 I've heard a voice in the background. She goes by the name Jesus Girl. The name is quite, quite interesting. She's going to be telling us more about it. Karimusana, your camera is number four. I am excited. Yes, introduce yourself, aka Zako Zote, from back in the day till date. And your government. Okay, I go by jesusgirl.ke, aka Dora. If you want to call me by my mother's name, Maulo. Maulo. Obuaka. Maulo Obuaka, what does Maulo mean? I shall revisit. You shall revisit. By the end of the show. Okay, okay, I'm sorry. But it's something nice. It's something nice for sure. All right, so Dora the Explorer. Oh, you're just Dora, you don't explore. I've grown up with that one. Dora the Explorer. Always. Were you a fan of the cartoon character? I don't even think growing up, there was Dora the Explorer. We had like three channels. Okay. You know, I grew up with Dora the Explorer. That means you're not bad. You are lighter. I watched it much later in life. That means kids have today. How did you get that insight? Imagine. Imagine that. Shout out. Karimusana on social Friday. Please share with them your social media handles so they can stalk you while we do this. Okay, on Instagram, it's jesusgirl.ke and on YouTube, it is jesusgirl, period. Jesusgirl, period, straight. Lockdown, straight. All right, I'd like to take you back, but before I take you back, let's start in the present. Jesus Girl is quite a name. Yeah. Where does it come from? Why Jesus Girl? And just tell me everything. Yeah. I need to know. Okay, okay. My name is Chanao Ayesu. I am a girl that belongs to Jesus. Jesus is taking all of them. Jesus is taking all of them. Anatunini, you know? But basically why I called myself Jesus Girl was because I feel like in this day and age, a lot of people are downplaying or afraid to declare their stance when it comes to being a Christian. Not only that, but people have this idea of what a Christian girl, millennial girl, should look like. You know, the long skirts, Zinaninim, down on the ground. Crossex aquarium, kaza saam. You know? And then Polanex, lasima zikwe, we see on the shingo. You know, just these false ideas of what a Christian girl should look like. And because of those false ideas, people are really put off from Christianity. So my whole thing. It pushes people away from the blood. Yeah, I like that, from the blood. Because people are looking at do's and don'ts as opposed to relationship. You know, religion versus relationship. So basically I wanted to show, you can be young, you can be trendy, you can be cool, you can do your makeup. I love it. And you can still love Jesus and serve Him. So that is a message you're preaching, that is how you're serving the Lord. By just showing this journey can be cool as well. Exactly. And that is the reason for the name. Hallelujah. Amen. Wow, that's deep right there. Jesus girl is in the building. Check out on Instagram as well. Facebook, on Twitter, Kukamawai254 channel. And our topic of conversation is the most embarrassing thing in your browser history. Jesus girl is going to be sharing with us as well. Right, I'm taking you back now. Before you were Jesus girl, you're one of the most promising film seas and singers in the country. You've worked with the A-Lease film seas in the country, from M-D-Q to Ecstatic, who, whom I'm a very big fan of, the STL. You have a song together on YouTube. Check it out by the way, go to YouTube and check it out. This is not made up. We never make up stuff. Tell me about this face of your life. Yeah, at that time in my life, I was 17, young and... 17. 17. 17, my last year of high school. You know, I was a superstar. Just living my life. I love music. I love to sing, to rap. And so at that time, that's what I was doing. How did you meet all these guys? Just connections here and there. At 17? Yes, at 17. You had the confidence to work up to STL. Me, Nihasla. Like, I was just like, you know, I'm a go-getter. And so I reached out to people. In fact, through social media, still that time it was mainly Facebook, but reached out in that space. And I was in a studio, so my producers had connect. And that's how I got hooked up to STL, Ecstatic, Madonna, Drama Queen, and other artists. It got to a point you put that down, yeah? Yeah. What made you stop doing the music? Well, I was partying. I loved... Like a rockstar. Yes, so my whole motto was work hard, play hard. But as I continued to play hard, I played harder. You know, I continued to play harder. And so it affected the work. And I just found myself not interested. And I lost confidence. And