 CHAPTER 32 THE RED LIGHT IN THE SKY My lady crushed the letter fiercely in her hand, and flung it from her into the flames. If he stood before me now, and I could kill him, she muttered in a strange inward whisper, I would do it, I would do it! She snatched up the lamp, and rushed into the adjoining room. She shut the door behind her. She could not endure any witness of her horrible despair. She could endure nothing, neither herself nor her surroundings. The door between my lady's dressing-room and the bed-chamber in which Sir Michael Lay had been left open. The baronet slept peacefully, his noble face plainly visible on the subdued lamp-light. His breathing was low and regular, his lips curved into a half-smile, a smile of tender happiness, which he often wore when he looked at his beautiful wife, the smile of an all-indulgent father who looks admiringly at his favourite child. Some touch of womanly feeling, some sentiment of compassion softened Lady Audley's glance, as it fell upon that noble reposing figure. For a moment the horrible egotism of her own misery yielded to her pitying tenderness for another. It was perhaps only a semi-selfish tenderness, after all, in which pity for herself was as powerful as pity for her husband, but for once in a way her thoughts ran out of the narrow groove of her own terrors and her own troubles, to dwell with prophetic grief upon the coming sorrows of another. If they make him believe, how wretched he will be, she thought. But intermingled with that thought there was another. There was the thought of her lovely face, her bewitching manner, her arch-smile, her low musical laugh, which was like a peel of silvery bells ringing across a broad expanse of flat meadowland and a rippling river in the misty summer evening. She thought of all these things with a transient thrill of triumph, which was stronger even than her terror. If Sir Michael Audley lived to be a hundred years old, whatever he might learn to believe of her, however he might grow to despise her, would he ever be able to disassociate her from these attributes? No. A thousand times no. To the last hour of his life his memory would present her to him, invested with the loveliness that had first won his enthusiastic admiration, his devoted affection. Her worst enemies could not rob her of that fairy dour which had been so fatal in its influence upon her frivolous mind. She paced up and down the dressing-room in the silvery lamp-light, pondering upon the strange letter which she had received from Robert Audley. She walked backward and forward in that monotonous wandering for some time before she was able to study her thoughts, before she was able to bring the scattered forces of her narrow intellect to bear upon the one all-important subject of the threat contained in the barrister's letter. He will do it, she said, between her set teeth. He will do it, unless I get him into a lunatic asylum first, or unless—she did not finish the thought in words. She did not even think out the sentence, but some new and unnatural impulse in her heart seemed to beat each syllable against her breast. The thought was this. He will do it, unless some strange calamity befalls him, and silences him for ever. The red blood flashed up into my lady's face with as sudden and transient ablaze as the flickering flame of a fire, and died as suddenly away, leaving her more pale than winter snow. Her hands which had before been locked convulsively together fell apart and dropped heavily at her sides. She stopped in her rapid pacing to and fro, stopped as Lot's wife may have stopped after that fatal backward glance at the perishing city, with every pulse slackening, with every drop of blood congealing in her veins, in the terrible process that was to transform her from a woman into a statue. Lady Audley stood still for about five minutes in that strangely statuistic attitude. Her head erect, her eyes staring straight before her, staring far beyond the narrow boundary of her chamber wall, into dark distances of peril and horror. But by and by she started from that rigid attitude almost as abruptly as she had fallen into it. She roused herself from that semi-lethargy. She walked rapidly to her dressing-table, and, seating herself before it, pushed away the litter of golden-stoppered bottles and delicate china essence-boxes, and looked at her reflection in the large oval glass. She was very pale. But there was no other trace of agitation visible in her girlish face. The lines of her exquisitely molded lips were so beautiful that it was only a very close observer who could have perceived a certain rigidity that was unusual to them. She saw this herself, and tried to smile away that statue-like immobility. But tonight the rosy lips refused to obey her. They were firmly locked, and were no longer the slaves of her will and pleasure. All the latent forces of her character concentrated themselves in this one feature. She might command her eyes, but she could not control the muscles of her mouth. She rose from before her dressing-table, and took a dark velvet cloak and bonnet from the recesses of her wardrobe, and dressed herself for walking. The little ormue-lue clock on the chimney-piece struck the quarter after eleven, while Lady Audley was employed in this manner. Five minutes afterward she re-entered the room in which she had left Phoebe Marks. The innkeeper's wife was sitting before the low fender very much in the same attitude as that in which her late mistress had brooded over that lonely hearth earlier in the evening. She had replenished the fire, and had re-assumed her bonnet and shawl. She was anxious to get home to that brutal husband, who was only too apt to fall into some mischief in her absence. She looked up as Lady Audley entered the room, and uttered an exclamation of surprise at seeing her late mistress in a walking costume. "'My lady,' she cried, "'you are not going out tonight?' "'Yes, I am, Phoebe,' Lady Audley answered very quietly. "'I am going to mount standing with you to see this bailiff, and to pay and dismiss him myself.' "'But, my lady, you forget what the time is. You can't go out at such an hour.' Lady Audley did not answer. She stood with her finger resting lightly upon the handle of the bell, meditating quietly. "'The stables are always locked, and the men in bed by ten o'clock,' she murmured, "'when we are at home. It will make a terrible hubbub to get a carriage ready. But yet I dare say one of the servants could manage the matter quietly for me.' "'But why should you go to-night, my lady?' cried Phoebe Marks. "'Tomorrow will do quite as well. A week hence will do as well. Our landlord would take the man away if he had your promise to settle the debt.' Lady Audley took no notice of this interruption. She went hastily into the dressing-room, and flung off her bonnet and cloak, and then returned to the boudoir in her simple dinner costume, with her curls brushed carelessly away from her face. Now Phoebe Marks listened to me. She said, grasping her confidant's wrist, and speaking in a low earnest voice, but with a certain imperious air that challenged contradiction and commanded obedience. "'Listen to me, Phoebe,' she repeated, "'I am going to the castle in to-night. Whether it is early or late is a very little consequence to me. I have set my mind upon going, and I shall go. You have asked me why, and I have told you. I am going in order that I may pay this debt myself, and that I may see for myself that the money I give is applied to the purpose for which I give it. There is nothing out of the common course of life in my doing this. I am going to do what other women in my position very often do. I am going to assist a favourite servant.' "'But it's getting on for twelve o'clock, my lady,' pleaded Phoebe. Lady Audley frowned impatiently at this interruption. "'If my going to your house to pay this man should be known,' she continued, still retaining her hold of Phoebe's wrist. I am ready to answer for my conduct. But I would rather that the business should be kept quiet. I think that I can leave this house without being seen by any living creature, if you will do as I tell you.' "'I will do anything you wish, my lady,' answered Phoebe submissively. "'Then you will wish me good-night presently when my maid comes into the room, and you will suffer her to show you out of the house. You will cross the courtyard and wait for me in the avenue upon the other side of the archway. It may be half an hour before I am able to join you, for I must not leave my room till the servants have all gone to bed. But you may wait for me patiently, for come what may, I will join you.'" Lady Audley's face was no longer pale. An unnatural luster gleamed in her great blue eyes. She spoke with an unnatural rapidity. She had altogether the appearance and manner of a person who has yielded to the dominant influence of some overpowering excitement. Phoebe Marks stared at her late mistress in a mute bewilderment. She began to fear that my lady was going mad. The bell which Lady Audley rang was answered by the smart ladies-made who wore rose-coloured ribbons and black silk gowns, and other adornments which were unknown to the humble people who sat below the salt in the good old days when servants wore Lindsay Woolsey. "'I did not know that it was so late, Martin,' said my lady, in that gentle tone which always won for her the willing service of her inferiors. I have been talking with Mrs. Marks, and have let the time slip by me. I shan't want anything to-night, so you may go to bed when you please." "'Thank you, my lady,' answered the girl, who looked very sleepy, and had some difficulty in repressing a yawn even in her mistress's presence, for the oddly household he usually kept very early hours. "'I had better show Mrs. Marks out, my lady, hadn't I?' asked the maid, before I go to bed. "'Oh, yes, to be sure. You can let Phoebe out. All the other servants have gone to bed, then, I suppose.' "'Yes, my lady.' Lady oddly laughed as she glanced at the time-piece. "'We have been terrible dissipated up here, Phoebe,' she said. "'Good night. You may tell your husband that his rent shall be paid.' "'Thank you very much, my lady, and good night,' murmured Phoebe as she backed out of the room, followed by the ladies' maid. Lady oddly listened at the door, waiting till the muffled sounds of their footsteps died away in the octagon chamber and on the carpeted staircase. "'Margin sleeps at the top of the house,' she said, half a mile away from this room. In ten minutes I might safely make my escape.' She went back into her dressing-room and put on her cloak and bonnet for the second time. The unnatural colour still burnt like a flame in her cheeks. The unnatural light still glittered in her eyes. The excitement which she was under held her in so strong a spell that neither her mind nor her body seemed to have any consciousness of fatigue. Under verbose I may be in my description of her feelings. I can never describe a tie that her thoughts or her sufferings. She suffered agonies that would feel closely printed volumes, bulky with a thousand pages in that one horrible night. She underwent volumes of anguish and doubt and perplexity, sometimes repeating the same chapters of her torments over and over again, sometimes hurrying through a thousand pages of her misery without one pause, without one moment of breathing time. She stood by the low fender in her boudoir, watching the minute hand of the clock, and waiting till it should be time for her to leave the house in safety. "'I will wait ten minutes,' she said, not a moment beyond, before I enter on my new peril.' She listened to the wild roaring of the March wind, which seemed to have risen with the stillness and darkness of the night. The hand slowly made its inevitable way to the figures which told that ten minutes were past. It was exactly a quarter to twelve, when my lady took her lamp in her hand, and stole softly from the room. Her footfall was as light as that of some graceful wild animal, and there was no fear of that airy step awakening any echo upon the carpeted stone corridors and staircase. She did not pause until she reached the vestibule upon the ground floor. Several doors opened out of the vestibule, which was octagon like my lady's anti-chamber. One of these doors led into the library, and it was this door which Lady Audley opened softly and cautiously. To have attempted to leave the house secretly by any of the principal outlets would have been simple madness, for the housekeeper herself superintended the