 Alright guys quick little break in today's vlog that hasn't even started out, but we have new merch out. It's yeehaw merch guys This is iconic. Okay? Here it is. I'm wearing a size large because you're wondering kind of which one would have gotten a size medium I might order another one, but this is the XL yeehaw crew guys It's super lightweight super comfy easy to layer great to throw out to work out great to wear I went yeehaw sheep today. I'll show you guys. I put on this nice gray coat that I'm not gonna put on right this second and uh yeehaw sheep, you know So if you guys want to pick any of this up It is my I love you so much merch for my podcast which is available on Amazon so you guys can just click the link in at the bio And you guys do pick it up today, please like screenshot and post your stories. I want to see it I want to repost I want to stop you guys, but like thank you guys so much And this is just an idea. I had randomly this is the one where in a vlog not too long ago I was like I had the best idea ever it's so simple this font is just couture font Which is what Chanel uses it's just such an easy like simple crew But I thought it was cute and the perfect piece to come out with with my nice Texas transition But I hope you guys like it comment down below Let me know what you guys think and what else you guys want to see for merch you guys pick it up Please let me know I love you guys so much and thank you guys so much for this even like watching videos It's an idea podcast and stuff that I'm able to do this But yeah, I got it available on Amazon link will be down below again I got a size large which is like super oversized if you wear with them leggings and stuff Yeah, but if you're gonna wear it with sweatpants and you're my size, which is like a four Maybe a six sometimes then I'm gonna medium unless you guys want your tight-fitted look I'm not normally like a tight-fitted look kind of girl, you know, so anyways Hope you guys enjoyed this vlog and let's get started Oh good morning everyone this lighting is great. Good morning everyone from me What? Yeah, for me and my hydrovlogs. That's what I was trying to say. Good morning everyone. Happy Thursday Welcome to another weekend of my life vlog So I'm really excited to be hanging with you guys Um, you know technically like I'm still working the next two days You guys know the drill by now like I never vlog sundays and then saturday I have a bunch of church stuff too. So like I don't know how much of that. I'll vlog anyways I am currently on my way to go work out my for mark how we work out like every single morning Also, I really want to make a subgroup for the facebook page With just dallas girls so that we can all work out together because I work out with anyone who invites me basically Um, and now every day i'm like mark how please go like literally every morning I'm like i'm going to this do you want to go to this or like if she can't get it I'm like, okay. I can't so we can find another one. Um, but My most of my social life literally is just like working out of people Um, anyways, I'm listening to mood with lauren. Um, and she has an episode on getting out of a funk That's what I'm listening. I got she posted this week and I'm like, I honestly should do that because yesterday was like Such a bad day for me not gonna lie. I did vlog a little bit and I just talked about anxiety You guys know that I deal with anxiety. Okay. Well, we're driving over the street with I wish you guys could See all the potholes right now and this is why I got a flat a few weeks ago or like last week I don't know. I have no frame of time but like literally everyone has to like go around it. It's so stupid Anyways, you guys know that I definitely deal with anxiety And honestly, it's just it's just been through the roof this week Like even it's so weird because like this whole week is having kind of trouble breathing Like I felt like I was breathing weirder and then when my anxiety flared up. I was like Oh That's why so anyways, um, I kind of want to do an entire show episode on like Kind of dealing with our like what to do or like even yesterday It was like all these things that I never think like I literally never like I'm a failure But I was like I'm a failure. I haven't done anything like just like all this like negative stuff And I was like what the heck like this is literally not me like I don't I don't know I never think like that. It was just weird, but it really got the best of me So anyways, um, we're gonna have a really great weekend now. I feel better. I slept it off I think I'm also working out helps me a lot. So I'm on my way to class studios I'm going to the training class. I did it last week and it's hard like it's not Um, it's not a joke. It's like a definitely very difficult class. Um, like while we're here I took if you guys saw my last vlog I took the solid core like for former Pilates class and I loved it. It was really great It's different than math Pilates. Obviously. It's like actually on a reformer But I really liked that the only reason we're not taking from them today is because We couldn't get in we couldn't both get in so we're going there I'm gonna stop vlogging so I go listen to Maloran's podcast But hope you guys are excited just from the weekend with me I think Cindy's coming over tonight and I think we're making carbonara, which is so exciting Um, oh, also I have a very exciting meeting today. I have exciting meetings today. What else do I have to do? um, I've actually in Dallas been able to like kind of Block off my days for certain things like Thursdays are more like meetings Like I don't know. I've been able to kind of like structure my schedule a little bit better