 a dydych chi'n gweithio'r gwahanol, Jane Part. How are we Jane? I'm allright, I, how are you? Good man. First of all I just want to thank you for coming on the show. I appreciate you taking the time. Like I said, there's no questions on this show so obviously the youngest Euromorwens winner. So, let's say before that we'll go back to while you grew up now and how it all started. So he asked him then. He says, that's the one! That's the one! Do you want me to go back to when I won at the Woddest? Ie wedi bod eich ddylaen, cyffin? Cyngor i fynd? Cyngor i mynd i fynd, wneuddi'r peth bwysig. Cnowidwch chi yw'n drwy. Be bwysig y rhaid i gwbl yw peth. Beth rhaid i fynd i fynd i höll. Rydym chi'n tiradd. Mae gennym nhw wedi byddi'n leir. Efallai wedi gweld y rhaid i fynd i fynd i fynd i weld cael siw.切dwyd y bydd yw'r rhannu! Er mwynrhyw wnaeth eich saun yw'r rhai, rydw i, oed yn gwneud yn ôl, wrth gwrs, mae'r rhai. Gweithi'n cael ei wneud ychydig, ond mae nifer. Mae'n bryd, mae'n staff gwybodaeth oherwydd eich gwirioneddau. Mae'n nhw oed i'n'ch gweithio i gyd yn gweithio iddyn. Yr hyffordd wedi bod gwybod ychydig. Ond yr ysgolau rhaid, cwrs oed i'n gymhau ar hwn i dda. ac ydym yn gondi'r hun i'w porth i'r amrywir i ni, amwyr mhoc oherwydd a'r mhoc oherwydd i gynnig ar hynny. Rwy'n ddynnu i'r ddweud o bryd i gyd yn ystafellol, ychydig i'r cymryd yn gyntaffallu, Rwyf wedi gael y sgwr i'n mynd i weld. Fyddwn ar fy gweithio, mewn gweithio a'r wych, felly mae wedi gweld i gael i'r panel. I fe wnaethau, oeddwch ein dystryd yn mynd i'm at y sgwr. Rwyf wedi gweld i'i gweld genedaldu ar fy gweithio, yn odd wrth gweithio, wrth i'n rydyn ni'n eu casfodol. Rydyn ni'n nhw o gwri'n ei dda i'r ddylch chi oedd. Felly, rydyn ni'n deisgrwyr adeilydd, a chyd oedd yn cael ei ddysgu. Is this a secure unit? No, that was a security unit. I was in a behaviour school, so I started there on Monday and Friday and I had a key worker and stuff. Then I got back to my mum's in the weekend and I went back on Monday morning for school. Sometimes you go missing? Sometimes I don't that much in this. But that was the way it was for a couple of years and it was good because it was structured. It was what I needed in my life at that time. Bad balance? I was about half the nails and wasn't really listening to anybody's advice and that so it's good and I hope my exams well it's done it again. I left there and I had a job and Charlie was in Edinburgh so it was a really good hairdressers. That's what I wanted to do and it was really good and I just wasn't enjoying it. I thought it was going to be amazing and it just wasn't. So I was going back home and I was creating and I was upset. I was just like, I don't know what I'd be in this hairdressers and all I was bothered about was paying her big money. So she was like, listen, if you're that unhappy in that job, like leave it, you'll find something else. Can you put good qualifications? You've just left school. So I was like, right. So there I managed a bit front of you in an office job. I've been broken straight just the other side of the hair. And they were like, oh, we want you. It was only like a six, a nine month contract, say, and I've done that in the office. Photo copy and answer phone calls, which is the Scottish Council for Voluntary Organization. It was good. It was a lot older folk in the office. But it's good that you've always been working as well for an early age. 15, 16, and like I say, coming through secure units and all the places. There's no stability, so we can be a bit of a rainbow. Do you know what I mean? But like I say, I'm still working and nobody sees that side of you. People just see in the paper portray you, she's this, she's that. But like I say, I've got a great side. I know you. You're obviously daft on a drink. I'm sitting on one of those. But like when you started, where did you buy your lottery ticket? So I bought the ticket, so I was on my way to work. I used to get off the stupid road street and I used to go into checkers and get my roll. And then I used to go into the shop next door and buy Kristen just in that right. And so I went and I bought back at my Kristen just because I normally wait on my roll getting cooked. So I came back out and it said it guaranteed 100 UK millionaires this Friday or whatever it was. So I thought, I'm going to buy a lot of tickets. So I went back in and I was like, can I get a lucky ticket for Friday? Look at it. It must have been the Monday or the Tuesday and he said, you got ID and I was like ID. So obviously I knew I was all right. I was 17. So I gave him the ID. He was like £2. I was like £2. I was like £1. I was like £2. I was like £3. I don't know what he was like. So he gave me that ticket. I got my roll out into work. And I never shut up about this ticket. It was weird. I just knew that I was going to win. Even on the Friday, we got paid on the Thursday. I left work on the Friday packed up my office. I said no packed up my office, but I got my bag and I said to my boss, I'll no be in on Monday morning. I said, I'm going to win the millions tonight. He said, I'll see you on Monday night. So I went out on a Friday night and I spent a bomb like a wages. I was at 18 times the rest of the weekend. So I sat in on the Saturday night with my mum. We were watching a film. And I said, I could be sitting here on that million pound. I still didn't even think to check the ticket. I was like, oh my God. So I sat at night and on Sunday I woke up and I found out a lot of things. I was just going to collect the ride. I was like, right. So I checked it online and it was like the code bit. You know