear before? Before the 12-1-1-2? No. Focused, dedicated? Focused, dedicated, too. It started getting to me. I remember going to a fight. I was in a hotel. As you do. Getting on the gear. Drinking. It was a Friday. I was fighting on the Saturday at your call. I ended up getting my boxing bag and going to your call. Locking the fella out in the second round. Going back to the hotel and everyone was still there. Carried on snipping. Like I didn't get a drugs test, you know, because it was random back then for a piss test. And I took the gamble. I just thought I was better than what I was and I just let everything slowly creep up on me. What did you do after that? Was that your last fight? No, no. I had a long break. I think I had about 16 fights and I just weren't right. I must have lost about four then. And then... Why do you think that loss threw you off? I guess it was the fact where I never won. I needed to win, but I didn't get that right preparation time or that right call. Everything just came on top. I thought I was unstoppable and beatable. 12 wins and I got gals around me. I'm in the local, where I am, household name. I'm in the papers every week and Southern Area champion. I was going to fight Kilbrook for the British title. Matthew Hutton. I got called up for that fight and I accepted and that didn't happen on his behalf in Manchester. I just thought I was better than what I was, J-Mo, and it all got to me and getting mixed up in that life. That life where you think they're your friends and then no. They want to be around you for the hype. Who's buying the drugs this Saturday? Don't worry about that. Chazza, have a load. Who's paying for the hotels this Saturday? Chazza's got a room. Who's paying for these round the drinks? Chazza would get that. Even though I won on much money, it was like a reputation I had to because I wanted him to think that I was saying that I won. Thinking I've got money when I never. Thinking that I'm this someone when I'm not. Yeah. So after 16 feats, how much does it then know especially a massive part in your mind, your mum and dad's not here, your sister, your brother, you're going out with these thoughts after your first one that you're going to be world champion. You're going to get them out of the state and the fact that you started hitting a wobble and then your dreams are within shatters and then you look back like hindsight's always a wonderful thing but you look back and think fuck one loss is fuck all. It's a case I write knuckle down, get rid of all the losers but it's difficult. We can say this now because we know why so you realise wait a minute they're just fucking leeches but how hard does it know to think back the potential that you did have to then follow those dreams because you feel it's mad life because it's not only letting yourself down but you probably because you're already to see you're a sensitive guy that you feel as if you've let your mum and dad down as well. I feel like a lot of people down my life just took a turn for it was and I just felt like a lot I'm always caring I'm always what a big heart and always rave I always make sure you're eating before I'm eating you're happy if you're smiling I'm happy but I'm always yeah I felt yeah I just didn't want I just wanted to be somebody and that was my dream as a kid I owed that to my mum for taking me to the gym and everyday she used to drop me to the gym after school and she dedicated her life to it for me so I owed her that and I just wanted to be a world champion eventually I was very stubborn I didn't want to give up I come back to the boxing I won the Southern Area title again I won the British Masters title again and then I got knocked out first time by Michael Lomax he was the prize fighter champion British champion he boxed Kelbrook and then I lost it on points 10 round arm and he scored it just the crazy score I thought I nicked it or it was a draw and it was crazy they'd give it to him by 6 rounds and then he wanted the rematch so what I said was obviously you know you never won that fight because you wouldn't want the rematch you'd walk away and go on to your next fight but I got the rematch I went out there and I thought I can punch I can beat this kid I remember coming back to the corner and my trainer says get your fucking hands up I said don't worry about me I said he can't fucking punch I said I'm going to chop him down I said I'll get him later on I think he was the 7th round I fucking woke up I woke up and he weren't even a puncher I woke up and then it was the pride that made me stand up I remember it and then I went in the changing rooms apparently and I collapsed in the changing rooms and then they took me off to hospital because I had lost so much water and my brain I lost weight and then that was it that was it for me listen when we lose take it on the chin this life and then I got a phone call to fight Craig Docky Docky Do you know Craig? I fought Craig for the world title I thought you'd know I fought Paisley that's fucking rough man I'd have been there some leisure something and they called me up and they offered me a fight with Docky because I just got knocked out my previous fight and my trainer said just stop now I said I'd fuck this is all I want is that opportunity to say that from a kid I wanted to fight for a world title so I took the fight me and my trainer got on the plane we went there and I trained my all out and I got to the scouts and I looked at Craig and I said Poggie there Craig I said because I got knocked out on my last fight I said you ain't been training have you? he said you'll go down in two or something like that and I said you think I said you're going to have a big shock I said watch that belly he said you're fucked and it all had a little bit of a barny way in and I said to my trainer you know you can see he had saggy boobs I said he ain't been fucking training with your last performance I don't think anybody needs to train because I always just had my hands down and I went out there and I beat him I remember the Scots were booing me fucking boo boo and obviously I'm a fucking joker and I was standing there and I was tongue out and they said Fran plastic cups at me and that and after the fight they applauded me they give it a draw for the world title and when the one of the promoters got in the ring I said please don't fucking take this away from me I said you know I've won this fight and he just ignored me and looked at me and I said to my trainer