 I was an aspiring physicist who lost his passion in his work. Through brain education, I found my life purpose. My name is Phillip Jang. I live in Mesa, Arizona, and I'm a yoga instructor at Body and Brain Yoga Tachi. There's many things I overcame through brain education. Brain education has been a part of my life, my whole life, because my mother, she's been doing it before I was born, and she was a brain education instructor for kids. And when I first started this program, I didn't have a lot of affinity towards it. Probably the biggest thing I overcame through brain education is my mental health. I had the anxiety disorder for a very long time in my life. In my youth, I was always surrounded by kind of negative, kind of always conflict environment, like my grandparents fighting, my parents fighting, something like that. So I think that's where it developed initially, and many events occurred throughout my life. Like I was bullied when I was in elementary school. That was a big factor. I didn't know I had anxiety until I was in college. There was a huge event where a lot of people gathered, and that's when I really hit me like, and my heart started to run very quickly, and I actually had to run out and throw up somewhere. So that's when I realized I had anxiety. Until then, I just was living in this constant anxious state. I didn't even know that I was living like this. When I was in university, I was a very successful student. I was a top student in physics, and I was the president of the physics society, and I was working on a lot of research projects. And mentoring a lot of younger students. So on the outside, I was always like this outgoing and energetic and always encouraging person, but I knew I had something wrong inside because I never kind of felt it was like my true self. And inside, I was always kind of something was going wrong inside of me. Like I had all these negative, like cynical emotions, and I didn't know how to deal with it at the time, so the best thing I had to do was just hide them away and just show my kind of outside self. I had a lot of emotional and mental problems that I was neglecting. So it was like a snowballing, more momentum, and there's a point where I couldn't take this anymore. So I had to drop all my kind of social relationships. I had to drop from school. I had to drop all the research projects I was working on. I had to drop my work. Basically what I did was crawl into my room, just staying in my room in my bed, and I had so much chest pain, so much agony. And in my brain, it was just running, I'm kind of worth a human being. I don't deserve love. I don't deserve to love, and I don't deserve to be loved. I was in this kind of surreal state where I felt like this third person just out of my body, I had an out-of-body experience just watching my body do, like, live through the life. So I would be talking to someone. It didn't feel like I was talking to someone. I would just be like this observer watching this body, speaking to that person, something like that. I felt very disconnected to everything I did. I no longer felt joy in anything I was doing. Nothing was working for me. I tried many things like exercise, things like that, but nothing I did. I felt like it was helping me. I'll just keep going darker and darker and darker, becoming more and more sick. And there came a time where I became so physically and kind of mentally and emotionally sick. So I went into the scientific career thinking that it was something I really wanted to do, something that's really beneficial for the society and the world. But the more I was going deeply into it, I realized this wasn't what I wanted. I saw kind of all my people around me, my colleagues, team members, professors. They're always so stressed and depressed. I was in a very kind of competitive environment where instead of people like trying to work together, always fighting against each other for grant or scholarship or trying to prove that their scientific result is better, something like that. The more I was doing it, I realized I don't feel like this is what I wanted to do in the first place. I started this because I wanted to help. I wanted to help the world. I saw no way this was going to be beneficial to the world. So that's when I started to doubt myself, doubt my path. And that was probably the biggest cause of what brought me down into this big state of depression, anxiety, and all these mental illnesses. Luckily, I was still working part-time at the body and brain headquarters because I knew a lot of Excel and programming, things like that. So they recommended me this opportunity to go to New Zealand. That's when I realized I needed a big change in my life. So I dropped everything. I sold all my clothes, shoes. I was really into fashion, something like that. So I sold everything at a not a good deal price. I sold everything at a half price. I just needed the money to go by the ticket to New Zealand. And I just dropped everything and went there. Why? Because I needed something desperately. I wanted to change. So the reason I went to New Zealand was because they had the Earth Citizens Leadership Program. That was for young people all around the world. During that program, I really grew a lot. I experienced a lot. Later, they needed somebody to teach the yoga classes at the new center, and they had nobody else. So they kind of made me the center manager. And before then, I probably taught classes maybe like two to three times. And they just made me the center manager. I was very kind of afraid and feel like I kind of fulfilled my duty. But I said I'll do it because I was so desperate to overcome all the darkness I was. So through being center manager and yoga instructor in the Body and Brain Yoga Center in New Zealand, I got to connect, learn how to connect with people and really learn that how joyful it is, how heartwarming it is that I can do something that comes from my heart to help people and I see them