than I could have an ally, but Anyways, I'm sure this is the longest clip ever. Love you guys subscribe figures in here. Okay. Bye I got another native deodorant. This is my ultimate favorite deodorant not sponsored would love to work with them on a video but This is just all time favorite and then I'm trying to be cool So I got these hair accessories from amazon, which I think will be so fun. My hair is just like pretty long So I don't know how I would do that. I might try it today I don't know because I kind of wanted to curl my hair a little bit But I'm really excited to try these out. I just got four I think my hair is just like really long. So we'll see how it's working with me today And see if not, I'll try them later this weekend Good morning everyone. Um No mattress though my bedroom is like I was thinking about this morning I'm excited to do it, but like I don't even like Think about how my bedroom is not done But anyways, my hair looks like really not great in this clip thing But I don't have time to curl my hair this morning. So we're gonna just make it messier and messier as it goes I need to watch a video of someone doing it so I can do it But I wanted to film really quickly trying out new products I just picked up the milk makeup blur and step powder because I didn't have any um Setting powder so I went to Sephora and I honestly just like saw it and I was like, oh, that's good. Normally Normally everything I buy is because like youtube told me to but if anyone use it I don't watch a lot of just makeup heavy videos. I mean I smell this more I think like makeup for like the everyday girl not like to make beauty guru or anything But I'm really struggling today guys. I have Um all the office that I wanted to wear um those clothes I do my laundry at my dad's and I left them there and I didn't realize that so this morning. So I just threw on my trusted Okay, so I just like don't have time to figure this out. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just threw on my um trusted Free people sweater the best sweater ever. So I have it in bluetooth. I don't know where that is currently Okay, um, I'm really hungry, which has encouraged me to um not Cook or to knock from my hair because I want to make some breakfast because I'm starving Um, okay, so we're kind of this morning that workout is really hard It's just I really I don't really takes it is like no, it's just like really hard So I don't really love it honestly Like I actually dread it and don't like it but not I'm actually not go So I think I'm just gonna make myself go because it makes me feel like I'm like doing something, you know Okay, also for podcast talk, I know I've kind of talked about this before but like I also love solo podcasts and Like I love them like more into solo episodes or like anyone to solo episodes And I kind of want to go to from four episodes a month to six We might have to do five first Um, and they just add like two solo episodes a month because there's so much that I want to talk to you guys about And since my episodes are so for the most part like pre-recorded and batch-recorded They're just like a month or two old. So I don't feel as like connected with my podcast Listeners, I know I do the intros real time, but even then like I don't know So I would love to do like two current solo episodes a month, but like let me know if you guys listen to the podcast what you think Okay, the other product that I want to actually seriously try out since I just didn't have the patience with that first one. Um I actually want to try like all the milk makeup. I wanted to do a video I don't know if you guys even want this but like a video trying out like entirely milk milk makeup Why can't I speak? Um, because like I just love the brand and I think it's cool And I haven't tried like a ton of their products, but anyways, this is the dr. Paw Paw tinted beach Pink bomb so you can use it. Um, I have on my lips so you can use under your cheeks lips Cosmetic finishing with a hint of 10. So I'm gonna use it as blush today I have to be honest that a cosmetic seazy cream just like doesn't work on my skin like it once did That's my like number one holy grail product too So it's a really sad time for me, but I need to find something to put on my skin that like Basically is like the least amount of makeup possible. You know what I'm saying? Like I'm not like Super I'm I'm more into like bare No makeup makeup look, you know, like kind of like glossier type stuff, whatever Um, so if you guys know any other brands besides just glossier because I love glossier, but I have other stuff Um one that's like more makeup You know what I mean? But like really like subtle because like actually growling right now. So There's my broken dresser in the background too. My new one came in and it's to hire someone to put it together I'm gonna hire someone on handy if you guys have never used handy. This is not sponsored But it's really helpful. You can get like people to come hang stuff in your house People to put together furniture people to run errands for you like stand in line for you um Like people to clean your house all that stuff. It's really helpful. I use it all the time I do have a link that you guys can use not sponsored Where you get like $55 credit for it and if you guys live In like an apartment that pretty much covers your cleaning like your cleaning will be so cheap Or at least like half of it, which that's like a really really cheap cleaning. So you guys should use my link because That'll be perfect. My favorite setting spray morphe Great. I just don't know what to do about this hair Do I just like have too much towards like just not even a possibility for me to do this because I've