barricading of the great doors back and front. The secrets of the bolts and bars and chains and bells which secured these doors, and provided for the safety of Sir Michael Audley's plate-room, the door of which was lined with sheet iron, were known only to the servants who had to deal with them. But although all these precautions were taken with the principal entrances to the citadel, a wooden shutter and a slender iron bar, light enough to be lifted by a child, were considered sufficient safeguard for the half-glass door which opened out of the breakfast room into the graveled pathway and smooth turf in the courtyard. It was by this outlet that Lady Audley meant to make her escape. She could easily remove the bar and unfasten the shutter, and she might safely venture to leave the window ajar while she was absent. There was little fear of Sir Michael's awakening for some time, as he was a heavy sleeper in the early part of the night, and had slept more heavily than usual since his illness. Lady Audley crossed the library and opened the door of the breakfast-room which communicated with it. This latter apartment was one of the later additions to the court. It was a simple, cheerful chamber, with brightly papered walls and pretty maple furniture, and was more occupied by Elysia than any one else. The paraphernalia of that young lady's favorite pursuits were scattered about the room, drawing materials, unfinished scraps of work, tangled skeins of silk, and all the other tokens of a careless damsel's presence. While Miss Audley's picture, a pretty crayon sketch of a rosy-faced hoidon in a riding habit and hat, hung over the quaint wedgewood ornaments on the chimney-piece. My lady looked upon these familiar objects with scornful hatred flaming in her blue eyes. "'How glad she will be if any disgrace befalls me,' she thought. How she will rejoice if I am driven out of this house!' Lady Audley set the lamp upon a table near the fireplace and went to the window. She removed the iron bar and the light wooden shutter, and then opened the glass door. The march night was black and moonless, and a gust of wind blew in upon her as she opened the door, and filled the room with its chilly breath, extinguishing the lamp upon the table. "'No matter,' my lady muttered, I could not have left it burning. I shall know how to find my way through the house when I come back. I have left all the doors ajar.' She stepped quickly out upon the smooth gravel, and closed the glass door behind her. She was afraid lest that treacherous wind should blow to the door opening into the library, and thus betray her. She was in the quadrangle now, with that chill wind sweeping against her, and swirling her silken garments round her with a shrill rustling noise, like the whistling of a sharp breeze against the sails of a yacht. She crossed the quadrangle and looked back. Looked back for a moment at the fire-light gleaming between the rosy-tinted curtains in her boudoir, and the dim gleam of the lamp through the mullioned windows in the room where Sir Michael Audley lay asleep. "'I feel as if I were running away,' she thought. "'I feel as if I were running away secretly in the dead of night, to lose myself and be forgotten. Perhaps it would be wiser me to run away, to take this man's warning, and escape out of his power for ever. If I were to run away and disappear as—as George Tallboy's disappeared. But where could I go? What would become of me? I have no money. My jewels are not worth a couple of hundred pounds, now that I've got rid of the best part of them. What could I do? I must go back to the old life, the old hard, cruel, wretched life, the life of poverty, and humiliation, and vexation, and discontent. I should have to go back and wear myself out in that long struggle, and die, as my mother died, perhaps. My lady stood still for a moment on the smooth lawn between the quadrangle and the archway, with her head drooping upon her breast and her hands locked together, debating this question in the unnatural activity of her mind. Her attitude reflected the state of that mind. It expressed irresolution and perplexity. But presently a sudden change came over her. She lifted her head, lifted it with an action of defiance and determination. No, Mr. Robert Oddly, she said aloud in a low clear voice, I will not go back. I will not go back. If the struggle between us is to be a duel to the death, you shall not find me drop my weapon. She walked with a firm and rapid step under the archway. As she passed under that massive arch, it seemed as if she disappeared into some black gulf that had waited open to receive her. The stupid clock struck twelve, and the whole archway seemed to vibrate under its heavy strokes, as Lady Oddly emerged upon the other side and joined Phoebe Marks, who had waited for her late mistress very near the gateway of the court. "'Now, Phoebe,' she said, "'it is three miles from here to Mount Standing, isn't it?' "'Yes, my lady.' "'And then we can walk the distance in an hour and a half.' Lady Oddly had not stopped to say this. She was walking quickly along the avenue with her humble companion by her side. Fragile and delicate as she was in appearance, she was a very good walker. She had been in the habit of taking long country rambles with Mr. Dawson's children in her old days of dependence, and she thought very little of a distance of three miles. "'You are a beautiful husband. We'll sit up for you, I suppose, Phoebe,' she said, as they struck across an open field that was used as a shortcut from Oddly Court to the High Road. "'Oh, yes, my lady. He's sure to sit up. He'll be drinking with the man, I daresay.' "'The man? What man?' "'The man that's in possession, my lady.' "'Ah, to be sure,' said Lady Oddly, indifferently. It was strange that Phoebe's domestic trouble should seem so very far from her thoughts at the time she was taking such an extraordinary step towards setting things right at the castle in. The two women crossed the field and turned into the High Road. The way to Mount Standing was all uphill, and the long road looked black and dreary in the dark night, but my lady walked on with a desperate courage, which was no common constituent in her selfish, sensuous nature, but a strange faculty born out of her great despair. She did not speak again to her companion until they were close upon the glimmering lights at the top of the hill. One of these village lights, glaring redly through a crimson curtain, marked out the particular window behind which it was likely that Luke Marks sat nodding drowsily over his liquor, and waiting for the coming of his wife. "'He has not gone to bed, Phoebe,' said my lady eagerly, but there is no other light burning at the inn. I suppose Mr. Oddly is in bed and asleep.' "'Yes, my lady, I suppose so. You are sure he was going to stay at the castle to-night?' "'Oh, yes, my lady. I helped the girl to get his room ready before I came away.' The wind, boisterous everywhere, was even shriller and more pitiless in the neighborhood of that bleak hill-top upon which the castle inn reared its rickety walls. The cruel blasts raved wildly around that frail erection. They desported themselves with the shattered pigeon-house, the broken weather-cock, the loose tiles and unshapely chimneys. They rattled at the window-panes and whistled in the crevices. They mocked the feeble building from foundation to roof, and battered and banged and tormented it in their fierce gambles, until it trembled and rocked with the force of their rough play. Mr. Luke Marks had not troubled himself to secure the door of his dwelling-house before sitting down to booze with the man who held provisional possession of his goods and chattels. The landlord of the castle inn was a lazy, sensual brute, who had no thought higher than a selfish concern for his own enjormance, and a virulent hatred for anybody who stood in the way of his gratification. Phoebe pushed open the door with her hand and went into the house, followed by my lady. The gas was flaring in the bar, and smoking the low plastered ceiling. The door of the bar parlor was half-open, and Lady Audley heard the brutal laughter of Mr. Marks as she crossed the threshold of the inn. "'I'll tell him you're here, my lady,' whispered Phoebe to her late mistress. "'I know he'll be tipsy. You—you won't be offended, my lady, if he should say anything rude. You know it wasn't my wish that you should come.' "'Yes, yes,' answered Lady Audley impatiently. "'I know that. What should I care for his rudeness? Let him say what he likes.'" Phoebe Marks pushed open the parlor door, leaving my lady in the bar close behind her. Luke sat with his clumsy legs stretched out upon the hearth. He held a glass of gin and water in one hand and the poker in the other. He had just thrust the poker into a heap of black coals, and was scattering them to make a blaze, when his wife appeared upon the threshold of the room. He snatched the poker from between the bars, and made a half-drunken, half-threatening motion with it as he saw her. "'So you've condescended to come home at last, ma'am,' he said. "'I thought you was never coming home no more.'" He spoke in a thick and drunken voice, and was by no means too intelligible. He was steeped to the very lips in alcohol. His eyes were dim and watery, his hands were unsteady, his voice was choked and muffled with drink. A brute, even when most sober, a brute even on his best behaviour, he was ten times more brutal in his drunkenness, when the few restraints which held his ignorant, every-day brutality in Sheck, were flung aside in the indolent recklessness of intoxication. "'I—I've been longer than I intended to be, Luke,' Phoebe answered in her most conciliatory manner, "'but I've seen my lady, and she's been very kind, and—and she'll settle this business for us.' "'She's been very kind, has she?' muttered Mr. Marx with a drunken laugh. "'Thank her for nothing. I know the valley of her kindness. She'd be uncommon kind, I'd say, if she weren't obliged to be it.' The man in possession, who had fallen into a maudlin and semi-unconscious state of intoxication, upon about a third of the liquor that Mr. Marx had consumed, only stared in feeble wonderment at his host and hostess. He sat near the table. Indeed he had hooked himself onto it with his elbows, as a safeguard against sliding under it, and he was making imbecile attempts to light his pipe at the flame of a guttering tallow-candle near him. "'My lady has promised to settle the business for us, Luke,' Phoebe repeated, without noticing Luke's remarks. She knew her husband's dog in nature well enough by this time, to know that it was worse than useless to try to stop him from doing or saying anything which his own stubborn will led him to do or say. "'My lady will settle it,' she said, and she's come down here to see about it to-night,' she added. The poker dropped from the landlord's hand, and fell clattering among the cinders on the hearth. "'My lady, oddly, come here to-night,' he said. "'Yes, Luke.' My lady appeared upon the threshold of the door, as Phoebe spoke. "'Yes, Luke, Marx,' she said. "'I have come to pay this man, and to send him about his business.' Lady oddly said these words in a strange, semi-mechanical manner, very much as if she had learned the sentence by rote, and were repeating it without knowing what she said. Mr. Marx gave a discontented growl, and set his empty glass down upon the table with an impatient gesture. "'You might have given the money to Phoebe,' he said, as well as have brought it yourself. "'We don't want no fine ladies up here, prying and poking their precious noses into everything.' "'Luke, Luke,' remonstrated Phoebe, when my lady has been so kind. "'Oh, damn her kindness!' cried Mr. Marx. "'It ain't her kindness, we want gal, it's our money. She won't get no sniveling gratitude from me. Whatever she does for us, she does because she is obliged, and if she wasn't obliged, she wouldn't do it.' Heaven knows how much more Luke Marx might have said, had not my lady turned upon him suddenly, and awed him into silence by the unearthly glitter of her beauty. Her hair had been blown away from her face, and being of a light feathery quality, had spread itself into a tangled mass that surrounded her forehead like a yellow flame. There was another flame in her eyes, a greenish light, such as might flash from the changing hued orbs of an angry mermaid. "'Stop!' she cried. "'I didn't come up here in the dead of night to listen to your insolence. How much is this debt?' "'Nine pound.'" Lady Audley produced