I just felt like, you know... Yeah, rapping and singing is nice, but it's not as nice as, you know. As some other things that you were... As some other things that I was discovering at the time that made me. Okay, so you have... There's a face of your life that you were addicted to drugs. Which one came first? The music or the... I think they came at around the same time. You know, as I entered the studio, there was this culture of just turning up. Like you could go into the studio and there was always... I heard they call it the zone, man. Get in the zone. I don't know what this zone is. This zone is like, you know, a place where you're floating. You're neither on earth or neither in heaven. You're down. You're not there. Crawl for two, come on. So they came at the same time, drinking and partying as well as being in the studio. Plus I felt like when I'm rapping, you know, you asked about the confidence. I found that alcohol and weed and cigarettes would give me that... You know, that confidence. So they came at the same time. They came at the same time. All right, so at what point did you feel like, okay, this is becoming a problem. This is no longer the zone anymore. This is no longer the fun times. We call them fun times. This is no longer fun times. Did you discover it yourself or a close person? Somebody who's close to you told you, okay, who didn't love you, bye. I think it was definitely noted by other people first. And that's the thing about addiction. People can see you have a problem, but you are due on you. Like, it's like you can't see yourself. Yeah, you just feel like I'm on top of things, but people can see you like, you did this yesterday. And you're just like, I'm not drunk, you know what I mean. So definitely other people saw the problem first and I got to see it later on. You got to see it later on? Yeah. All right, when you were telling me about music not being very interesting to you at some point, do you blame the drugs as well also? Yeah, for sure. Definitely. So these drugs are responsible for taking somebody in the zone, making amazing music and then also making you lose your interest in the music. Exactly. What is this? I don't even know what it is because in the beginning, you're able to control. So you're saying I'll only drink this much. You're not even taking a lot. So basically it's a side thing, but eventually it becomes the thing. So I find if I get to the studio, there's no mzinga there. Nafanyanini, like what am I doing in the studio? So basically the point of going to the studio now became drinking and whatever. So that became the object of my focus. Okay, so as an artist, it's very important to understand what you're doing and why you're doing it. Exactly, exactly. Okay. And also having the confidence in yourself where you're like, I don't need a substance to give me confidence in my ability or people say to get creative, you must tune. That's my own tune. Yes, there's so many. You feel you're going to buzz. You know. But you should be able to on your own have that creative flow. I feel like. I like that. Rehab four times. Oh yeah. Wow. If Rehab was a school. Let's not say that. Just say me. I love your home. I love your home. All right. So take me into the first time in Rehab because for you to go back the second time you relapsed. Yeah. So tell me, why did you relapse the first time? I relapsed. What can you blame? The fact that I wasn't willing to change. You know, something about change, it has to come from yourself. Like no one can force you. You know, no one can will you into change. It's actually you yourself coming to realize that, hey, this thing is not pelikaing me well. So what am I going to do? I need to do something about it. So for me, I just always felt like I've been promised stuff. Like, oh, if we stop, you know, we'll take you here to end up my yellow walls. You'll do this, you'll do that. And so I didn't really internally want to change. And because of that, I always felt like I can stop smoking weed and cigarettes and all this stuff. But, you know, let me drink kidogo. Let me just have my glass of... Give me that thing. Mm. That thing. That thing. Don't spesive. Yeah, don't spesive. We don't need spesive. The thing, you know, it can kill you. So I thought, you know, I can stop all these other things, like all my friends are drinking. So I'm not just like, you know... Just a taste of it. Just kidogo, kidogo. But the decisions you make when you're sober versus the decisions you make when you're drunk... I guess you are completely different. So just the first... When