they're going to fuck me and I said we ain't but one fan here and we've just turned him over in Scotland and they give it a draw and that Craig Docky just nodded his head like that and I said you fucking you lucky bastard you lucky bastard and he said fuck me Chas he said I wasn't expecting that from you I said I can tell I told you the way but yeah we spoke half there and he he said to me he said fucking you were so unlucky not to get the decision he said I don't know how that happened we were booing at the end and he applauded me as I walked out and I thought that's nice of him yeah but I think you've always got the respect for somebody because that's your nature like you say it's not necessarily people please I would like to see people eating first before us or during do you know what I mean like I'm the same I like to help people but that was always my downfall for years because it never fucking got me anywhere now I'm ruthless now I don't fucking care now it's focusing on myself and my family so looking at that does that not make you if you're focused how far you could have went yeah 100% he was great fire I was on the the shed of ring with him and in fact I never lost I got a draw I smiled and go he knows I nicked it the scots knew I won that fight a draw is a draw and then I called it a day I said that's it there's nowhere else for me to go I got to where I wanted to get to as a kid and then I started I met I met obviously I went back to Greece that's where it started in 2005 I kept going back and back for summers and I went back and I met my ex-missus out there never found love she was a waitress so ended up buying a bar the police got me a buying up I was out there for 10 years in Greece doing noise and fucking about got nicked a few times out there ended up becoming mates with the old bill out there a couple of fellas out there naughty people out there and they got me a bar out there and I had a waitress out there working for me and I've ended up sliding off and boom that was that and then I opened a boxing gym out there the first ever boxing gym in Koskotamina in Greece opened that things were good she was sponging I fell in love, didn't see it I was blind my mum told me sister told me she's a leech she's not you why are you going out for these little dolly birds all they want is money can't get a proper girl didn't see it, it was blind first time I fell in love then going on boat trips doing a bit of thing she was doing thing it was just a spiral, spent all me rent money doing what she wanted to do and she said we all just get a plane and I packed my stuff and got a plane and left everything my gym, my bar, got on a plane and come back fell out of me mum why? because me mum had a row with her she said my mum said this or saying it like that and I knew me mum and my sister didn't like her obviously now I look back and I fucking wonder what they see through it I didn't because love was blind I didn't see it she was telling me come with me and fuck them and I did and I left me mum and I was in a bad state went up Halifax, Manchester she swallowed all me money she swallowed all me money to a fact where I had to go to work I started working she was coming back on a Friday she never worked holding around I'd just give her my money every week needed new nails, new hair she must have sucked a good dick fuck fuck love was just blind and then she started going to the gym only in the mornings and found out she was cheating and over this stage I had no one I remember sitting in my car outside this house crying my eyes out and I phoned one of my cousins and I was just like I just don't know because I knew she was seeing someone else at this gym do I go to the gym do I do something stupid to the man and then it's all it's Chaz again he's fucked up what do I do so yeah I went and hired a car took the two TVs off the wall I thought fuck two TVs off the wall packed me stuff went round to her mum's house she was around there that day and she said tell her I'll see you later fuck you she didn't know what was happening she phoned me half hour later she said I've just got indoors and the TVs and I'm like where they gone so I told her I'm gone fuck you I ain't stupid that broke me out and that's what that was the killer James that was the killer and that's a lot of people out there split ups love hurts love kills been through it not more wins but a few times I broke a lot of hearts but my heart's been broken a couple of times it's been, do you know what I mean, it's fucking painful and that stings you and it's still I still think it affects us to this day even now in relationships the pain's still there because we don't want to feel that pain again so we become guaranteed, become cold, become distant I'm very I'm very how can I say this I'm very now I'm engaged now congratulations I forgot to say just getting engaged last week congratulations brother yeah she's you know she's me wild, she's a star but it took me a while and I'm still but she's the one see the girl what fucked you up about would you have ever took her back because you were so vulnerable that you'd fail out with your family took me up in single five years didn't want no one else but I wanted her back texted her a few times she's texted me and I was like this me up on the motorway half way regret now life when I look back now and I'm a hundred percent you know it's this I don't know what I've seen it honest to God first time I fell in love but that's that I've moved on took me a long while to get over it how did you think she was cheating because she was going to the gym and I was going to work and she said about this man keeps talking to me trying to make me jealous I said do you want me to come down here and try to fuck off and she said no why do you always have to start I said I'm not I'm just saying if you won't leave your lung I'll come down here and say that's my missus mate drop me out she said no just go work just go work later on she started going earlier and I slipped down I slipped down and I didn't do nothing I just piled up just been a little I spy and I piled up and I see her just hovering about outside the gym and then this car pulled up and I drove off I thought I can't I've got to go so I drove and that was that she denies it but if I would have seen it I don't know what I would have done I think she could have manipulated you to say anything she wanted unless you've seen it with your own eyes and you would have believed that yeah she