 Hey everybody Welcome to a I guess like a different kind of video. I don't know. I wanted to try something different do something new I I'd like I think to do a little bit of content or experiment with like videos that aren't strictly on the keyboard They're kind of just me like I don't know being me or kind of unscripted just a casual thing It's just something that I wanted to experiment with so I I think about this a lot to be honest I think about content. I think about Production but like getting stuff out into the ether into the world a lot. It's something that my mind kind of obsesses over Primarily because I feel either like guilt that I'm not feeding the YouTube algorithm as consistently as I should or guilt and just me wanting to get stuff out there like this is this is fun This is a passion. This is where I kind of feel like the most fulfilled or when I'm when I'm doing something I feel productive when I am doing this whatever this happens to be If if it had a name So I watch some other YouTube channels like kind of on my own right You know everyone has kind of the channels that they like or the stuff that are interested in and I watch a coffee zilla Who's excellent exceptional? I will link his channel in the description if anyone's is kind of interested in that But he recently went through a thing where he was doing 100 video uploads in 100 days and he produced a video just kind of discussing the pros and cons of it and one point that he brought up Actually a lot of the points that he brought up for the benefits or that it it will just straight up cure your writer's block or whatever is mentally hindering you being able to Create and make stuff And and that's something I struggle with all the time not even just like ideas like I have an endless list I have a laundry list of stuff that I would like to go through and showcase and you guys send me lots of great stuff And you guys request and ask hey John. Can you do something on this? I'm like that would be awesome That's a great idea but like Pressing the record button. I don't know why is this stumbling block in my mind It's it's a it's a speed bump and even like while I'm trying to record even while I'm doing something I will I will get in my head about like oh crap. That didn't sound good or oh shoot I'm not doing this the way that I really wanted it to be and that was another point was He brought up this notion that like dude your perfectionism just falls to the wayside And I think that is super-duper important because a lot of times I think when we do what we do in the security creator space and fellow security content creators right and then I'll add another link in the description for a Incredible list of the folks because I'm sure we can enumerate we can list off all these other great content creators But there are so many and it's so good. It's it's a growing community and it's lovely But when security creators produce there's like this desire to make it perfect and bundled up wrapped in beautiful like Gift wrapping and it's a present of education and learning But at the same time I know there are a lot of folks that say hey No, I want that raw experience of the hardship the struggle of like genuinely learning and that's always a balancing act So even when myself or others try to do something and we showcase our mistakes And we showcase the rabbit holes that we fall into those are maybe valuable as well So there's even more outside of that right? There's there's the there's the life behind it that is Struggling with not even the content itself, but like that ideas the concepts the stuff of of Making things I don't even know where I'm going. I I Always battle with Getting out content and doing this thing with everything else that I kind of like to do in my life Whether it's the actual human being stuff like okay IRL in real life like spend time with my family my Like spend time with my family spend time with my friends spend time with my dogs go do social things be a human being in this world in this moment that I'm in right now and My own learning right like I want to study I'm going through oh said right now the offensive security exploit development course And I would like to chat a little bit about that kind of in videos like this or Doing my actual day job right doing the doing my full-time gig that actually pays the bills But I know that I would like to still talk and chat with each and every one of you like I still Do my very very best even though it is insanely overwhelming to respond to everyone that I can Whenever they message me or send me a DM or send me a email or send me a notification or send me a ping or send me a request or Etc etc etc and it's just something that I always want to do because I I don't know it's so Fulfilling and that's a lot of fun. So But it's a balance right it's a balance of doing all these things Because I would like to sharpen my own skills. I'd like to learn I'd like to grow and study I'd also like to develop like create tools like make other cool things that help me or other people But I also want to be creating content and teaching and instructing and doing stuff like this I also kind of need to be in the in the coffee zilla video. He shows an excellent clip from I Think it's the daily show. I might be forgetting But the conversation at the end is like look if you do this if you were to ever Upload daily or whatever if you if you would repeatedly get in some hyper productive mode Where you are always in the zone and just getting stuff out and being a beacon then You Lose the balance of everything else and you you don't maintain lifestyle With with your family and you don't you be you become a ghost in a shell of a man Which is like a coffee called at the dark bargain. I'm