 Now that you can feel the love start to swirl in your heart, you can feel the promise of where this is all heading, you can feel the healing happening, amazing, isn't it amazing in a five day retreat that you can allow yourself that much opening in just five days. And then what we can do too is we can share a little bit too of our lives and our collaborations and how it's just been these nudges, these promptings from spirit that we've followed the nudges, followed the little promptings and it's not like, I think in the world, the world's always looking for like big splashes in form, like big changes, but the change of shifting your attitude and opening your heart up is something that needs to be nurtured along and it doesn't always come with these huge changes in form. It's these inner shifts and there's a lot of miracles that come that have to really fill your heart up before you start to really have that turn. I know when there's a huge amount of fear and intensity in your life, you know, it's a natural calling to like say help me, how do I turn this around? We grow up in a society where there's drugs or there's pills or there's something you can do for quick relief, but when you're turning your life from an upside down perspective to a right side up perspective, Francis and I were talking this morning, it's like, you know, these giant aircraft carriers out to see the giant boats that the planes land on, it would be how quick can you turn an aircraft carrier around, you know, sometimes that's what you're, when you're asking for a big turnaround when some, when you have an intensity, it's like turning an aircraft carrier around. You need some spaciousness, obviously, and you will probably need some time to turn the thing around. It's not going to flick like this, you know, and a lot of times when I meet people who get diagnosed with a terminal illness or cancer or something, you know, the prayer is please let, I want to let go of the cancer, I want to let go of the disease, but let me keep my life exactly as it is just without the disease, you know, and it's like, well, actually, this is just a symptom of the calling of your heart to turn the aircraft carrier around. And it's a glorious thing, and even when I see many people I've met on my travels and during this 25 years of, you know, people who are diagnosed with a terminal illness, and it starts, starts in questioning what the, what their values are, what the purpose of the whole thing is about, where they can go for 10, 20, 30, 40 years without even wondering what's all about. And then one diagnosis like a terminal illness, then they start allowing themselves permission to ask those questions. What is the whole purpose of my life? Yesterday, I was going to be going to town, and one of the three girls that you talk about that run around and make noise was saying, where have you been, David? And so I was sharing and so forth. And I said, I'm going to town as I was trailing off and she says, chocolate? I want some chocolate. And I turn back and I said, I'll see what I could do about that. So, so then I hear later on that she was part of your, your session in the afternoon here, and Zulu dances and everything, the three of them, you know, doing this and this and this. So we're off in town and, and we're working on the internet to do different things. And Francis was sitting in the terminal next week. She said, I think I'm going to go to pick and pay and get some milk and everything. I said, oh, okay. And so I continued working and she comes back and she's got the milk and she's, she's bought chocolate. I haven't mentioned anything. She said, oh, and I got this chocolate. She said, I took a bite of it. I don't, I don't even know why I bought this chocolate. I said, oh, I do. Central casting is working here. She said, I don't even know why I bought this chocolate. So she's got this chocolate. It's like a thing that's got little bars of chocolate in it. She's to take a bite out of one of them. So then we're coming, we come back and we're coming there and we, we pass the car where the three girls are in the back of the truck with Jeremy and Jeremy's in the front and they're all in the back giggling and laughing and everything. And our windows are down and everything. And I'm like, oh, by the way, the chocolate is for them. So the chocolate gets passed through the window and they're all happy on the ride with Jeremy and getting the chocolate. Central casting. We don't even, Francis didn't even know anything about the chocolate. I didn't even mention the chocolate. And it's all, it's handled, even little whims like, oh, chocolate, don't forget the chocolate when you go to town. So it shows you can start to relax and Chris handling things, coming here to grow the food that he's serving us. He came here to grow the food and pick the food and serve the food, cook the food, serve the food. You know, it's so beautiful when you see how well we're taken care of. And we've come here to heal. We've come here to heal and bless and everything that we've needed has been provided for us and always will be. That's the other part. Of course, Jesus says, the Holy Spirit will give you what you need and will renew it. Jesus says, as long as you have need of it, but the Holy Spirit will not have you linger in time. The Holy Spirit will