 It is a beautiful Christmas morning and I figured I talked to you guys about what my life was like before YouTube Something I've never really gone over Starting with high school. I mean I was kind of the opposite of popular It's funny because my mother used to actually dress me and my brother the same way until we were like oh Man, maybe like freshman in high school. So, you know, I mean didn't really fit in Parents were very like strict and rigid no real guidance outside of studying and doing homework every day One big thing that stuck out was we weren't allowed to play video games during the week and In high school and even early on in college. I was like obsessed with playing video games I'm sure this had to do with me being restricted as a child and That resulted in me pretty much signing up for a community college At the last minute straight outside of high school because I didn't have any focus I didn't know what I was doing and that translated to community college itself So I was failing in and out for three or four years Maybe I accumulated like 25 or 30 credits But I was literally playing video games like 10 12 hours a day Until like 3 4 5 in the morning, you know, it's too tired to go to class the next day And my parents were actually home So I would actually go to McDonald's or something like hang out for a couple hours To pretend that I went to class until my parents left for work at the time My brother was away at school unlike me. He was actually valedictorian You know, he followed down the path of what my parents had been really just beating into us That if you study and you go to school, you're gonna get a good job and be successful But even then all our parents really did was and and nothing against them But, you know, they were kind of stressed out with their past life situations with my mentally disabled sister Who is still at home? So my parents were under an incredible amount of stress and Didn't really have, you know, the opportunity or the guidance themselves to know what to do So my brother was doing his own thing. I was at home in and out of community college looking for crappy jobs I mean, my father worked a government job and my mother, you know Was very sick for a period of time in her life and she had to give up her good job down in Manhattan So didn't exactly have any connections anywhere through anyone to get any job Whatever through most of this period of time in early high school through early college I was lifting weights. So, you know, despite not being popular despite, you know, wasting most of my time playing video games I still had some element of health and I was in a way working on something that would help me in the future You know, I was spending an hour or two a day in the gym I was, you know, bulking up eating a lot of food consistently So my first job was actually door-to-door sales for this pyramid scheme selling windows and roofing and They weren't actually paying me per hour. So I would, you know, be walking around, you know 7, 8, 9, 10 hours a day just knocking on doors Asking people if they needed new windows or roofing and it was a hundred percent commission based So I would go days without a paycheck. I mean, I only lasted a week there I remember the last day it was like absolutely pouring soaking rain And one of my buddies did this like thing where he would get like soaking wet without an umbrella so people would feel bad for him and and try to get more sales and Then I remember the last day as well. I drove my 2000 Volvo over this curb and it completely cracked the engine mount because I was deprived of sleep. I just overall horrible experience My buddy from high school Actually got me a job working in a movie theater as like a cashier just part-time minimum wage But back to my video game addiction I was still playing, you know until 2 3 4 a.m. And correspondingly I would show up late to work I think I was at that job for a few months until I lost the job and I mean, you know My parents restricting me when I was younger and not teaching me that, you know video games aren't important They're just a side thing, you know It's one thing if you want to you know spend a few hours a day doing them But you have to understand that the main focus in your life is XYZ I never had someone to tell me that and I never realized that until my early 20s, you know I was playing World of Warcraft in high school All day. I was after that. I was playing League of Legends in college all day And my one biggest regret in general Profession-wise is not capitalizing on how good I was at these video games at the time, you know playing 12 15 hours a day I could have started, you know live streaming on Twitch doing stuff like that, but that's A whole different story Then I saw an advertisement for a staffing company That was hiring waiters and this is still in those early years of college like early 2010s Still no guidance still dropping in and out Went on an interview for this Catering job for wait staff and I was hired. I don't really remember a bullshitting on the interview I think the guy was just really desperate to get anyone to work and I was making, you know, 20 $22 an hour For a couple nights of work a week. So I was able to save up some money And I had a little bit of extra spending cash for my bodybuilding food for that type of stuff I think at the time I was on the bodybuilding diet Just a lot of chicken rice broccoli sweet potatoes really classic conventional stuff So now I'm working at this catering company one or two nights a week Still living with my parents in and out of community college if I was a community college I was only going a couple days a week and Living at my parents. They were always like really negative people never really supportive Always like oh, what are you doing with your life house