 Anyway, okay, so let's, we're looking at chapter four, right? Restoring the soul, receiving healing and deliverance. Let me share the notes. Okay. Okay, so healing and deliverance, is it one of the same thing? Healing, deliverance? What is the difference? Sorry. Okay. Deliverance is more of emotion now. No, why are we using two words then? You can use the mic so others can also. So we have it on record, what you're saying. Say, say. It's okay. Healing is... My thought is like healing is for something that we need to come out, need to come out true, but deliverance is like from, especially of torments or healing is from the event, what happened, but deliverance is from the event. From the event. Yeah, like the things like what purchase. Okay. Mostly we use our deliverance is from deliverance and from our thoughts that torments us out like addictions, but healing is for hard thing. Okay. So healing can be physical and emotional as well, right? So it's something that is damaged, that is repaired, which is brought back to its original form. It could be emotions that are damaged. It could be our thought process, imagination that is damaged. It could be a physical, anything in our body, organs, missing, not functioning. So that's being brought back to its original thing is healing. But when we say deliverance, we are exclusively talking about something that is because of the presence of the force of powers of darkness, which is caused by, which is energized by the powers of darkness. So we are delivering, we are actually forcefully removing, expelling the powers of darkness using our authority so that they can be deliverance. Now, the powers of darkness can cause either physical or emotional thing. We read about the spirit of infirmity causing that woman to be bent over. And then we read about the deaf and mute spirit, which caused that deafness and muteness, the inability to speak in a person. So Jesus cast those spirits out and the person was delivered. And so also the people who had demonized like the gathering demoniac, he was found clothed in his right mind when the legion or all these evil, many evil spirits were cast out. So deliverance is deliverance meaning freedom, freedom from what? Freedom from the powers of darkness, which tried to oppress, energize, empower certain conditions, either physical, emotional, so on. So here we are talking, of course, about the emotional part. That is what inner wholeness is about. So we are talking about restoration of our emotions, our thoughts, our imagination. So restoring the soul. So it happens both ways through healing and deliverance. So we looked at some broad categories through sanctification and consecration. That was the first one. Sanctification means being separate, separating oneself from whatever could be a, let's say an open door, or anything to attack, an open door for the powers of darkness to oppress, and so on. So sanctification, so you're separating yourself, distancing yourself, cutting away that inroad or that source, which is energizing certain conditions. So when we consecrate, then naturally we cut off that power, cut off whatever the enemy is doing in our lives. So healing and deliverance comes about that, comes because of that. And we looked at healing and deliverance happening through God's presence and anointing. The very presence of God, the very anointing, which is the presence and the power of God, causes deliverance to happen. And that is why there's so much of emphasis on worship and inviting the presence of God and so on. So in the presence of God, there is fullness of joy. In the presence of God, there is liberty. So which is all the opposite of the enemy's imprisonment and oppression, which is opposite of that, liberty, which is opposite of oppression, deliverance, which is again opposite of possession or imprisonment. So in the presence of God, there is, in the presence of God, there is the power of God and the anointing, the Bible talks about the anointing breaking the yoke. So when you talk about anointing, what does anointing mean? Presence and the power of God. So what is the glory of God? Sorry? Tangible. So glory of God is, we can say it is tangible. It is who God is and what he does. It's something focusing on the doing of God, who he is. It points to the heart of God, the nature of God, the character of God, but it's what he does. It's revealed. It's something that is tangible, the glory of God. The anointing of God again, it's the presence and the power of God. So empowering a person to do certain things. Empowering a person to, he says, the Spirit of God is a point me. The Lord says, he has anointed me too and he lists down and do things. So it's empowerment. So through the presence and the empowerment, there is healing and deliverance. And the thirdly, healing and deliverance through active resistance. James chapter 4 verse 7, submit to God, resist the devil. In submission, we receive the authority in order to resist. So submission comes first and resisting comes second. So in submission, we receive authority. In submission, we place ourselves as people who can actually positionally resist the enemy. So it's therefore submit to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you. 1 Peter 1 and verse 13 again says that, gird up the loins of your mind, be sober and rest your hope fully upon the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Christ Jesus, Jesus Christ. So gird up the loins of your mind, talking about the thoughts, thinking about, is sharing about how it needs to be disciplined, it needs to be girded up, it needs to be put together and therefore we can resist. We cannot resist if we are passive. We cannot resist if our mind is not focused, if we are preoccupied, we cannot resist. So 1 Peter 1, 13 talks