how you get like jade or grain and the numbers. So I checked it and it was matching. I was like, no, that's not right. I went to my mum and she was hoovering. I was like, I've earned a million pounds. She was like, fuck, I'm not even going to ask where I look. She was like, phone your Nana because my Nana plays a lot of you. So I phoned my Nana and I was like, I think of it. She was like, your best bet is to take it into the shop. And I did that. I took it to scan it. I was like, right. So I was on trainers on. Did you? Just myself. My mum thought I was poor. My mum was like, I'm a poor hyperbond. I make this big mountain and mohame. My mum was like, you've no gene. Like you're overthink it. I was up to the shop myself. I took it with my breath. Look how it is that. I went up to the shop. So I was going to the shop and I was like, I think I've earned a lot of the rides. And the guys checked the ticket. And he said, it looks like you've earned it. He said, but I wouldn't want to tell you if you've earned it in case it's a fate ticket or something like that. My name scratch kills. Because people would say, my name scratch kills. I'm one of them, I can handle it. So I was like, right. I said, I phoned Camelot. The number's in the back of the ticket. So I ran back down the road. I was like, mum, I need you. There's this phone. It's like I know too. Or whatever number it is. She was like, you don't want to know about my house. One thing, 50 on air. I was like, he keys the phone. So I phoned them up. You've got to tell them. You've got to tell them where you bought the ticket, what time roughly it was. Was there anyone in the shop that was old to security questions that you wouldn't even think about? So she was like, are you sitting down? Mum was like, you're getting on a street now. And she was like, congratulations, you're one of my million pounds. And I only know this because I've heard the phone call back in a documentary after years ago. And I say, oh my God, are you joking me? And I was like, my mum was like, mum must put a paste in the oven now. And I was like, so they arranged for somebody to come and meet me on the day of the press stuff and all that. And then it's a few days. And that was a stick for the earth. Wait age, were you? I was 17. I was 17 and a half. It's been a whirlwind since on it. I like to say that. The guy in the shop could have says, no, you've no one. He was sitting fucking. See because I had checked it, but I would have said I'll just take that ticket back. And I said that to him on the phone so we're always getting the ticket back, even if he says I'll put it in the bin. That's a whole scheme chat under the treble wave. I was nice in the shop. He was like, get him and write your name on the back out. And I was like, I'll put it in the back out. They were like, you need to keep that ticket safe until you meet the people who have it and they scan the ticket. So I was like, right. But they were like, dinner, put it on social media. Dinner for the night. I know, something can flow your door. I was still on the phone with that on Facebook. Now when I believe me but I've run a million pounds and I'm like, I'll pass the phone to me. I was like, I swear. I was like, this is my ticket right. So I had the ticket and I put it in between a photo and you know the case on the photo frame. I've put the photo back out. But I just couldn't sleep for about three days. I was like, I'm like Simon Cowell. That's what I thought it was. I'm a million pounder. I'm a million pounder. I am the next Simon Cowell. But that was it. Well, when you're going through that, how long does it take to come and get you? Is that fucking Wally Wonker coming to get you? Or a golden ticket? So how does it work out when they write you've won the ticket? How do they come and get you? What happens? So then you meet some people and I'll private bank off. So I went and I met, there was a financial person. There was a woman for Camelot and there was a private bank and she set up the private bank in front of me so that people that work in the northern of the bank and stuff, they can't see any of that. That just looks like a normal account to them. That mean I've got a private bank. They scan the ticket and stuff. They give you the big check. They then organise. That's about two or three days after that, after you win, depending on what date it is. So I had my checkment on Sunday. So this is maybe the Wednesday or the Thursday and then maybe the Friday I had done all the paparazzi and the check and stuff like that. And then I think, and then I think basically next to the next day it's in your bank account. Is it the full million or is it installments or is it? It's the full. Is it? Full what? Do you get taxed then for that now? It's tax free. It's fucking all right innit? Do you get all the tickets on a night? It's all right. Obviously your life now has been a world wind and people don't think people understand us because I think you spoke about on a couple of shows, breakfast shows and you spoke about your life and stuff. People don't understand. If you come in for a deprived error, let's say I've come far off area, but when you don't know how to handle money the message you've got in the bank is a fife and when you're eating pieces of butter or you're live to advance letters and while you're quitting the bank, he's going to be fucked because there's no money management skills, there's no debt to take you aside and if you did have somebody to take you aside, if you're fair, like I say a scheme, you're probably going to hink that you're only wanting to be nice to take fucking