give you what you need, will renew it as long as you have need of it, but won't have you linger in time. In other words, won't have the ego start to misuse, misuse what's being given so that you'll stay stuck in time. It's just given to you in a temporary nature so that you can heal, forgive, and let go of time, not to stay stuck in time. So it's good to remember that the Spirit really knows what you need. He knows what you need. And so He also knows He won't allow you to misuse what's given in the plan. So really we're safe. We can't even, we can't mess it up. The ego can't hijack the plan. It's really beautiful. And for me, it's been wonderful experiencing the Course in Miracles too because I got to have lunch with Judy Skutch. She was one of the original four with the Course. She was the publisher of the Course. And so I would, she was so happy to have lunch with me and her husband is in charge of all the translations all over the world, 16, 17 languages, William Whitson. And she just loved telling me all the stories of their life. And again, it was the same thing that we're talking about here. It was just orchestrated. You know, initially after Helen Shuckman spent like seven years taking down the Course in shorthand in these black binder books, eventually they kind of kept him locked and hidden. These were research psychologists that are receiving this dictation from Jesus and through this inner voice, which they research psychologists. They generally lock people up in their voices. They felt a little odd, but they were the ones doing this. So they kept the books under lock and key. They didn't tell their staff or they didn't tell friends. They just kind of in the closet. There were Course in Miracles closets, scribe and assistant. And eventually when the four of them came together, kind of wondering when it was all done, what to do, they were all together. It seemed like the only thing they could do was just pray. What do we do with all these black binder books? Because they didn't know what to do with it. And so Ken waited, and Helen waited, and Bill waited. They didn't hear anything. There was Judy, who was the one who heard from Jesus, make the commitment first. They were all praying, what are the next steps? And what comes from Jesus is make the commitment first. Dedicate your lives to this. Give your lives over to this before I tell you what the instructions are, what to do with my book. Very interesting. Make the commitment first. Isn't that interesting? Before the instructions comes a request for the commitment. Before the form. Before even the form of what we would call Course in Miracles was either given like a book or like an England of course is a green book. And first came three books. The text, the workbook and the manual was published as three separate hardbound books in the United States. It was the very first printing. Make the commitment first. And then as soon as they made the commitment, Judy told me it was probably just a few days later that she got a call from I think it was this man in Mexico who was saying it's heard that there's photocopies going around in this Course in Miracles and I really want a copy of this. I really think it should be a book. Yeah, we've just prayed on that recently and everything and he said good because I've just been inter-directed to sell a property that I have to give you the money from that property for the first printing of the Course in Miracles. It's sometimes I call it like J.C. for Jesus Christ J.C. Central is in charge of the whole thing. J.C. Central is in charge of God us all to Moorfield. J.C. Central is behind the Course, behind these properties and people coming together. There's a presence that's orchestrating everything. It's behind everything we're doing. And human beings think they're doing something and making decisions and making important decisions and so forth. It's not really the case. There's a presence behind this and that's the way that it unfolded. In fact, I think he was read as like transgender or transsexual, like imagine Christians going, right Jesus had a transgender person fund his book. Oh yeah, that's right. He had a Jewish atheist write it down and a research psychologist comfort her arm when she was really nervous. I'm hearing voices and then we have a transgender sexual funding. You can just imagine how well that goes over. That's the fun of all this. Central casting doesn't see race, doesn't see sexuality, doesn't see all these stereotypical judgmental things that are there. It just sees a beautiful plan of unfoldment. Another thing, you know, there's this thing with marriage and the sacredness of marriage and everything and, you know, like Jesus would never have you get divorced. I mean how many times have I heard that Jesus is never going to guide you to get divorced? Well, tell you what he did with Judy Skutch and her husband Bob Skutch, because Judy was there telling the story and she said, let me tell the story to David. She was in her 70s. She's married to Bob. Bob's working with the course. She's working with the course and she's kind of starting to popularize the course a little bit. She actually did an interview for New Realities Magazine, a very popular New Age magazine talking about the course. This is way back in the 70s I think and basically she's done some