 Good morning everybody. I'm not too sure how to Start this video today Yesterday, we ended off our vlog saying that there's some changes coming that I had to go into the office today and Have a meeting and the changes were coming and that's sort of where we left that and Changes are definitely a foot Oh, I can't get comfortable. I've been walking all morning I've been as you know, I've been sharing with you Stress levels have been Higher than they ought to be and I've been struggling with this truck With maintenance of it just like everybody else, you know, my story is not much different than a lot of truckers so I Don't want to act or sound like I'm Going through something that no one else is but it was really tough and Got ourselves into a little bit of a pickle a little bit of debt keeping this truck running and Had to come to the hard decision of Returning the lease on this truck It wasn't an easy decision to come by been back and forth thinking about it for Well, I guess the last few weeks last month as I was nearing the end of my rope and I Found the end of the rope. I found the wall. However, you want to look at it where I just could not go on any further So This was a lease purchase With the option To end the lease like I've done and I've Didn't want to I wanted to hold on to it the longest time but it's come to that situation where that's what we had to do and Here we are This truck will be moved on to a regional fleet someone else will be driving it and it will be staying closer to home as the miles are getting high on it and As it's been shown to be getting a little cranky You're gonna be staying a little closer to home. I will be jumping into a Newer, I believe it's going to be a Peterbilt. I will not own it I will be driving it as a driver But I am happy with the way all the the cards landed and how everything worked out I think we worked out a good deal. They're very generous and very helpful and Very thankful to be where I am working with the people that I work with that treat you like family and Take care of you and help you when you're having a hard time Which they've done now and they've done in the past So very thankful for that and We're gonna keep on making videos here We're gonna keep the vlog going but you will see me getting into a new truck on our next trip today is Friday and On Monday, I come in I'll be switching trucks and moving all my stuff over and We'll be returning to van division and Going back to where we were for the first You know for the last six years really well, I've been doing flatbeds now for three years And it's been great. I mean the people I work with are fantastic the it was fun I learned a lot. I had great experiences You know, we pulled over dimensional freight pulled all kinds of different freight I've learned a lot my skill set has gone through the roof I have learned a lot of new skills that I'm very happy to say I now possess possess those skills But in all honesty my heart wasn't in it anymore and my heart has always sort of been with my old routes And it's not the work. It's not the tarping or the strapping sure that takes up a lot of time and But it was satisfying when you tie down a good load right you tie down a good load and Be proud of it pulling it down the road But to be honest my heart really wasn't in Flatbeds So for the meantime anyways, maybe we'll see what happens in the future I mean, I'm only 32 so I've got a lot of life ahead of me yet. See what happens in the future But for now, I've made the decision to return to driving a Truck that I don't own so as a company driver On van division back to my old routes that I did for six years. I liked it. I like that a lot My favorite part about the job is driving down the highway you can call me a steering wheel holder if you want to What it's not like that's not true. I'm a steering wheel holder. What? But it's not like I don't like I haven't explored other other industries different divisions or Explored by industries. I mean like different different kinds of freight I'm happy with where I'm at and I'm happy with what the future looks like So I wanted to let you know that we've already been talking for six minutes here. I've been walking all morning I just went for a walk to walk it off It's always making big decisions in my life sort of you know Rattles me a little bit. I don't like change. I like I'm a conservative. I like conserving things I like keeping things the same just keeping it going right when big changes come up. It makes me nervous It makes me anxious. So this morning. I went for a good long walk cleared my head prayed about it and I'm happy with I think I made the right decision. I'm happy with This change right now at this point in my life. So we'll see where it takes us I'm gonna take you with me though. So things are gonna change. Okay, but not much. We're still gonna be trucking We're just gonna be on van division. We're gonna be seeing a little bit of different sites We're gonna be doing a little bit of different work and we'll be in a different truck and The dream of me owning my Kenworth W 900 We'll have to return back to the back burner Maybe one day down the road the stars will align just right and we can get into a Kenworth W 900 But I'll tell you something right now in all honesty the stars are not aligned. It is not the time it is not the time and I'm not going to bury myself in debt that I can't pay back and Lose everything chasing my dream. I've got more than just myself to think of I have a family at home. I Have a wife. I have we have dogs to take care of and we are working on starting a family having a child and This isn't the time to go risking it all For my dream of owning a fancy shiny Kenworth W 900 as awesome as it would be The stars have not aligned right now. We'll see like I said, I'm only 32 got a lot of career ahead of me yet Maybe sometime in the future. Maybe it will we'll see what happens for now. This is where we're at So now that I've filled you in with everything I'm just waiting for Brit to come and pick me up because the truck's gonna stay here because it broke again. I Have a leaking wheel seal you want to see it? Come on. Let's show you what what broke today. Let's show you I'm just gonna go around. It's the front drive axle Back here on the inside. Alright, so we're gonna crawl in here. I'll show you what happened. Take a look at this mess Okay, I think a look at this mess Look at that. You see that All that oil dripping down all around the rim there Yep That happened yesterday some time because I did my pre-trip. It was fine Checked it halfway through my day. It was fine got back to the yard did my post trip That was there We're crying out loud. I guess we got to go out with a bang, right? Maybe she's angry that I'm giving her away I'm fine with that. Whatever. I'm angry with her. She's angry with me fine We've been fighting for months It's time to break up Me and this truck are getting a divorce. Tell you what My other wife Brit she won out. She gets me all to herself now This truck was always my second wife. Anyways, you know, she's always number two She never liked me that much. She didn't treat me very well So it was an abusive relationship. I was getting abused and now The paperwork has been finalized We're breaking up and you know, I have this giant feeling of relief just After I walked out of the office and I just took a deep breath and it's a beautiful day outside It's a little like overcast and rainy. It looks like it's gonna get rainy But it's still compared to what we we were used to in Manitoba. It's a beautiful day outside When I just took a deep breath and just oh, thank you God I'm not kidding. I was joking around before this is an abusive relationship. But no, this this was an abusive relationship this truck was Hammering me daily with problems again and again and again and it I've replaced so much stuff on this truck and that was the problem right because I had invested so much money into this truck already That I wanted to keep going but every time I invested a few thousand dollars into it another few thousand dollar thing would break So I'd fix that and then the next thing and then the next thing and the next thing it all happened at once Which is what made it so difficult but You know what? It's gonna be all right. We're okay We got a good team of people here. We got a good family here and They're taking care of me. Thank God. Thank God for the people here So on Monday like I said Monday, we're getting into a new truck That'll be a fun video to make So tune into that video for sure. Maybe I'll make some videos. I'm going home for the weekend now to sort of just relax and let loose because finally this big weight I've been carrying on my shoulders since January it's just It feels like it's just floated away and I sort of just want to go and Kick this truck in the grill right in the teeth. Just give her a good kick. I Won't do that though because it's not my truck anymore, but you know in my mind. That's what I'm doing Kick her in the teeth Sayonara, bye-bye Moving on to different things