somebody money that I've got. How did you deal with the money in your bank? What was the first thing you bought? So I had been saving up, so what I'd done was obviously didn't get straight away so it does take a few days for what to go through and I had been saving up for the slave return handbag and I had just been paid but I knew this money was coming into my bank so I thought I could use it at the rest of my wages and just go up and buy the handbag so I bought the money in my return and I was like I want that one. So I bought the bag at a rotty. What did you spend? I was only about... I must have been about £1,200. That was a little money. I was like a month's wage at that time. Do you know what I mean? So it would have took me about six months when I saved that up. So at the end when I had my handbag, I was walking over to one of the drivers and they knew me in there but they knew I had seen it in the paper and stuff so it was good to walk out of the shop and they'll feel like they were looking at you and can you kind of afford this because I knew they knew I paid up for that, do you know what I mean? It's funny how people's perception changes when you know you've got money like I say everybody judges and that's a difficult thing because when they judge you you look at something you don't know what they've got in their bank account you don't know what kind of person they are and this is the society we're in. People judge far too quick and wise so when you're walking into shops like I say that persona changes you're walking in, you're confident you're walking in as if I believe everything's attitude so like I say the jungle the lion's the king of the jungle. I'm going to be off track here but it's a good lesson so the lion's the king of the jungle, right? No because it's the strongest no because it's the fastest no because it's the smartest because it's fucking attitude because it believes it's the king of the jungle so for anybody thinking that they're no smart enough they're no fast enough they're no clever enough again it's all doing the attitude walking into that shop knowing that you only are 12 on a quid and one of the shoulders doing the thinking I wish you could get that they're looking at me probably laughing but then as soon as you want that million quid you're walking in, shoulders out wing spread give me that, that and that and you're fucking sacked I'm getting you to sack so when you wonder at what was the how was the stretch for your life what was the how was it obviously let's let it in don't matter if you get a million pound ten million a grand the novelty does eventually wear off as well do you know what I mean the buzz eventually goes so when you want to boat your bags did you have a bit of fun enjoying it? Right so I sort of like gave something to my family and that family and friends I could have done that first then I went and like squashed about like I thought I need to know that my family would encourage me that it's worth to know how much it was you need to go and splash a bit and and just so that I would never regret it do you know what I mean going by the things you've wanted to buy going forward is what you wanted to go on so that's what I've done and then I got to a point in my family where like you need to have a serious think about investments and they were saying like you need to maybe buy property and invest I meant for like put it in the aisles and bonds that you can't open until like a few years time and then so I've done that and then so I've basically done all the things I wanted to do I bought a couple of properties on the way and then went a wee bit ratch again and then and then I just I think people forget you're only fucking you're still only 23 you've been around the papers it seems as if since I was born for the last fucking 34 years it's it's non-stop seem you want it on all this and no matter if you're a football player or whatever people commit to what might be a pal did you find that as well when you had won that like people were probably going to get your fucking time I dare even speak about you wanting to be your best pal I saw I had people like on Facebook and that I had people that say oh I knew I had it at school or I used to do this and I think no you never like no you'd absolutely never like so I've always had the same sort of group of pals I have met a couple of people that are now my best pals that I've met on the right but for different reasons other than like money do you know what I mean that best pals now where I last said I hated because I used to message my ex-boyfriend but the football dirty bastard and I was like then I realised once I started talking to her she actually got a boyfriend and so that means she was the message and I'm like and now we're best pals and I think Ken and she's no bit money and we go for dinner and she'll pay for it and and it's this weird but there is people that do come out and I'm like you wouldn't expect me before Of course life works in mysterious ways and like I say it must be hard for you because you're always on the paper you know yourself but for you to trust somebody how can you fully trust them for the way you for you as a person or the way you because of the attention you get because of all that it must be difficult for you It is really hard especially guys because I think to myself so I'm not sure of the attention no on a bad way no on a big kid I'm not sure I don't think I'm pretty or whatever right You shouldn't have put yourself down I think you look well I don't want to turn that now she's maturing No it's not that I don't I just I'm the big kid I'm