 and I think it's so important to talk about mental health and so many people to shove it away or they feel weird or embarrassed about talking about it and it's just so important. What is up everybody this is Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you are new to my channel my channel is all about helping you out with your mental health and also increasing a little bit of awareness about mental health so if you're into that kind of stuff feel free to subscribe ring the notification bell because I put out a ton of videos and something I've been doing a lot more lately and something I try to do is pull from pop culture like whether it's YouTube or TV or movies or news and things like that and try to see what we can learn to improve our own mental health. Today Jeffree Star just released a new video revealing more of his dark secrets and he talks a little bit more about self-harm and we're gonna unpack a lot of things from this video because there's a lot a lot that you can learn that can improve your mental health now before I jump into it just if you get triggered by this kind of thing you may not want to watch this video or come back and watch it when you're a little bit better of a headspace but I think there's some stuff in this video that is truly inspiring for anybody who struggles with depression or self-harm or anything like that. Some of you have come to my channel because you saw the videos I did about Jeffree Star and Shane Dawson when he opened up first about you know his self-harm and behaviors so today Jeffree released a new video which I will link down in the description below and I really think everybody should watch it it's kind of you know two different topics he talks about his self-harm he also talks about his family and there's like two or three videos I can make on just his video alone with different topics so if you want me to do that make sure you leave a comment down below but anyways so for those of you who aren't caught up to speed when Jeffree did his documentary with Shane Dawson he talked about how a lot of his tattoos are covering up his self-harm scars and he was doing this for a long time and he said that he hasn't self-harmed in 10 years so he starts this video off by saying like he was losing sleep and things like that and he wanted to make a new video and I was sitting there watching it with my girlfriend I'm like I wonder what this is about like you know what else happened or whatever and basically what he talked about was how four years ago he self-harmed again he had a relapse where he cut himself and he didn't feel right it wasn't sitting with him how he told Shane to spend 10 years and he had to he had to come out and talk about this and like I applaud him so so so much for doing this and for those of you don't know me I'm a drug addict and alcoholic in recovery I've been clean for six years and just there were so many parallels and like it bugs me and one of the reasons I have this channel it bugs me that addiction is often over here and their mental illness is over here when they're the same like there's so many parallels between what Jeffrey dealt with and what people with addictions deal with especially when we talk about relapse and we talk about that guilt and shame so at 12 step meetings for example we call it dirty chips right where somebody goes up and gets like a 60 day coin but they really relapse do you know what I'm saying there's a lot of guilt and shame and like I'm very proud of Jeffrey from coming for coming out and opening up and explaining what happened four years ago basically what he talks about is four years ago he got to this place you know where he felt lost and alone and he felt hollow inside there's something that we talk about one of the reasons that people self-harm is just to feel something and he was kind of in that headspace his music career was ending he oh didn't blow up as this you know beauty guru and you know has a makeup line and all that stuff and what what happened was he turned back to self-harm and he mentioned he wanted to see if it felt the same right and basically it was a one-time deal from what it sounds like it was a one-time deal and he says you know this September it'll be four years and like yes like this happens so often and like this is where mindfulness really comes in like if you have any toxic behavior okay it's important to sit back and recognize like is this still giving me that feeling or that release or that escape that I was looking for because what happens especially with addictive behaviors like self-harm like substance abuse is that we keep doing it over and over trying to get that original feeling and we stay stuck in it but Jeffrey saw like very quickly like no this isn't giving me what I was looking for and he was able to pull himself out of it really quick and I applaud him for that because those of you who don't know my story I've been clean for six years but I had multiple relapses my last relapse started off with one pill just one Vicodin pill kicked off my relapse and I was stuck in it for a year and a half and one of the reasons I make these videos and I share my personal experiences because the hell I went through I don't want anybody anybody to go through what I went through so like when I hear somebody like Jeffrey who had this like one time thing or it was a even if it was only a week or a couple months or whatever it was I'm like thank god it didn't take you where my last relapse did and something I really want to talk about is how in this clip I'm about to show you Jeffrey talks about this front that we put up here watch if you know that someone maybe does just check on someone and see how they're doing because most people never checked up on me and and I don't mean that in a negative way towards anyone but when I was really young a lot of people just thought I was fine because I put up the front that I was fine so sometimes the people that are hurting the worst inside are smiling on the outside and like this is so real like I work in a mental