still after and she still denied it she's ended up moving on now what not but yeah love's blind and what did you do after that I drove on I drove on I ended up living in a caravan went back fighting ended up turning to booze and drugs and we're still fighting to try and get the money for that to try and turn my life around I wanted to turn my life around I wanted the money it wasn't it was just a vicious circle I was making money to spend money to drink money and to sniff money do you know what I mean I'm like I'm skinny I'm fine I've ended up James I've ended up I'm that likeable funny fellow I've ended up working for drug dealers they've ended up killing one geezer I've ended up driving a motor doing runs when I was younger and pulled up and some geezer opened a car door and he went like that down the back of the seat pulled out a gun and I was like fucking hell what's happening now the money is sponsoring me for the boxing and then they was giving me half ounces of sniff and I take that this weekend and sell that and that's a bit of sponsoring that's on me and I weren't selling it I was sniffing it vicious circle life's been hard and cruel but only on my own mistakes yeah it comes to a point you've got to take responsibility you've got to take responsibility because you're your own person only no one's everyone's alright people like go on Chazaa it pushes you over it's only you that say yeah go on all these people that go around saying I'm not addicted I can go out I can just have a little couple of bumps so so so did I I used to go out and have a couple of bumps until the stage where you're locked in your room you know she calls me fucking mental health problems you know the stage is where I was doing all that I was locked myself in the room I'd do a video bye what's happening now we're doing smiling have a great day people put the phone down I'll cry I'll cry now phone a man who's coming around give me a bit of gear till the stage where I was an addict and beer and it was all fake and I was doing it just for social media that's what it really where it come from I've been on scaffold lost it all lost it all because I thought it was clever on Wikipedia like I said they got me as the world's hardest scaffolder and I'm not proud of it videos of people making and putting on youtube of me driving I do pack it and fly don't drink and drive pulling scaffolds over doing mad stuff on the scaffold and health and safety stopped me from getting a job I can go to prison and get put into work I couldn't get work I remember going for a job interview trying to get work and I walked in the room and these people on the job interview all looked at me and I thought fuck they know I am but I didn't realise how big I was getting from just doing snapchat at work I just thought it was a laugh and then one of them said gosh can I have a picture you're the world's hardest scaffolder and I'm like fucking shush I need this job the man walked out of the office he's come back in he said I didn't realise there's an email from health and safety we can't employ you I was like I'm good at my job they said no doubt but you're dangerous YouTube, Wikipedia there's no way we can employ you we're a proper company health and safety will just shut us down what are you doing snorting gear on a job yeah I remember doing a video working 9 till 5 dolly part and I was in my mankini I got in the shower at 5 o'clock in the morning I slept all night before neck to canister done some gear on my side it was freezing cold in the mankini got a lot of scab old shoes on my shoulder walked up the ladder in about 3 minutes the phone run one of the supervisors said have you seen the social media sipping coke drinking at 5 in the morning then he turns up in the mankini and runs up the ladder I used to think it was funny I used to try and please people on the social media it was views and likes numbs of pain it does getting that self attention thinking people are amazing he's funny he's this and that it's all the act of a clown clown and people just want you to see ruin your life that's all you're doing is going down the pan and they thought it was funny and then I got to the stage where enough was enough I didn't really know where to turn anymore I didn't want to do it anymore that's for sure didn't want to I wanted to turn my life around but I got too deep I was this scaffolder I was this party animal and I was this funny go lucky that everyone thought don't give a fuck wild crazy and when I was hurting inside I was the fat where I was locking myself in my room and doing drugs and not wanting to go out went out to the phone and it just came on top and I wanted to touch it I didn't want to I just didn't want to be here anymore I just wanted to take my life I didn't want to be here where was I going I wasn't going I was just well if I wouldn't have overdosed on cocaine I just didn't want to be here it breaks my heart now to think about it I suppose that's why I'm passionate I don't want to do it anymore I would never do it going down that road it was hard you know obviously I lost my brotha and I didn't want to put my mom my dad through that pain again and I took a load of pills and I don't know what happened I was just like what are you doing and I just thought it was too late and I was just laying there on the bed and then I was just calling an ambulance I don't know if something had come over me and I called myself an ambulance and I remember I opened the door and the ambulance driver was like what the fuck and he was like what have you taken I was like 12 grams of cocaine I've been up for three days and they took me off to the hospital and they just said how are you still alive we don't know I had heart problems there was something else wrong with my heart and they said if you touch you again you'll be dead so I just I went to show it on social media and I just told everyone I'm done this is not for me I'm here, I'm lucky to be here I'm out I remember in the car on the way home and I'd done it on social media and I let everyone know and I said it's over there's no more drugs just for the laughter because it nearly killed me just for the likes and for everyone to laugh and go he's funny he's funny but I wanted to take my life I didn't want to be here it was all fake and I decided I was going to turn my life around and change and I didn't want to put people through anymore misery especially my close ones and I did I did it's been a long road it's been a very