talks. She's starting to travel a bit, speak on the course and this and that she's just come back from Washington D.C. and she's there and she's relaxing a bit from all the travels and everything and a man from Washington D.C. who was a speechwriter for the President of the United States who was studying a course of miracles, the speechwriter for the President of the United States calls her up and basically says you've got to come back to Washington D.C. and she's like no I've just been there and not going back to Washington D.C. I'm resting with my husband. You've got to come back to Washington D.C. to meet a former retired Pentagon general. Now we've got transsexuals and now we've got a speechwriter from the President of the United States who studies the course and a retired Pentagon general or former Pentagon general. She said no I know I'm not coming. I have no interested meaning of Pentagon general at all. Thank you very much. Her friend says oh he studies the course of miracles now the ex Pentagon general studying the course of miracles as well. So she's like okay so she goes over to meet this guy and she's telling the story. He's now married to her. Years later but she's got a husband. She goes there. She meets this guy and at first she kind of sees him. He's a tall man and she goes to this apartment. She goes to see him and she kind of walks over to him. She's kind of short. She sees this tall man and kind of distinguished kind of grayish hair and everything there and she's waiting to see him and she tells the story. I think when he turns around he sticks her hand out to shake his hand and he says something to her like damn it woman where you been I've been looking for you my whole life. She's like that. These are the Jesus kind of stories. Everything is part of a prearranged plan and the humans don't know what's going on but it's striking. That's not the kind of thing you would expect. So they actually go to some seminars together and she's married. She's been sent across the country like when Harry met Sally, she's flown all the way across. What's the one with Ben Graham? The plane keeps going. She's flown across. She's there and basically after a while they spend a few days together doing some things together. They're in the same hotel, different rooms and then they're sitting on this couch together and what's going on here. She turns to him and she says I think we should meditate together. We should pray and we should ask the Holy Spirit what the purpose of this coming together is all about. She says yeah I think we really should. She opens her eyes and she's like what did you hear? She said what did you hear? Well the purpose of our relationship is everything. She said everything. What's everything? Friend and lover, confidant collaborator, he rattles off like 10 different things that are part of this and she's like just all tied up and like that does sound like everything but I don't know what's going on here. So finally she flies back and she comes back to her husband and basically she said well he's like how was it? He's so excited. Tell me about the meeting with Bill this is a former Pentagon general. He's so excited. She's not really interested in talking about any of it. She's like it's best we just drop the subject here but she's flown all the way over there. He said he's a course and he knows why she went over there and everything. He's like come on tell me, tell me, tell me more. He's coming to visit us. She's like trying to I didn't want this to go too far. She's not wanting her marriage to be broken up. She's just like so excited. So finally it gets to the point where they do invite him to come to their house. So now he flies across. Like sleeplessness. The plane flies across. He comes across. He's in the house with him and she said my husband and William just hit it off like long lost brothers and had not seen each other for years. They just love each other. Just talking, talking. She hardly gets to see him. They're just talking so much. They hit it off so well. So this retired Pentagon general and former Pentagon general and her husband. And so finally she's just watching this whole thing unfold and she was doing the dishes one day. They were kind of out on the patio outside. She could kind of hear through the screens what they were talking about. And she was just kind of doing the dishes listening and these two men are talking about sports. Sports, sports teams and sports scores. So back and forth, back and forth about sports and she's listening. And finally her husband Bob turned in the middle of the sports talk. Just in the middle of the sports talk turns and says William what are your intentions for Judy in the middle of the sports talk? And she's like doing the dishes. And William says my intentions are to marry her. And she's just like doing the dishes. And then they went, they went right back to talking about sports. They just slipped it in there. How men do you? What are your intentions? My intentions are to marry her. And now back to the sports. And so finally when she's telling the story, he's right there she's telling me the whole story. William leaves. He flies back to Washington to see him. So she goes to her husband. She goes, what is going on? I heard that conversation. You got it. What is going on? Come on, be straight with