 Wouldn't be doing this shit if it wasn't important to me, you know, it's it's just not worth it. It really isn't The way I'm feeling now is okay But to think what I'll feel like after another three weeks straight of doing some pretty hardcore dieting But I'm gonna look amazing. I hope and Really, that's that's what you get out of it. Isn't it? I mean, I'm not doing it for the trophy I'm doing it for the For the way I'm gonna feel at the end of it having followed through with something having Gotten into the best shape of my life. Finally after fucking around for like years saying I was gonna do something. You're not doing it I'm just basically faced with the realities that are a comp rep and Obviously after this I'm gonna be able to reflect on it and give it give a little bit of advice for people if they want it or They'll be able to refer back to this video series Which is what I'm trying to put together like I'm trying to put together a cool set of videos Following me to the stage for my first ever time Who knows where I'm gonna be in two years five years ten years, but I'm always gonna be able to look back at this and reminisce on the times Of my first comp rep so I'm right in the middle of it right now. It's crazy But you can't predict the future all you can do is Do what you can in the now And I don't know exactly what's gonna come of this this comp. I really don't all I do know is something along the lines of what Greg Plitt said about You never know what opportunity is gonna come up. You just need to train yourself and prepare yourself so that when they do You're prepared and you can take them make the most of the opportunities I think you know he's referring to being a fitness model in that particular video and basically saying that you never know what's gonna happen you've got a Bend shape all the time so that when the opportunity does come up Boom, you can get it late as far as an article goes or a shoot or something like that so That is what I'm gonna get out of this. I'm gonna get The awesome feeling of having follow through with something. I'm gonna be in the best shape of my life Hopefully I might do well in a comp who knows and God the The world's my oyster after that. I really don't know what's gonna come after that, but that's the exciting thing is Who knows? But you just got to take the risk and do it Because no one else is gonna do it for you That's for sure Okay, well, I don't know how I got through that, but I did I've just got my goodies and I'll show you what I got. I won't eat it all but basically as I said, I've gone for low carb Sorry low fat high carb things As well as my protein source which today is gonna be two scoops protein powder and the rest of it come from chicken breast First thing I'm so glad I found these Pikelets fucking love these things We've got eight in a packet each pikelet Has one protein no fat and 13 carb So I don't know how many of those I'll have but they're definitely fitting my macros I Got these I Looked at every single chocolate biscuit. There was nothing that was low fat enough, but I really like these anyway, so The macros on these for two biscuits, you've got no protein Three fat and 18 carb. So I probably have at least six of those I got one whole kumara I got a nice and round one with lots of skin because the skin is the most nutritious part and it's also the tastiest part I love it. So I'm just gonna throw this in the oven by itself. It's actually 600 grams, which is probably a bit much So, yeah, I might eat half of it. I might eat the whole thing. I don't know, but it's gonna be delicious I got these things which I was eating when I first got here, but I cut back on them because I Just had to but today I'm gonna eat them So you get five balls five little banana dates and nut balls they're delicious and Each one has one protein two and a half fat and six carb, so I don't know if I'll eat them or not Actually, you know Man, I'm hungry Well is that I got some dates love dates. I got a hundred grams exactly I Won't eat all of them. We're probably half, but yeah really alone fat high in carb, obviously And last but not least We got some mixed berries. I haven't had mixed berries in weeks I was eating them like every day and Obviously, yeah, no protein no fat and just straight carbs. So this whole well 500 grams is gonna be like 38 grams of carbs so I'll eat this whole thing and I'll probably mix it with cottage cheese and My protein powder for the day, so that'll be a good meal And yeah, that's pretty much it So I am gonna enjoy today I'm gonna eat this food throughout the day I won't show you it when I'm eating it But what I will show you is the workout that I do today, which is a push day. I got chest and shoulders Shoulders being playing up a little bit just getting leaner and stuff I can feel you know, I can feel it now You can really feel like the muscle and the fibers and stuff when you start getting leaner and my shoulders not perfect So we'll see how that goes, but I'm pretty sure the pump's gonna be epic. So I Will see you in the gym later on tonight We're here the news has come on it must be six o'clock and before I go to the gym I just want to talk about how today's gone so The huge struggle has been Spacing out the carbs throughout the day before my training session because Tonight I wanted to get some footage and so I'm not gonna go into a gym when it's completely full so Probably nine o'clock or after and it's some I bought the food at like lunchtime Six o'clock now. It's just been a real struggle not to eat it all at once, you know I'm probably eating about 150 grams of carbs in the first hour So I I went actually for a little lay down. I don't know if it was carb coma or what I don't think it was because it wasn't even that many but I Had a bit of a nap for about an hour and a half and now I'm back up and Feeling tired But yeah about to probably have another Hundred grams of carbs and then wait a couple hours, and then I'll be off to the gym. So Yeah, the hardest thing is just being not eating at all But luckily this time I've gone out and bought all that stuff with a plan in mind So I'm keeping to the plan rather than just having a reefy day or just like it not counting the calories or anything So definitely gonna be staying under 3,000 calories for the day Otherwise, it's just too many and I'll also be doing 500 calories cardio post weight training this evening just to Once I've got the pump once I see what I look like that's what I really wanted to do this for and then I'll be on to just the normal normal diet tomorrow the next day and then It'll be show day, baby So I'll just catch up with a bit of news here wait for the sport Bit of short on the street home in a way something like that, and then it will be off to the gym make some gains So it's quarter past eight and we are finally off to the gym It's about time to see what these carbs have done for my strength and for my look I'm at about 280 carbs right now. I've had pretty much that whole packet of biscuits. I've had all the pie quits half the dates and the whole pack of those banana balls and A piece of chocolate Yeah, we're about to go So The gym was absolutely packed tonight. I've never seen it that busy and It's like well, what is it? It's just after 10 now. It's empty now, but unfortunately couldn't get any footage. Although Vascularity was was there but Man my my shoulder is seriously playing up a something like the leaner I get just the the less The less stability you have, you know the less fucking meat you have around the joints, and it's just It's it's not good, but I am taking it Fish oil, but Not sure if it's gonna do too much now, but either way Cardio was a fail too. I just can't be fucked seriously my my phone ran out of battery and there was fuck all on the TV and so I did 20 minutes and It was like 150 calories like nothing. So This is it Three days out tomorrow. We've got the wax and we've got the tan And I'm going to practice a pump up. So I'm gonna borrow one of the The bands from any sign fitness that I'm gonna take it with me to Wellington and Tomorrow night. I'm going to have a practice pump up to see how I get myself looking so Because yeah, I don't want to be pumping up for the first time ever backstage before the show But one thing I am realizing is that my chest is flat man. I I've got fuck all chest and these guys that get on stage in the IFBB. They got massive chests like Ridiculously and they're all pumped as fuck like mine looks like shit Anyways going home now Meal number five high on protein moderate fat low carb. I've already had my car