improve their physical condition, a lot of the problems they're going through emotionally and mentally. That was kind of a big growth moment for me. And unfortunately, I had to leave after six months of being manager in the Auckland Center. I came back to the Arizona. Immediately when I came back, I started to feel all this anxiety again. I realized that was because I kind of ran away from anxiety. So I had many options there. What to do? Like did I want to go back to New Zealand? Did I want to work in the headquarters again or in the centers? And I decided to work in the Body and Brain Centers because I wanted to overcome myself through people and I want to overcome kind of like anxiety and depression. And I felt like this was the right thing to do for me. I wasn't running away anymore. I've been working in the Body and Brain Centers for about more than a year. And I overcame many things through this practice. There's so many things I overcame that I cannot just make a list out of right now. Like for example, when I first started, I was going around trying to talk to people and sharing brochures. And even before talking to them, I was like so anxious and my head would feel like it was about to explode. So I'm like, and I would just run away. Until my center manager, oh I can't do this, I have anxiety. But after getting to interact with so many people, I really feel so much more open now. I feel even sometimes joyful about going out and meeting people. Even times it's still anxious, still fearful. I feel afraid to go out and talk to people. But now I can do it. And many times I kind of make these new connections. And I feel a lot of meaning and joy from making these connections. Before I was going through a lot of kind of feeling no desire and meaning in life. But I realized those are just kind of physical, emotional, mental phenomena. Energy that you can change. So now I feel, before I felt so hopeless in life. Now I feel kind of, I wake up, I feel excitement. Like what can I do today to improve myself? I have many things I want to do now. I still have many aspirations. Now I have a kind of more clear purpose. It's so that I benefit myself and I benefit others. I make myself healthy, happy, peaceful. And I can help others also become healthy, happy, peaceful. So now that I have this kind of strong center in my life. I feel like my life is so much more kind of meaningful and worth living. Through brain education, what I learned was that you have control over your emotions. You have control over your body. Many times what happens with people like anxiety is that anxiety, something causes anxiety and they just let it happen to them. And they don't know that they have kind of choice, like conscious choice that can help them. What I realized, what I learned through brain education is that you can strengthen your core by feeling, being more inside your body, feeling your body more and being less in your brain. You can actually lessen the anxiety and kind of be more crowded. So one of the biggest things I learned through brain education is that that helped me overcome my anxiety is that anxiety and negative emotions, things like these, are just energy in your body that goes in and out. So rather than just feeling like I have anxiety, I have these emotions and feeling hopeless about it, feeling like they're yourself. I realized that these are things I can let go and release through physical exercise. So one of the biggest exercise that helped me overcome my anxiety is called the Brain Weight Vibration, Tanjian Tapping. So what you can do is just gently straighten your spines and two inches below your belly button is where the Tanjian is. So this is kind of like your center of your physical body. So by feeling more inside your body and feeling your body more, you can be less affected by anxiety and kind of take action in a more grounded place. So what you want to do is make a fist and gently start tapping your Tanjian point. And also what helps is the Brain Weight Vibration, which is gently close your eyes, gently shaking your head side to side and comfortably breathing into your nose. As you breathe out, imagine you're letting go of the pressure or the stress and tension built up in your brain. So as you're doing this exercise, you might have kind of a lot of thoughts enter in and out of your brain, like, oh, what am I doing? Is this really helpful? And those kind of also anxious mind that you are experiencing keeps staying in your brain. So what you want to focus while doing this exercise is try to bring your awareness two inches inside the Tanjian point. Feel the vibration. And as you breathe out, relax and imagine you're letting go of all those anxious thoughts, stress, emotions that are kind of occupying your brain and making your brain heavy and tense. So before brain education, I had so much negative emotions and kind of trauma from the past, something like that, that has always been dominating my life, my relationships with other people. So one of the biggest improvements I saw through brain education is how through purifying all these negative emotions, things in myself, I was able to improve relationships with people outside. I always blocked myself from making connections because I saw myself in them. It's like, oh, that person is probably kind of very close to minded. That person probably has a lot of emotional issues. But in reality, I was just watching myself through them. Now that I'm learning to love myself more and accept myself and kind of address all these things inside of me more positively, my interaction with the people outside, with this whole world is drastically changing. I used to have this like big kind of cynical view about this world. I'm starting to see much more joy and love. The biggest kind of gift I received from brain education is probably hope towards life. I was an aspiring physicist who lost his passion in his work. Through brain education, I found my life purpose.