you take the first glass of whatever, it will probably lead you to take another drink that you probably wouldn't have taken if you were sober. Exactly. So that is your first relapse story. Yeah. And that really happened the second and the third time. It starts with the alcohol, just the alcohol. Let me just get some alcohol. Yeah. And then it leads to the other drugs that you used to do before you went to rehab. Yeah. But one thing I didn't mention as well is when I was getting into this music space and I was starting to experiment, I got into a relationship with an older guy. So he was 22 at the time. He was actually my producer. I was 17. And that exposed me to so many things. So even as I talk about escalating in terms of use, it's because I moved away from student budget. You know, 17 is still when I take a mirror, the whatever of the parents. So I moved away from that and I was able to drink on a regular basis, smoke on a regular basis. Exactly. So even the times that I would get sober, I was still in this relationship, right? And he was turning up, he was drinking, he was smoking. And so... It's very hard to smell it and not, but especially if you tasted it before. Exactly, exactly. So that turned out to be a six-year relationship. And eventually, even when I was now coming out of drugs for good, that was one of the things that I had to make a decision. You know, like, oh, like... Love. Yeah. Or me. Say the love of a survival. But you picked survival. Yeah, I picked survival. And you're alive and kicking today. Yep. All right, so relationships are also very important when it comes to addiction. So important. Because you're better, your other half, let me say your other, not better half, your other half is a big influence to you. All right. True, true, true. Okay, I feel that. I usually say that our relationship is so important in that it can either take you towards your destiny or completely pull you away from your destiny or your purpose. So it's very important to pick them wisely. Yeah, who you decide to nene with? You, have you seen like, have you seen like there are these artists, like let's take someone like Ciara, right? Ciara, when she was with Future, but says Ciara with the person she's with, now that's rugby player, Russell C.J. But Future is a special case. No, do you like him? No, he's just, he's toxicity. He's toxicity. But okay, yeah, maybe it's just Future. But really, if you look at different, like you can become a different person because of the person you're with. Like you, you can find a girl who will make you party every day. Then you can find another one who makes you come to work on time. Like you just find you have your stuff together. You're just, you know, like it's so influential. Most of the time people will, will not go for the one who will make you go to work in the back. Exactly, or go to church, nothing like that. I see. Yes, we are with Jesus Girl in the studio. This is social Friday on Why In The Morning. Remember, the conversation is still on Facebook. And you can direct your questions to her if you have any about these topics that we are touching on with her. All right, so the fourth time, let's keep to the fourth time you went to rehab and this is the last time you went to rehab. How long ago was this first? I went in 2018. Yeah, November 2018. So it's a one-year program which is quite different from what I had known before. Most programs are three month, three month but this is a one-year faith-based rehabilitation program. Faith-based. Faith-based. So you thought the word in the process also. Exactly. We believe that the word of God is what sets someone free as opposed to do, don't do, do, don't do. Yeah, and I realized I tried the other. That's a lot of you because the word of God is also a lot of do's and don'ts. It's not so, well, okay, yes, there's some do's and don'ts, obviously, like a guiding just like in Kenya, the way you have laws of like don't steal and whatever. But the thing about with God, you're not being manipulated or you're not doing things out of fear. It's because of the love you have for Him that drives you to just align yourself. You know, you don't, you're not, it's a free will thing and you're not like being like usupofanya, you know, uta endakwa shaitan, or satan. Satan, I will you. So faith-based it is. All right, so this is how you got to be Jesus ago? This is, yeah, it definitely played a big role in my being Jesus girl, if I could say that. Because I just was like, you know what, no matter what I do going forward, I never want to lose my