long road and what I do on social media now is I show my ups and I show my downs you know we're not perfect no one is perfect I still drink but the the other stuff I suppose sometimes you need to you need to experience something like that to say a lot of people can't drink because it goes together in hand in hand a lot of people say to me how can you drink but if you didn't want to be here no more because of that shit then and you've been advised and you've been in a hospital on a bed and you've cried yourself at night and you've took all these tablets because you didn't want to be here because of that shit at first it started on a bump it got to the stage where I locked myself in my room all the way around I said Charlie just sit there on my own talking to myself no one around me no one knowing you're nearly dead for your loved ones to come and see you I just took so much everything just got on top very much like I was saying you know it was very much smiling hey are you doing have a great day we love ya you can do it stay positive put that down being a whole the loved ones never knew no one knew when it was the final cut and it was the fact I don't know why I called the ambulance I remember laying there and I was just like I was waiting for my eyes to go and not wake up I didn't want it anymore James I really didn't want to be here I really didn't I wasn't living my life I was living for that entertainment you know couldn't afford rent I just it was a misery you're an alcoholic I've never been an alcoholic I like a drink if I go out I'll have a drink but I can go out and not drink that doesn't bother me but obviously back then there was always drugs and booze went hand in hand I remember being in a pub I was out of my head I said to my mate book me a flight and he ended up booking me a flight I didn't even know if I had a case I remember getting in a tax health video finishing my last bit of packet finishing my last bit of packet I got on the plane I got off the plane and I thought it was funny I went up to the air hostess and she said where am I she said Alicante she was like Spain she's like Benidorm's probably the closest place I waited for me bag lucky enough I packed a bag I wasn't too sure if I did or not went to Benidorm and ended up staying there for three weeks just yeah ended up staying there meeting someone that done a bit of graft out there getting on it again and it was just the whole social media is just my stars to blow so like now I've turned I just want to tell my story because I suffer now with mental health I'm just normal normal person and we all go through this and there's many people out there watching this guy this is exactly the same as me I was like that but what I want to get across this now is if I can do it anybody can do it because I've got no I'm not where I want to be but I'm not where I used to be and I'm positive I still have the occasions that I tell you for instance a month ago my missus turned around and said to me we've got to pay the last bit of this holiday and I said babe I'm skin I haven't got no money and it was about three months before that she come round I went answering the phone and I locked myself in my room not doing no drugs I just locked myself in the room suffering because I didn't this fighting that I was doing and I got sponsored money but I'd spent that money now I was trying to live out old rent where do I go what do I do I've got another day back to square one um yeah a month ago I couldn't she's she come round a couple of months ago like I said Joan I went up to the phone and she's got a key and she come round yeah and that's why my missus my best friend my lover I love her to bits she got me out of bed and she was like what are you doing so I had to know and she sat there and she didn't try and just get we was talking and it helped it helps to talk we was talking and I was explaining um she paid for the holiday the last bit but I pulled a string I thought fuck me so yeah I've got this truck started my new business clearance rubbish clearance can't get a scaffold job can't get a scaffold job so I thought I'd try saying just a working class boy and I've always grafted I started this rubbish clearance again my old man he'd give me his savings there's that money I'm gonna sell the truck I'm fucking let's get this let's do this now for fuck sake you've sold your life out all the way up to here so he's helped me out but my next fight pays for that truck you know and then I'm back then I'm back then I'm gonna focus on my business and I'm back this is my last fight and I'm out I'm back missed it missed fighting and then money was obviously I couldn't get a job in scaffolding so I thought I'll have a car this with this company and it was alright good pay went out there my first one and I remember Dominic Negas I remember Dominic Negas getting battered in the the changing room or something chasing him out or something I remember I watched a documentary about him years ago he was my trainer he's a mad bastard we've gone up to where have we gone up to Birmingham or Samway Bolton we've got a boxing in the lockdown and then I said don't worry about this fella he's got nothing on me done I've gone out there and he's gone whack he broke my nose whack split my face I've come back the first round and I went what are you fucking doing I said I don't know Dom I said but this fucking hurts mate he went we noses bro that's for sure oh mate and then I lost it on her normally then Ben I would fight but I went to the end the lasted me art took over the third round I come back and smashed the life out I remember I got me comfort zone then started getting a bit of hate lost the first round second round could have gone either way smashed the third round and they give it to him by two rounds they give me one it was a great fight learning fight and then I come back I've had three four I don't fucking know Jamie three of that one two lost one yeah there's a big difference between the gloves and the knuckle it's huge difference just because you're a boxer listen I've spoke to Jamie Cox you know a few fighters that are fighting on this BKFC that are premier that are the Americans everyone wants to fight on that people hating I want to fight on this BKFC go and do your apprenticeship there's certain people like I've done it I've done my apprenticeship I've boxed for southern areas I've boxed for world honors I've proved myself in the band now I'm on the American scene Wembley arena