writing a lot of certain stuff So see when a guy speaks to me I think if I heard him in the lottery would you be speaking to me do you know what I mean I've never had over 100,000 followers on Instagram would you be like a moth or would you be just wanting a picture with me on my Instagram story Do you know what I mean so I think when he's hanging then I think it's just so hard like I never know a guy's intentions and everybody else can always say it before me and I like play it out in the long run and then I'm like I've wasted a year or two in my life I think but nothing's ever wasted let's say you live and learn we learn and grow in and there's nothing a such thing as a mistake everything's a lesson in my eyes obviously when you're going through that but then for being in secure units I was actually at a secure unit having a talk Wednesday a place called The Good Shepherd which was done in Greenup and let's say the way is a phenomenon and the people working these secure units are absolutely phenomenal the work they do is unbelievable but again it can stem from insecurity issues as well when you're younger then it stems into relationships so it's hard to find that trust that you can love somebody because but you're still only fucking young only 23 man wait till you get to 34 I think see because when I was younger I never had stability in that and I craved feeling like loved and like I just wanted somebody to put me first do you know what I mean and I wasn't always the first option do you know what I mean like my mum and dad had drug problems so I mean that was the main priority at one point in their life and I had done a resent them for that do you know what I mean that's a learning curve for them and so I feel like for them I've just I've always craved that so when a guy does show me a bit of attention now that I think they are by me for the right reasons I'm like oh my god this is the one I'm going to be with this in my life it's because you're craving that love let's say well I want to be loved the same as me if I fall in love with somebody what happens is because I've got insecure issues myself so what happens is when that they feel and start getting strong I'll do something stupid or a funny ship because I don't want to feel that pain of getting rejected or getting hurt so let's say I get a defence mechanism and then but let's say if you meet somebody then you're a hundred mile an hour bang you love that attention you crave that love because there's a band of issues then for when you're younger do you know what I mean it's known as if like her parents they date with them I'm one of our hardworking people and it's getting brought up in a rough place but it doesn't mean you're a bad person it's not that I'm thinking I'm better than people it's not that I'm better than my mother my sister I just want better for them so for me to have better for them I become a better person as well and everything comes down to the mindset as well let's say all the stuff you went through and I don't think people know that through it's secure let's say you're up and down so especially you wanting that it's just it's went for now that it's having nothing to fucking everybody knowing who you are in the UK space leading brand so it must be difficult do you know what I mean I don't think people get to see that the papers let's say mud sticks so if you're constantly in the papers people just think aww you rich kid fucking raised up in a with a golden spoon no realising the traumas and the effects that you had to let's say you're very grounded you're very intelligent as well so I wouldn't put yourself down and you've always worked for a very young age it's just so haps that you want a fucking million quid which is I think some laugh where I think it's brilliant aww yeah it's some laugh to be fair and obviously did you get a season ticket because I know you're a big highbeast fan yeah I did actually I had one before anyway I was sitting always enjoying doing so I do enjoy going to the football sort of grown out a wee bit now I want to see you grown out because everybody is in part having some you've got some involvement somewhere no I do enjoy going to the football and I like it it's certain different I mean I feel like I like putting my make-up on and going out with my pals and going shopping and that but I like also and I've started to go to the football I mean it's tight I feel like I can get my anger I'm not sure that you're screaming women in the crowd women in the crowd that mean but aww that's a fairer no but I think I do enjoy it I mean it's something that I look forward to the weekend I think that comfort the passion for hubs who had that who you raised to that I'm not talking about that so when I was so when my dad supported a different football team I'm not going to go to the network I don't leave it on not me I'm coming for the sprints I do a different football team when me and my brother I was born first my dad wanted a wee boy and I was born first and I was born first so my brother came after me anyway so he only supported it because his uncle took him to a couple of the games when he was younger right so when we were born they thought I need to support a local team so that I can take Ken, Jane and Balli to the football game so and the closest team to ours was hubs do you know what I mean we were in Nidge so it wouldn't make sense for us to go all the way to Gorgie and I was sort of at shite anyway so do you know what I mean so it just happened it went to it resisted a road that was the closest team to ours and that I'm all for that can support your local team I think