foundation. And I'm so glad I did that because having come out of rehab last year, you know, I didn't anticipate being a public figure. I didn't think, oh, I'm going to now do social media and all this stuff. Media tours inspire, talk to people. Exactly, yeah. Well, I thought I would speak to people, but I didn't anticipate the response. I didn't think by now my platform on Instagram would be having almost 40,000 people. I didn't think I would be having subscribers or all this stuff. So it's very easy to lose yourself when over the span of just a few months, you find yourself in a space where, you know, it's just like. People are watching. You know, people are watching. Yeah, they're people you will look up to. You're being approached by brands, you're making money. That can be a stumbling block if you're not careful. Money is coming in as well, huh? I mean, it is what it is. It is what it is, bro. It is what it is. I like, okay. So the fourth time was the last time and that was last year. I know it. All right, I'd like to know how this affected your relationship with your family. Well, definitely it put a strain when I was. When you were the type to say, get the hell out, leave me alone. Or you were the type to listen and just. I mean, I was bad. Let me tell you, when people see me right now, one out cock a Jew and a new owner too. I don't even have to preach. They're like, you, you, they say. I see, I see. It's a walking testimony right now. I see, I see. It's a walking testimony right now. The place I have come from, let me tell you, I was the type of person who was not able to be told anything. Me, if I want to be bad, I'd rather, I can't be warm, hot or cold. Come, buy, I'm buying. If I'm good, let me be good, you know? So I never used to apologize or means as I'm trying to hide that in Avuta Bank. I was very open. I was very, you know, yeah. So it put a strain on my relationship with my family and I didn't like to be around them because I didn't want anyone. You have two sisters, yeah? Three. Three sisters. Yeah. One has been on set here by the way. Oh, really? Yeah. Oh, okay. Who? Yummy, the yummy one. The yummy mommy. Yeah, so I never used to hang around them because I didn't want someone to tell me, oh, you're smelling like this. Oh, your breath is cigarette, your nini, nini. So I used to put quite a distance and obviously those are strained in our relationship. But ever since rebuilding of their relationships has been so amazing, right now it's like. All right. Yeah. There's this saying, never trust a junkie. You've heard it, right? Yeah. You've heard it a number of times. And don't. Oh. Like it's a true one. It's a true one. Don't. Addicts are very manipulative. You know how many things I have lied and gotten away with? I've been to driving school like four times. Oh, my God. Four times. So I used to tell my mom, I failed, but I failed. And that time she's giving me, like, I... That is, the hustle for drug money is very... Exactly, you're only thinking about where will I get my next fix. And you know it gets to a point where if you don't take the drug, you go through what they call withdrawal symptoms. That's your body's reaction to not taking the drugs. It affects your emotions as well. Physically. When you're for heroin withdrawal symptoms, I would not wish it on my worst enemy. Like that thing is bad headaches, running stomach, fever, shakes. Like, it's bad. So you're only thinking about where can I get my next fix so I can, through these other symptoms. Thank you very much for that one. Right now you're doing some amazing work with mommy. Yes. It was a very huge part in your recovery and your journey. Tell us more about these rehabilitation programs that you were running and the sentence. Okay, so I served part-time at a facility called Teen Challenge Kenya. That's where I went to. And it's a one-year faith-based program, as I've said, that helps men and women who are going through various life-controlling issues. You know addiction is not see a drug specie. You're like... You're like... Yes, I've seen more. Yes, I've seen more. There's addiction to pornography as well. Yes. So how does that work? You walk in the streets and then you'll be like, I need to watch some. Huh? I need to watch some. I can't wait to get to the house and watch some. Okay. That is what happens. Okay. So if somebody goes to the toilet a number of times, you should be very afraid. I see you. But, okay, at least that's the forms of addiction. Money. Money is a big addiction. And my brother is going in that direction. I will go... I will