like, oh, that's such a great way to put it But some I'd like to do and I'm so I'm experimenting with so even if it's just casual conversations or casual videos like this I don't know. I have no idea if people would ever watch this sort of thing surprisingly somehow I think a lot of people do watch videos that are just kind of talking heads on YouTube, but I Don't know what I would be able to bring you the table in that We'll still have lots of cool conversations about like what's going on. What am I up to whether or not studying for OSED other mental Predicaments that I'm kind of unraveling working through and want to I don't know maybe share with you or news like Hey, what the heck's going down the hack the box cyber apocalypse CTF is on right now It's getting started today as I upload this hopefully as I release this so There's that and I think those would be very very cool. Also on that note I do want to be showcasing some cool stuff And if we were to actually do this kind of video, I'd like to this kind of style every now and again I think it would be cool add a little bit more to it So I love to capitalize on some other Greatness I created in my discord channel and my discord server I created a channel called jh memes. So yes, yes, we can still have some fun We can still goof off. We can still kind of be crazy And I and I'll showcase some memes and I'll bring them up here like I think I can switch. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah One of the top ones here over my discord server. There's a good a good joke whenever new people arrive in the server I'm always so much more happy and interested like oh welcome. Welcome. I want to make the world like sunshine and roses and then Make this beautiful landscape for you and the moderators like John come on dude. We've been here. We're your buds We're here for you forever Like the good old jealous girlfriend one. Those are a lot of fun. What else we got? some Jurassic The Jurassic Park John Hammond Morphed in a morphed with me John Hammond. Oh That's I don't like it. I'll be honest. I don't like it. It's kind of it's kind of weird me out But please hey jump in please have some fun I think a lot of people are what might enjoy this and get a chance to meme out with the community Maybe that'll be a good time And I've also thought like hey, maybe we could do some other Stupid Dumbo Like react not reaction videos is totally not the right word But like going through either like internet safety public safety announcements PSAs or like info Mercials that are just awful and hilariously bad and we can goof off in that regard too But I'd like to slowly pour in different kinds of content that aren't just strictly me going in on the keyboard But I still want to be doing that stuff like I still got plans for pico and a lot of folks are asking him on that Obviously still try hacking me. Obviously. It's a little bit of hacked a box whenever I can obviously malware analysis Obviously the stuff that I do and hopefully even more but then again, I don't want to be Announcing this as if it's some promise or actual announcement. This is me again Experimenting just kind of seeing hey, can I do this? Is this a challenge? Is this something that folks who are people would even be interested in seeing or doing or being along for the ride? But I don't know. I don't know The whole thing I want to get across is is I don't know But I don't even know what to call these sort of videos, but I've had like thoughts to do this sort of thing for a while When I used to commute to work when I used to drive like an hour to an hour and I have to get to work every day I would think about like oh, let's let's Maximize my productivity even when I'm doing nothing. Let's record a podcast all the way into work or something It just get like audio content And I would try but I would still stumble over myself and struggle with that even in the moment as I'm doing now Right, so I don't know. Let's just try it. Let's just play with it. I'm gonna be goofing off I'm gonna be having a good time. I don't know if you guys are interested in these videos Let me know maybe leave you. I don't say something in the comments like John This is stupid. You're you're driving yourself into the ground Or I mean hey, yeah If these are other videos to kind of maybe fill in the gaps or covers cover some other dead air when it's not Strictly cyber strictly security on the keyboard. Maybe that'd be kind of fun And yeah, we'll be doing other live streams. We'll be doing other stuff. I hope to But I'd like to turn the crank and I and I repeatedly battle with myself And I repeatedly say this over and over and over again, but it's not a something for you It's something for me something for me to get in my head and Do more Okay, that's enough hopefully I'll be able to do more days. Thanks so much for being with me. Thanks. Let me know What do you think? I love you guys. I'll see you in the next video. Bye Hey for some of you that are still here, I think a few you might get a kick out of this and it kind of made me laugh my mom Shout out to you by the way mom mama Hammond for her tuning in and watching some of these It's the sweetest thing that warms my heart She texted me the other day and I'll let my camera focus here, but my mom she was asking me like hey John We we we use your YouTube videos as an indicator and a signal that you're okay And like you're still doing stuff. We haven't I haven't seen a video in a bit. Are you good? Super cute super heartwarming. So thanks mom. I really love it and I really appreciate it Yeah, yeah, I'm doing all right, but it's that's the thing. I maybe I gotta make more maybe it's the way that I Keep my life Centered Thanks mom mama Hammond shout out to you. Love you