so these people fed them by their sport vendors and set them around part timers so it was just hubs and then we went to the football with my dad when we were younger and then I've always started even no matter where I've been family or care or whatever I've always it's always been sat in that I've been interested and do you know what I mean it's falling now it's never left you it's no going to leave you I know so I have lots and things in there I know I know it's good when you started getting a lot of it like I said the tension, the limelight and the papers all the time how did that affect you there's any obviously bullying, trolling or the bullshit today that comes with all that territory so I think I genuinely think I'm quite like hard-hearted I'm quite a tough nut like but everybody's always like so I've always been telling I didn't read the comments because the people that write the comments and the people that haven't got a job they sit in the world they sit behind the computer and it's normally like if there's a hundred people who've got to write a comment 80 of them have write a bad one 20 of them be a good one you didn't remember the good one so was the bad one you remember and I was just like but I can't help myself when something comes up to read the comments and I think but it's bad some people take it too far I think the few enough people can have an opinion I get that being in the paper all the time people might think hard again or what's the issue with her like I get that but sometimes that's pure personal a story can be about me and Hubs or something on social media and then there are we hope you die and I'm like what? what's the worst comment that's effect stuck by you? so like comment wise I've just just once I'm with my family and I'm wondering that I just haven't got a family dies I've got a friend it's not fucking right and then obviously the asset flex in that that came for being in the paper just me and this somebody who don't have a clue was started to say they've got to pull that to my face and it's just it was mental I remember I was driving through it well I was driving I was driving past we got to see Drake and Glasgow that was when it was and I was driving through and I said to me I'm actually scared that this guy knows quite a lot about me he was saying stuff about in the media and I was like he knows too much so I have to report it to the police and I'm not too sure what happened but I never had the ending again like that but that was probably the scariest thing so I walked in about the street thinking that somebody got to pull that to my face so I'm not going to open my front door and be it as well these people sit behind these screens this is threats to a fucking 18, 19 year old lassie these are the biggest cowards in the world these are the ones that I'm telling you are sitting whacking after a dog and just taking life eating a big packet at the Beatles that haven't they got any future of their self so what happens is they project all their fears and insecurity zone to that person because they see they project it on to you like I say it's the biggest cowards in the world and they fuck them because they talk a lot of shit and these people constantly reading these articles for the papers you're constantly watching negativity so their brains must be fucked so if you see a good looking lassie it's one of a million quidges you're going to fucking hate her if you're lives in misery do you know what I mean there's always jealousy and bitterness when you go I wish I had that life but for the like I say the comments against your family the comments against yourself that is it's bullying it's trolling and for people to know your movements like I say you're constantly posting you're fucking every social media outlet out there and you're constantly posting so people are going to know your movements for they threats like I say a young lassie as well that's no good for your confidence but people need to understand you're only 23 that's somebody's daughter man do you know what I mean you can be somebody's mother it's embarrassing for these people to write these comments so like I say I'll drive above it and you will get stronger through it because I'm the same 100 good comments that one negative I'm starting to deal with it now and I'm kind of gone do you know that fuck it because that's my ego my ego gets stented you want everybody to love you and you want everybody to like you so your ego then you get stented I don't really mean that I understand I know for a fact that no everybody's got to like me right I'm not everybody's cup of tea but that's fine but what I can bother is the people that write it own a comment right or they'll write it on Facebook or Twitter or some I'll say it online anyway and then I'll go into a nightclub in the tune and I'll start at the night and they'll no say anything or they'll try and actually be talk to my eye and I'm like I think people don't realise how much I see do you know what I mean or how much I read into comments or how much I actually do spend looking through comments which I probably shouldn't but I do and I think I hadn't remember three years ago when you did write that about me do you know what I mean and I don't even forget it Of course you can't forget it because like I said this thing but you're in the you're in the newspapers you're in them constantly it's not just every week or month it's nearly off every day I know that it's fucking hot and it's far but then again you're in high profile name you're a young lass you're one of your moments that's massive and let's say the stuff you do