 I never imagined picking up that script of OxyContin that I wouldn't be able to stop. I never thought that would happen. I thought I'm in pain. I'm uncomfortable. I'm sick. Like, I'm helping myself. Grew up in a good family. I have friends, you know. I never thought that I would seek solace and drugs. Never thought it was a problem. I'd just go to another doctor and they would prescribe it and I just kind of had it supply that way and then oh there was a friend that sold it and I got it that way and then oh well you know heroin's pretty much the same thing. I overdosed five times. I mean I'm really grateful that naloxone was available to me and to the people around me. I would have died without it for sure. I stopped telling people about being in recovery after I had about a year's sober and I just thought that's my past. Nobody needs to know. And then my best friend died of a drug overdose and that's when I kind of realized I couldn't be quiet anymore. People needed to realize that anyone could be a drug addict. Anybody could be a person in recovery. It's very overwhelming. There's so many amazing people that have have died to overdose and I really wish I could be listening to them tell their story but they're not here and I think you know I want to share my story but it does get better. It really does and I used to hate when people said that to me. I was always waiting on that like oh I'm you know two weeks clean and I feel terrible when does it get better. Somebody you know just takes time.