it's going to be a great show MVP versus Michael Wembley Michael Wembley on the page yeah he's a big animal man there's some great fighters on there but I said to one of the boxers that are fighting I said listen don't think this is boxing I said be very aware of these fucking arts I said be first be sharp and keep that head moving constantly because in boxing you can stand it touch touch touch touch touch you break your hand with another punch you've got to be smart try and duck your head down when he throws a jab let him at the top of your head and break his hand it's a thinking game don't be nervous I was like that the first one chill in the air relax relax watch the shot drop your head let him break his hand on your head the body is the one my last opponent I come back Jason Matthews he's my trainer he knocked out Ryan Rhodes as a pro he's a great fighter and I come back he said what's wrong I mean he's broke my ribs he said relax me blood Clare he said just bust his ribs back he's like a Jamaican he's so calm he's the best ever and I was like is that what you've got to say he said normal head shots man just the body now he said in your bust his ribs and I went out there and I thought right no head shots made him miss whack whack whack broke his ribs stop the fight come back in see I told you blood that's what he said but you know all the head shots with the bodies the ribs are sharp how's the training for these feats yeah well it's been it's been hard for me this one because the fight was on the 16th of July and then he was just saying that Brad is stuck though I think he had just dug down the 14th of July so no before that I can't fucking remember James my head's gone but it was meant to be July and then the fight got pulled back until the 20th of August because they were sorting out the main event so that gave me extra time but I booked a week away with the misses for the 20th of July because that's where I was going to propose where we met so when it's got moved to August I thought fuck I can't cancel it I'm going to propose out of there so I trained out of there kept myself fit I've got three weeks left I'm feeling good listening I'm fighting an animal I'm just real I know he's the nuts I know I'm the underdog there ain't no one can lie to me I know I'm going in there he's out and beating he's had two king of the streets that's anything goes he's had two bare knuckle one of them 87 cage fighters or something he's had I don't even want to watch him I don't even want to look at I'm not going to I'm starting to get scared mate those king of the streets are animals mate I've seen a few of them there's a clip of him kicking someone's head clean off nearly as he goes down in the face the promoter said I can send you some videos don't bother I don't want to see it it is what it is I'll turn up at night I know I've got a good ability keep my head moving it's bare knuckle anything can happen how was your relationship with dapper last time love dapper man dapper's my boy yeah I love him and a bitch yeah we're really good mates six years ago I come out of a club and I walked down the alleyway and he was standing against the wall and these two men were going you fucking this and fucking that I didn't really hear what they were saying and he was like he's a pussy innit he was like and he was like well well well and he got kicked half he got kicked off TV or by TV2 for doing a joke a homophobic joke or a gay joke and there he was calling him a fucking scumbag and just bullying him and he was scared and I'd never forget he was like alright boys I'm sorry that's like you fucking prick so I come out and I was walking up and I went well well well I didn't make it I knew him I knew it he was obviously but it just weren't fair so I said boys there was both fucking lumps what's got to fucking do with you I'll bully you so that stage I said whack knocked him out cold and the other one came right in and knocked him out cold and two of them out spark on the floor and that would come off the wall and he was like yeah yeah yeah and he was like thank you mate thank you and we ate it off and he told me on social media about 2-3 days later he said mate have you seen what's on twitter I said I don't use twitter he said get on there mate the fellas on twitter like they're trying to find you the old bill I went I did a fucking joking mate so I've gone on twitter and the geysers put on this and Dapper laughs and 10 of his mates jumped me and my friend outside the club that's what he's put Dapper laughs and 10 of his pounds so Dapper's like just keep low be quiet and me being me I can't give a fuck so I went on there no 10 people jump char I'd done it on my own cause you was bullying him bullies got bullied and that was it I thought I was going to get nicked I was going mate you're going to get nicked mate you've just owned up to fucking knocking two geysers out you're going to get nicked you crazy take it off I said nah fuck him I said you ain't done it I thought they were trying to pass the ball on him I said you ain't taking a rap for that mate I said they've tried to bully you I said nah fuck you I'll stand by my guns and then nothing happened and we just did it off he's a funny bastard he's fucking had it all lost and now he's got it all back and it shows what can be done I look at him and he inspires me so much James I don't look at anybody with hate a lot of people out there see people doing something and they want to hate and try and cause them depression instead of being grateful and going you know what fucking great look at you you're doing well now James you've come out and it makes me smile to go James well fucking good job and all be proud stand tall and it's like Danny's doing so well now he's in the movies social media pings and I look at him as yeah one day I'll get to the top there and I'm proud to be his friend and I'm proud of what he does he winds me up and says I'm a millionaire and all that we was another name he does but it's only a joke he winds me up he's a fucking caco isn't he he does he says what's the time why is it ticking and not the swipe you want a real one but he's only messing about I don't give a fuck his video is cracking me up man like the way he talks to his dog he speaks from Spanish like it's so fucking silly mate but I was sitting in my bed and I'm thinking it's silly couldn't mate because I think he was in he's honeymoon there and it was a donkey in front of his beer and he says to the guy