me. And her husband just very calmly says I told you about this before. She said, told me about what? You've never mentioned any of this. He said no, no. He said you should know that this is happening. Because I've talked to you about this before. She says, what are you talking about? Well, you've not mentioned anything about this. What is going on here? What is happening? And he, like a lot of people who journal when they work with the Course in Jesus, they start asking Jesus questions and, you know, taking, scribing answers and hearing journaling answers from Jesus. Well, when he started studying the material he started journaling in black books or books just like Ellen had. And he had taken down notes from the Spirit, everything. And he had lots of them. He had many, many of these things. And he said, I showed you one of these books before and it mentioned William. The Spirit mentioned William. And you knew this was, she says, what are you talking about? So he goes and he gets the book. And when he had taken down his notes on it, he said I showed you this before. And in it it said, when William comes along he is the one. The Spirit said to Bob, her husband, when William comes along he is the one. Let Judy go with William. It was journal. He had already scribed a journal and she was like, and you're stupid books and you're stupid journaling and everything. He said, no, no, it's right here. It's all, it was all given. And what we learn from the Course Board more is this is all, seems to be playing out in linear time, but this is all part of a pre-arranged plan. You know, Jesus even says the script is written. This is all part of a pre-arranged plan. He says, you were, you're really together with me at the end of time and you're we're just looking back at what has already gone by. And you're just imagining that you're making the journey again. This is all over and done, but you're just imagining that you're still making the journey. You believe there's still choices open. You still believe you have a life of your own and you can do whatever you want with it. You believe you have a band of time between birth and death that you can spend, like currency, any way that you want to, which choices are open every day. And it's all part of a pre-arranged plan. But it's fun when you hear our stories, your Judy's stories, when you sit down and you hear Ken's stories, when you hear, if you, what was the book? Remember The Left with Bill Fetcher? You can, beautiful book. You start to get this quality that everything is being orchestrated by central casting. I call it JC Central. JC Central is behind everything and there are no accidents on who's to meet. And there's no accidents on the planet that's too full. It's not like you come together, you have an experience and you go, okay, let's see if we can band together and get a group of people to have a center or a terry coming here and the talks and discussions about having a cafe and the different things that could happen and the different partners that would be involved and so on and so forth. When the ego is at it, it can gyrate all kinds of plans, blueprints, you know, potentialities, hypotheticals. The ego is good at generating hypotheticals. This whole world is a hypothetical, as if the separation happened. The entire cosmos is nothing more than a little hypothetical Joel Goldsmith called it a parentheses in eternity. That's all this is, is just a generated hypothetical. And really, you have to realize that you have to give up the hypothetical thinking and get into guidance. Because how else are you going to tune in to JC Central? How else are you going to turn in to the one that's behind the actual plan of awakening? Not the hypothetical plan. Could or would it should have? I hope, I wish, I hope, I wish, I hope, I wish, I hope. No, this is not a wish, I hope plan. This is a plan that has actual contacts, what you're supposed to meet, things you're supposed to do together, assignments you're supposed to do together. It's all part of a prearranged plan. That's why you got to really tune in with what you feel inside. Because you want to tap in to that prearranged plan. You want to tap in to what you're calling is. It's not, this is not hope and wish. There's no risk involved in God's plan. There's no, you know, I wish I could make this happen. I wish that could happen. It's not wishing. There's no scheming involved. When you hear these stories, what we're talking about, we're quite clueless of people that we meet, properties that come in, it's like it's just dropping, dropping, gently in, and we're just beholding what's happening and going along with it. And so, it may seem scary to the ego because the ego thinks that it's providing for itself. The ego believes you're an autonomous human being with this will of your own and you can make your decisions and you have a choice in things. And actually, it's all part of a pre-designed plan of seeing that you don't really have a choice to make in terms of the form of things. You do have a choice in terms of purpose. That's what we've been emphasizing all week. Purpose is the only choice. It is open your heart to be happy. Open your heart up to the joy, to the true freedom, to the innocence. Open your heart up to be guided and then it will be giving you from that. But don't think that