 It all started in my adolescent age when I had a traumatic experience. I couldn't cope with it at all because my family did not really appreciate me displaying any emotions and I basically wasn't allowed to live through the things that I was experiencing. Anytime when I would mention that I might be depressed, I might need some assistance with that and I was just, it was all brushed off and I was told that I'm making things up. And I couldn't understand what's going on but I was gradually shoving all my emotions more and more into a separate place of my brain. I wouldn't have to live through them, I would just get rid of them but that's not how it works. You kind of just throw stuff away out of your brain, it just doesn't work that way.