seen people do it with my hair length, but I think my hair is just like thicker I need to watch videos of people doing this and like see how they use Like a hair clip at this point. I'm like What? I don't know. I'm gonna go watch an instagram video and like hope that works out for me Wow guys, I I watched an instagram video and I did this really quickly. I just like don't know how I feel about it I think I feel good about it. Do I I can't tell it actually does like hold your hair in place Which I do feel good about And I'm really lazy. So I think the top I know what I did wrong But it's good enough for me today, and I'm actually feeling pretty proud of myself I'm gonna try it one more time. So basically I will when I perfect this I'll make an instagram tv video But you hold it the bottom of your head start twisting down and then start twisting up to where it's like Let's see Like once it's gotten up. Okay, so at that point. Whoa, this is where it gets tricky This is where I have problems, but Then you're gonna like loop this because if you're here short enough obviously like that's perfect And you can just clip it but mine isn't all right guys. So as I was filming that tutorial I just messed this up. I should have left it how it was at first. Um I ran out of storage. So unfortunately I have to run so this isn't happening right now But as I perfect it I will do an id tv video So you guys will be able to find me on there. I want a coat like this, but just a little bit Oh, you know what? I actually just got a really cute gray one from this kind of I forgot about that So I'm glad that's coming in but this sweater is just like too thick to wear with it um, I need to go downstairs and eat and pull the balls on that's my first and Get out the door because You know what like I just like don't know if I can wear this coat. We'll see This is my outfit. This jacket or coat is from boohoo This sweater, which I'll probably like tuck in is from freehebel Jeans are girlfriend denim from revolve shoes are literally walmart Well, they're stem out of them, but they're from walmart and they're like 17 dollars find them on my like to know page, but Yeah, I'm gonna have to fix my hair again, but I'm gonna go make some breakfast Just made some avocado toast really quickly. I need to leave in five minutes. So I'm also Making some coffee This oh, wow. What what perfect timing this thing takes like two minutes to brew I love these mugs, but it gets so hot that it's actually just like terrifying. So Updates to come. So as you guys know normally, I just drink black coffee at home But lately I've been putting in a little bit of oat from trader joe's oat milk of oat I think I just don't know what's wrong with you guys. I need to leave like right now The fedex truck is blocking my driveway, but here we go. All right guys. Um Really really good mood. I am leaving the office right now. I had a really really good meeting I have a phone meeting later today too. Um, but I'm actually heading over to cues He's leaving for the weekend So we're gonna kind of just like hang today and like I'll drive him over in the morning The meeting went really well, and I'm really really excited I'm gonna listen to a podcast and I'm driving to quintons. So it's just 10 minutes away Everything is 10 minutes from each other, which is the best thing ever All right guys, I'm on cues right now. I've given up on my hair clamp just for today Because when I lay back on anything obviously it gets ruined and when I drive it gets ruined But I love it when it works I have a washer and dryer, but it's in the suburbs and I haven't paid someone to like bring it to my house yet So we are both still doing laundry at my dad's house. So we're gonna go drop off a load for him you know Don't worry. Um, we're gonna go drop off a load for him and then go to Chick-fil-A for lunch and then go To Trader Joe's because tonight. I'm making carbonara with Sydney. She's coming over and I'm very excited about it Oh my gosh guys, okay I literally can't breathe that We decided even though I tweeted about this or I post on Instagram about this I have healthy leftovers at home for lunch We opted to go to Chick-fil-A Because we're not going back to my house right now. So just makes sense. So We already ate today's like my chill day. She's working today It's not her chill day, but we're chilling together because it's my chill day because he had like There's like three hours to hang today so three hours, and then I'm out of town I'm in Austin Friday Saturday and Sunday. So she's gonna have a girls weekend Friday Saturday Sunday. Thank you three Do you do three like one two three or do you do one like one two three or one two three You really are a big thumb like this is like german, right? This is a European's day one two three If you know common ball Anyways, I got the grilled chicken sandwich stay cozy. See it's a cozy day I got the grilled chicken sandwich to be healthy No, not like I should have just fully committed and then I got Nuggets on the side, which I never do and that's how hungry I was. I was actually being so mean That's why I didn't vlog because I was being so mean. I'm so sorry That was just so hungry and someone was just taking so long To get ready to go. She's not her when she's hungry. So I'm not when quintin is hungry. He is a different human being like I'm sure none of you can imagine quintin as anything other than quintin because he's just so Quintin I'm just very quiet. Oh my gosh when he's hungry. It's terrifying. Also. I think I heard my arm earlier, but Yeah, we're waiting to Change the laundry. Yeah, that's what I was looking for like two minutes left on the clock And then we're going to Trader Joe's and I'm