 I actually was praying before the gathering and I was really seeing that just the past is really just a construct. There is no real past. It's always a thought that is coming in the moment. It's not something that is back there and that we need to reach in order to do something about it. And it's the same thing for the future. It's just a thought that comes in the moment and it can seem to talk about another moment, but it's still a thought coming in the present moment. And just really seeing that whatever it is that those thoughts are saying will live them in the moment even if we are afraid of something in the future or scared of something in the past or seemingly hurt from something in the past. The true hurt or true fear is experienced now. And it's by just really facing that and going into that that actually we realize that the only thing there is is now. And that was just the concept, only a construct that is covering over the truth of who we are, the discovering of over the love that we are. By releasing these concepts we just go deeper and deeper in the realization of our true nature, allowing that to be our primary experience. And everything in life is always perceived or interpreted depending on all the concepts that we have in mind. So life is happening. We all agree with that. There are things happening over and over again everywhere all the time. And the way we live it is through those filters, through those concepts, through those interpretations. And interpretations are made based on the concept that we have in mind. So what forgiveness is inviting us to do is really realizing that those are only concepts. And that by letting go of those concepts, by really looking at those concepts and releasing them then what's happening is just life is still happening. But there is in the filter of interpretation that makes us suffering, which is truly just holding on to an identity, a separate self that exists in the interpretation I'm making. In the meaning I'm giving to something, I exist in that as a separate individual. And the fear is that if I release that, who am I? Because we don't know actually, then we're facing this kind of nothingness, this kind of emptiness, the space that we are. But that's why we're afraid actually of really allowing this recognition to be and we want to be something and absolutely holding on to that. And so I feel like really it all comes down to the theme of the weekend because we hold on to this I thought, I am somebody, I am whatever, I am a worthy, I am worthy, I am a businesswoman, I am a psychotherapist, I am a woman, I am a man. And we define ourselves like that so that this I that we think we are is going to be strengthened and that's really what separation is about. But the only thing that's truly happening, whatever I'm experiencing, is that in the moment I believe in separation, in the moment I'm holding on to this I that I think I am, I am something, I am somebody and this is this I that is the only problem if we can say there is a problem because it's what holds the whole world together. The whole world, the whole story of who we think we are is coming from a moment separation. Not a separation that happened 5,000 years ago, 2,000 years ago when Jesus was on earth. Not at all, it's moment by moment by moment. It's really what we are inviting by choosing forgiveness is the total release of the past, the total release of the future by accepting the moment as it is and going beyond what we think the form is to accept our true nature and that's what Atonement is about, accepting the truth of herself. And I feel like, yeah, this weekend is really dedicated to that, to look at whatever we believe we are and I am that thing that is covering over the I am that we are, the one that we all are. Not like there's a one here, there's a one there, there's a one there. No, it's the same one and it's one big giant projection and there might be 7 billion of interpretation but only one projection. It's not I'm projecting you, you're projecting this, I'm projecting that. No, it's not personal projection. It's one big giant projection of the world and an idea of separation and in that, there is suffering. That's the suffering, it's that idea of separation and we release it by fully accepting the moment as it is and going beyond whatever the form is to the realization of who we are. Yeah, and I was thinking of, this is the Hollywood and the movie industry when you were speaking, I was thinking of animation and I was thinking of the original Solylord films that we started off with the invention of movies. It was really just frame by frame strung together so there's just one photograph and then another photograph and another. But when you do it fast enough, it gives you the illusion of motion and when you're talking, I was thinking that in eternity everything's one and everything's eternal and everything's changeless so the ego is synonymous with change. There's no change in heaven, there's no ego in heaven but the ego is synonymous with change, really the belief you can change your identity from the eternal to the temporal and so that one idea of change we'll say that's what the ego is, it's just change gets projected and makes this illusion of emotion picture and really it's just one moment at a time, one snapshot, one snapshot and that's how they make animation, Walt Disney just take the snapshots and make them move and then Minnie Mouse, Mickey Mouse, it's all fiction based on the illusion of the movement of images. So right before we started we were talking about the filter it's not so much that illusion of motion that's a problem because that's just what's been given now, that's the projection of the change but really it's the filter of the concepts that we can clear so we can have a clean filter while we're watching the movie we don't have to have an identification with the movie unless we have a concept on the filter but if the filter is completely clean then it's just, we're back to just what seems to be a motion picture that doesn't have any meaning in and of itself like lesson number one from the course, nothing I see means anything so it seems like what we'll really look closely at is what do you put on the filter that blocks you from the I am awareness blocks you from totally being present because whatever you hold on the filter, whatever shadow it will skew your interpretation and you're never upset by what seems to be occurring you're just upset because of the interpretation of what seems to be occurring and you have the power of interpretation there's nothing that can happen to us outside of us but we must recognize the power of interpretation in order to be free that's like a saver that makes everything possible suddenly just being able to look at the interpretations and say yeah and somewhere the mind is so scared actually I think of really taking full responsibility for that because in that freedom is right there and it feels like the mind is so scared of actually taking all that back because as long as projection is going on then seemingly unpowerless this is not about me it's others, it's them, I'm not doing anything but taking it back is actually the way to freedom it's really realizing that there is no one outside of myself ever doing anything it's all just an interpretation of something that is playing out and so what I'm really seeing is that actually in the moment when the thought comes there is an attraction like the Course talks about this attraction to guilt the attraction to stay a separate individual to believe that there is a real separate individual who has autonomy and independence and who can be in control of life and wanting this one to still say the same wanting it to be the controller of life wanting it to be the one in charge wanting it to be the one that's going to give me everything you always wanted instead of trusting your power it's not my own but that is greater than my own that's going to give me absolutely everything not little things like specialness or special relationship or an amount of money or special kind of job or house but absolutely everything which is truly the pure recognition of our true nature and because somewhere there's still some value given more to the separate self and to the separate individual autonomous and independent there's an addiction to go with the story so there's a thought that is coming in the moment and the thought is believed and in that moment there's a separate individual existing it's not existing before, it's not existing after it's existing again in a moment by moment experience and the attraction to guilt is really going with the story taking the thought and allowing it to be a linear story that is talking about me and I am the hero of this dream in that story and it's very beautiful, we are in Hollywood we all want to be an actor, a hero, whatever and that's what it is, it's like I am the one in power and God knows it's not going to be for you, it's going to be for me I'm going to be the main character of this movie and so we can see that the going with the story with the thought and feeding the fantasy with the thought is an addiction and we can start to look closely at what are we addicted by all those thoughts, all those judgments that make up a self that doesn't exist how do we really go deeper and deeper and deeper with that?