college? It's just never supportive. So These events at this catering company were at a different place every week, which was a nice change of pace One of them was at Trump National Golf Club before Trump was president and I was speaking to the manager asking if he needed bartenders Not really expecting a call But these people started calling me to work at Trump Golf Club separately from the catering company For a few days per week and I learned the basics of bartending there really just like dive bar stuff Really basic for attending vodka sodas some classic cocktails and this golf club was seasonal So I was still looking for other jobs at the time I was still in and out of school and I started watching Anthony Bourdain's no reservations Some like cooking documentaries and I realized that if I was gonna work in hospitality I might as well try to get a job in Manhattan before I started working in Manhattan I landed a personal training job in a gym and I was also working as a private trainer on the side. I Wasn't certified at the time now. I have NASM but the gym job was terrible and I should have tried to find another job or Some more clients because I was only making like a few hundred dollars per week, you know training people cooking and Not really being able to expand So that only worked out for you know a few months as well the private training job and I was in and out of that commercial gym as a personal trainer for several years But pretty much made minimum wage of the whole time because even when I was training clients, you know They were only paying me like $12 an hour, which was ridiculous. So through that private training client I actually ended up catering a few parties as a private chef, you know, I was prepping meals for him He really liked my cooking All of that chef experience was self-taught in 2013 2014. I wasn't playing video games as much I was actually obsessively watching YouTube videos on food how to cook, you know, practicing in the kitchen everything really being self-taught and After catering those few parties, you know kind of stopping my gym job I ended up getting a job in a restaurant just north of my parents house, which was outside of Manhattan And that was definitely a step up from the golf club, you know, I learned a lot more about food learn a lot more about bartending Took my like hospitality knowledge a step up But you know that job wasn't really making too much money either was killing myself and only lasted a few months there So I started looking for jobs in Manhattan and you know those guys that Worked in that restaurant north of the city. They were from Manhattan So some of that experience and knowledge did translate over after going on like dozens and dozens of interviews. I lucked out Ended up getting a bartending job at this place called DB GB kitchen and bar Which was Danielle Ballude who's a famous friend chef on his restaurant that was downtown It's actually closed now closed a few years ago But it was it was decent. I had no clue what I was doing, you know, thankfully they taught me the basics And I learned that I had this really obnoxious Behavior that was probably from my mother where I would interrupt people and finish their sentences and not Let people speak So they ended up firing me there because no one really liked me, but I learned a few lessons learned how to bartend in Manhattan in some capacity and Over the course of those next few years literally from like 2015 until now, you know, I've been working in New York City restaurants been personal training people only recently Has YouTube been a thing? so by this time it's about 2015 and I had saved up enough money at these bartending jobs for my jaw surgery and This was a goal. I had in mind, you know, I was unhappy with my appearance. I could tell something was wrong so In my mind, I had a couple goals to fix my teeth get some jaw surgery While I was working in these bartending jobs a lot of people always asked me if I was an actor So I figured all right, let's get my teeth fixed. Let's see if acting is something I'm interested in and Somewhere in this blurb I went back to college at Hunter College in the city But that was really horrible because my commute was like two hours each way and and that didn't last long Well, my parents were still beating me to death with the you know, the go to school get your degree You'll get a job and everything will come together magically. I've worked in so many different bars and restaurants I honestly couldn't tell you them all. I do remember one was this Steakhouse around the time I was at Hunter College and I actually didn't take my finals at Hunter College because I was trying to get this steakhouse job and make some money and The first week of training lined up with the finals. So what are you gonna do? So over the course of the next year to I think What happened? I wasn't working because I was recovering from jaw surgery actually So I had jaw surgery and oh no, that was when I was at Del Frisco's. It's honestly It's all blurred to me guys. So before I had that jaw surgery. I was working at a steakhouse Del Frisco's That's where I saved up the rest of my money That would have been a really great job if I if I stuck with it, but you know, I was really stressed out there I just decided to stop it and get the jaw surgery then for most of 2016 even early 2017 I was recovering from that jaw surgery I'm trying to remember what job no so then after I recovered from the jaw surgery That was when I went back to Hunter College and then I started working in another steakhouse that went okay and Then I got another job at a cocktail bar Which was where I started working in more of a bar managerial position, you know, I was head bartender there I was kind of organizing and in charge of most of the stuff But you know, they