her purse, a toy of ivory, silver, and turquoise. She took from it a note and four sovereigns. She laid these upon the table. "'Let that man give me a receipt for the money,' she said, before I go.' It was some time before the man could be roused into sufficient consciousness for the performance of this simple duty, and it was only by dipping a pen into the ink and pushing it between his clumsy fingers, that he was at last made to comprehend that his autograph was wanted at the bottom of the receipt, which had been made out by Phoebe Marks. Lady Audley took the document as soon as the ink was dry, and turned to leave the parlor. Phoebe followed her. "'You mustn't go home alone, my lady,' she said. "'You'll let me go with you.' "'Yes, yes, you shall go home with me.'" The two women were standing near the door of the inn, as my lady said this. Phoebe stared, wonderingly, at her patroness. She had expected that Lady Audley would be in a hurry to return home after settling this business which she had capriciously taken upon herself, but it was not so. My lady stood leaning against the inn door and staring into vacancy, and again Mrs. Marks began to fear that trouble had driven her late mistress mad. A little Dutch clock in the bar struck, too, while Lady Audley lingered in this irresolute absent manner. She started at the sound and began to tremble violently. "'I think I am going to faint, Phoebe,' she said, "'where can I get some cold water?' "'The pump is in the wash-house, my lady. I'll run and get you a glass of cold water.' "'No, no, no,' cried my lady, clutching Phoebe's arm as she was about to run away upon this errand. "'I'll get it myself. I must dip my head in a basin of water if I want to save myself from fainting. In which room does Mr. Audley sleep?' There was something so irrelevant in this question that Phoebe Marks stared aghast at her mistress before she answered it. It was number three that I got ready, my lady, the front room. The room next to ours,' she replied, after that pause of astonishment. "'Give me a candle,' said my lady, "'I'll go into your room, and get some water from my head. Stay where you are, and see that that brood of a husband of yours does not follow me.' She snatched the candle which Phoebe had lighted from the girl's hand, and ran up the rickety winding staircase which led to the narrow corridor upon the upper floor. Five bedrooms opened out of this low-ceiling, close-smelling corridor. The number of these rooms were indicated by squat-black figures painted upon the panels of the doors. Lady Audley had driven up to Mount Standing to inspect the house when she bought the business for her servant's bridegroom, and she knew her way about the dilapidated old place. She knew where to find Phoebe's bedroom, but she stopped before the door of that other chamber which had been prepared for Mr. Robert Audley. She stopped and looked at the number on the door. The key was in the lock, and her hand dropped upon it as if unconsciously. But presently she suddenly began to tremble again, as she had trembled a few minutes before, at the striking of the clock. She stood for a few moments trembling thus, with her hand still upon the key. Then a horrible expression came over her face, and she turned the key in the lock. She turned it twice, double locking the door. There was no sound from within. The occupant of the chamber made no sign of having heard that ominous creaking of the rusty key and the rusty lock. Lady Audley hurried into the next room. She set the candle on the dressing-table, flung off her bonnet, and slung it loosely across her arm. Then she went to the wash-stand and filled the basin with water. She plunged her golden hair into this water, and then stood for a few moments in the centre of the room looking about her, with a white, earnest face, and an eager gaze that seemed to take in every object in the poorly furnished chamber. Phoebe's bedroom was certainly very shabbily furnished. She had been compelled to select all the most decent things for those best bedrooms, which were set apart for any chance traveller who might stop for a night's lodging at the castle in. But Phoebe Marks had done her best to atone for the lack of substantial furniture in her apartment by a superabundance of drapery. Crisp curtains of cheap chints hung from the tent-bedstead, festooned drapery of the same material shrouded the narrow window shutting out the light of day, and affording a pleasant harbour for tribes of flies and predatory bands of spiders. In the looking-glass, a miserably cheap construction which distorted every face whose owner had the hardy-hood to look into it, stood upon a drapery'd altar of starched muslin and pink-glazed calico, and was adorned with frills of lace and knitted work. My lady smiled as she looked at the festoons and furblows which met her eyes upon every side. She had reason, perhaps, to smile, remembering the costly elegance of her own apartments, but there was something in that sardonic smile that seemed to have a deeper meaning than any natural contempt for Phoebe's attempts at decoration. She went to the dressing-table, and smoothed her wet hair before the looking-glass, and then put on her bonnet. She was obliged to place the flaming tallow-candle very close to the lace furblows about the glass, so close that the starched muslin seemed to draw the flame toward it by some power of attraction in its fragile tissue. Phoebe waited anxiously by the indoor for my lady's coming. She watched the minute hand of the little Dutch clock, wondering at the slowness of its progress. It was only ten minutes past two when Lady Audley came downstairs, with her bonnet on and her hair still wet, but without the candle. Phoebe was immediately anxious about this missing candle. "'The light, my lady,' she said, "'you have left it upstairs.' The wind blew it out as I was leaving your room,' Lady Audley answered, quietly. I left it there. "'In my room, my lady?' "'Yes.' And it was quite out. "'Yes, I tell you. Why do you worry me about your candle? It is past two o'clock. Come.' She took the girl's arm at half lead, half dragged her from the house. The convulsive pressure of her slight hand held her firmly, as an iron vice could have held her. The fierce march wind banged to the door of the house, and left the two women standing outside it. The long black road lay bleak and desolate before them, dimly visible between straight lines of leafless hedges. A walk of three miles length upon a lonely country road, between the hours of two and four on a cold winter's morning, is scarcely a pleasant task for a delicate woman, a woman whose inclinations lean toward ease and luxury. But my lady hurried along the hard, dry highway, dragging her companion with her as if she had been impelled by some horrible demonic force which knew no abatement. With the black night above them, with the fierce wind howling around them, sweeping across a broad expanse of hidden country, blowing as if it had arisen simultaneously from every point of the compass, and making those wanderers the focus of its ferocity. The two women walked through the darkness down the hill upon which Mount Standing stood, along a mile and a half a flat road, and then up another hill, on the western side of which oddly court lay in that sheltered valley, which seemed to shut in the old house from all the clamour and hubbub of the everyday world. My lady stopped upon the summit of this hill to draw breath and to clasp her hands upon her heart, in the vain hope that she might still its cruel beating. They were now within three quarters of a mile of the court, and they had been walking for nearly an hour since they left the castle in. Lady oddly stopped to rest, with her face still turned toward the place of her destination. Phoebe Marks, stopping also, and very glad of a moment's pause in that hurried journey, looked back into the far darkness beneath which lay that dreary shelter that had given her so much uneasiness, and as she did so, she uttered a shrill cry of horror, and clutched wildly at her companion's cloak. The night sky was no longer all dark. The thick blackness was broken by one patch of lured light. "'My lady! My lady!' cried Phoebe, pointing to this lured patch. "'Do you see?' "'Yes, child, I see,' answered lady oddly, trying to shake the clinging hands from her garments. "'What's the matter?' "'It's a fire! A fire, my lady!' "'Yes, I'm afraid it is a fire. At Brentwood, most likely. Let me go, Phoebe. It's nothing to us.' "'Yes, yes, my lady. It's nearer than Brentwood. It's much nearer. It's at Mount Standing.' Lady oddly did not answer. She was trembling again, with the cold, perhaps, for the wind had torn her heavy cloak from her shoulders, and had left her slender figure exposed to the blast. "'It's at Mount Standing, my lady,' cried Phoebe Marks. "'It's the castle that's on fire. I know it is! I know it is! I thought of fire to-night, and I was fidgety and uneasy, for I knew this would happen some day. I wouldn't mind if it was only the wretched place. They'll be life-lost! They'll be life-lost!' sobbed the girl, distractedly. "'There's Luke too tipsy to help himself, unless others help him. There's Mr. Oddly asleep.' Phoebe Marks stopped suddenly at the mention of Robert's name, and fell upon her knees, clasping her uplifted hands, and appealing wildly to Lady Oddly. "'Oh, my God!' she cried, "'Say it's not true, my lady! Say it's not true! It's too horrible! It's too horrible! It's too horrible!' "'What's too horrible? The thought that's in my mind, the terrible thought that's in my mind!' "'What do you mean, girl?' cried my lady fiercely. "'Oh, God, forgive me if I'm wrong!' the kneeling woman gasped and detached sentences. "'And, God, grant, I may be! Why did you go up to the castle, my lady? Why were you so set on going against all I could say? You who were so bitter against Mr. Oddly and against Luke, and who knew that they were both under that roof! "'Oh, tell me that I do you a cruel wrong, my lady! Tell me so! Tell me! For as there is a heaven above me, I think that you went to that place to-night on purpose to set fire to it. Tell me that I'm wrong, my lady! Tell me that I'm doing you a wicked wrong!' "'I will tell you nothing, except that you are a mad woman,' answered Lady Oddly in a cold, hard voice. "'Get up! Fool! Idiot! Coward! Is your husband such a precious bargain that you should be groveling there, lamenting and groaning for him? What is Robert Oddly to you that you behave like a maniac, because you think he is in danger? How do you know the fire is at Mount Standing? You see a red patch in the sky, and you cry out directly that your own poultry hovel is in flames, as if there were no place in the world that could be burnt except that. The fire may be at Brentwood, or further away, at Romford, or still further away on the eastern side of London, perhaps. Get up, mad woman, and go back and look after your goods and chattels, and your husband and your lodger. Get up and go. I don't want you.' "'Oh, my lady! My lady, forgive me!' sobbed Phoebe. "'There's nothing you can say to me that's hard enough for having done you such a wrong, even my thoughts. I don't mind your cruel words. I don't mind anything if I'm wrong.' "'Go back and see for yourself,' answered Lady Oddly sternly. "'I tell you again. I don't want you.' She walked away in the darkness, leaving Phoebe Marks still kneeling upon the hard road where she had cast herself in that agony of supplication. Sir Michael's wife walked toward the house in which her husband slept, with the red blaze lighting up the skies behind her, and with nothing but the blackness of the night before. CHAPTER XXXIII of Lady Oddly's secret. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Elizabeth Klett. Lady Oddly's Secret by Mary Elizabeth Braddon. CHAPTER XXXIII The Bear of the Tidings. It was very late the next morning when Lady Oddly emerged from her dressing-room, exquisitely dressed in a morning costume of delicate muslin, delicate laces, and embroideries, but with a very pale face, and with half-circles of purple shadow under her eyes. She counted for this pale face and these hollow eyes by declaring that she had sat up reading until a very late hour on the previous night. Sir Michael and his young wife breakfasted in the library at a comfortable round table, wheeled close to the blazing fire, and Alicia was compelled to share this meal with her stepmother, however she might avoid that lady in the long interval between breakfast and dinner. The march-morning was bleak and dull, and a drizzling rain fell incessantly, obscuring the landscape and blotting out the distance. There were very few letters by the morning post. The daily newspapers did not arrive until noon, and such aids to conversation being missing there was very little talk at the breakfast-table. Alicia looked out at the drizzling rain drifting against the broad window-panes. "'No chance of riding today,' she said, "'and no chance of any callers to enliven us, unless that ridiculous bob comes crawling through the wet from Mount Standing.' "'Have you ever heard anybody, whom you know to be dead,' alluded to in a light, easing-going manner by another person who did not know of his death, alluded to as doing this or that, as performing some trivial every-day operation, when you know that he has vanished away from the face of this earth, and separated himself forever from all living creatures in their commonplace pursuits in the awful solemnity of death? Such a chance illusion, insignificant though it may be, is apt to send a strange thrill of pain through the mind. The ignorant remark jars discordantly upon the hypersensitive brain. The king of terrors is desecrated by that unwitting disrespect. Heaven knows what hidden reason my lady may have had for experiencing some such revulsion of feeling on the sudden mention of Mr. Oddly's name, but her pale face blanched to a sickly white as Alicia Oddly spoke of her cousin. "'Yes, he will come down here in the wet, perhaps,' the young lady continued, with his hat sleek and shining as if it had been brushed with a pad of fresh butter, and with white vapours steaming out of his clothes, and making him look like an awkward genie just let out of his bottle. He will come down here and print impressions of his muddy boots all over the carpet, and he'll sit on your goblin tapestry, my lady, in his wet overcoat, and he'll abuse you if you remonstrate, and he'll ask why people have chairs that are not to be sat upon, and why you don't live in fig tree court, and—' Sir Michael Oddly watched his daughter with a thoughtful countenance as she talked of her cousin. She very often talked of him, ridiculing him and envying against him in no very measured terms. But perhaps the baron at thought of a certain Senora Beatrice, who very cruelly entreated a gentleman called Benedict, but who was, it may be, heartily in love with him at the same time. What do you think Banchard Melville told me when he called her yesterday, Elysia? Sir Michael asked presently. I haven't the remotest idea, replied Elysia rather disdainfully. Perhaps he told you that we should have another war before long by Gedcer, or perhaps he told you that we should have a new ministry by Gedcer, for those fellows are getting themselves into a mess, sir, or that those other fellows are reforming this and cutting down that, and altering the other in the army until by Gedcer, we shall have no army at all by and by, nothing but a pack of boys, sir, crammed up to the eyes with a lot of senseless school-masters rubbish, and dressed in shell-jackets and calico-helmets. Yes, sir, they're fighting anewed in calico-helmets at this very day, sir. Your impertinent minks, miss, answered the baronet. Major Melville told me nothing of the kind. But he told me that a very devoted admirer of you, a certain Sir Harry Towers, has forsaken his place in Hartfordshire, and his hunting-stable, and has gone on the Continent for a twelve-months tour. Miss Oddly flushed up suddenly at the mention of her old adorer, but recovered herself very quickly. He has gone on the Continent as he, she said indifferently, he told me that he meant to do so if—if he didn't have everything his own way. Poor fellow! He is a dear, good-hearted, stupid creature, and twenty times better than that peripatetic patent-refrigerator, Mr. Robert Oddly. I wish, Alicia, that you were not so fond of ridiculing Bob, Sir Michael said gravely. Bob is a good fellow, and I am as fond of him as if he'd been my own son. And—and I've been very uncomfortable about him lately. He has changed very much within the last few days, and he has taken all sorts of absurd ideas into his head, and my lady has alarmed me about him. She thinks—Lady Oddly interrupted her husband with a grave shake of her head. It is better not to say too much about it as yet awhile," she said. Alicia knows what I think. Yes, replied Miss Oddly, my lady thinks that Bob is going mad, but I know better than that. He is not at all the sort of person to go mad. How should such a sluggish, ditch-pond of an intellect as his ever work itself into a tempest? He may move about for the rest of his life, perhaps, in a tranquil state of semi-idiosy, imperfectly comprehending who he is and where he's going and what he's doing, but he'll never go mad. Sir Michael did not reply to this. He had been very much disturbed by his conversation with my lady on the previous evening, and had silently debated the painful question in his mind ever since. His wife, the woman he best loved and most believed in, had told him, with all appearance of regret and agitation, her conviction of his nephew's insanity. He tried in vain to arrive at the conclusion he wished most ardently to attain. He tried in vain to think that my lady was misled by her own fancies, and had no foundation for what she said. But then again it suddenly flashed upon him that to think this was to arrive at a worse conclusion. It was to transfer the horrible suspicion from his nephew to his wife. She appeared to be possessed with an actual conviction of Robert's insanity. To imagine her wrong was to imagine some weakness in her own mind. The longer he thought of the subject, the more it harassed and perplexed him. It was most certain that the young man had always been eccentric. He was sensible, he was tolerably clever, he was honourable and gentlemen-like in feeling, though perhaps a little careless in the performance of certain minor social duties. But there were some slight differences, not easily to be defined, that separated him from other men of his age and position. Then again it was equally true that he had very much changed within the period that had succeeded the disappearance of George Tallboys. He had grown moody and thoughtful, melancholy and absent-minded. He had held himself aloof from society, had sat for hours without speaking, had talked at other points by fits and starts, and had excited himself unusually in the discussion of subjects which apparently lay far out of the region of his own life and interests. Then there was even another region which seemed to strengthen my lady's case against this unhappy young man. He had been brought up in the frequent society of his cousin Elysia, his pretty, genial cousin, to whom interest, and one would have thought affection, naturally pointed as his most fitting bride. More than this the girl had shown him, in the innocent guilelessness of a transparent nature, that on her side at least, affection was not wanting. And yet, in spite of all this, he had held himself aloof, and had allowed others to propose for her hand, and to be rejected by her, and had still made no sign. Now love is so very subtle in essence, such an indefinable metaphysical marvel, that its due force, though very cruelly felt by the sufferer himself, is never clearly understood by those who look on at its torments, and wonder why he takes the common fever so badly. Sir Michael argued that because Elysia was a pretty girl and an amiable girl, it was therefore extraordinary, and unnatural in Robert Oddling not to have duly fallen in love with her. This baronet, who close upon his sixtieth birthday, had for the first time encountered that one woman, who out of all the women in the world had power to quicken the pulses of his heart, wondered why Robert failed to take the fever from the first breath of contagion that blew toward him. He forgot that there are men who go their ways unscathed amidst legions of lovely and generous women, to succumb at last before some harsh-featured varago, who knows the secret of that only filter which can intoxicate and bewitch him. He had forgot that there are certain jacks who go through life without meeting the Jill appointed for them by Nemesis, and die old bachelors, perhaps, with poor Jill pining and old maid upon the other side of the party-wall. He forgot that love, which is a madness, and a scourge, and a fever, and a delusion, and a snare, is also a mystery, and very imperfectly understood by everyone except the individual sufferer, who writhes under its tortures. Jones, who is wildly enamored of Miss Brown, and who lies awake at night until he loathes his comfortable pillow, and tumbles his sheets into twisted rags of linen in his agonies, as if he were a prisoner, and wanted to wind them into impromptu ropes. This same Jones, who thinks Russell Square a magic place because his divinity inhabits it, and who thinks the trees in that enclosure and the sky above it greener and bluer than other trees or sky, and who feels a pang, yes, an actual pang of mingled hope, and joy, and expectation, and terror, when he emerges from Guilford Street descending from the heights of Islington into those sacred precincts. This very Jones is hard and calloused toward the torments of Smith, who adores Miss Robinson, and cannot imagine what the infatuated fellow can see in the girl. So it was with Sir Michael Oddly. He looked at his nephew as a sample of a very large class of young men, and his daughter as a sample of an equally extensive class of feminine goods, and could not see why the two samples should not make a very respectable match. He ignored all those infinitesimal differences in nature which make the wholesome food of one man the deadly poison of another. How difficult it is to believe sometimes that a man doesn't like such-and-such a favorite dish. If at a dinner party, a meek-looking guest refuses early salmon and cucumbers, or green peas in February, we set him down as a poor relation whose instincts warn him off those expensive plates. If an alderman were to declare that he didn't like green fat, he would be looked upon as a social martyr, a Marcus Kirchus of the dinner-table, who immolated himself for the benefit of his kind. His fellow alderman would believe in anything rather than a heretical distaste for the city ambrosia of the soup-tereen. But there are people who dislike salmon, and white-bait, and spring ducklings, and all manner of old-established delicacies, and there are other people who affect eccentric and despicable dishes generally stigmatized as nasty. Halas, my pretty Alicia, your cousin did not love you. He admired your rosy English face, and had a tender affection for you which might perhaps have expanded by and by into something warm enough for matrimony, that every day jog-trot species of union which demands no very passionate devotion, but for a sudden check which it had received in Dorseture. Yes. Robert Oddly's growing affection for his cousin, a plant of very slow growth, I am faint to confess, had been suddenly dwarfed and stunted upon that bitter February day, on which she had stood beneath the pine-trees talking to Clara Tallboys. Since that day the young man had experienced an unpleasant sensation in thinking of poor Alicia. He looked at her as being in some vague manner an encumbrance upon the freedom of his thoughts. He had a haunting fear that he was in some tacit way pledged to her, that she had a species of claim upon him, which rebad to him the right of thinking of another woman. I believe it was the image of Miss Oddly presented to him in this light, that goaded the young barrister into those outbursts of splenetic rage against the female sex, which he was liable to at certain times. He was strictly honorable, so honorable, that he would rather have immolated himself upon the altar of truth and Alicia, than have done her the remotest wrong. So by so doing he might have secured his own comfort and happiness. If the poor little girl loves me, he thought, and if she thinks that I love her, and has been led to think so by any word or act of mine, I am in duty bound to let her think so to the end of time, and to fulfil any tacit promise which I may have unconsciously made. I thought once—I meant once, too—to make her an offer by and by when this horrible mystery about George Tallboys should have been cleared up, and everything peacefully settled—but now. His thoughts would ordinarily wander away at this point of his reflections, carrying him where he had never intended to go, carrying him back under