 Hey what's it you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here hi hello I'm Lillian and if you are new here make sure you hit subscribe button during the growing family we're almost at 6.2k and it would mean that I would be able to reach that goal by the end of this month. Today I'm going to be talking about my diagnosis story of being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Hi I'm Lillian I'm 25 years old I'm diagnosed with bipolar type 1 and I hope the chair in my journey can help those of you who have symptoms of bipolar disorder go forward to get a diagnosis or seek professional help. So I was 13 when I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder but I wanted to put a lid up to the diagnosis I would manage and psychosis and the main year led me to do certain things that aren't normal I wasn't sleeping and if I did sleep it was for two three hours a night I wasn't eating I was taking on so many projects I couldn't keep up with that it was a really scary time in my life I was I felt on top of the world but I also had a sense of fear of crashing and the ultimately end up crashing but I was in hospital so the main year really took hold of my life and I was psychosis at the same time I mean I had delusions I had hallucinations and in experiencing that it just led me to a point where I made an attempt on my life because I was so unhappy but I was happy I was really elated but I was also struggling a lot with self-harm impulse control and stuff like that it wasn't just uh from main from my episode it was main year but it was also a sense of depression at the same time so I got I ended up getting sectioned under the mental health act after my mom took me to A&E because something wasn't right but she was right in thinking because obviously there was something wrong when I was in hospital I had one conversation with a psychiatrist because I was talking really fast I was taking on projects I was I was working all the time like busy I was making sure I had something to do and it just didn't start there was no end to it even being in hospital I was still taking on projects and doing things and just generally being impulsive it was so such a dangerous situation because I had delusions that people were watching what I was doing and that these people had who was buying on me and they was after me and that they was gonna hit me looking at it now I can tell it was a delusion but even in your experiencing it it's really hard to take step away pay step back and just really realize that it really realize that it's a delusion like I said I had one conversation with a psychiatrist and diagnosed me by her little type one and I started on lithium I was put on 2000 milligrams a day straight off it wasn't built at all so it wasn't a very good psychiatrist I believe he's actually lost his license now I might be wrong I don't think they know what I could be but when I was told to the psychiatrist I thought I was talking really fast I was cycling through everything like everything pops my brain I was saying it was just a roller coaster like this was everywhere so that's how I was diagnosed I was experiencing symptoms on a pretty intense level and I was diagnosed by her little type one but that's my diagnosis story if you have any questions about my pillow ask in the comments down below I'm always happy to answer thanks for watching this video and if you are new make sure you hit subscribe button like I said at the beginning if you have any video requests please leave them in the comments down below thanks for watching and I'll see you guys in my next video peace