the hip stuff is constant you're a hip, die hard See the thing with that though right I think to myself I don't even look at myself and think like oh I'm a celebrity or that right so I think to myself why should I know post-up right if I had the one word right I would post up oh my god like hurry up on an inside line or whatever it was do you know what I mean so what's because I've been a lot like I shouldn't do you know what I mean I get that some people are saying well you're in the limelight you should think about it before you tweet and I do think about stuff right but why should I know post what I want to post because I've got to think about what the papers I've got to print I think people think I've formed the papers up and I'm like I send this what I want to tweet put this in I don't know it sometimes grinds my gears as much as it grinds theirs every day do you know what I mean who's getting to a point where I can't upload a picture on Instagram and I think to myself I'm just a normal lass do you know what I mean I should be able to upload what I want but the people who see you are not they don't see you as a human being they see you as a character so they see you as no what any feelings so we can't see what you want it's fucking freezing in here hello John hello it's freezing where in my ball Lee Jackson's got a new place but it's fucking balty isn't he hitting on you so the sea is a character play I say you've done a lot of things and you've got to give yourself credit because you're handling it well now you're becoming across let's say mere mature you're only 23 and you will get older and you mature a bit let's say when I was 23 I was and I've had it on my lean quad but if I did I'd probably be deed so I'd be I'd be because of the party and all that stuff so let's say you've educated yourself you've had a good life you've been at ruin the world what can you see yourself then in the future what would you like to do what would you like to get what do you love to know obviously used to love then here could you ever go back to that normal job or drink you'd be too much for you with people judging or coming in and it's something I've thought about because well I want to set up my own business right I just don't know what then so until I know there's no point in me version and opening a sand bed shop or opening a hairdressers and then for a year or two then I need to be like I can hate that there's no point and my mum was like you're only 23 it's still alright to know know what you want to do and my mum was like she's basically saying can just take your time you don't have to version to anything like and it's something I think to myself should I just get a normal job and put my money away in investments and just live a normal life and then I think to myself don't really want to get up in the morning and do something it's a struggle because you'll be that used to having a free-for-all to do what you want but there comes a time as well when you need some stability again and you need some structure and like I say money has an illusion and it might sound daft to people but where it's a million pound, 10 million pound there's plenty of people like they are her billionaires that whack you back so I say there's people with nothing it's the way you perceive life a lot of people concentrate the things they've no got instead the things they have got but then try to find your passion with something you love it's took me 34 years to find something I love I love doing this I love speaking to people and interacting with people and all the fuck ups I've done in the past kind of led us to this because when I speak of it I kind of understand it that we're all kind of fucked up but it's to find something that you love something it's worth getting up in the morning it's difficult and you're only 23 your whole life's ahead of you and you're going to get mere media attention and other doors will open up for other avenues so you just got to keep doing what you're doing I think as well I see me going into a normal job I have thought about my parents they're all like Ken, while we're working why don't you get a job and then when we wouldn't be working at the same time do you know what I mean but I think kind of the thing as well I think I've always fucked up but if I go into a normal job or if I was quick to set up a business or if I worked in an office and people would be quick to say oh she's got no money left or she's and that's my fault for thinking for bothering what other fucks would think but as well like I think everyone does it like they kind of help what I think or what they've got to think or what that means but that's just fear again through your childhood and that we're scared of it people thinking does it matter if you've got money or no who gives a fuck it's not a day with anybody does it matter if you're working at McDonald's if you love it then so be it it's all about you people are going to judge you no matter what people let us say no matter if I a day good people judging if I a day bad people judge so it's not about that it's about up here controlling these fucking demons what I think about everybody else I think that's when people have a wee drink when they walk into places including yourself because it kind of takes anxiety away it kind of gives you the confidence if we don't care so we kind of act daft when really listening to yourself a day you're spot on man you're let us say you're educated you're no daft your life you've came through to what annoy your ears and then let us say one in that and people think oh how can your life be bad one in the fucking