 I'm gonna do another podcast episode really about what depression feels like, but I think we have it all wrong in society People try to put it into words, which is so hard. It's so hard to put a feeling into words. You have to experience it So people say it's a black cloud. Bullshit. It's not a black cloud a black cloud People can deal with a black cloud. I could deal with a black cloud People say it's like having a really heavy knapsack on your whole body is heavy. I can deal with that You kidding me? Oh, you're just a little heavier. Come on. It's like Winston Churchill saying it's the big black dog that you carry Pshh. So what? I'll walk a dog People say that it's the saturation and life is turned down. It's just a little gloomy. The colors aren't as full No, not for me. The colors are great. Actually the colors can be more vivid when I'm depressed So everyone's different, right? And we try to put these this feeling into words into metaphors and it doesn't work And here's something that Jordan Peterson said I think and Michaela Peterson said which really Does depression justice of how bad it can be and how withdrawal felt for me It's like imagine you wake up in the in the morning Every morning and you realize for the first time that your whole family's dead That's far worse than a black dog. That's far worse than a dark black cloud following you everywhere imagine the horror Imagine the absolute horror The world is the scariest place you can possibly imagine the present scary You can't reflect on the past because that's just as scary because it led you here and the future It's gonna be full of death anyways You don't have your family anymore. You have absolute horror everywhere you look so there's nowhere to run Now we wonder why people take their own life why why they die by suicide Does that make sense now? That imagine you woke up guys imagine you woke up and realize that everyone you cared about is dead And you're completely alone and you have to deal with that forever There's no way out. That's what depression feels like That's what it feels like that's not sadness That's that's real depression That's withdrawal from an antidepressant after being on it for 12 years So that hit me