the pine trees in Dorsetshire, and setting him once more face to face with the sister of his missing friend, and it was generally a very laborious journey by which he travelled back to the point from which he strayed. It was so difficult for him to tear himself away from the stunted turf and the pine trees. Poor little girl! he would think, on coming back to Elysia. How good it is of her to love me, and how grateful ought I to be for her tenderness! How many fellows would think such a generous loving heart, the highest boon that earth could give them? There's Sir Harry-Towers stricken with despair at his rejection. He would give me half his estate—all his estate—twice his estate, if he had it, to be in the shoes which I am anxious to shake off my ungrateful feet. Why don't I love her? Why is it that although I know her to be pretty, and pure and good and truthful, I don't love her? Her image never haunts me, except reproachfully. I never see her in my dreams, I never wake up suddenly in the dead of the night, with her eyes shining upon me, and her warm breath upon my cheek, or with the fingers of her soft hand clinging to mine. No, I'm not in love with her. I can't fall in love with her. He raged and rebelled against his ingratitude. He tried to argue himself into a passionate attachment for his cousin, but he failed ignominiously, and the more he tried to think of Elysia, the more he thought of Clara Tallboys. I am speaking now of his feelings in the period that elapsed between his return from Dorseture and his visit to Grange Heath. Sir Michael sat by the library fire after breakfast upon this wretched rainy morning, writing letters and reading the newspapers. Elysia shut herself in her own apartment to read the third volume of a novel. She oddly locked the door of the octagon antechamber, and roamed up and down the suite of rooms from the bedroom to the boudoir, all through that weary morning. She had locked the door to guard against the chance of anyone coming in suddenly, and observing her before she was aware, before she had had sufficient warning to enable her to face their scrutiny. Her pale face seemed to grow paler as the morning advanced. A tiny medicine-chest was open upon the dressing-table, and little-stoppered bottles of red lavender, salvoletil, chloroform, chlorodine, and ether were scattered about. Once my lady paused before this medicine-chest, and took out the remaining bottles half-absently, perhaps, until she came to one which was filled with a thick, dark liquid, and labelled opium, poison. She trifled a long time with this last bottle, holding it up to the light, and even removing the stopper and smelling the sickly liquid. But she put it from her suddenly with a shudder. If I could, she muttered, if only I could do it, and yet why should I now? She clenched her small hands as she uttered the last words, and walked to the window of the dressing-room, which looked straight toward that ivied archway under which any one must come who came from Mount Standing to the court. There were smaller gates in the gardens which led into the meadows behind the court, but there was no other way of coming from Mount Standing or Brentwood than by the principal entrance. The solitary hand of the clock over the archway was midway between one and two when my lady looked at it. "'How slow the time is,' she said wearily. "'How slow! How slow! Shall I grow old like this, I wonder, with every minute of my life seeming like an hour?' She stood for a few minutes watching the archway, but no one passed under it while she looked, and she turned impatiently away from the window to resume her weary wandering about the rooms. There were fire that had been which had reflected itself vividly in the black sky. No tidings of it had as yet come to Audley Court. The day was miserably wet and windy, altogether the very last day upon which even the most confirmed idler and gossip would care to venture out. It was not a market day, and there were therefore very few passengers upon the road between Brentwood and Chelmsford, so that as yet no news of the fire, which had occurred in the dead of the wintry night, had reached the village of Audley, or travelled from the village to the court. The girl with the rose-coloured ribbons came to the door of the ante-room to summon her mistress to luncheon, but Lady Audley only opened the door a little way, and intimated her intention of taking no luncheon. "'My headache's terribly, Martin,' she said, "'I shall go and lie down till dinnertime. You may come at five to dress me.' Lady Audley said this with the predetermination of dressing at four, and thus dispensing with the services of her attendant. Among all-privileged spies, a lady's maid has the highest privileges. It is she who bathes Lady Therese's eyes with odour cologne after her ladyship's quarrel with the Colonel. It is she who administers salvolatile to Miss Fanny, when Count Baudessaire of the Blues has jilted her. She has a hundred methods for finding out of her mistress's secrets. She knows by the manner in which her victim jerks her head from under the hair-brush, or chafes at the gentlest administration of the comb, what hidden torches are racking her breast, what secret perplexities are bewildering her brain. That well-bred attendant knows how to interpret the most obscure diagnosis of all mental diseases that can afflict her mistress. She knows when the ivory complexion is bought and paid for, when the pearly teeth are foreign substances fashioned by the dentist, when the glossy plaques are the relics of the dead rather than the property of the living, and she knows other and more sacred secrets than these. She knows when the sweet smile is more false than Madame Levinson's enamel, and far less enduring. When the words that issue from between gates of borrowed pearl are more disguised and painted than the lips which help to shape them, when the lovely fairy of the ballroom re-enters the dressing-room after the night's long revelry, and throws aside her voluminous bernouse and her faded bouquet, and drops her mask, and like another Cinderella loses the glass-slipper by whose glitter she has been distinguished, and falls back into her rags and dirt. The lady's maid is by to see the transformation. The valet, who took wages from the prophet of Corazon, must have seen his master sometimes unveiled, and must have laughed in his sleeve at the folly of the monster's worshippers. Lady Audley had made no confidant of her new maid, and on this day of all others she wished to be alone. She did lie down. She cast herself wearily upon the luxurious sofa in the dressing-room, and buried her face in the down-pillows and tried to sleep. Sleep. She had almost forgotten what it was, that tender restorer of tired nature. It seemed so long now since she had slept. It was only about eight and forty hours, perhaps, but it appeared an intolerable time. Her fatigue of the night before, and her unnatural excitement had won her out at last. She did fall asleep. She fell into a heavy slumber that was almost like stupor. She had taken a few drops out of the opium bottle in a glass of water before lying down. The clock over the mantelpiece chimed the quarter before four as she woke suddenly and started up, with the cold perspiration breaking out in icy drops upon her forehead. She had dreamt that every member of the household was clamoring at the door, eager to tell her of a dreadful fire that had happened in the night. There was no sound but the flapping of the ivy-leaves against the glass, the occasional falling of a cinder, and the steady ticking of the clock. Perhaps I shall always be dreaming these sorts of dreams, my lady thought, until the tear of them kills me. The rain had ceased, and the cold spring sunshine was glittering upon the windows. Lady Audley dressed herself rapidly, but carefully. I do not say that even in her supremist hour of misery she still retained her pride in her beauty. It was not so. She looked upon that beauty as a weapon, and she felt that she had now double need to be well-armed. She dressed herself in her most gorgeous silk, of a luminous robe of silvery, shimmering blue that made her look as if she had been arrayed in moonbeams. She shook out her hair into feathery showers of glittering gold, and with a cloak of white cashmere about her shoulders, went downstairs into the vestibule. She opened the door of the library and looked in. Sir Michael Audley was asleep in his easy chair. As my lady softly closed this door, Alicia descended the stairs from her own room. The turret door was open, and the sun was shining upon the wet grass-plat in the quadrangle. The firm gravel walks were already very nearly dry, for the rain had ceased for upward of two hours. "'Will you take a walk with me in the quadrangle?' Lady Audley asked as her step-daughter approached. The armed neutrality between the two women admitted of any chance civility such as this. "'Yes, if you please, my lady,' Alicia answered rather listlessly, "'I have been yawning over a stupid novel all the morning, and shall be very glad of a little fresh air.' Heaven helped the novelist whose fiction Miss Audley had been perusing, if he had no better critics than that young lady. She had read page after page without knowing what she had been reading, and had flung aside the volume half a dozen times to go to the window, and watch for that visitor whom she had so confidently expected. Lady Audley led the way through the low doorway and onto the smooth gravel drive, by which carriages approached the house. She was still very pale, but the brightness of her dress and of her feathery golden ringlets distracted an observer's eyes from her pallid face. All mental distress is, with some show of reason, associated in our minds with loose, disordered garments and disabede hair, and an appearance in every way the reverse of my ladies. Why had she come out into the chill sunshine of that march afternoon to wander up and down that monotonous pathway with the step-daughter she hated? She came because she was under the dominion of a horrible restlessness, which would not suffer her to remain within the house waiting for certain tidings which she knew must too surely come. At first she had wished to ward them off. At first she had wished that strange convulsions of nature might arise to hinder their coming. That abnormal winter lightnings must wither and destroy the messenger who carried them. That the ground might tremble and yawn beneath his hastening feet. And that impassable gulfs might separate the spot from which the tidings were to come, and the place to which they were to be carried. She wished that the earth might stand still, and the paralyzed elements ceased from their natural functions, that the progress of time might stop, that the day of judgment might come, and that she might thus be brought before an unearthly tribunal, and so escape the intervening shame and misery of any earthly judgment. In the wild chaos of her brain every one of these thoughts had held its place, and in her short slumber on the sofa in her dressing-room she had dreamed all these things and a hundred other things all bearing upon the same subject. She had dreamed that a brook, a tiny streamlet when she first saw it, flowed across the road between Mount Standing and Oddly, and gradually swelled into a river, and from a river became an ocean, till the village on the hill receded far away out of sight, and only a great waste of waters rolled where it had once been. She dreamt that she saw the messenger, now one person, now another, but never any probable person, hindered by a hundred hindrances, now startling and terrible, now ridiculous and trivial, but never either natural or probable, and going down into the quiet house with the memory of these dreams strong upon her, she had been bewildered by the stillness which had betoken that the tidings had not yet come. And now her mind and her went to complete change. Is she no longer wished to delay the dreaded intelligence? She wished the agony, whatever it was to be, over and done with, the pain suffered and the release attained. It seemed to her as if the intolerable day would never come to an end, as if her mad wishes had been granted, and the progress of time had actually stopped. What a long day it has been! exclaimed Elysia, as if taking up the burden of my lady's thoughts. Nothing but drizzle and mist and wind. And now that it's too late for anybody to go out, it must needs be fine! The young lady added, with an evident sense of injury. Lady Audley did not