about that. So we looked at all this. So never forget the big picture, never forget why we can actually go into all this. It is because God wants us well. God desires this for us and therefore we can do this confidently and not be in two minds. We can do this confidently because God wants and there are several scriptures we looked at to see how can I be sure that God wants this for me, that God wants this for humanity, for the church, for the people. How can I be sure? Several scriptures again, 1 Thessalonians 5 verse 23 talks about that, that your whole spirit, soul and body, let it be preserved, blameless until the coming of our Lord, that spirit, soul, body, including everything that a man is made of. So we can say, okay, God wants my soul to thrive, to flourish, to be healed, to be restored. So let's look at this pathway. It's not a formula, it's, God can do things in an instant. We don't have to, we don't have to say, okay, after this step 1, step 2, step 3, only then there will be healing and deliverance and restoration. But this is a good pathway to follow, not only for ourselves, not only for others, but for ourselves. We can actually use it as something to check our own lives. Okay, so let's look at the first one. First one means, first one is to repent. Okay, so what does repent mean? Repentance mean change of mind, turn away. Okay, so it is, it is, it's as if you're going in one direction and you make a 180 degree turn and that's repentance, right? You're turning away. Okay, so, you know, remorse accompanies repentance, right? Remorse meaning you're sorry for what the way you lived and maybe you're feeling intensely sad, right? It can accompany repentance, right? But just remorse does not mean there is repentance. Just because there is, I'm feeling sorry and I'm crying does not mean that I've had a change of mind, very important. Because repenting is a decision, it's a choice. Like it's a hard decision, right? I might feel sad that I'm in this such a state in life. I might feel sad that, oh, I've really, you know, I've disappointed God. I might feel sad saying, I've made God, you know, I've, despite all that he's done for me, given to me, you know, I've not been grateful. I've not been faithful. I might feel sad, intensely sad, okay? Which is a good thing. But that is not repentance. That can, that need not always lead to repentance because repentance is a choice that I make realizing that I've, you know, I'm not in the right place. I've done something wrong. I've hurt God. I've hurt people, right? So I realize all that and then make a decision to change a decision, a change of mind. So, yeah, so we need to be careful. We need to understand that, you know, even in our own lives, you know, am I repenting or am I just feeling remorseful, feeling sad, right? Like, you know, children, they cry, because they've been found out, you know, they found out that, hey, you've done something wrong and you just, you know, why did you do that? They're crying. And then they're crying because they've been found out. I've been found out that I've done something wrong. And, you know, what does that mean that they're going to change? They're not going to do it again. We need to check. Yes, sir. Oh, because like we, if we most does not mean there is a repentance, right? Does not necessarily mean that there is a repentance, but can there be also a repentance without remorse, without feeling sad or feeling guilty for what happened and can there be a repentance? So the other way around, you know, can I repent without remorse or can I repent without, see, the thing is, when we do something wrong, there is, you know, the Holy Spirit is green, okay? So, and also our conscience, there is a conscience is affected for want of a better word, I'm just saying conscience affected. So we know we are convicted that something is wrong. Okay, so it can, it can start with the place of guilt, right? Oh, I realize, oh, this is wrong. Intentionally, I've heard someone. So there is, there could be guilt. And so you want to change. But it needn't go into a, you know, I'm just saying, it's my opinion, it need not go into a major case of remorse and, you know, crying, etc. You might feel bad. And then quickly say, okay, God, you know, you're feeling convicted. I need to change. I will change. You make up your mind. Yeah, you want to use? Let's sin again and again, we repent, we, we left and we are doing it. So can we call it is, it is not a true repentance. That depends on, you know, you know, there depends on me, I'll know. Sometimes I can, yeah. The thing it's, it's, it's maybe emotional, someone will cry. People will, will be doing many times this repentance and all, but when this true repentance will come. Yeah, so the thing is, you know, okay, maybe let's say if somebody is repented really, okay. But yeah, but they did not, they were not careful to, to avoid those mistakes or they were not careful or they were not, what should I say, they were not informed about, you know, how to protect themselves from, from the, this thing of the triggers of the, of the, you know, of about the triggers that can cause the same thing or, you know, they were not careful enough to strengthen themselves. One is, one is awareness. The second one is to strengthen themselves. Maybe they were not, they were totally ignorant of the resources they were available for them in Christ. Okay, so, okay, this is something for you, you know, there's the name of God, the name of Jesus, the, you know, all these things that they're sort of the Spirit, which we, and the renewing of the mind, all this is required in order to walk in victory, you know, if you're led by the Spirit of God and, you know, and also some of these triggers that you avoid initially because you're