getting set to make carbonara, which I'm really excited. I'm doing that tonight And yeah, I think I want coffee now because now that I had this heavy lunch I now need to go and buy coffee because it made me tired. You know what I mean Chick-fil-A sauce Or is this the buffalo sauce Chick-fil-A for sure If you had to get rid of one and keep one, which would it be? I have so many of those buffalo for once free in my kitchen. God bless Kenzie just said Chick-fil-A sauce which one's better and if you haven't you should really try That's a buffalo sauce because it's my favorite. Wow. I'm a big foodie. Maybe I'll start a food vlog So gala's dudes. Oh my gosh gala's dudes. People were really happy. Um I got some DMs when people were saying that their boyfriends were down for your face by grove Let's go. I will legit start one If we can get like 50 guys we can get 50 guys who are like, I'm down to join this facebook group. I will make a facebook group Okay, well, there we go. Just a community of boyfriends I only need to pick up a few things We made it again to trade our jokes. It doesn't matter where we are We spend so much time at trade your jokes. True one of our faith places guys Okay, so here's what I'm getting spaghetti Um bacon. I need more olive oil. I just got baking powder randomly because I don't know what I'm eating it I just wanted or I need sea salt Um olive oil parmesan. I don't have a cheese grater. So like that is what we're doing right now I soon replaced one of my favorite seasoning ever I'm listening to Keaton's intro episode to her new podcast, which is so exciting. My blinker's on so annoying Um, I just dropped cue off at work. So now I'm continuing I need to go home I have a call in like 20 minutes and then I'm gonna get a little bit of computer work done in around seven I think it's 4 p.m. Right now around seven. I'm gonna start cooking. I'm making carbonara. I'm gonna make a cheese board Sydney's coming over. She wants to watch natural with me. It's gonna be a girls good girls night I'm out of wine So sadly we're not gonna have wine I actually could call in like two minutes, but I came home to my rice cooker This is the same one I have in LA it's under 20 dollars and it makes your life so much easier And then this is all my stuff for tonight slash. I also got this Quentin, I saw this and he's like that actually looks really great So I'm gonna try it after my workout tomorrow and see how I like it All right, I'm watching Nashville and from the cheese board to eat as I um cook dinner Sydney is coming over. I'm gonna let it candle My beautiful casey muskies candle as always Okay, so this is the recipe that I'm using I tried to shake us earlier outside of Trader Joe's This is all you need. I'll have the recipe linked down below bacon salt all the oil spaghetti black pepper Um eggs and then you'll see egg yolks and then parmesan. I couldn't grade it because I don't have a cheese grater All right, so I put the salt in there let it boil and I have the spaghetti in there I cut up the bacon That's two ounces of parmesan a fourth of this though. You can set to the side then that's four egg yolks and two whole eggs Um, this is really helpful because like on the website. I mean, of course, it's not loading as I'm trying to show you It actually shows you like short videos of what they're doing Which I think is really helpful. I forgot to vlog a few steps not gonna lie Um, the recipe is down below Didn't do that So we got a little out of order, but now it's working out very well We're in one of the final last steps. Um It was pretty easy to follow except for like one step was a little bit confusing You know, they just made it a little more confusing than it needed to be but yeah, here we are guys Good morning, everyone. Okay, so today is friday. It's currently 6 a.m. I woke up like 20 minutes ago I actually love waking up this early Um, I went to my last night at 11 a lot of people ask what time I go to bed when I wake up early But you just start doing it. You get so used to it. Anyways, I'm going to pick up cue right now We're gonna go on a little really early morning date because He is leaving at like eight something first trip and then I'm dressed because at 9 30 I'm going to a hip hop spin class. Normally. I really like to have my workouts done by like latest eight, but um But like I really wanted to try out this class and I really care about the playlist and I trust a hip hop playlist You know what you mean? Anyways, I'm going to pick them up right now and then I think we're just gonna go like starbucks or something All right guys, we're at starbucks now, but I got this in the mail yesterday. It's from sherry's true Um, they have a lot of studies and just guides like this, but it's really cute Anyways, I paid 20 dollars a month and I get a new one every month. I'm pretty sure but Look at how cute And there's even a recipe in here But this is literally a study like it's really really cool And a lot of them are actually like the coverage even better. So Um, they look at his cocktail books and there was an art press that came with this that actually like and I normally Don't like that stuff, but yeah, it was really cool Hey guys, I'm trying a new drink. This is the new drink that I'm trying guys Updates to come It's not the best thing ever wow looks great everyone um I'm trying so hard to make this lighting work. Okay. It is 9 15. I dropped q off um and Now I'm about to go to a hip-hop spin class. I'm very excited for this I listen to a really really freaking good podcast this morning, but I'm going Oh my gosh, I haven't taken spin in a second and I thought it would be fun to just change it up It's 10 20. I just got out of spin I took the hip-hop