why don't you when you pass these oh is it he says when you pass these beers he says but it sounded like a fucking donkey noise or something and I was pissing myself mate because it got it's all out there were two of them you're fucking jumped the stage I jumped it because he give me a pass and he said to me please don't fuck about me I was like well you're not going to sit me in the crowd are you I said you've got to give me a pass I'll come backstage you've got like three drinks in that in the back and he promised me that I said well it's your night what am I going to do anything for so he's like give each other a pass and I brought the old man he stuck it on there jumped on there but he inspires me he's funny he's great we've done some great videos together we're going to be doing some more some real talk videos about life which turns into a little bit of a sketch comedy sketches as well is that fucking genius as well mate so great his mindset and his creative mind is fucking up there and if he keeps up with the comedy because people love him because he has one of the lads and every comedian I know I don't stand up comedy for about every comedian I know are fucked on the head he is perfect for that he wanted me to do one he wanted me to do a stand up and I went I wouldn't know he went well just tell a story Chas I said what do you mean he said well just tell one of your stories he went that's fucking comedy gold I said well I'm not telling anyone that I wanked off a geese in Thailand he went why not yeah he's funny mate see how have you managed to steer off that Chas has it been difficult off the gear like I said earlier I don't want it mate I've had enough of being down there I want to be up here I want that different life I'll get you so many opportunities and I'm lucky I've always done my videos etc and I've been to these parties and I know a lot of celebrities I'm not a celebrity I'm just a normal working class joe dogs living a council flat on a council estate I struggle day to day life one month I might be alright the other month I'm fucked and I can't pay rent you know I'm finally just finally come to the top now finally I reckon another year this business keeps running the way it's running we've been going four weeks and it's going well and I want to thank everyone out there supporting it on socials I don't want it I don't want to go back to that place I've been there done it I've seen it I thought that's not for me and it was a shame that it's had to take what's happened to me and lose everything try to take my life so if I can get a message out there tell one person it's so hard for anybody to listen and go do you know what he's right because you've got to be a man to go fuck me you know what I've been having a little dabble lately this case is right what these two are talking about now am I going to end up like that in the fucking six months time yes you fucking are so there's no there's no going out having a bump at a weekend because it comes to an addiction and it comes to where you're going to lose someone big in your family you're going to lose someone close to you love one of your children you're not going to see so I just want to get a message out there and when you're suffering with mental health it's okay to talk please reach out don't sit there and do drugs like I did and one didn't want to be here anymore I wish I could have spoke to someone how did you get through your tough days Chasar how do I get through them now I still have my bad days James I'm not going to lie I still have my bad not as much thanks to like CBD simple they look after me Tom with a bit of CBD I listen if I would have abused myself back then I probably wouldn't have needed this CBD but it just takes the edge it just and I still have bad days even you know once a month I might have a right shit day and I might just sit there you know I just don't want anymore what the fuck and my Mrs is so supportive and she knows when something is not right she's on me but I try and stay positive every day I go around every day I've never trained if I had trained the way I'm training now when I was a pro you know I'd be a world champion like tonight after this I'm going back I'm doing a 5k run no matter what time I get back has to be done training in the morning in the gym on the evening working the day I'm non-stop things aren't given to people like us you know we're normal working class people we're unfortunate we've got to make our own our own path and we've got to keep that path clear we don't want no fucking obstacles and in a way all them stop and starts I've been stopping the starting on my fucking life and I've had enough and I don't want it no more I want nice holidays I want to be settled down with my Mrs I want to go to work concentrating on my business and doing my acting my films I took myself to acting school no one's going to do it for you like I said about the acting I know a lot of people like Tam a lot of celebrities out there I know a lot of people that I could say I'll do us a favor do it I'm not that person people go oh you're lucky you know them you're lucky no because no one's giving me fuck all I'll tell you a prime example dapper fuck he texted me last night first of all he texted me last night and he advanced for this and he went alright mate what do you need me to do for you let me know and I'll show you the message in a minute and I went fuck all and he went you don't want me to do anything for this up and coming fight promote you innit I said dad I don't want fucking nothing from you mate I said you need power I said if you want to say Chaz's fight and then you do that but I don't personally want you to go out you're my mate I don't I'm not in it for what I can get from you do you know what I mean and he knows that I've said that from day one I don't want anything for nothing with the acting I saved up my own money and I took myself to acting school paid for it myself done it four month intense course passed it I've got to paperwork you know he's put me in a film I'm waiting for the script to come out miss kiss I've done that myself and he see me I wasn't asking oh that my laughs can you get this for me can you do this for me I went and went if I want to get involved in that what they're all doing let's go down the right path and then come back and go took myself to college can I have an audition like I would anybody on internet there's a film going on there's my paperwork there can I have an audition