not strong enough on the inside. So maybe they were not educated in this, informed about this. Therefore, they fell again. So I won't say they did not repent truly, they must, they may have truly repented, but because of this, they fell again and again and again till they came to a place of saying, hey, you know, somebody helped them or they realized from the word they saw this and then they said, yes, and then they, they were able to overcome and walk victoriously. Yeah. I forget the difference, but it says righteous man falls seven times. Yeah, so seven times he's fallen. Yeah, problems actually. That is Peter's question. Yeah. So, yeah, 70 times seven. So, and, and then theologians also say that it is, yeah, on per day, so four 90 times per day. 70 times seven is 490. So divided by 24, you know, you see per hour, how many you can, how many times and see what the, what the thing is this. So the Bible also talks about a, you know, one who is born again, does not send in this cannot continue in sin. Because the Spirit of God, you know, one John talks about that, that the Spirit of God is convicting and making life miserable. Actually, you're miserable, right? As a believer, if you have a lifestyle of sin, you're not happy. You're miserable, you know, you just need to, you know, you come to a place of just hardening yourself so much and removing yourself from church and every believer so that you can be free of all that. And I don't want to be convicted. I just want to move away. It's a miserable life. It's not a happy, joyful life. And then you realize once there is reconciliation with God, fellowship is restored. And you realize, oh, this is what I always wanted. But unfortunately, you know, just stepped away for a season. Yeah, a believer can sin. Yeah, they can't continue to live to, you know, yeah, because in the sense the Spirit of God is pursuing them. God is pursuing them. God is sending people, pursuing them, just getting them. So they cannot, they cannot be reprinting and then being restored. And again, in a way, yeah, I mean, if you want, technically, if you see it's not, but then, yeah, they are actually falling back to the same pattern of sinning. Yeah, but then they are having in between seasons of, you know, victory, walking in victory, but then going back, yeah, you can't really, yeah, you can't really say. And also you see, you can just look at our lives, you can't really observe from others. And then that's the thing. Yeah. Anyway, so coming back to repentance, okay, so, so it's to turn away from, from something completely and turn back to God. So Isaiah 55 talks about, you know, let's read that scripture. Yeah, so Isaiah 55 and verse six, right, so say, seek the Lord while He may be found, call upon Him while He's near, let the wicked forsake His way and the unrighteous man His thoughts, let Him return to the Lord and He will have mercy on Him and to our God and He will abundantly pardon. Okay, so that's the heart of God. And also that, you know, this is something that God desires for us to call upon Him. And God says, let the wicked forsake His way and the unrighteous His thoughts. So the way and the thoughts, both are there mentioned there and to in order to turn to God for He will abundantly pardon. That's His will, that's His heart, right? Okay, so, so what are some things that I can depend about? Okay, so wrong thoughts, wrong thought patterns and wrong things that you believe about yourself about God, about others. Okay, so it could be wrong thoughts. And you know, and we know it, right? Wrong thought patterns also. What is the wrong thought pattern? Sorry, say? Pattern? So what is a pattern? You know, no, no, that's a, yeah, that's a wrong thought. But then when you say a pattern of thought, yeah, so it's a series of thoughts. Like when you say something is a pattern, it's certain things that are put together, woven together. So it's a thought pattern that I have. Okay, something happens and this is my thought pattern. I feel bad about myself. I feel bad about God. I feel bad about, you know, I feel, I don't feel right about the other, you know, it's a thought pattern. It's a process, right? That follows. So wrong thoughts, wrong thought patterns and wrong beliefs about ourselves, about God, about others. Okay, so a pattern is actually, what do you call as a pattern? Pattern is a few things that you, images that you put together that makes a whole, right? A whole picture. That's a pattern, right? So when you say pattern, it's a process. These are steps of, or, you know, let's say ways in which I think, and it's a series of things, you know, it leads to another thought, it leads to another, and this is how I think normally. It's a thought pattern that I have. So whenever somebody is fearful, they can get, that fear can trigger them into a pattern of thought. Somebody is feeling, or somebody fearful is one trigger, maybe something, if they are hurt, then they might have a thought pattern, you know, their pattern of self-pity, pattern of maybe even hardening their heart against the people bitterness, and against God eventually saying that, you know, you only made, you know, you made me like this, or things like that. So it's a pattern. It's not just one thought, but it's a series of thoughts, right? So, yeah. So I just want to, you know, that's one thing, okay, what else can we repent of, you know, repent of wrong words that we can speak over ourselves, ourselves, right? You know, I used to play tennis when I was in school, just before college. So in tennis, you know, we guys used to talk to ourselves, like, come on, what did you play? You know, we just play one wrong shot and we're like, what did you do, man? So we're not talking to the, you know, even to the partner, or I'm, you know, I'm