answer. She was looking at the stupid one-handed clock, and waiting for the news which must come sooner or later, which could not surely fail to come very speedily. They had been afraid to come and tell him, she thought. They had been afraid to break the news to Sir Michael. Who will come to tell it at last, I wonder? The rector of mouth-standing, perhaps, or the doctor. Some important person, at least. If she could have gone out into the leafless avenues, or onto the high-road beyond them, if she could have gone so far as that hill upon which she had so lately parted with Phoebe, she would gladly have done so. She would rather have suffered anything than that slow suspense, that corroding anxiety, that metaphysical dry-rot in which heart and mind seem to decay under a insufferable torture. She tried to talk, and by a painful effort, contrived now and then to utter some commonplace remark. Under any ordinary circumstances her companion would have noticed her embarrassment, but Miss Audley, happening to be very much absorbed by her own vexations, was quite as well inclined to be silent as my lady herself. The monotonous walk up and down the graveled pathway suited Elysia's humor. I think that she even took a malicious pleasure in the idea that she was very likely catching cold, and that her cousin Robert was answerable for her danger. If she could have brought upon herself inflammation of the lungs, or ruptured blood vessels, by that exposure to the chill March atmosphere, I think she would have felt a gloomy satisfaction in her sufferings. Perhaps Robert might care for me if I had inflammation of the lungs, she thought. He couldn't insult me by calling me a bouncer, then. Bouncers don't have inflammation of the lungs. I believe she drew a picture of herself in the last stage of consumption, propped up by pillows in a great easy chair, looking out of a window in the afternoon sunshine, with medicine bottles, a bunch of grapes, and a Bible upon a table by her side, and with Robert, all contrition and tenderness, summoned to receive her farewell blessing. She preached a whole chapter to him in that parting benediction, talking a great deal longer than was in keeping with her prostrate state, and very much enjoying her dismal castle in the air. Employed in this sentimental manner, Miss Audley took very little notice of her stepmother, and the one hand of the blundering clock had slipped to six by the time Robert had been blessed and dismissed. "'Good gracious me,' she cried suddenly, "'six o'clock, and I'm not dressed.'" The half-hour bell rung an acupola upon the roof while Alicia was speaking. "'I must go in, my lady,' she said. "'Won't you come?' "'Presently,' answered Lady Audley. "'I'm dressed, you see.' Alicia ran off, but Sir Michael's wife still lingered in the quadrangle, still waited for those tidings which were so long coming. It was nearly dark. The blue mists of evening had slowly risen from the ground. The flat meadows were filled with a grey vapor, and a stranger might have fancied Audley Court a castle on the margin of a sea. Under the archway the shadows of fast coming night lurked darkly, like traitors waiting for an opportunity to glide stealthily into the quadrangle. Through the archway a patch of cold blue sky glimmered faintly, streaked by one line of lurid crimson, and lighted by the dim glitter of one wintry-looking star. Not a creature was stirring in the quadrangle but the restless woman who paced up and down the straight pathways, listening for a footstep whose coming was to strike terror to her soul. She heard it at last—a footstep in the avenue upon the other side of the archway. But was it the footstep? Her sense of hearing made unnaturally acute by excitement. Told her that it was a man's footstep. Told even more that it was the tread of a gentleman—no slouching, lumbering pedestrian and hobnailed boots—but a gentleman who walked firmly and well. Every sound fell like a lump of ice upon my lady's heart. She could not wait. She could not contain herself. She lost all self-control, all power of endurance, all capability of self-restraint, and she rushed toward the archway. She paused beneath its shadow, for the stranger was close upon her. She saw him—oh, God!—she saw him in that dim evening light. Her brain reeled, her heart stopped beating. She uttered no cry of surprise, no exclamation of terror, but staggered backward had clung for support to the ivied buttress of the archway. With her slender figure crouched into the angle formed by the buttress in the wall which had supported, she stood staring at the newcomer. As he approached her more closely, her knees sunk under her and she dropped to the ground, not fainting, or in any manner unconscious, but sinking into a crouching attitude and still crushed into the angle of the wall as if she would have made a tomb for herself in the shadow of that sheltering brick-wook. My Lady! The Speaker was Robert Oddly. He whose bedroom door she had double-locked seventeen hours before at the castle in. What is the matter with you? He said in a strange, constrained manner. Get up, and let me take you indoors. He assisted her to rise, and she obeyed him very submissively. He took her arm in his strong hand, and led her across the quadrangle and into the lamplit hall. She shivered more violently than he had ever seen any woman shiver before, but she made no attempt at resistance to his will. Is there any room in which I can talk to you alone? Robert Oddly asked, as he looked dubiously round the hall. My Lady only bowed her head and answered. She pushed open the door of the library which had been left ajar. Sir Michael had gone to his dressing-room to prepare for dinner after a day of lazy enjoyment, perfectly legitimate for an invalid. The apartment was quite empty, only lighted by the blaze of the fire, as it had been upon the previous evening. Lady Oddly entered the room, followed by Robert, who closed the door behind him. The wretched, shivering woman went to the fireplace, and knelt down before the blaze, as if any natural warmth could have power to check that unnatural chill. The young man followed her, and stood beside her upon the hearth, with his arm resting upon the chimney-piece. Lady Oddly, he said, in a voice whose icy sternness held out no hope of any tenderness or compassion, I spoke to you last night very plainly, but you refused to listen to me. Tonight I must speak to you still more plainly, and you must no longer refuse to listen to me. My Lady, crouching before the fire with her face hidden in her hands, uttered a low sobbing sound, which was almost a moan, but made no other answer. There was a fire last night at Mount Standing, Lady Oddly. The pediless voice proceeded. The castle inn, the house in which I slept, was burned to the ground. Do you know how I escaped perishing in that destruction? No. I escaped by a most providential circumstance, which seems a very simple one. I did not sleep in the room which had been prepared for me. The place seemed wretchedly damp and chilly. The chimney smoked abominably, when an attempt was made at lighting a fire, and I persuaded the servant to make me up a bed on the sofa in the small ground-floor sitting-room, which I had occupied during the evening. He paused for a moment, watching the crouching figure. The only change in my Lady's attitude was that her head had fallen a little lower. Shall I tell you by whose agency the destruction of the castle inn was brought about, my Lady? There was no answer. Shall I tell you? Still the same obstinate silence. My Lady Oddly, cried Robert suddenly, you are the incendiary. It was you whose murderous hand kindled those flames. It was you who thought by that thrice horrible deed to rid yourself of me, your enemy, and announcer. What was it to you that other lives might be sacrificed? If by a second massacre of St. Bartholomew you could have ridded yourself of me, you would have sacrificed an army of victims. The day is past for tenderness and mercy. For you I can no longer no pity or compunction. So far as by sparing your shame I can spare others who must suffer by your shame, I will be merciful, but no farther. If there were any secret tribunal before which you might be made to answer for your crimes, I would have little scruple in being your accuser. But I would spare that generous and high-born gentleman upon whose noble name your infamy would be reflected. His voice softened as he made this allusion, and for a moment he broke down, but he recovered himself by an effort and continued. No life was lost in the fire of last night. I slept lightly, my Lady, for my mind was troubled, as it has been for a long time, by the misery which I knew was lowering upon this house. It was I who discovered the breaking out of the fire in time to give the alarm and to save the servant-girl and the poor drunken wretch who was very much burnt in spite of efforts, and who now lies in a precarious state at his mother's cottage. It was from him and from his wife that I learned who had visited the castle in in the dead of night. The woman was almost distracted when she saw me, and from her I discovered the particulars of last night. Heaven knows what other secrets of yours she may hold, my Lady, or how easily they might be extorted from her if I wanted her aid, which I do not. My path lies very straight before me. I have sworn to bring the murderer of George Tallboys to justice, and I will keep my oath. I say that it was by your agency my friend met with his death. If I have wondered sometimes, as it was only natural I should, whether I was not the victim of some horrible hallucination, whether such an alternative was not more probable than that a young and lovely woman should be capable of so foul and treacherous a murder, all wonder is past. After last night's deed of horror, there is no crime you could commit, however vast and unnatural, which could make me wonder. Henceforth you must seem to me no longer a woman, a guilty woman with a heart which in its worst wickedness has yet some latent power to suffer and feel. I look upon you henceforth as the demonic incarnation of some evil principle. But you shall no longer pollute this place by your presence. Unless you will confess what you are, and who you are in the presence of the man you have deceived so long, and accept from him and from me such mercy as we may be inclined to extend to you, I will gather together the witnesses who shall swear to your identity, and at peril of any shame to myself and those I love, I will bring upon you the just and awful punishment of your crime. The woman rose suddenly and stood before him erect and resolute, with her hair dashed away from her face and her eyes glittering. "'Bring, sir Michael,' she cried, "'bring him here, and I will confess anything, everything. What do I care? God knows I have struggled hard enough against you, and fought the battle patiently enough. But you have conquered, Mr. Robert Audley. It is a great triumph, is it not? A wonderful victory. You have used your cool, calculating, frigid, luminous intellect to a noble purpose. You have conquered a mad woman.' "'A mad woman?' cried Mr. Audley. "'Yes, a mad woman. When you say that I killed George Talboys, you say the truth. When you say that I murdered him treacherously and foully, you lie. I killed him because I am mad. Because my intellect is a little way upon the wrong side of that narrow boundary line between sanity and insanity. Because when George Talboys goaded me, as you have goaded me, and reproached me, and threatened me, my mind never properly balanced, utterly lost its balance, and I was mad.' "'Bring, sir Michael, and bring him quickly. If he is to be told one thing, let him be told everything. Let him hear the secret of my life.' Robert Audley left the room to look for his uncle. He went in search of that honoured kinsman, with God knows how heavy a weight of anguish at his heart. For he knew he was about to shatter the daydream of his uncle's life. And he knew that our dreams are none the less terrible to lose, because they have never been the realities for which we have mistaken them. But even in the midst of his sorrow for sir Michael, he could not help wondering at my lady's last words, the secret of my life. He remembered those lines in the letter written by Helen Talboys upon the eve of her flight from Wildernsea, which had so puzzled him. He remembered those appealing sentences. You should forgive me, for you know why I have been so. You know the secret of my life.' He met sir Michael in the hall. He made no