friday class from class studios guys That was the best spin class I've ever taken and I'm normally the girl who's like soul cycles way better than every other place Because typically it is But it was literally the best ever I don't know why there's napkins right here, but it was the best class I've ever taken. Oh my gosh I'm so happy I went it was just like I didn't even want it to end, but I'm heading home We're off my okay, sis merch got delivered. I am so excited So these are really good friends of mine and also like they actually do have like one of my favorite podcasts If not my fave, um But they collaborated with girl getting the label the quality of this is unreal like that's amazing I just oh my gosh. I love it says support your sisters. It's so cute. I'm 100 wearing this today So i'm gonna go shower and change into this, but I just love it. It's so cute I showered I changed in to my new favorite set. It is so comfy. Oh my gosh I also put on a moisturizer with the self tanner for my face. I think i'm gonna film today, but like I don't know we will see um my hair is just really wet I'm gonna do some schoolwork into some computer work for a while I like love working from home in this house because I love my house And I just feel so cozy and I just like genuinely like there's I just love being in my house Oh, I'll show you guys the things that came with the series truth subscription Honestly, like I did not think I would love the like series truth brand as much as I do Just because typically things like that are not like necessarily like my like style if that makes sense, but like oh my gosh, I literally love their stuff Comes with this cute little card with like a what's inside thing And then I normally don't love like little prints and stuff Because I think that they're just like a little bit too southern for my taste if that makes sense Um, but I love this like this actually is something that I would like put in my house I'm just so impressed like I really really actually love the series truth whole Brands and everything. I think it's like awesome The dishwasher is on. I just made the weirdest combination of breakfast. So I have this so delicious coconut milk Um, yogurt. I'm really weird about yogurt. So I normally don't like them But I love this one blueberry cinnamon honey mix it up. It's actually really good Then I just have some avocado toast on the gluten-free bread from Trader Joe's Honestly, I like the gluten-free bread better than normal bread very odd And I like how it's small sometimes I'll make four sometimes I do too. It's just really good It is now currently 5 p.m. I think I just made myself a little cheese board I literally cannot stop eating it and it's very weird because my skin has actually been so clear And I've been eating way more cheese. It's just very odd I've actually just been sitting here all day working at my computer. I'm just gonna be honest Did not feel like filming videos or getting ready today Like it just wasn't my vibe. So I just utilize this time to do a lot of other stuff Um, but I have become obsessed with Ashley Graham's I guess it's a podcast, but I watched the videos I've watched like probably four at this point. I just had them on in the background as I'm doing work and it's just Oh my gosh, I'm obsessed. So right now I'm watching Che Mitchell's So freaking good. I'm editing a cute little instagram video right now Here's my beautiful beautiful snack and I'm gonna finish watching this just as I get some more work done Hi guys, so since today ended up being a way more cozy chill day Where I didn't actually get ready or like leave my house and I just ended up working from home Like completely on my computer. It's not 7 20 p.m. And I have been On this couch since probably like 11 am just doing a bunch of random stuff I pretty much wrapped up everything I wanted to do for today Besides like a little bit of homework. I think anyways, I'm like not even hungry because I had that cheese board I don't know what I'm gonna do. I might order food because it's my Friday night at home But tomorrow's like a really social day. So I decided I wanted to stay home By myself But I asked you guys for some questions on instagram when it's your little personal Q&A So we could have some time to like kind of catch up. How are you really feeling since leaving LA? I'm gonna answer this one just because like it's a really common us question. Um Honestly, like I don't mean for this to sound harsh to like anyone Like I love the people my friends in LA, but they're still not been one moment where I miss it I'm honestly kind of dreading going back in april which I'm gonna have to go back all the time But honestly, it's because I'm gone for two weeks and just being gone for two weeks is a long time for me Um, I really just like doing like a week like five days. It's like a good enough time for me and like packing all that in Um, I know that's not gonna be the reality of my life, but just for like right now I'm just happy being here But like I'm also really excited to go back and like see all of my friends And it's fun because part of that will be Coachella, which will be really fun. Lauren is sex me so I'm excited to see Lauren um But like there's certain people that I'm like really really pumped to see and like hang out within stuff that I'm like Oh, I'm actually gonna have a good time But actually I haven't shared this yet But um, I have to like pack up and move my house when I get there though Which is like really honestly what's giving me anxiety about going back So yeah, even that house like honestly like It just turned into such a mess like when I first got it It was literally a miracle house and I loved it and I was obsessed