 They had always said, you know, when you get a heart, this place will start going crazy and you'll start having activity and we started seeing that but it was all, you know, outside of my door and didn't know what was going on really and all of a sudden one of the coordinators walked in the room and we knew something was going on but we didn't know exactly what and quickly after Dr. Boe gave came in the room and said it's yours. And I remember asking her, am I still on the list, am I still a match or is it my heart? And she said, you have this heart, it is yours, it is 100% your number one, you know, you're getting a heart today. You know, I was so ill at this point that I remember Dr. Boe gave saying, you know, how fast can we get her son here, how fast can we get Carter because he was with my in-laws and they were about two hours away and I remember Carter coming into the room and I remember getting to see him and tell him I love him and my family, most everybody was coming in, you know, my brothers and my mom and dad and my husband Kevin were already there but everybody else was starting to kind of trickle in to see me before surgery and I got to say hi to everybody and just know that they were there supporting me. I remember going down an elevator and all of my family being in one elevator, there was probably 15 of us in the elevator and getting to say goodbye to everybody and you know, I'm gonna be great, no worries for me, just say some prayers and you know, everything's gonna be perfect, we're good and getting to do that and then I don't even remember going through the doors and I remember slowly waking up the next morning and you know, having that intubation tube still in and being scared to death of that, that was my worst fear was having the breathing tube in and getting through that and starting the recovery process knowing that I'm alive and my fingers and toes are warm, they hadn't been warm in a while and being able to breathe, I could lay down and breathe and that was unbelievable and couldn't automatically feel my heartbeat that I had felt for months and months and months and that was a good feeling to not feel your heartbeat which sounds absolutely crazy but it was a wonderful feeling to not sit there and count your heartbeats and wonder am I gonna feel VTAC, you know, have that fear and just know that it was success at that moment, you know, several hours later the surgery was a success, you have a new life, you've been giving a new life by an amazing family and an amazing person who decided that it was important to be a donor and to give somebody the gift of life when it was their time and it was not needed anymore and that's probably the biggest struggle through a heart transplant for me was the emotional side of loving this family and this person that I don't know and that I don't know anything about and praying for them at the same time that I'm praying for myself and my health to be given a peace for both of us for both their family and for me and my family that this all works like it should.