go to the safari. I will go to the safari. Okay, so there are different forms of addiction. Exactly. At this play, Teen Challenge, should I say cured? Oh. Would you let me know what can? Cured. Okay. All right. Yeah, those types of words. And then, you know, in other rehabilitations, when you come out, you're always termed a recovering addict. As we believe, once you're set free, not that people say, oh, me, I'm set free in Tendakwa Club. I can't find her. You know, I just know that is foolishness. But it doesn't mean also now, through life, you tiptoe like, oh, I'm set free. I'm set free. No, like you're free, but you work with wisdom. You put boundaries that help you to stand. You have your self-control. And Jesus helps in that aspect. Exactly. You know, there's a verse that says that it is not by power or by might, but it is by the spirit of the living God. And basically, us as humans, we are not like Jews. But really, we're really just helpless. Yeah. Animals. Animals asa, okay. Yeah, yeah, we're just animals, you know. And so we need the help of God. We cannot do anything. And usually people wait to reach rock bottom, they wanna, like, God, I need your help. But the other time, they're just seeing themselves. Love it, I look, and they don't even talk to God. They don't even call his number. But that's human nature, it's sad, but it's true. So wonderful. So if somebody is living with an addict, somebody is seeing some loved one or a friend or a relative going in, on the part that doesn't seem very promising, how can they get to be part of Teen Talent and how can they get access to the services that you guys are offering them? Just look them straight into their eyes. Okay. So you're able to reach out to Teen Challenge. We have a website. You can just Google Teen Challenge Kenya. Thank God for internet. Everything is at your fingertips. Google Teen Challenge Kenya. Facebook is also Teen Challenge Kenya. You'll be able to find emails and also contact for both the Nairobi centers and the Nakuru Center. Oh, so there's a center in Nairobi and a center in Nakuru. Yes. All right. And you told me it's for ladies. There's one for ladies and there's two centers for men. Or two centers for men and one center for ladies. One for men and one for women and one for men and one for women. No, I'm just kidding. One for women and one for men and one for ladies. Two centers for men and one for ladies. All right, but I like that. Thank you very much for that one. But there's this thing called War on Drags. You've heard of it? Yes. America has its own war on drags. Kenya has its own war on drags. Africa, war on drags, war on drags. And I'm told now it's even worse because some of them, you know, is a pharmacy legally. You know, over the counter. Over the counter. See, that's what I'm going to tell you about. What is the secret to winning this war on drags? Has somebody with direct experience with it? Because I think we're just going around it and not actually attacking the real problem. I think the number one way to winning the war on drags is acknowledging the fact that there's a war. There's a battle. You know, a lot of us took a tour, but like, oh, you're living with somebody who's going through it, but you turn a blind eye. Like, ah, you know, people like just, especially moms, like to justify for their son. I've gone through a lot of it, too. But the person is at our chat, too. In the phase, not our phase. Phase and you're in a pittier. But really, they are going through it. So I feel like the first thing is acknowledgement. Second thing is realizing that, as I said before, we are powerless, honestly and truthfully, completely powerless. All the power is God's. And then putting measures in place that will remove, would I say remove accessibility? But yeah, more, you know, me, I used to buy alcohol in the store when I was underage. I never used to be asked for ID. Maybe it's because I'm a chick. I don't know. But these things are very important. Now you realize that identification when you're buying alcohol is very important. Exactly, putting measures. Prescription from a doctor when you go to a pharmacy, it's very important. So measures. Exactly. All right. So I think we are going to stop it at that because you need to, you can actually promise to unsideak fun. You remember? Yeah, reading comments. Yes, and another one? Yeah, I. Browser history. We'll revisit that. What can we say? What can we say? We'll revisit that. OK. So let's head straight to Facebook. Jesus girl is in the building. She's going to be helping us to read these