 When you get to a stage in life where you think I haven't lived my life, I've lived all their life. This is what people have made life crisis for, they realize I haven't been who I wanted to be. I've been someone else's idea of myself, going back to my parents and the education system and my culture and my socioeconomic background and my nationality and my gender and all this stuff. I've just been that all my life and I want to have a different career and I want to have some different interests and I want to get a different hairstyle. I want to wear something different. I want to say something controversial.