weren't paying a lot of money. They weren't doing so well So I actually ended up working for Salt Bay New Sret Steakhouse in Manhattan That was at the end of 2017 and that was also when I was auditioning for Masterchef So I passed up on that New Sret Steakhouse job, which might have been really lucrative But I ended up not getting on Masterchef ended up not having a job when I came back And that's when I started having a lot of really bad sleeping issues and health issues from that trip out to LA and I didn't look for a job for months because I wasn't really sleeping And that's when my YouTube channel started kind of growing. I think I think was it, you know, that's when my YouTube channel started growing in Some capacity, you know, I was doing videos more consistently. I was around a few thousand subscribers Where did the YouTube channel start the YouTube channel started in? 2016 but my memory is so bad guys. I honestly don't even remember Making YouTube videos when I was at like that steakhouse and stuff and doing all these things in college I didn't even really talk about my personal life on my YouTube channel at the time and The carnivore diet was a blur too, you know the carnivore diet I started, you know pretty much at the beginning of all of this after I took Accutane But like I wish my memory was better because then this story would be a bit more Chronological Accutane must have been Early on in college and then the carnivore diet started The carnivore diet started when I had my first job at that Trump golf club, but Point is I've kind of been following a really consistent carnivore diet for about six years So nothing really deviated or changed about it, you know I've been buying steaks from the same place livers salmon were from the same place only in the last year So has my diet changed somewhat in the Roy Darian stuff so Back to more currently. I left my job around May of this year So the salt and so just to clarify the time range master chef was early 2018 And most of 2018 I was just working hard on my YouTube channel pumping out videos and early 2019 is where I had a really big jump in subscribers that being said I still was looking for bartending jobs and Personal training jobs, you know even earlier this year when I had like 40 50,000 YouTube subscribers so earlier this year was the last time I've worked a bartending job and I Kind of made a few mistakes, you know, I didn't get interviewed there early enough It's pretty much like the hottest cocktail bar in Manhattan right now it's called well the restaurant was called for Roche and I can't remember what the rooftop bar was called, but it's in the moxie hotel in Nomad and It was like all celebrities are going there like the Victoria's seeker models were having their parties there So I might have had a bit of fun at that bartending job if I had, you know, better connections and was able to stay in there But you know the YouTube channel I started making some money on ad revenue You know, I started the Frankie's naturals the hygiene and cosmetic products And I was making about as much as I was working these crappy bartending jobs I mean, I was still bartending right now if I could get a decent job because you know You make decent money on the weekend night and You know it would have been nice I declined a personal training job earlier this year too because it just wasn't enough money But now with the YouTube with the me company, you know You guys have seen what's happened over the past year or so so I won't cover that too much But you know things are going a lot better And I know the story has been all over the place and I probably missed way too many details about things But this is just to give you guys an idea of Like how much I've struggled like I've never really made a considerable amount of money And and you know my persistence and and my struggle throughout most of my adult life You know having very little to no guidance has been a reason that I kind of act like I do You know everything I've done has been on my own from you know my bartending jobs to my personal training jobs You know no connections no guidance and And I'm very thankful for the internet. Otherwise. I definitely wouldn't be here right now So like my ability to take direction be dynamic, you know learn things quickly Is why I feel like I'm able to excel at so many things and you know dealing with the rejection and Stress of so many of these jobs Has made it I guess easier for me to to work with the YouTube channel and do this stuff every day But it's you know given me a Harsh sense of reality and how difficult life can be So I don't take anything for granted and it's why when I see all of these Special interest shills these people, you know coming into you know what I've been doing and what I've worked very hard for You know, I'm just I'm willing to go back to what I was doing if it means, you know Making sure these people don't take advantage of someone like myself You know, I've seen horrible things happen to my family members horrible things happen to other people As a result of one thing degenerate scumbag people trying to make money and only caring for themselves. So By by being a better person myself and helping other people and and having integrity I'm hoping to you know be one of the I guess more positive people on this planet in a sense that I'm helping people as opposed to being a parasite as opposed to you know draining the system So I guess we'll wrap this up here because I am pretty cold my hands are getting numb And I thought it was a little warmer outside today with the Sun, but I guess not So thank you guys for joining me as always just like the video subscribe if you haven't Share the video if you'd like to you can check out all the links in the description below But you guys enjoy your Christmas Day