attempt to prepare the way for the terrible revelation which the baronet was to hear. He only drew him into the firelit library, and there for the first time addressed him quietly thus. The oddly has a confession to make to you, sir. A confession which I know will be a most cruel surprise, a most bitter grief. But it is necessary for your present honour and for your future peace that you should hear it. She has deceived you, I regret to say, most basely. But it is only right that you should hear from her own lips any excuses which she may have to offer for her wickedness. May God soften this blow for you, sobbed the young man suddenly breaking down. I cannot. Sir Michael lifted his hand as if he would command his nephew to be silent. But that imperious hand dropped feeble and impotent at his side. He stood in the centre of the firelit room rigid in a mobile. Lucy, he cried, in a voice whose anguish struck like a blow upon the jarred nerves of those who heard it, as the cry of a wounded animal pains the listener. Lucy, tell me that this man is a madman. Tell me so, my love, or I shall kill him. There was a sudden fury in his voice as he turned upon Robert, as if he could have indeed felled his wife's accuser to the earth with the strength of his uplifted arm. But my lady fell upon her knees at his feet, interposing herself between the baronet and his nephew, who stood leaning on the back of an easy chair with his face hidden by his hand. He has told you the truth, said my lady, and he is not mad. I have sent him for you that I may confess everything to you. I should be sorry for you, if I could, for you have been very, very good to me, much better to me than I ever deserved, but I can't. I can't. I could feel nothing but my own misery. I told you long ago that I was selfish. I am selfish still, more selfish than ever in my misery. Happy, prosperous people may feel for others. I laugh at other people's sufferings. They seem so small compared to my own. When first my lady had fallen on her knees, Sir Michael had attempted to raise her, and had remonstrated with her. But as she spoke, he dropped into a chair close to the spot upon which she knelt, and with his hands clasped together, and with his head bent to catch every syllable of those horrible words. He listened as if his whole being had been resolved into that one sense of hearing. I must tell you the story of my life. In order to tell you why I have become the miserable wretch who has no better hope than to be allowed to run away and hide in some desolate corner of the earth, I must tell you the story of my life, repeated my lady, but you need not fear that I shall dwell long upon it. It has not been so pleasant to me that I should wish to remember it. When I was a very little child, I remember asking a question which it was natural enough that I should ask God help me. I asked where my mother was. I had a faint remembrance of a face, like what my own is now, looking at me when I was very little better than a baby. But I had missed the face suddenly, and had never seen it since. They told me that mother was away. I was not happy, for the woman who had charge of me was a disagreeable woman, and the place in which we lived was a lonely place, a village upon the Hampshire coast, about seven miles from Portsmouth. My father, who was in the navy, only came now and then to see me, and I was left almost entirely to the charge of this woman, who was irregularly paid, and who vented her rage upon me when my father was behind hand in remitting her money. So you see that at a very early age, I found out what it was to be poor. Perhaps it was more from being discontented with my dreary life than from any wonderful impulse of affection, that I asked very often the same question about my mother. I always received the same answer. She was away. When I asked where, I was told that that was a secret. When I grew old enough to understand the meaning of the word death, I asked if my mother was dead, and I was told, no, she was not dead, she was ill, and she was away. I asked how long she had been ill, and I was told that she had been so some years, ever since I was a baby. At last the secret came out. I worried my foster mother with the old question one day, when the remittances had fallen very much on a rear, and her temper had been unusually tried. She flew into a passion, and told me that my mother was a mad woman, and that she was in a mad house forty miles away. She had scarcely said this when she repented, and told me that it was not the truth, and that I was not to believe it, or to say that she had told me such a thing. I discovered afterward that my father had made her promise most solemnly, never to tell me the secret of my mother's fate. I brooded horribly upon the thought of my mother's madness. It haunted me by day and night. I was always picturing to myself this mad woman pacing up and down some prison cell in hideous garment that bound her tortured limbs. I had exaggerated ideas of the horror of her situation. I had no knowledge of the different degrees of madness, and the image that haunted me was that of a distraught and violent creature who would fall upon me and kill me if I came within her reach. This idea grew upon me, until I used to awake in the dead of night, screaming aloud in an agony of terror, from a dream in which I had felt my mother's icy grasp upon my throat, and heard her ravings in my ear. When I was ten years old, my father came to pay up the arrears due to my protectress, and to take me to school. He had left me in Hampshire longer than he had intended, from his inability to pay this money. So there again I felt the bitterness of poverty, and ran the risk of growing up an ignorant creature among coarse rustic children, because my father was poor. My lady paused for a moment, but only to take breath, for she had spoken rapidly, as if eager to tell this hated story, and to have done with it. She was still on her knees, but Sir Michael made no effort to raise her. He sat silent and immovable. What was this story that he was listening to? Whose was it, and to what was it to lead? It could not be his wife's. He had heard her simple account of her youth, and had believed it as he had believed in the gospel. She had told him a very brief story of an early orphanage, and a long, quiet, colourless youth spent in the conventional seclusion of an English boarding school. My father came at last, and I told him what I had discovered. He was very much affected when I spoke of my mother. He was not what the world generally calls a good man. But I learned afterward that he had loved his wife very dearly, and that he would have willingly sacrificed his life to her, and constituted himself her guardian, had he not been compelled to earn the daily bread of the madwoman and her child by the exercise of his profession. So here again I beheld what a bitter thing it is to be poor. My mother, who might have been tended by a devoted husband, was given over to the care of hired nurses. Before my father sent me to school at Torquay, he took me to see my mother. This visit served at least to dispel the idea which had so often terrified me. I saw no raving, straight-waisted maniac, guarded by zealous jailers, but a golden-haired, blue-eyed, girlish creature, who seemed as frivolous as a butterfly, and who skipped toward us with her yellow curls decorated with natural flowers, and saluted us with radiant smiles and gay, ceaseless chatter. But she didn't know us. She would have spoken in the same manner to any stranger who had entered the gates of the garden about her prison-house. Her madness was in her redditary disease transmitted to her from her mother, who had died mad. She, my mother, had been, or had appeared sane up to the hour of my birth, but from that hour her intellect had decayed, and she had become what I saw her. I went away with the knowledge of this, and with the knowledge that the only inheritance I had to expect from my mother was insanity. I went away with this knowledge in my mind, and with something more, a secret to keep. I was a child of ten years only, but I felt all the weight of that burden. I was to keep the secret of my mother's madness, for it was a secret that might affect me injuriously in afterlife. I was to remember this. I did remember this, and it was perhaps this that made me selfish and heartless, for I suppose I am heartless. As I grew older I was told that I was pretty, beautiful, lovely, bewitching. I heard all these things at first and differently, but by and by I listened to them greedily, and began to think that in spite of the secret of my life I might be more successful in the world's great lottery than my companions. I had learned that which in some indefinite manner or other every schoolgirls learn sooner or later. I learned that my ultimate fate and life depended upon my marriage, and I concluded that if I was indeed prettier than my schoolfellows I ought to marry better than any one of them. I left school before I was seventeen years of age, with this thought in my mind, and I went to live at the other extremity of England with my father, who had retired upon his half-pay, and had established himself at Wildernsey, with the idea that the place was cheap and select. The place was indeed select. I had not been there a month before I discovered that even the prettiest girl might wait a long time for a rich husband. I wished to hurry over this part of my life. I dare say I was very despicable. You and your nephew, Sir Michael, have been rich all your lives, and can very well afford to despise me, but I knew how far poverty can affect a life, and I looked forward with a sickening dread to a life so affected. At last the rich suitor, the wandering prince, came. She paused for a moment, and shuddered convulsively. It was impossible to see any of the changes in her countenance, for her face was obstinately bent toward the floor. Throughout her long confession she never lifted it. Throughout her long confession her voice was never broken by a tear. But she had to tell she told in a cold hard tone, very much the tone in which some criminal, dogged and sullen to the last, might have confessed to a jail chaplain. The wandering prince came, she repeated. He was called George Tallboys. For the first time since his wife's confession had begun, Sir Michael oddly started. He began to understand it all now, a crowd of unheated words and forgotten circumstances, that had seemed too insignificant for remark or recollection, flashed back upon him as vividly as if they had been the leading incidents of his past life. Mr. George Tallboys was a cornet and a dragoon reginent. He was the only son of a rich country gentleman. He fell in love with me, and married me three months after my seventeenth birthday. I think I loved him as much as it was in my power to love anybody. Not more than I have loved you, Sir Michael. Not so much, for when you married me you elevated me to a position that he could never have given me. The dream was broken. Sir Michael oddly remembered that summer's evening, nearly two years ago, when he had first declared his love for Mr. Dawson's governess. He remembered the sick, half-shuttering sensation of regret and disappointment that had come over him then, and he felt as if it had in some manner dimly foreshadowed the agony of tonight. But I do not believe that even in his misery he felt that entire and unmitigated surprise, that utter revulsion of feeling that is felt when a good woman wanders away from herself, and becomes the lost creature whom her husband is bound and honored to abjure. I do not believe that Sir Michael oddly had ever really believed in his wife. He had loved her and admired her. He had been bewitched by her beauty and bewildered by her charms. But that sense of something wanting, that vague feeling of loss and disappointment which had come upon him on the summer's night of his betrothal, had been with him more or less distinctly ever since. I cannot believe that an honest man, however pure and single may be his mind, however simply trustful his nature, is ever really deceived by falsehood. There is beneath the voluntary confidence an involuntary distrust, not to be conquered by any effort of the will. We were married, my lady continued, and I loved him very well, quite well enough to be happy with him as long as his money lasted, and while we were on the continent, travelling in the best style, and always staying at the best hotels. But when we came back to Wildernsey and lived with Papa, and all the money was