 Well to me, I think the way to dissolve the unforgiveness and to come into this full experience where you see everyone as yourself and like that simultaneous merge you were talking about, it is a purification that's going on. You know we've talked about chemistry and alchemy and the transformation that's coming and it's just in the end I would say it's just a total purification. It's symbolized in a Course in Miracles workbook lesson. My mind holds only what I think with God and I think a stepping stone is kind of coming towards that a little bit is I can be hurt by nothing but my thoughts. Again you can see how I can be hurt by nothing but my thoughts is another version of all illness is mental illness. You can start to see that it's just using different phraseology to come to that same thing that it's all mental, that it's all mind. What would be the benefit of that is that the mind is one, mind is singular, mind is unified and there's no duality in mind. To perceive negativity, attack, whatever you have to and that too could be whatever. It could even be an inner world and an outer world. A lot of times people talk about the inner world of their consciousness and then the outer world that they perceive and that's what this transformation this kind of mental alchemy that's occurring is starting to show us that there really is no world apart from what we think that even when we meet some people that we can seem to talk freely and share ideas and there's a synergy and excitement and you feel like after you've talked to this person you feel energized. You feel like we were both lifted up and taken up higher there and then there seem to be other encounters where it's like it's a different kind of a belief system, it's a different kind of thought system, it's more negativity or more closed-mindedness or whatever. But in the end it can't really be that there are these different levels of people and different levels of ideas out there. It has to be during this purge or this purification that it all comes together as one. So for me that was the thing of surrendering just to say I'll go wherever you want me to go, I'll do what you want me to do, I will step back, you lead the way, you show me. I'm not going to try to freeze down an identity into anything that is like static. I want to just continually go through an evolution of consciousness where I'm just so unattached and so open to whatever comes my way that in the end I reach a state where I see that I cannot judge anything, that I never could judge anything, that I never did know my best interest, this humble state of just pure openness, open-mindedness. And so there's a lot of ideas that get left along the way, even the idea of kind of positive energy and negative energy. You can start to see there's so much duality in everything that we have believed in and that we have to truly, like Vuddha said, empty the mind of everything that we think we think and think we know and come into that state of pure emptiness and innocence. Recently I was listening to the Chinese translator of Course in Miracles and she said, I mean at the beginning they didn't get into mainland China, they got it over to Taiwan and she did a lot of her work in Taiwan there and she said first it kind of caught fire as kind of this catchy new age teaching and philosophy, you know, and it started to become popular that way and so forth. And then occasionally some Buddhists would trickle in and start picking up the book and working with it a bit and she noticed over time over the years that the ones that kind of came in from like a new age perspective, they were like flesh in the pan, they quickly let it go and it was the Buddhists that were the long-term course students, the other ones all faded away and I thought how beautiful, you know, this ancient tradition of non-dualism of emptying the mind, this deep, rich spiritual tradition there, they came into it very slowly, like what's this? And then they started working and then they hung with it and I think that's the way that this kind of alchemy, this transformation goes, we have to have a lot of steadfastness, a lot of persistence, a lot of devotion to truly hang with it and then pop. It just seems like we reach a crescendo, we reach a threshold or something and it's just like wham, it just you know, it's just like aha, you know, it just comes at us. Eureka. It's like aha, aha, aha, you know, just the simplicity of it just dawns, the glee, the joy, the happiness and at that point, you know, the practice, the process, all the things that seem to come before are just kind of swallowed up, you know, in it and so to me that's the most important thing, it's just like this deep desire and willingness to have that experience and that seems to be the thing that really fuels the purification, you know, that our desire to be still and know God, you know, ultimately wins out, we could say, because it's the most natural experience that could ever be and those things, I mean, I have so many parables of meeting people along the way that the world would describe as the most dark or describe as the most judgmental ones but it would be more like, you know, just an awareness for me that everything is a reflection of my mind so I would just stay there and sit there and really be there almost like searching, searching like, I know you're in there, I know you're in there and I'm not leaving until I see you, you know, and one time I was in Chicago and I did this course gathering and the woman who had invited me, her husband, was not into the course and it was his, like, real estate office and he was there the whole time but after he left, you know, he was, he went through all his darkness, his negativity but I just stayed with him, stayed with him and later the woman told my friend who was traveling with me who they had gone into another building but that his stereotype or nickname they called him Archie Bunker so it was like I was out in the room for three hours with Archie Bunker and he was just telling me, you know, which races should be exterminated and, you know, I mean, all that kind of stuff and I just sat there though in presence, pure presence for about three hours and then after that, near the very end, it just turned around where, you know, he started to say, well, I don't know maybe there is like a divine intelligence behind it all and the spirit started just moving through him I was like, oh my God, Archie, even Archie Bunker can channel the spirit if it's just your desire, you know, I just had the desire to stay there and to see the innocence and I had such a strong desire for that that I had no intention whatsoever to go anywhere I could just sit there beautifully in presence I did a lot of listening there wasn't a lot to speak but at the end, you know, it did pop through and it was this ah, this feeling like, of course the innocence has to break through, you know the darkness cannot hide the light the light, you know, is just perfect love, cast out fear and it's just a matter of divine reality and divine fact and so, you know, to me that's what this is about we really hang in with that determination and nothing can stop us from experiencing that