 And for many of you, it's like, well, how does this even work with survival? You know, I have jobs, I've had careers, I have skills, I have abilities and many of you have sputtered a bit trying to make it in the world and have been tempted to think of yourself as failures because you've sputtered and you haven't been able to like really hit your stride, hit your sweet spot, hit the groove and make it and be successful as the world would define it and actually Jesus says you can't judge your advances from your retreats. Actually when you thought you were failing, when you were judging yourself as a failure, that was Jesus underneath helping shoot down things and close doors and block you from succeeding so that you could answer the call and come inside and know who you are. I had a friend of mine who was at some of you know Donna Marie Kerry, amazing voice. She was one of the early ones that traveled with me back in 1992 and we hit the road together and that was a big step for her. She had a daughter Rachel and husband Lynn and at the time and you know to go hit the road and start trusting Jesus in a real deep way that was a huge leap of faith but and she even doubted it all. She'd had these amazing lyrics that would come through her and she would say you know what Jesus is not going to be using some country girl country girl from Kentucky with a twang you know he's not going to use me and I said what he is using you right now. Real love and all these songs when she traveled with me a whole album came through that were just these most transcendent songs and yet the part of our mind that believes that we're of this world reacts in a very defensive way to the calling when you start to get the calling of your heart it will come up with all kind of reasons all kinds of sabotage reasons to shoot it down and when you feel like you're failing in this world just often often it's just the ways being made clear for you to answer the call so when you seem to be failing and losing actually you're you're taking strides inward towards your ultimate calling and the world would say that's terrible you're what makes something of your life you're just a loser and then the spirits like saying no good just keep coming all things are working to go for good you're dismantling and just continue with the dismantling just keep coming inside