 I had been waiting to hear and they had said to call and I called that morning and they weren't ready, called back in an hour, not ready, this went on all day and I was trying to get the information before I was picking up my daughter and I just got on the grounds of her elementary school and my phone rang and the doctor said do you have a nice quiet place to talk and I was on the playground and I said well this is as good as it gets. He told you over the phone? Over the phone. Wow. And he said I'm sorry you have breast cancer and then I just sort of stopped listening and I remember everything about the moment, the breeze, the temperature, the birds, the kids and he started to tell me and I said you know I stopped him and I said I'm sorry am I gonna live and he goes I can't answer that question and I said okay and he started talking more and I was still standing there. Were you able to like feel that moment or were you so outside of that? I was, it was pretty outside of myself and I said wait hold on a second I need you to answer that question. Like I want you to think if I'm somebody that you love and you have my, their results in your hand and they ask you what would you tell them?