 You know when he gone during this time you you raising them boys on your own or trying to the first time The second time I was gone before he was gone. You was locked up. Yeah Wow, yes, it was a point in time my mama had then we both in the penchant at the same time same time So yeah, he come from he's seen it Yeah, we on boss talk one-on-one one-on-one. Yeah, we gonna talk whatever. Yeah, and how long you did the three No, I did 19 months on the three 19 months on three and the rest on on parole, right? I parole that's when I parole to Santa Tony. I moved to San Antonio 2007. I've been nervous since wow man So when you and this that you know when he gone during this time You you raising them boys on your own or trying to the first time the second time I was gone Before he was gone. You was locked up. Yeah Wow Yes, so it was a point in time my mama had then we both in the penchant at the same time same turn So yeah, he come from it. He's seen it I always see when you when you left when I left he was for four Okay, and how long were you gone for two years two years? So this is something that that this definitely trickles down. It definitely but he left Like I was already there for a year and a head. Mm-hmm. So when he left the night came home Oh job both Come home around the same time. I came home like six months before he did What was what was it like when you came home for what in him and they seen you and it really wasn't bad because how were they when you came on? six six four and five But his um, his ex wife her mama. They always brought the kids to see me like they would come from San Antonio to Where was I in Gainesville? So they were but I never had met her before So she just reached out one day and wrote me a letter But this is my first time going to jail for anything. So I'm already messed up. I'm don't want to be here So she just show up one day with him with the kids and so she saw it coming every How did it make you feel to see him for the first time to know why you've locked up. He's happy Yeah, I was real happy like me and woody we always like paco. He always crying like But woody he always like mom keep your head This guy and just think he's he's so young and he's still talking like that don't cry in front of nobody Don't you know show no emotions Like he knows Yeah, that's so crazy Crazy and so then you know one thing I've always it because I hear a lot of people tell us well My parents was locked up my parents was locked up And I've never really had the opportunity to hear from a parent who was locked up How did it feel being locked up away from your kids away from your family, you know It was the reason it was so terrible for me because I honestly did not do it. That's the most terrible There we go. Like here we go Yeah, I knew that was coming me and mr. Walter always being friends like we've been over like we always just been friends Right, but he had to type of women that always thought it was something and it really wasn't nothing so I get caught up in His woman thinking that it's something but it's not so she sent her friend to come fight me When I'm letting her get the kids every weekend like they always got them but what is a type you do you punish him Mama be her as she put she hooked me. So I used to listen to that often Like any time it's to us to do some what he don't want to go back. So he was like mama. She hit me So then I call her cuz we cool. I'm cool with all his women. Mm-hmm. So I'm like, what happened She's like, uh, you ain't ain't about the kids. It's about him She's like come meet me and fight. I go meet her and fight her. She put me in jail She the one who'd say come fine. Yeah, then she called. She's the police. I already own the call She trying to set you up. Yeah, so when I go to jail, I tell him you better give me out Like this is your So she dropped the charges, but then she's in her home girl Who deal with mental disabilities to come fight? So when I fight her and they like oh So when I go to jail, that's crazy, yeah, so I'm not thinking they're gonna send me to So I take a polygraph test You pass it But then you got a witness they say no, she did this and then the witness was my cousin And then I never know that my cousin I never noticed that I'm in jail and I get a letter from him He in jail. Oh, I'm sorry. Love make you do crazy things. I wish I wouldn't know he I had no idea to that day So when they try to give me 10 years, I'm about to cut my throat I don't even do this time. I'm not gonna do this. I'm about to die in here So suicidal through the whole process the office and you wasn't thinking about your kids at all I know cuz I'm ready to go cuz they got their daddy and I and nine stepmommas, so I Ready to go so then they come back and like what we could give you two years And so mr. Walter like take the two years. I've got the kids take the two years He just ready but because he done been a prison before so he know and I'm like But what if they come back with more and like now? Just take the two years and go That's the best you gonna get the county time process was really fast because he always make somebody brought the kids up there You gotta have the time to go by me and my kids always had like a real close relationship Close relationship like if I'm sleeping in the call they sleep me in a call if we homeless They homeless like I was like y'all can go to San Antonio. No, we'll sleep. I sigh with you because when I came home everything was good and everything just Drop just drop because before I went I never was in the streets in the club nothing But when I came home everything was different. So now I'm outside in the club in the street So I spent a lot of money on why you think they're not being in jail Changed you like that really going to jail. It really helped me because before I went to jail I didn't know nothing Like I ain't know how to do nothing like I learned everything while I was in there like when I came out I Knew everything I didn't know like I ain't know how to do nothing But really change diapers and take her kids To give you time to think right? I learned who I learned who God was I read the Bible for the first time reading the Bible was when I was in jail Even though I went to church every Sunday from a kid It's a big difference And the crazy thing is I used to pray and but I never read the Bible And so when I went to jail because you were doing what you were taught right? I met a mentor right who wasn't in jail. She just come to the jail and talk to people So I just bonded with her and I became a Priest oh you was a priest and I started praying for people they going to court they get now I'm mad cuz I ain't I'm getting out. So now I don't want to pray for them no more Like I'm telling God. I ain't praying for them no more. I ain't praying for nobody. You told me you taking me home I ain't went home. So one day I'm in they always put me in a single cell because of the south So one day I'm mad at God. We battle back and forward So you tell me I'm going home. I ain't go home. I'm not praying for nobody I don't want to have no relationship with you no more. It's over. So they I'm wrecked in the cell Yeah, so This is the first time I ever hear I ever hear God's voice and he's saying he said I never told you that so from from that point on I Go to court and I take the two you he like take the two years just take it So I take the two years because in this time they never give me no bond But the officers they all love me like shout out to miss. Oh eternal County all the officers miss Birdo They all just taking care of me because they see that I'm I'm everywhere in this situation So I go to court and go to prison. So when I go to prison, it's a whole different world Wow in in that prison. Yeah, it's different. So but when I get out me and the kids I Didn't see them for like a month when I first came home Then when I see them we just file back in place. Yeah, we on boss talk one-on-one. Yeah, we gonna