Euromawians because it can because mentally you can't handle it you'll see a lot of football players you'll see a lot of actresses you're singers you're Whitney Houston you're Michael Jackson they're actually one of the richest people in the world but they can't handle that fame and that success because it doesn't really mean it and because everything is within it's about finding something that you enjoy let us say money comes the second nature and I think that's where a lot of people go round because they search for the money they search for the relationship but when they get that they're still starting to miss because everything's in here they're kind of doing an avenue that they think as soon as they get that then their lives complete no realising that lifestyle goes on as soon as you hit that fucking target do you know what I mean? it can be lonely as well I'll see like what was the matter compared to maybe different fasting or whatever but I've had a million pin but no everybody in the trees when I'm a million pin do you know what I mean? they're all stuck all my pals and that like that they're all still got to work and they've still got to provide for their families and that as well do you know what I mean? so it can be lonely there's times where I'm like I want to date something I've never really liked to date and then I think even if I did want to date someone I'm like I'll have a lot of money to pay for them as well which isn't a problem but it's now got to that point where I'm like no why should I do this stuff you're getting to that age now you're thinking right you've had your fun you've had a life you've dreamt a life that only some people can just imagine doing that but now maybe it's time to find a passion and something that you love to focus your energy into cos there are days but you're just focusing what you want to do it takes time it takes time basically if you're just becoming where I'm at and going right a minute I want to find something that I do I want to do or I love that it's a like I say it is a lonely journey especially if you're sitting in your house yourself but that's when you overthink and that's when you're looking for all your comments and that's when you end up fucking demented that you don't want to leave the house do you know what I mean so it's a vicious circle and then at the weekend you're on this wally I wait the hibs game causing it what's the plans where would you see yourself in the future so like obviously I've had like loads of TV opportunities and stuff some that that I've maybe considered or whatever but see like before I've always been too young I've been badging he'd know that I'm not badging he'd know but I think I said we're going to go ageing do you know what I mean so I feel like now going out to 2019 like I want to maybe look at maybe TV opportunities and what and what I can get for that but do you know what I mean these opportunities and they always got to be there and I've got to remember that actually I'm getting on like I'm 23 but do you know what I mean fucking tough life I'm at well I'm 30 years old and I've just got to be interested in the last of who was the youngest cos by the time I'm 50 there'd be someone else I think it's 18 now by the way I think you've always got that I think you've always got to have that crown so it is which is a good thing you're doing dry you're doing dry January as well aren't you how are you getting on I don't even mind no drinker I've been inviting to my father's birthday at the end of the month and I'm on dry January and we're like but send them off and I'm like I don't even want to be that boring man though that goes out I hate going out and you've got the car or something and I'm like car drink and I'm like you fear as if when you're out but you've got a lot of eyes on you you really it's paranoid I kicked in as well don't you 100% I feel like when I go out people are waiting for me to fuck up they're waiting to see me leave whoever they want me they're waiting if there's someone else in there that's got a bit of a profile they're waiting for me and I know there's people there that are waiting to like say on Twitter sort of and I sort of Jane leaving me so and so or getting a taxi with me so and I know that's what they want they want me falling out of the night club they want me lying there in my dress hanging open and do you know what I mean I know that there's people that just want that bad stuff to come out about me because it makes her life feel better that's what it does it makes her life feel better but nah I'm still quite I hate them now compared to like when I was 18, 19 I'm a lot more mature I'm very wearier but my surroundings in any circumstance How do people treat you what my line is treating at that just people don't know you people how do you get in there is anybody alright? I suppose it's not really that bad I feel that people just look me and then they maybe recognise me but they'll no say if we're in a night club or a bar people say because they're fully abused they'll say to me oh you that lassie do you know what I mean do you know what I mean or what's your name when I'm like you know my name before you've even asked me but a lot of the time people will just stare or they'll speak about it with their pals so that sometimes I walk in somewhere my pals really annoys my pals more than annoys me now and I'm like let them talk who I normally start dancing with something I'm starting to talk about but my pals are like what's your problem what are you doing but I suppose that's just put it in partially but again man we don't need to accept that