I'm not getting in a film just because it's that my laughs I'm going to go and show my stuff I've got a lot of pride I've got pride so much pride you know but it's okay because you are real you've got a lot of friends who are successful the pride can get in the way as well instead of just going what fuck it it's okay to get a little kick up to try and help you but again you've got too much pride to me the other day he went about me truck starting my business let me lend you the money let's get you on the road let's get you started setting his business I said no I don't want to lend money never lend money with friends because you're a fool out I said no I'm good he said just let me get you this truck I said listen I'll get the money I'll fight and I'll save and then my dad had some savings he said 70 fucking eight he had some savings he went and took my savings he said make sure you pay me back on certain date I said no problem I got the truck and dad was screaming at me you're a fucking idiot I told you I'd lend you the money it's good I've got a lot of pride and I'll pay my dad back after this fight this fight I paid for that truck a lot of people are looking I think you're flying on social media they'll be getting paid no way I'll do social media to help people out there because I don't want them to go down the path that I've been through so I try and help them on that one and stay clear of that at the same time I try and do a bit of comedy on them and we join up and do some videos for people to make them laugh and have a better day and I get satisfied from it I get loads of messages people telling me I've changed their life and I had one the other day he said it was only from you Chas you've turned your life around and I was just like well done keep your fucking head up even though it was about three weeks ago I was fucked my messages just paid for my life so I'm helping other people get their life back together but at the same time still trying to get my life back together what do you think you need to do to try and elevate it to that level that you keep dreaming of the boxing you fucked up the business in was it Cyprus fucked up and then you're starting to get somewhere you've got the new van but what do you need to then keep going forward would you think it as it holds you back the filming industry that's what I want to get into I've always wanted it that's why I took myself to the right road so no one can tell me that I've been given anything because no one will throw nothing back and I'm like oh you know no fuck you I went for an audition people look at you I've gone for three auditions and I ain't passed them I ain't put it out there but people are quick to judge do you understand I've applied for jobs and I've gone for auditions and I've failed just because they see you in my film Chas knows him Chas has done my apprenticeship I've gone to the fucking school myself so don't be quick to fucking judge people what you see what was the shooting you were talking about the mud though what happened there I was younger and I always wanted to be somebody I always wanted to be the fakes I always wanted to be as I was growing up and yeah I was mixing with the wrong people and it was the time of sponsors drug dealers were sponsoring me and I'm too thick to fucking realise you know I was in nightclubs selling pills around these gangsters thinking because they just knew that I had bollocks I had an arsehole and I'd fight any man not knowing you know and that's the reason why I look back now why they wanted me around them because they knew if he's going off Chas he's going as a pebble and I remember I thought he was my mate he let me drive a car I said drive this car to the sun so pub car park because I'm going to meet you there and I went yeah lovely I wasn't stupid I knew he used to deal with drugs and all that and I pulled in the car park and the geese opened the door he put his hand down the back of my seat and I pulled it out and I looked I said you're fucking winding me up mate he said go and fuck off drive I thought could I say I'll come back to my power he said maybe be my mate I said you just made me drive a mower I think I was about 17 then I've drove a mower I was no licence one of these is giving me I said you just had a gun in a mower mate well what are you doing to me he said do as you're fucking told he said you're working for me don't be fucking telling me keep your mouth fucking stoned wow you know I'm in a bit of detail you know these boys aren't messing later on down the line you know there's there's just a bit of man I can't say too much because but yeah this bit was normal um I guess I just always wanted to be me which is me now always living to please everybody else always living to be the someone you're not and I don't be you no after what happened after what happened with everything I was always trying to be a gang I wanted to be with the big boys when I started doing the social media I first went viral from doing a video about my ex-missius I'll never forget the video because you text me and I've done a video just saying being comfortable six months into a relationship do these relationship ones because I've been through the shit six months into a relationship don't get too fucking comfortable when you get home from work when you get home from shopping go and have a shower and wash your fanny before you get a baby and start washing it because when he goes down here to taste it that's being six months in a relationship don't get too comfortable and obviously you can say I'm in it everyone's going mad no she's never done that we actually fucking did she's on the blower shouting why are you fucking our old bastard but that's where it started from now I just started talking about real relationships real life problems real life problems what the fuck else have we got we've got to laugh about the problems and the pain because the funny thing is everybody goes through it everybody who you think is driving at Lamborghini private planes listen these can't struggle just as much as well everybody fucking struggles with the amount of people out of you now understand nobody's got it figured out we haven't got a fucking clue what's going on on this planet everyone's struggling everyone's struggling you can't sign on you can't sign on you can't sign on would you sign on I said why don't you get a fucking job he said I'm an actor I've got too much of a reputation bottom of the line is he was too worried