with it And then just so many things happened with the house that like it was like when I'm there I don't feel good. I feel very anxious and so I'm kind of dreading going back to that house So when I go back and I'm like renting places and stuff like outside of that house I'll be more excited to go back, you know, okay I got so many questions asking why Q and I don't live together Neither of us would want to move in together with just someone that we're dating with just like a personal It's not really like what I want. Yeah, like obviously it does have like a lot of truth or beliefs But even if it didn't I honestly like I love living alone and also like You're the rest of your life to live with that person like whoever you marry So I personally would rather just like not live with someone until I get married Like I don't know you have your house to yourself And this is like a once in a lifetime thing like you're gonna end up living with your spouse for your whole life You know what I mean, which will be great Like you know what I mean, do you ever wish you stuck to a more traditional college route? I think that there were definitely times when I did kind of wish that and like I wouldn't necessarily admit it to myself I think I think I was just so naive when I was younger that it made Everything that I was doing they're moving out early in big jelly and bubble balling really easy because I was so naive So I was just like yeah sure like I knew anything But like also with that it's like I was young so I had to be very confident in sure of my decision So I didn't really give myself a second to like regret anything or to like say like oh I kind of wish because like I would never want to say that to my parents after I just like did all that You know what I mean, um There were definitely times where I was like, oh like I kind of wish but not that many and not enough to make me like Actually really regret it by any means and like where I ended up It had to happen in the way that it happened or else I would have never ended up like where I am right now Um, so like I'm so glad I did what I did and like I'm so glad that ended up happening But there were times that I like kind of missed it for me more specifically when I like view a normal more traditional college experience You have four years in between high school in like quote-unquote real world if you move out right after that Or honestly you move back with your parents say money like that's so much smarter. Um, I mean I can't speak for you But I take a smart decision. Um But I didn't get that like it was like I was 17 living in an apartment and like that was it You know, I mean I was in online college I've I've always been in school But like I didn't have the kind of like safety net of going into college and then having that I was kind of just like okay like you're already in the real world type thing Which obviously like that's hard, but I will say that I'm glad I went to the school that I went to because I don't have any student loans now that I'm about to graduate college Um, and a lot of my friends are also about to graduate like this is this year that we all graduate And I'm hearing about all this student loan stuff. I'm just like Wow, I'm so unbelievably grateful And the only reason I don't have loans is because my school was like really really inexpensive Like my first years was like literally it was like two thousand dollars Like which is like very cheap for school and like tuition if you guys didn't know like that's really good Do you have a lot of friends and you keep a small circle Both Um, I think I have a lot of friends Like there's a lot of people that I could like talk to and like love and whatever But I think I also definitely keep a small circle But with that being said I feel like if I'm friends with you I'm like really close to you So I don't really know how to answer that but I I feel like I know a lot of people And I like a lot of people, but I definitely have like my small circle I think I have a lot of friends, but I also have a tight knit circle How do you cope when your anxiety is really bad? Um, I shared this in my last like week in my life vlog, which literally just was yesterday So this is I feel like posting this like two vlogs in a row is going to seem like really extreme, but just know like These are just two days, you know, like I did that vlog started that vlog today. You know what I mean? Um, I feel like my anxiety this week has been pretty rough Um, I've noticed the week before I start my period I'm like really really really down and really really really emotional like it's not normal I need to go to the doctor and figures like it's just not normal. It's not like Oh, yeah, obviously you're any more emotional and stuff like I just know that's not normal Really like that Wednesday We had a bunch of like drama at the dnb and I came home and I just for some reason that day I ended up just being so anxious that I like sat on my couch like from like 3 p.m On and watch Nashville and I just like shut off and I feel like I've kind of been like a little bit like I don't know. I feel like I've kind of been on the verge of tears like a lot like I cried today I'm like why am I crying all the time and like it's hard for me to cry So I think that's also a problem. So I like trying to make myself cry. Does anyone do that? Um, but yeah, like I don't know. What was the question? How do you cope when you're excited about it? Okay, um, I really like doing a cardio workout I like working out working out in general really helps my anxiety But doing something like spin this morning was really good because I feel like I'm kind of like running it out If that makes any sense But working out was