health facility and when people first come into treatment one of the first things I tell them about coming into treatment right I'm like closed mouths don't get fed because I have personal experience with that and depression especially can have this downward spiral for example and you might be able to relate to this so you're depressed right you you get into this depression you get all the negative thoughts and it's like I'm alone nobody cares about me why don't people ask me what what's going on what's what's the matter how are you doing nobody would ask me these things and my brain tells me that nobody cares about me but the thing is on the outside I was wearing this plastic smile all the time I was making it seem like everything was okay I have the car I have the kid I have the girlfriend I have the house I have the job I have the money I have all these things everything's beautiful but then in my brain it's like how come nobody ever asked me how I'm doing and sometimes you have to reach out and you have to ask for help that's why it's so important for us to get vulnerable and it doesn't have to be with everybody you don't need a youtube channel or anything like that you don't have to do that but you have to have at least one person you can confide in and say yo I'm not doing well right now you know what I mean because this is a thing like I hope with my videos I can empower you to take some responsibility for your own mental health like we we often stay in our mental illness and we stay in the problem not focusing on the solution because we get into this self pity and we don't take proactive steps towards moving forward and a lot of times the first thing you have to do is just reach out and ask for help so like as I was watching this video like I was telling my girlfriend like this is really inspirational right because Jeffrey talks about how he kind of pulled himself out of it and I'm like okay but you know I I mentioned it in the last video like one of my critiques was like they didn't like mention like ways to get help like they didn't talk about getting help like there are many people who can like pull themselves out of it and if you can't just pull yourself out of it it doesn't mean that you're weak it doesn't mean any of that kind of stuff it's just different people have different types of mental fortitude you know there's a lot of times now where I can pull myself out of it but sometimes I gotta turn to people for help but anyways Jeffrey did a great job where he talked about how so many people in his audience whether it was on Twitter or in the comments of Shane's videos and things like that they reached out and they shared their stories and it inspired them to get help and Jeffrey in this video he says if you are struggling ask for help talk to your friends talk to your family members talk to your doctor talk to a therapist things like that like some of you like don't know this but in the description down below like better help helps support this channel better help is an online therapy service it's very affordable they have a sliding scale so based off how much income you make you can get affordable therapy something people have been talking to me about lately it's like hey I get anxious just going to a therapist right like for me personally everything online is a lot easier for my anxiety even if it's like texting and the better help therapist texts and stuff but like even if it's not better help like talk to somebody reach out and get some help like I'm on Twitter Twitter has been great lately a lot of you have been messaging me on there or tweeting at me and stuff that's a great way to get a hold of me it's at the rewired soul the same as my Instagram but yeah feel free to you know reach out to me hit me up like this is a community get involved in the comments below like I did a live stream the other day and like just the support they're like I love all of you so much like just this community is truly beautiful for me because I just see everybody helping each other to get ourselves out of these mental health funs I love it so much but anyways like I'm really proud of Jeffrey for making this video I know his fans are I know it's inspired a lot of people to get help and like one thing that Jeffrey talks about like it's it's okay like it's okay we have these relapses we have our slips it doesn't mean that you're a failure but like I hope the one thing that you take away from his video or my videos is like never give up never give up hope okay every day every moment is a chance to begin again if you wake up in the morning and you are alive you have the chance to start over and begin again so whether it's a self-harm relapse whether it's a a substance relapse whether it's a depression relapse or anxiety whatever it is you have the chance to start again all right but anyways that's what I want to say about this if any of you have checked out his video yet again it will be in the description if you haven't watched it but I want to see in the comments below like what are your takeaways from Jeffrey Starr's video and also let me know in the comments if you would like me to do some more videos about Jeffrey Starr one of them I want to talk about is the power of sharing your story and why you need to share your story the other one is the dynamic he talks about with his mother I can relate to that since I cut my mom out of my life for a while so if you want me to do some videos on those topics let me down in the comments because I'm here for you I'm here for all you beautiful people all right but that's all I got for you today so if you like this video please give it a thumbs up and if you are new here I'm always making videos to help you out with your mental health so click the subscribe button ring the notification bell and a huge thank you to everybody supporting the channel over on patreon you help me spread a message of hope to anybody struggling with mental illness so I love all of you all right so anyways thanks again for watching and I will see you next time