about pleasing everybody else on the social media he had to go and get a fucking job and he was signing on because he's waiting for his next job to come in he's like now I'm working every day training in the morning working in the afternoon, training in the evening and if an acting job comes up I'll move them jobs to the weekend and then I'll work Saturday and Sunday to cover that you know never be too proud to work never be too proud to be real I always say be real be true be you it's my famous saying and we've all got bills to pay we've all got a table unless you've cracked it that will last unless you've cracked it then good luck to you but if you ain't cracked it don't fake it to try and make it because you'll end up losing everything and you'll be struggling and you'll cause yourself mental health problems you can't get a fucking job not everyone else it's that simple I'd be sad to go but it ain't the same on my estate no more council estate is shot to bits if it was still the old school but they've all got I'm the only one left now so I want to get out but removing STX I'll have a successful business and hopefully touch wood I would have got recognised in the film game and crack on with my films that's what I want to be an actor and I'm going to carry on I always have my social media and I always reply to each and every one of my followers I do it all night my missus goes mad I sit there for 3-4 hours a night just speaking to everyone because all these people it's so hard when you've got big followers to try and get back to everyone and I sit there for hours it does kill me I just I'm just real I really am and I've come from nothing and I want better and I've gone through drugs and I've gone through mental health and I still ain't where I'm at and I still struggle now but what I want to push out there is to everyone if I can fucking do it I'm a clown you can do it you know mental health please go and talk to someone it's okay not to be okay reach out pick up the fucking phone for anybody that's watching a lot of people a lot of people watch and listen to these podcasts for inspiration for her but just that's something to give them the kick up they ask that no matter who you are or where you're working like you can always make improvements it ain't fucking easy but I I preach a shit consistently because I don't know if I've got new listeners or people listening I often keep hearing that they can understand that you can make those changes I get messages everyday people on the packet the booze and debt the only company can change it is you anybody that's watching it's maybe stocking that struggle they know Charles what advice would you have for them you've just did the now and yet listen only you can change only you can want better you know you've got to look at your life and it sounds horrible and you've got to look at your life and are you happy are you content in that life going out every Friday sniffing cocaine drinking beer on a Monday you're asking a boss for a sub because you spent all your fucking wages all your messages doing your nothing you don't you want a three to four years time look where you want to be so take a second and just have a little thought to yourself where do I want to be in three four years time my daughter on nice beach my daughter in Disneyland you know my boy just don't mean to go on a brag but I've been there I never felt I was going forward and I was quite content in my own little life until it took over and then I just thought where am I going I didn't want to be and that's a massive thing out there where people you get to that certain stage where you don't want to be I don't don't mean to like get upset but I've been there and it does it does really get on where you're just doing the same things I just want people to listen you're doing the same thing the same weekend you know pinch yourself where do you want to fucking be because you're going to end up one place and that's going to be in a fucking box or you're not going to be able to see your kid and you're going to be in a fucking drug flat you know seeing your kid in a contact center or something like that so just get hold of yourself and tell yourself I'm alright I'm pinching a couple of bits a year at a weekend it's no arm alright being two years time when you look back you're going to say he was fucking right when you've done that podcast with James because I don't want to be anymore I don't want people to go through that like I went through I'm passionate I don't want people to do what I've done so please just listen and be a man and don't laugh be a man and go do you know what now fucking right I'm sorting myself out fuck this I'm arguing with her all weekend because I've cracked on her Friday like shit so just get hold of yourself please and don't ever be afraid to pick up the phone even my phone's always on my message and yeah someone to listen I'll listen just don't wait till it's too late working people get tickets for your fake chats that's all your social media as well for people to contact you in case they want to reach out and just ask you a couple of questions I'm always there I talk on Instagram same as Snapchat but Instagram's the main one it has a real talk on all platforms the tickets are there if you want to come it's a Wembley Arena 20th of August it's my last fight I'm going out of her bank BKFC Americans it's the big stage I've made it to the top there's nowhere else for me to go I'm getting old I've conquered it I'm going to leave it all on the ring I'm going all in whether I wake up or I survive it's going to be a fight do you think you're retired after the last chance then who knows would you like to finish up on anything brother I just want to thank you forever me on the show may always be a big fan always watch a podcast they've always helped me as well buddy just want to thank all my little lot around me all my sponsors all my powers Tom, Lee, Dabba I can go on I can go on I can't sit here on there show a podcast but at least I don't have any sponsors thank you so much and I love you all if I'm coming on you don't tell in your story brother thank you you clearly will your heart and your sleeve man and you've got a long way to go on life brother I can assure you the best days of your life are ahead of you mate so just got to keep hustling keep pushing you win your fight in August mate I'll help with mate I'm a phone caller message away as well thank you so much mate, it's been a pleasure