just talking to myself, you know, that was, that was really silly. That was really bad. And we're talking to ourselves, right? So similarly, we speak words over ourselves. I say that was, that was bad. That was terrible. I hate it. And then we speak over our own lives. So what are those words that we have spoken that we are speaking over our lives? You know, I'm, I'm, you know, I don't, I'm not wise. I'm just putting it well, right? You know, which means that we're saying I'm stupid. You know, how many times we have, have we spoken that, right? If so, it's to repent of that, those words that we have spoken, okay? Third thing, repent of, you know, continual sin, habitual sin, no, we've repented, we've gone back, we've repented, gone back. So those are things to repent of again. Sometimes what happens is this continual sin, the very area that we fall over and over again, we get so tired that we don't even repent. Forget it. I don't want to repent. I know I'll go back to it again. I don't want to repent. I don't want to even say, God, I am changing. I've, you know, I've said so many times, 100 times, why should I do it? Why should I say it? I'll just leave it. So we don't repent, right? So we need to repent of, you know, continual sin or habitual sin, if there is anything, if there is anything again, you know, that we are engaged in. So we don't have to, you know, make up something. If it is so, you know, if the spirit of God convicts, then repent. Then if there's any involvement in occult or false religion, you know, that's, that's also one big area, you know. In the name of fun, we could actually inadvertently get sucked into or be involved in, you know, the occult. What does occult talks about directly involvement in witchcraft or powers of darkness or, you know, things like that, black magic and things like that, right? So when we were small, you know, I remember, they used to tie some thread. Okay. Oh, this was from and harmless. We were all not believers and we were nominal Christians, but okay, this is from that place. So you tie it and then something around the waist. Okay, this is the tie it. Just tie it. Okay. So then one day when I just, you know, realized that I think it was, I was reading a book by Neil T. Anderson. Okay, Neil Anderson. That was the first thing I think I read about, you know, all these things and healing and deliverance and so on. So literally sat down and repented of all that and broke, you know, yeah, God, I actually was doing that. And, and, you know, we had people who were helping in the house. So because when we were growing up, they used to do this, I don't know what you call it. We used to call it Sambarani in Tamil, right? Sambarani. Yeah, those things. And yeah, exactly, exactly, you know, to prevent the evil eye, but that's an invitation for the evil eye, right? So you remove the evil eye. So there's this full smoke and especially you finish your bath and come and then there is all this, you know, it's my smelling incense, but then, you know, they put it and then in their hand, they have this chili and something. Okay, chili, lemon, whatever. I don't know, they had this in there and then they do that over you clockwise, anti-clockwise. You used to do that. Okay. And then one funny thing, we had to spit into it. Right? So they say, you don't have to really fully spit, but you know, you know, do that spitting action, anti-clockwise, anti-clockwise, and then where are they going to do it? And then they'll go throw it somewhere. It's like to remove something. So all these things. So we just innocently, you know, and as parents also, they didn't realize, so they said, okay, let's do it. We did it. Christian household, church going, not really believing, but we did it. Right? So any such involvements in the occult of Paul's religion, you know, maybe even like, you know, believing in horoscope and, you know, astrology and palm reading and all these things. We are actually removing the source of God, right? And then moving to this. So, yeah. So some things that we can write, maybe we can take some time to write down. Okay, we have some time, you can write down. Okay, what are some wrong thought patterns that I've been having? Okay, so you don't have to share, right? But you can write down, maybe just put it on your phone and on a, you know, word doc or whatever for us to see, you know, for you to see yourself personally saying, you know, have I been like harboring wrong thoughts? Okay, so the thought that is not right in God's eyes, right? Thought patterns. So, and also, maybe we can, we can start with that. Maybe, you know, maybe just write two things, wrong thoughts. Okay, I have been having any wrong thoughts, any wrong thought patterns. Okay. How much time do you need? Right now, we can do five minutes. No, this, yeah, two minutes. Okay, so we'll take two minutes to do that. I'll just put a timer and then the timer, sorry, grocery list. Okay, let's just take top two. Okay. Yeah, we don't have to share. So let me, just for us to help us, you know, we'll be surprised. Okay, two minutes. Okay, let's go. So we have about 20 seconds. If you're done with wrong thoughts, you can go into wrong words. Yeah, wrong words that you've spoken over yourself. Okay, you can go into that. And it could be wrong thoughts, thoughts could be about you thought thoughts could be about God. Okay, other people. So self, others, God himself. Yeah, negative way. It could be. Yeah, but the thing is that, okay, oops. Yeah, so it could, it can be, it could be describing a situation that, you know, or something that you did. But that's not you. Right? That is, that is not, this is what you did. But this is the thing. Many times we say, this is who I am, identity. Right? Based on what we did task. Right? So