the biggest thing that helps me and especially like starting my morning and getting back into my routine I find that when I'm off my routine I'm a lot more anxious. That's why I'm really sat in my routines Um, but yeah, just like getting back into my routine Obviously, like my faith is a really big thing. So like praying reading whatever that might be Um, and then like working out and just like drinking a lot of water like for me That's what helps me and just like getting out of the house and stuff. You find yourself comparing your success to others Not really except for when I'm like really anxious. So this week. I literally was like, I'm a failure I don't know what I'm doing like literally what am I doing? Like I will never do they're like just like so I was it was like so negative And these are things that like I don't even say out loud or even like communicate with literally anyone Which is probably bad like I need to go to therapy But I don't even say it out loud because I know that it's like a lie in my head And I know it's just coming like it's an anxious thought. It's not something I actually genuinely believe So I won't even voice it because I know that it's not what I actually think and I'm just anxious But I think when my anxiety is really bad is when I Kind of they'll compare myself or I'll get really down on myself or whatever But I think it's also like natural and like I'm just I don't know How does living alone affect your mental health such? How do you stay in a good headspace? Um for me living alone. I mean, I love this house way more than I like my house in LA I love my roommates in LA. I has nothing to do that like literally actually the best roommates I actually had like amazing roommates in my last house in LA But I just the house itself Just like brought me so much anxiety because it was just there was always problems There's always been problems. It's just like maybe when I move out I'll like fill you guys in but I'm not gonna like post about right now Someone who's really affected by my environment and my space. I like having all this to myself I like having like look how I want it to look because I work from home so like I'm really affected by environment and like The atmosphere of places so like I can completely set that so I think it's really good for me As far as like routines and working from home and stuff like that, but also I Recently I've become pretty introverted, which is weird for me. I like don't even I don't know. I just it's weird. I don't know if I'm actually introverted if this is just a phase I don't know Um, but like I will literally not leave my house like quintess out of town And I'm like great not leave my house. All right. I'm gone all day, but I was like perfect. I just like don't have to leave my house But I don't know I'm also kind of a homebody like I like spending a lot of time at home But personally for me living alone is fine, especially because like I have a boyfriend that I see all the time My family lives down the street like things like that. What are you watching on netflix? I'm not watching anything on netflix, but I am watching something on hulu I'm obsessed with nashville as you guys already know Um, it is seriously like Wow, oh my gosh. I love that show. Um, I really like filming weekend on my life vlogs And I feel like I'm just like home hanging out with you guys I have needed to go to the chiropractor for like A month like I keep asking quentin to like Like, you know like elbow my back because I'm like this is So painful and it hurts and it's just like there's been a knot And like I can't get it in my back for like ever and it's so awful Anyways, that's probably all I'm gonna vlog for tonight. Honestly, because I'm just gonna get food I don't even know. I'm not hungry. So we'll see what I do and watch nashville and hopefully go to bed really early since I have like a longer day tomorrow and Um, I woke up outside Good morning, everyone. It is Saturday morning. I need to start getting ready for brunch In about probably five minutes at this point, but I'm gonna do a little divo Like read my daily reading pretty short. I brunch for social girls today, which will be really cute. So um, yeah I'm going to read. Oh my gosh I was supposed to wake up at like seven just to have more time like not for anything in particular I didn't wake up until like 8 20 because I was sleeping with two of these wrapped around me And I was just so comfortable. I couldn't even consider waking up like it just wasn't an option So yeah, I think I just haven't picked up a beer for drinks blanket. Like you really just gotta do it All right guys, I just filmed an id tv video on this look. Who's proud of me? Not the hair just the makeup I'm drinking my coffee. I need to leave in uh 17 minutes. So I need to pick up my outfit and the um Light in my closet is out. I need to replace it Which is really tragic because it takes me like years to do miniscule tasks, so Yeah, I don't want to get ready you also favorite children native. It's the best one you can get on amazon too amazing See if I had a white t-shirt, I would just put this on because it's so cute But I don't have a white t-shirt right now because I left it on my father's house I need to leave like pretty much now, but I'm just wearing this Blue blazer that I got from thread up. Um, I think it's originally like tablets or something Then that white long sleeve that I pulled it's from boohoo my normal jewelry at my hoops and stuff for downstairs I hadn't put those on yet Um my Levi's and then some white sandals from zara, but like this strap will never fit my Like my foot. It's either way too small or way too big. So that's kind of annoying, but yeah That's what I'm