gone, and George grew gloomy and wretched, and was always thinking of his troubles, and appeared to neglect me, I was very unhappy, and it seemed as if this fine marriage had only given me a twelve-months' gaiety and extravagance after all. I begged George to appeal to his father, but he refused. I persuaded him to try and get employment, and he failed. My baby was born, and the crisis which had been fatal to my mother arose for me. I escaped, but I was more irritable perhaps after my recovery, less inclined to fight the hard battle of the world, more disposed to complain of poverty and neglect. I did complain one day, loudly and bitterly. I upgraded George Talboys for his cruelty, and having a lie to help this girl to poverty and misery, and he flew into a passion with me and ran out of the house. When I awoke the next morning, I found a letter lying on the table by my bed, telling me that he was going to the antipodes to seek his fortune, and that he would never see me again until he was a rich man. I looked upon this as a desertion, and I resented it bitterly, resented it by hating the man who had left me with no protector, but a weak, tipsy father, and with a child to support. I had to work hard for my living, and in every hour of labour, and what labour is more wearisome than the dull slavery of a governess. I recognized a separate wrong done me by George Talboys. His father was rich, his sister was living in luxury and respectability, and I, his wife, and the mother of his son, was a slave allied to beggary and obscurity. People pitied me, and I hated them for their pity. I did not love the child, for he had been left a burden upon my hands. The hereditary taint that was in my blood had never until this time showed itself by any one sign or token. But at this time I became subject to fits of violence and despair. At this time I think my mind first lost its balance, and for the first time I crossed that invisible line which separates reason from madness. I have seen my father's eyes fixed upon me in horror and alarm. I have known him sooth me as only mad people and children are soothed, and I have chafed against his petty devices. I have resented even his indulgence. At last these fits of desperation resolved themselves into a desperate purpose. I determined to run away from this wretched home which my slavery supported. I determined to desert this father who had more fear of me than love for me. I determined to go to London, and to lose myself in that great chaos of humanity. I had seen an advertisement in the Times while I was at Wildernsey, and I presented myself to Mrs. Vincent, the advertiser, under a feigned name. She accepted me, waving all questions as to my antecedents. You know the rest. I came here, and you made me an offer, the acceptance of which would lift me at once into the sphere to which my ambition had pointed ever since I was a schoolgirl, and heard for the first time that I was pretty. Three years had passed, and I had received no token in my husband's existence. Four, I argued, that if he had returned to England, he would have succeeded in finding me under any name and in any place. I knew the energy of his character well enough to know this. I said, I have a right to think that he is dead, or that he wishes me to believe him dead, and his shadow shall not stand between me and prosperity. I said this, and I became your wife, Sir Michael, with every resolution to be as good a wife as it was in my nature to be. The common temptations that a sail and shipwreck some women had no terror for me. I would have been your true and pure wife to the end of time, though I had been surrounded by a legion of tempters. The mad folly that the world calls love had never had any part in my madness, and here at least extremes met, and the vice of heartlessness became the virtue of constancy. I was very happy in the first triumph and grandeur of my new position, very grateful to the hand that had lifted me to it. In the sunshine of my own happiness I felt, for the first time in my life, for the miseries of others. I had been poor myself, and I was now rich, and could afford to pity and relieve the poverty of my neighbors. I took pleasure in acts of kindness and benevolence. I found out my father's address, and sent him large sums of money anonymously, for I did not wish him to discover what had become of me. I veiled myself to the full of the privilege or generosity afforded me. I dispensed happiness on every side. I saw myself loved as well as admired, and I think I might have been a good woman for the rest of my life, if fate would have allowed me to be so. I believe that at this time my mind regained its just balance. I had watched myself very closely since leaving Wildernsey. I had held a check upon myself. I had often wondered while sitting in the surgeon's quiet family circle whether any suspicion of that invisible hereditary taint had ever occurred to Mr. Dawson. Fate would not suffer me to be good. My destiny compelled me to be a wretch. Within a month of my marriage I read in one of the Essex papers of the return of a certain Mr. Tall Boyz, a fortunate gold-seeker from Australia. The ship had sailed at the time I read the paragraph. What was to be done? I said just now that I knew the energy of George's character. I knew that the man who had gone to the antipodes in one affortune for his wife would leave no stone unturned in his efforts to find her. It was hopeless to think of hiding myself from him. Unless he could be induced to believe that I was dead, he would never cease in his search for me. My brain was dazed as I thought of my peril. Again the balance trembled. Again the invisible boundary was passed. Again I was mad. I went down to Southampton and found my father, who was living there with my child. He remember how Mrs. Vincent's name was used as an excuse for this hurried journey, and how it was contrived I should go with no other escort than Phoebe Marks, whom I left at the hotel while I went to my father's house. I confided to my father the whole secret of my peril. He was not very much shocked at what I had done, for poverty had perhaps blunted his sense of honor and principle. He was not very much shocked, but he was frightened, and he promised to do all in his power to assist me in my horrible emergency. He had received a letter addressed to me at Wildrensey by George, and forwarded from there to my father. This letter had been written within a few days of the sailing of the Argus, and it announced the probable date of the ship's arrival at Liverpool. This letter gave us, therefore, data upon which to act. We decided at once upon the first step. This was that on the date of the probable arrival of the Argus, or a few days later, an advertisement of my death should be inserted in the times. But almost immediately after deciding upon this, we saw that there were fearful difficulties in the carrying out of such a simple plan. The date of the death, and the place in which I died, must be announced, as well as the death itself. George would immediately hurry to that place, however distant it might be, however comparatively inaccessible, and the shallow falsehood would be discovered. I knew enough of his sanguine temperament, his courage and determination, his readiness to hope against hope, to know that unless he saw the grave in which I was buried, and the register of my death, he would never believe that I was lost to him. My father was utterly dumbfounded and helpless. He could only shed childish tears of despair and terror. He was of no use to me in this crisis. I was hopeless of any issue out of my difficulties. I began to think that I must trust to the chapter of accidents, and hope that among other obscure corners of the earth, oddly court might be undreamt of by my husband. I sat with my father, drinking tea with him in his miserable hovel, and playing with the child, who was pleased with my dress and jewels, but quite unconscious that I was anything but a stranger to him. I had the boy in my arms, when a woman who attended him came to fetch him that she might make him more fit to be seen by the lady, as she said. I was anxious to know how the boy was treated. And I detained this woman in conversation with me while my father dozed over the tea-table. She was a pale-faced, sandy-haired woman of about five and forty, and she seemed very glad to get the chance of talking to me as long as I pleased to allow her. She soon left off talking of the boy, however, to tell me of her own troubles. She was in very great trouble, she told me. Her eldest daughter had been obliged to leave her situation from ill health. In fact, the doctor said the girl was in a decline, and it was a hard thing for a poor widow who had seen better days to have a sick daughter to support, as well as a family of young children. I let the woman run on for a long time in this manner, telling me the girl's ailments, and the girl's age, and the girl's doctor stuff, and piety, and sufferings, and a great deal more. But I neither listened to her nor heeded her. I heard her, but only in a faraway manner, as I heard the traffic in the street, or the ripple of the stream at the bottom of it. What were this woman's troubles to me? I had miseries of my own, and worse miseries than her coarse nature could ever have to endure. These sort of people always had sick husbands, or sick children, and expected to be helped in their illness by the rich. It was nothing out of the common. I was thinking this, and I was just going to dismiss the woman with a sovereign for her sick daughter, when an idea flashed upon me with such painful suddenness that it sent the blood surging up to my brain, and set my heart beating, as it only beats when I am mad. I asked the woman her name. She was a Mrs. Plouson, and she kept a small general shop, she said, and only ran in now and then to look after Georgie, and to see that the little maid of all work took care of him. Her daughter's name was Matilda. I asked her several questions about this girl, Matilda, and I ascertained that she was four and twenty, that she had always been a consumptive, and that she was now, as the doctor said, going off in a rapid decline. He had declared that she could not last much more than a fortnight. It was in three weeks that the ship that carried George Tallboys was expected to anchor in the mercy. I need not dwell upon this business. I visited the sick girl. She was fair and slender. Her description, carelessly given, might tally nearly enough with my own, though she bore no shadow of resemblance to me, except in these two particulars. I was received by the girl as a rich lady who wished to do her service. I bought the mother, who was poor and greedy, and who, for a gift of money, more money than she had ever before received, consented to submit to anything I wished. Upon the second day, after my introduction to this Mrs. Plouson, my father went over to Ventner, and hired lodgings for his invalid daughter and her little boy. Only the next morning he carried over the dying girl and Georgie, who had been rived to call her Mama. She entered the house as Mrs. Tallboys. She was attended by a Ventner medical man as Mrs. Tallboys. She died, and her death and burial were registered in that name. The advertisement was inserted in the times, and upon the second day after its insertion, George Tallboys visited Ventner, and ordered the tombstone which at this hour records the death of his wife, Helen Tallboys. Mr. Michael Oddly rose slowly, and with a stiff, constrained action, as if every physical sense had been benumbed by that one sense of misery. "'I cannot hear any more,' he said in a horse whisper. "'If there is anything more to be told, I cannot hear it. Robert, it is you who have brought about this discovery, as I understand. I want to know nothing more. Will you take upon yourself the duty of providing for the safety and comfort of this lady whom I have thought to my wife? I need not ask you to remember, in all that you do, that I have loved her very dearly and truly. I cannot say farewell to her. I will not say it until I can think of her without bitterness, until I can pity her, as I now pray that God may pity her this night.'" Sir Michael walked slowly from the room. He did not trust himself to look at that crouching figure. He did not wish to see the creature whom he had cherished. He went straight to his dressing-room, rung for his valet, and ordered him to pack a portmanteau, and make all necessary arrangements for accompanying his master by the last up-train. End of Chapter 34