the act of what you did. So you, maybe you stole something and then you say, I am a thief. Or you said something or did something unwisely. Then you tell yourself, I'm a fool. And when you repeat it, I'm a fool. I'm a fool. So now your identity has become one with the wrong that you did. Okay, and you say, this is who I am. This is who I am. So that's what you did. True. And but then you call yourself, you know, your identify yourself with, you know, which is not right. Okay, so I think something else with what we can write down will really help us to zero in. Okay. Okay. So you've written that down. Okay. So just write five things that you hate about yourself. Again, you don't have to share five things that you hate about yourself. No, if there's nothing, leave it. Don't worry. Don't just think about what is it that I hate. All that, that we don't like. And it might be a perfectly righteous thing. You know, this is why I hate myself. But then what you hate about yourself, let's, I think that will really give us an open eyes to how we see ourselves. Okay. Okay, that list I think must have gone pretty fast, right? Okay. Anand, did you write or you're meditating on some things? Okay, so the thing is, you know, these things that we wrote, okay, this is what I hate about myself. It's referring to certain failures, certain things that we did not do, certain commitments that we did not keep up, certain patterns that we see in ourselves, and all those things, you know, habitual sin, maybe consistent sin, etc., the words that you've spoken about, all that, you know, now this, what we hate about ourselves leads to certain, you know, if you're not careful, it leads to certain things that we believe about ourselves. Okay, we've come to believe, I will censor certain statements, I will always be, etc., etc. I will, I will one, I will always be whatever, I will always, I will end up, you know, like this. And, you know, I, and statements like that, which, which are lies, but this is these are things that we believe about ourselves. I will always be like this, I will always be a failure maybe, I will always be, you know, and because we hate it so much, we begin to believe the lie, and it's a lie about ourselves. Okay, now these are things that you hate about yourself, just what is, what do you think Jesus says about these things? Because of these things that we hate about ourselves, we believe something about ourselves, but what do you think, then if Jesus looks, if the Lord, he is looking, we know that he's here, here, he's looking at these lists. Okay, so what do you think he will say to that? Will he say, you're 100% right? I agree with you. What do you think he will say? Does he have something else to say about this? What Francis? Okay. That's why I said. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So some of these things, you know, it's been part of our lives for so long. And this, we forget that, hey, being a new creation also extends to this, right, as long as we hate this about ourselves, it's good that we are aware of it, right? But as long as we hate it, we come, we believe a lie about ourselves that we are making about ourselves, right? And you're saying, okay, this is who I am, or this is what I will be, I will become. Okay. And and the only thing that we need to do is to, again, repent of it. You know, that's, that those are some of the things that we looked at, right? We need to repent. And that's the first step to the pathway of healing and wholeness emotionally, you know, for our soul to start thriving and flourishing. This is the first step, right? Where we identify the lies we believe about ourselves and reject and repent. Okay. So yeah, we have one more minute. Okay. Any questions? Anything? Okay. So we have a minute. So why don't we just pray through, you know, to help us? There is this, you know, already said prayer, you know, it says, Lord, I confess and repent of wrong thoughts, wrong thought patterns, or wrong things that I've been believing about you, about myself, and about others. Okay, you can, so you can specifically look at this list and say, Lord, I, you know, I've been thinking like this about myself, I've been believing this about myself, I've been believing this about you. Okay. So if you actually take time to go through the Word of God, we see that it's a totally different picture, you know, different thing that God says about, about himself, about you, about others, so we can repent. So what are we saying? Repenting means, Lord, I reject this, and I distance this, distance myself from this, right? And you just, just do that one thing, you know, saying, God, I reject this, and I choose to turn away from thinking like this, from speaking like this, from believing this, right? So you just, it can be a very hard or, you know, cold decision, right? A choice, saying, I choose to stop thinking this like this. Okay. Yeah, let's do that for a minute, and then we'll take a break. Okay. Okay, just pray, yes, God, we just come to that place and we just say, personally, just repent, Lord, make a choice, God, not to think or accept the lies about ourselves and about you, Lord, and about others, Master. And the things that we've been believing about ourselves, Lord, because of the hate that we have towards us, God, I just pray, Father God, right now that we reject that, we just loosen our grip on that, and we say, you know, it will not be part of us, it will not be part of us, we just reject it, we refuse to take it and accept it as part of our lives, we just refuse it, no matter how long it has been, no matter how, how many times, today, God, we make a choice, we make a decision, we refuse, we thank you, Lord, in Jesus' name we pray, amen, amen, amen. Okay, we'll take a break and come back.