wearing. I need to change my purse and stuff and then head out in a second. Um, I'm really excited All right, everyone. I'm ready have my purse Ready to go for a makeup turn now if you guys want to see it Follow my instagram where I post it in IG tv video. Who is proud of me guys? Anyways, I need to head out right now. I'm already gonna sex me Um, I'm not gonna vlog obviously much. I could be there until noon or I could be there until five I don't know what the plan is yet So a piece to come. Good afternoon, everyone is Later saturday, I think it's like five p.m. Plan tonight I'm gonna go shower and exfoliate and then I'm gonna go get my nails done Which I really really really don't want to do and then I think I'm gonna try to chose They need to I should go do laundry, but I don't want to and then I want to watch Jessica simpson or read the Jessica simpson Autobiography this package full of a bunch of just like random skincare that a pr company sent me And did you guys know that Birkenstock has like Skincare and it's a really actual it's a regenerating oil face and body I'll definitely use this my body. It smells really good. The guy literally had no idea Rose hip oil we have an exfoliator that I'm about to use just a bunch of stuff I'm just kind of going through it. We have some lip products very exciting stuff Um, I just like literally had no idea that Birkenstock had this Hey guys, so I just like big time exfoliated my face. I was probably like really red and crazy So I'm gonna head off and get my nails done because they look Awful listen to a podcast and then go to Trader Joe everyone I got So last night I ended up getting my nails done went to the grocery store And then I got the Jessica simpson autobiography and that's how I spent my saturday night But while I was there I picked up new coffee So I'm gonna try these out if you guys know I'm a big fan of the Trader Joe's k-coms because they're five dollars for 12 Which is absurd Normally these are like 10 to 12 dollars. So it's really awesome Okay, anyways, here's my coffee guys. The Jessica simpson autobiography is actually amazing All right guys now. I'm just gonna do my morning reading Coco here. She is wanting attention So happy sunday. Like I said last night I got my nails done There we go. And then I went to Trader Joe's Literally to get pizza for me and Quentin to make last night and I got everything besides the pizza So I need to go back today And then I came home and I read the Jessica simpson autobiography It is so good and I went to bed and here we are So today I'm actually not in church all day. I go in like later this afternoon So this morning I'm gonna get breakfast with my dad and then go to his place and do some laundry Do some homework and hopefully read more of the jessex. Oh my gosh are the Jessica simpson autobiography Hey Nope, okay. She's being crazy. What's up? All right guys. I'm back home. It's 120 I did all of this laundry and I took All it's finals week for me. Um, I actually finished this session on Tuesday So I finished the session on Tuesday So I took one of my finals and I finished all my assignments besides one So yeah, I'm gonna go put this away and just spend the next like 30 ish minutes probably cleaning This is just like not as clean as I normally Just not as clean as I normally keep the house, you know Just made a sandwich that's going to be a huge mess and I cleaned So much it is so much better in here now Um, I swept I cleaned the counters. I'm having some issues with the cement table. Um There's a stain as you can see. How do I get this out? Does anyone know? Please let me know I tried dish soap in hot water and it didn't work and I just like need it to be fixed Because this this table is like very expensive So if anyone knows how to fix it, please let me know other than that I swept I cleaned the table This needs to be this needs to be rolled so much. I just sprayed some stuff on it So that's why it looks crazy. It ends up looking fine Everything else is clean Also, I did stop at Trader Joe's to get stuff for pizza They have this cute little section in my local Trader Joe's Um, I got this pesto just because Q loves pesto, but pizza sauce More cheese Pizza dough, which is so cute and then we just have pepperoni. So this is what we're going to make tonight I'm burning coffee surprise surprise. I am fully ready. Um, I just go already upstairs after I did my laundry Put that all away. I'm feeling very good Um, the Jessica Simpson autobiography is amazing if you guys haven't picked it up, you need to Um, I got white yesterday. I don't think I explained why also my pinky. It's really embarrassing. Um, I got White because you know when they like really stressed you out to pick a color super quick And they didn't even give me the right dip things. They gave me like gel or something weird I don't even normally like white nails that much. Like I'm just not really my vibe But they stressed me out so bad that I was like, yeah, just white because like, you know, if you do black and white They can't mess it up Anyways, my top this is Zara. I just have a crop top on from boo-hoo My normal jewelry my Levi's and then I just have some White boots on I need white boots or like nude boots that my pants also messed up I need white boots or nude boots that don't have a black heel And I've been trying to find some online and they're like so much harder to find Then I thought I thought it would take me like two seconds and it isn't not taking me two seconds So anyways, that is gonna be it for this weekend of my life vlog. I'm sorry. It's been kind of long and all over the place Um, but yeah, I hope you guys enjoyed today's video. I love you guys so much and I'll see you soon. Bye