comments out loud to the rest of the world. So the question was simple. What is the most embarrassing thing in your browser history? Facebook and Y254. I'm going to add Y254 channel. So the first person is a brio laces. Check it out. This is Jesus girl. Brio laces says, wow, fire. And then a fire emoji. And why son, brio cutokakisi masimba? Trust someone, poli poli kidogo. You're coming. Don't take my job. But you don't take your job. Slowly I'm kidding. From silence, almost as a big up being for history, I guess it goes to XXX extension. You know XXX extension? Oh, it's a rapper that rested in peace. OK. From silence, come on son. Play for me, Jerigo, my Simi, and Patrick Rankin. If we have time, we are definitely going to assemble that. Play for me, Duzuma, Bayotile. When I request, we are going to play one of a value. All right. Jesus girl, take it away. Kelvin Badoquivo. Yes, he says, play for me, Tofauti, by Butros. Please. Hey, I'm Noba. I'm Noba Sana. But Khalifa is a club music guy. So I hope it begs. I'm going to ask Khalifa, what's your name? Teamo by Ray Vanick. Khalifa, what's your name? I'm Sioniki Lala. OK, sir. Take it away. OK, Cusilia Kidd says, show equal on fire. Voi well represented. Konde boy at jeshi, he come through. You know, he is, he come through. He's sliding. He's sliding. Sliding. All right. Me too. Niki Kiroz, yeah? Kavela. Oh, Kavela. To go to Kavela. Oh, I said, skip Kavela. Kavela and the future. And I said, Kavela from Merrill Hood. You took a locked buyer and got a buggy or a buggy. Oh, that's how you write a buggy, huh? Oh. OK. Wow. You know that thing every day. Every day? Buggy at Texas. They're requesting a bomb for Mia. Kiroz says, watching from Kerecho. And there's some, the people are all over. Yes, man. Represent for your county. All over. To the max. Cool skinned. Jones watching live from Taish. Coast to coast, my guy. Taitata Vesakao Timtani Muatate. Coastal names are very sweet. And, let her boy. The place, the Tuko Dani Saana. Saana. Realist X, smoke without an E. Hashtag, social Friday. Hashtag, Y in the morning. Request, Peri Benso and sanitizer, Ethic. You wish what did you pick? Ethic. You want to play Ethic? Ethic? You like it. That is lack of it. Favorite crease. And I said, good morning. This is our favorite, Kirinaga. I'm going to be a shout out to all my fans on social Friday. Nicheze Moja Mausam. Take it away. OK. Linda Quinn, Shamu says, good morning. This is Linda from Eldoret Show Inakil. You are in a murder. Nicheze Utawezana by Fermi One and Major. I'm going to stop you from reading these comments. You're reading them so well, man. Brian Kamei. Oh, yeah, DJ Nicheze in Bomba. El Guizi. Najifu, the last one. Let's travel. OK, OK. Brian Kamei says, good morning, guys. And I'm Brian. Shout out to DJ Khalifa, watching from Nakuru County. How's the history? And how's the party? How's Johnny Steves? I don't know what that is. But I don't think I want to know. I don't know what that is as well. And I don't think I want to know as well. Thank you very much, Jesus, God, for coming through. Now, let's give DJ Khalifa a chance to share his magic with the rest of the people. Tell them how they can grab your mixes, and clean up in Saturday. Clean up in Saturday. Party from home. Party home, party safe. Yeah, from 10. I'm up to 11. Nicheze Utawezana till Bakasubu. Then make sure you follow me on Instagram, Twitter, Twitter, Tinder, everywhere. OK. OK. OK. I told you this guy, this skinny guy. No, no, no, don't mess it up. I did not beat DJ Khalifa, who is Khalifa. All the Khalifas do it. Anyway, this has been quite a ride from 7 AM at Isaii Najwa Siraisi. I have to appreciate you guys. Now, allow us to say a moment to my comments. This is our Facebook page, A2Naka Tuambia Place. We want to watch from. We love you so much. Jesus, God, I'll give you one last chance to share with them your social media handles and anything that is coming up soon in your books. OK, it's our sour. You can follow me again on Instagram, jesusgirl.ke, and subscribe to my YouTube channel. It's jesusgirl.ke. I'm always uploading content out across our Kitu. You'll just, you'll never miss Kitu. You're sorted. Kitu Saafi. Mali Saafi, OK. But see, he'll let you change. See ya, change, change. Thank you very much. All right, so we have come to the end of this VDJ Khalifa on behalf of everybody who made this possible. Sarah, Tisha, Emmanuel, Wakilakuleju, my engineer, Miriam, shout out to Killamse. This has been real. My name is Baye Moses, or it's Baye Mournevi. Social media platform. Until next time.