people fucking bad mouth is like I say we're trying to build it we're trying to change and be good but if somebody steps out of the line and like I say I'm trying to change my life but I'm still not going to ride off a fucking nobody it's not I mean if somebody gets out of the line there's only so much you can take you know what I mean you've still got to defend yourself and it's hard because as soon as somebody does press A triggers on you one night you might be in a bad mood it might be for a fuck's sake but if somebody eventually pushes A triggers sorry if you push somebody I'll throw a drink and then then you're the bad one and everybody is reading the papers going aye she's look at her nor that's a fucking disgrace and that's what people want to see which is sad but again you've put yourself in these situations as well it's no saying don't go it but sometimes when you're way people to drink it's not really the right environment for you but it doesn't mean you don't get to enjoy yourself but you know yourself it can it can lead to the fucking stupid things it's not mean it's so easy to do as well so love life in that and now single aye single erm aye single completely single do you look better for that jank aye new her in that one so er so what happened was a split up with more explosion well just we split up anyway erm and then I came back up the road cos I was down the something and then I took all my extensions out came like new her new new her new me aye aye aye aye aye aye ayeward aye aye aye aye aye yeah we did the hadn if that absolutely aye the look on the hadn eye like that's a break up thing like no a bad break up but you know what I mean cos I took the extensions I had the shop blown to after a while and they are saying Rwyf am yr unrhyw gyda, rwyf am y cyfrich a byddwn ni'n ffordd arall. Yn gyfaint hwn i'r rhanau, nid i'r wief newydd, a nid i'n dweud, Ond gwneud, byddwn ni'n gweithio i'r gwahho. Yn ein bod yn gwahanol, rydw i'r brwyng i'r cyffredig. Erych oedd eich gobeithio'n dda, mae'n rhaid, ond i'w gwahodd genny'n eich gobeithio arrhaith. A mae'r cifth! Reitio i'r cifthau, rydw i'r cynnig a'r cifthau. Mae LX i'w'r cyllidau'r… Ac mae chi'n gweld, mae'na hwn o bob ychydig i'w wath. Mae'n llawer o'r llyfrd gyda'ch lyty o'r llyfr, a so mae'n gandda i chi'n ganddo. Mae'n ganddo. Mae'n ganddo oherwydd, mae eich gyddo yn gynnwys, mae o olywch, a'i wasio oeddo oherwydd, ac mae'n ganddo, mae roedd eich cyllidau gyda'r cyllidau, oherwydd mae'n gofyn, mae'n gofyn fe ddim yn cael ei ganddo, Ben rwy'n farchwn ar gyfer gweledd. Ac fyddwch yn siarad iawn ac mae mae'r mi ffordd yn ymweld. Ond o ran o'r ffordd yn gyflenwyr, angen'n dwylo'r aion a'r newydd. Felly mae'n ddwylo'n gydig yn economi ac yn ffordd o'r ffordd. Na dwi'n ffordd o ddoffod arfer, a'r bwyst yn oed. A poes y ddim yn gweithio mae'r bwyst yn gwybod, felly mae'n gweithio'r poesol yw'n gweithio'r hoed. ac nid oes y fwrdd yn olygu. Felly mae'n gweithio. Yw hwn yn gweithio, mae'n gweithio a'r cyfnod, mae'n gwneud o'r rhywbeth, a'n gweithio, rydyn ni'n gwneud o'r ffwrdd oedd gwneud o'r wneud o'r ffwrdd. Felly mae'n gweithio allan, mae'n gweithio allan o'r ffwrdd. Ieithi ddim yn gyfnod. Mae'n gweithio. Mae'n gweithio, mae'n gweithio. Yn olygu ei bod yn gwneud o'r ddyffu, Because you're a high profile man. Everybody knows you. So as very difficult, how's your man? How have you been with your last few year? So they've been alright. She must worry about you, though? She does worry a lot. Every time I go out she's like, where are you going? I'm tired of sneaking and super-assim questions. But you're still my bearing. Something could go wrong and I need to know these things. She's a massive worryer to that extent. A'r awg i'n cael ei bydd yn bediad. Mae hwn yn ymweld yn y flaen iawn. Mae'n ddalch yn ddefnyddio. Ac mae'n amrydd i gael i ddechrau cwylio. Mae'n ddefnyddio. Mae'n gweithi gweithio... mae'n ddadchi neu maen nhw'n ddiddordeb yn ddelchio. Mae'r ffamiliau erbyn. Mae'r ddisgol maen. Gitaith. Mae'r ddysgu'r yng Ngheilwyr. Mae'n ddysgu'r yng ngheilwyr. Mae'n ffemhau gwahanolwch o'i gyd, gyda'r pray. Beth yn fwy yma, yn amlwyddoedd chi'n ei wneud. Byddai fel doront o'n ffordd. Felly mae'n tarffwyr cynnwys, gan gilydd oherwydd fel gwaith. Rwyf am rhaid i fy ffydd, ac mae'n dod rydyn ni'n amlwiad i fy mod, i'n bod yn mynd i'n llai. Rydyn ni'n prif, yw'r plac nesaf. Rydyn ni'n rydyn ni'n rhaid i fy mod, nid y bydd e'n rhaid i fy mod. Yn y ddyn nhw hwnnw, dwi'n gwit gwahodd, gyda'n rhai ddin, mae'n rhoi i ddim yn ei bod yn y ddyn nhw. Wrth gwrs, mae'n ddyn nhw'n di'ch glenn yn ei hwnnw, fel yna ein bod ni'n yn ei ddyn nhw gael, fel yna unrhyw gwych yn eu gwelir, a fyddwn i'ch ddyn nhw ei ddyn nhw gael y lle, fel mae'r gwahodd, mae'n grannu. Felly mae'r gweld i rhai'r ddyn nhw i, nawr ech gyd yna mae'r gweld i chi wedi'i gyd afael, i'r gwleidio'r bobl mae'r ffordd maestr, ac mae'n bwysig ac mae'n i'n bwysig bod sut mae'n divided ond mae'n gwybod mae'n ddwy o gwleidio â sgwr i ddiwrn arfynodd o ran ystod yn gwybod ddych yn ei wneud a'n dweud y bydd nodi'n deall ac mae i'n ddych yn fwy o'r stryd, ond mae'n ddiwy'r un telyniadau, mae'n diwg fod ond mae'n oed yn ddiwy Ac mae'n ychwaneg i gael ei ddweud. mae'n ddweud fel ydyd ychwaneg i gael eich sy'n gwybod i gyllideb, ac mae'n ddweud i'ch byw i ddweud i ddweud oed. Fi wnaeth i'r wych! Efallai, i'n maen nhw i chwaneg i ddweud! Roedd Cyfresy Ca employed. Mae'r wneud digon i chi ddefnyddio, a i ffalu i chi'n cymrydol ddweud. Efallai i gael gyda'r cyfresy, Gen. Fawr i ddweud! Roedd byr i ddweud! Roedde! 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