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Published on Jun 25, 2012
In late April 2012, Ever Circling Wolves spent a weekend in studio, recording drums for their upcoming album. During this weekend the band managed to record a couple of songs as a full-band live take. This one here is a rerecording of the band's first song in their catalogue, One Joyless Night, from 2007.
"I close my eyes and the air is still, As if reminding me of my current state Of immobility, I cannot achieve, Nor even function; I am static.
I am warm, and yet I am cold, I am calm, and yet I am nervous, I want to move, desperately I wish to move, And to scream; yet I long for a moment
Of calmness, I desire sleep, And will have none, not now. My head is bursting with memories, Some are happy, some are not; Some I can feel as if a goblet Of liquid happiness ran down my throat; Others sting and hurt as if a knife That is being twisted in the wound I call my heart.
One moment I would like to fight This sense of overwhelming numbness, Another, I want to further numb myself, To clear my head of false hopes and lost causes,
To administer anesthesia, to drown in dreams Hopefully better than the one I feel like I'm living in, for it hardly feels like life, More like a permanent trance, and myself
Controlled by an external force. And at times, when the dream fades, Reality nearly knocks me senseless With its heavy, pounding toil. Let me not cry so long, As to dry my eyes out by crying; Let me not think so long, As to sink deeper into my despair,
This psychic prison I build for myself. Let me not know the joys of life, As to save me from breaking down When all fails. This I know: I will fail."