 brilliant audio presents at night all blood is black by David Diop translated by Anna Moskovakis performed by Dion Graham we embraced each other by our names one thing a friendship who thinks betrays Pascoginia Maria de Ponce I am two simultaneous voices one long the other short she come ado come ambiguous adventure one I know I understand I shouldn't have done it I offer India a son of the old old man I understand I shouldn't have God's truth now I know my thoughts belong to me alone I can think what I want but I want that the ones I might have told my secret thoughts to my brothers in arms who will be left so disfigured maimed eviscerated but God would be ashamed to see them show up in paradise and the devil will be happy to welcome them to hell don't ever know who I really am the survivors won't know a thing my old father won't know and my mother if she is still of this world we'll never find out the weight of shame will not be added to the weight of my day they won't imagine what I've thought what I've done the depths to which the word drove me God's truth the family honor will be spared the honor of appearances I know I understand I shouldn't have in the world before I wouldn't have dared but in today's world God's truth I allow myself the unthinkable no voice rises in my head to forbid me my ancestors voices and my parents voices all extinguish themselves the minute I conceived of doing what finally I did I know now I swear to you that I understood it fully the moment I realized that I could think anything it happened like that all of a sudden without warning it hit me brutally in the head like a giant seed of war dropped from the metallic sky the day mademba diep died mademba diep my more than brother took too long to die it was very very difficult it wouldn't end from dawn into evening his guts in the air his insides outside like a sheep that has been ritually dismembered after the sacrifice except mademba was not yet dead and already sample complete ready to continue