 Hey guys, it's me it's Monica. I am so so sorry I know I know many of you have reached out to me I've had emails if it messages I'm so so sorry for disappearing on you I I don't know you know it's it's I've been trying really hard to sort of find myself and I know that sounds super corny but it it's so true I think I think I'm just gonna be in my soul I guess I think that when you go through the trauma you know death and and stuff like that it's it's hard to it's hard to come back to being you you know when your whole dynamic your whole life has really changed so Jane I had left home on December 26th and we we went on we went on a road trip and it was really kind of cool because you know it's nice to be able to leave home and not have to worry about your home because we had someone staying there and taking care of it and all that so we never had to really worry but it's it was it was an adjustment we're living in 340 square feet since December 26th and a lot of togetherness and at the same time I thought gosh I was gonna film I was gonna do this I was gonna do that I did none of it I did none of it Jay and I have really we've worked on our health we've worked on trying to find our equilibrium especially me because after losing my mother my father my brother everything looked different in my world and I felt different yet everything around outside was status quo you know people were living their lives and and and all of that and death is so final isn't it I don't want to be doom and gloom because I because I needed this time I think away to really try to focus and try to heal emotionally so we left home left home on December 26th and we we you know we had one overnight we had two overnights and then we we were in Georgia for a few days and in Georgia I started to to walk more because the weather was nice and I walked all around the campground first I started was like half a mile and I kind of worked myself up to going to like maybe a mile so by the time we got to say Augustine I was walking sometimes every day sometimes even twice a day but you know maybe about a mile maybe about a mile and a half and slow slow walking right just trying to just trying to move and and just focusing in on that so I know in my previous video I think because I was with Marlene and I shared visiting her and we've we've gone all over I have so many different video clips and so many different pictures that I want to put together I mean we've gone all over I spent some time with Marlene that was awesome we went on a cruise our very very first cruise ever and that was super awesome my sister's a travel agent she took really good care of us so I'm going to be doing sort of a review on the cruise and and all of that we went and visited the villages which is in central Florida which was fun to visit we have friends that stayed there they invited us over for a couple of nights and then we went over to the West Coast we went and visited checked out a bunch of different areas that we might be interested in and then spent some time with mother-in-law in Venice and then back to St. Augustine and then more traveling we met the most amazing people while we were away people that were continuing to stay in contact with and I'll tell you there's you know especially in an RV community even you might be a stranger but you're not because you have shared interest right you're RVing you're doing this and that so we've met some really awesome people and we are currently we'll be heading home shortly but currently we're still in we're in Myrtle Beach and right on the ocean it's been beautiful I've been walking every day we've been swimming the pool they have an indoor pool that's been heated so that pool has been really awesome for Jay to swim around in and especially with this hip replacement it's just it's just been it's been wonderful and I miss home I miss my kids I miss so many different things I miss all of you I miss doing videos I miss having a little place to film in right now I'm sitting in my RV on the couch my shade down not a beautiful background but I I'm hoping that I have enough Wi-Fi later to get this uploaded but I just wanted to pop it and say I'm okay I think I found myself again I'm going to film after this I'm going to film in a little empties a just a little tiny bit of empties and talk about some of the things that I've been doing you know like I've been really focusing in on my skincare while I've been away I didn't want to because I know it's going to be in the element so out in you know in the wind and the Sun and all that I didn't want to neglect my skincare and I've had some major surprises with that so I'm going to get into a lot of that you know in another in another video but I have so much to share with you guys and I don't know if any of you are going to be really interested in the traveling and the different things we've done and you know campground reviews and stuff like that but I do have so many different things I want to share with you but most importantly I want to share that we're okay we're actually doing quite well and I am finding myself again and and finding myself I think I think was harder than I thought it would be you know because I found myself being sort of like a shell going through the motions of everyday life we've been we've actually been working while we've been away this hasn't been an extended vacation and I have been working every every almost every day and I've been teaching classes tomorrow I have a class that if the weather doesn't cooperate I don't know what I'm gonna do because I've got 199 people signed up for a class tomorrow so I've been working Jay's been working you know we have we've been able to do that remotely which has been really really awesome but I do miss my family you know and Easter was really hard we were you know away from Easter not so much that we were away from the family but Easter itself was because last year on Easter Sunday is when my mom died she died on Easter Sunday and even though the date is not the same because mom passed away April 9 because you know Easter comes falls on a different day every year but Easter was hard you know because they kept thinking of my mom in the hospital when I last saw her and how you know I never thought that was going to be the end in in that sense so yeah and I'm just finding my equilibrium I just yeah it's just been one of those wacky things so I am bound and determined I am going to be doing some videos I'm going to talk about some of my skincare I'm going to share some of my reviews and I don't know if you guys are going to be interested necessarily in the crews and all that stuff but if I put it on my real estate channel I'll link it here but if not you know just kind of give it a little look anyways and a little light because YouTube does like that I mean YouTube probably figured I'm gone forever because I haven't been around but I have received your emails and senior messages and and and thank you so I I know this is a video about nothing but I just wanted to pop in and tell you that I'm I'm okay I'm back I hope I'm actually going to be visiting with Sheila I'm really looking forward to seeing Sheila and I'm hoping I can get her on camera but I'm gonna be visiting with Sheila and and chatting with her you know life with Lily Sheila or simply Sheila I should say was her channel name and I can't wait to see her and her husband David I saw Maline as you guys know Maline we stayed at her place too and Maline's doing fabulous I mean she's been doing awesome with her Weight Watchers diet that she's been on I have lost weight since I've been away but it's it's it's really been it's the exercise right it's watching what I put in my mouth and it's staying active and moving around like I said Jay and I have been going for a lot of walks we go swimming as often as possible in the indoor pool and the swimming has been super good for him because it's low impact and and it's really helped him a lot so I'm in a superimpose a couple of most recent pictures I took my bike out on the beach rode my bike along the beach I I just thought it was awesome awesome to do that and every day I have been out on the beach except for today it's pouring out I've been out on the beach every day and I have gotten myself up to walking four miles on the beach that's back you know back and forth round trip so four miles and working on getting my heart rate up while I'm walking so that's that's been super good and then at night if we do we go to the pool that's more you know exercise but gosh I'm gonna miss the beach walking when we go home I'm gonna miss the heated pool oh my gosh I'm gonna have to maybe look into a Y membership or or something like that where where you can have access to a pool I think that'll be that'll be really good but I'm I'm doing great you know the hard thing is I I couldn't I had my hair cut but underneath this wig my my hair is pretty well gray and I'm not gonna go gray it's just that when you're in a strange place and you want to go and get your hair done or something like that and they're talking about coloring this and that I'm like oh I don't know you know I don't know so I just decided no I I have wigs and toppers but quite frankly I haven't even worn them this is really the first time I've had a wig on my head I've been wearing my ball caps just you know casual casual and I've been to I've been smiling a lot more than I've smiled in a long time you know I really have been I feel good I I feel like very positive and I know there's a lot of turmoil in the world and I know and I know you know there's probably gonna be way more turmoil because all these things that are gonna be happening but I'm just feeling really super positive and happy in my skin I guess so again thank you all so much for sending me the messages leaving the comments coming back and checking out my channel I so appreciate you all you'll be surprised when you see a video finally of me and then if you watch this she's gonna she's not talking about anything but you know what I'm going to be talking about stuff so come back thank you thank you thank you so much bye guys