you personally have to figure out what you're going to do. And that's kind of funny. Helen Shuckman was an atheist and very much into academia and she was used as part of this bigger plan. And this David character seemed to be raised as a Christian but my bachelor's degree that this character holds is one in urban planning. Ha ha ha ha! Planning. To think that we can plan anything when central casting is behind everything. It turns into a lot of fun because you start to realize you're not really in charge of it. So that's part of what we want to impart today as you are here going through these healings and emotions. You're starting to feel inspirations and saying how do I practically apply this? You can't really bring the course into your little life. It's too big. It's not going to fit into your little life. But you can bring your little life to central casting. And central casting will go very good. Now you're ready to be used. That's very good. Helen Shuckman had a vision. She had a lot of visions before the Course in Miracles came and one of her visions was she saw herself and she was in kind of this cape, this black thing with a cape and she was guided into this cave somewhere over in the Middle East and she walks into the cave and she goes and she looks down and it's gold-tipped scrolls. You know the scrolls with gold-tipped and the scrolls are rolled together and she goes and she kind of unwraps them and she starts to unroll the scrolls the gold-tipped scrolls and as she unrolls there's two words that appear that you can see when you unroll the scrolls. And the two words are God is. And so she starts to unroll the scrolls a little bit more and the voice in her mind says a little tiny word start to appear to the left as she unrolls the scrolls, a little tiny words to the right. And the voice says if you read the words on the left you can read the past and if you read the words, the tiny words on the right you can read the future. And she said thank you very much but no I'm content. She rolls the scroll back up to just the two words that are appearing. She's not interested in the past and the future and it's only God is. And the voice says good, you made it this time. And that preceded her starting to this interdictation, this is a Course in Miracles, please take note. This is a Course in Miracles, please take note. Central casting is behind all of this. It's good to remember that when you get concerned about where will I live what will I do, who will I be with how's the future going to unfold. It's good to remember that really you're not in charge of that. You just have to have the willingness. You have to do the prayer and the meditation. You have to do the Course in Miracles applications living the Course, practicing the Course. And Central casting will take care of everything else. And we've been talking about that this week. Once you've accepted his plan, as the one function you will fulfill, there will be nothing else the Holy Spirit will not arrange for you. Without your effort he will go before you making straight your path and leaving in your way no stones to trip on and no obstacles to bar your way. Nothing you need will be denied you. Not one seeming difficulty the way before you reach it. You need take thought for nothing except the only purpose you would fulfill. You put the purpose out in front. You can enjoy the cruise control enjoy the ride. And isn't that different than the life of struggle? Struggle, reload, get sick, die. It's a formula. Struggle, grow old, get sick, and die. That's your option. You can listen, tune into Central casting or Plan B. Struggle That's right, Michelle. That's the sick gravity plan. And so we're being convinced by the Holy Spirit that it's wonderful to tune into that guidance. It's wonderful to listen. It's wonderful to receive to be a part of it. We're all part of it. It's magical when you hear the stories, when you hear the parables. The only purpose of the parables is that there is one who is in charge and we would do well to listen to the one who's in charge of the plan. It's only a struggle coming when we try to do it ourselves. And we're right in the middle of that right now. That's why we've all been brought together is to remember who's in charge to step back and let him lead the way to be humble in that, to feel the joy of that. I can feel all of your love and gratitude with the expression sessions as the week went on. Just the opportunity to come together in presence and lift up to allow things to come through that were stuck or that were pushed down. You know, that's a great gift. I could feel as we came today to the end of the expression sessions just the gratitude welling up, you know, the thank you. We don't know our own best interests. We need central casting to bring us together in helpful ways because we individually don't know our own best interests. And yet there is one here that does know our own best interests is showering us with blessings. It's just like a wise parent saying try this, this will help, this will help you. And how important everyone wants an experience of love. And Jesus says in the Course, love cannot be far behind a grateful heart, a thankful mind. The Spirit knows the way to that love. The Spirit knows how to crack open the ego how to crack open those tightly wound intense emotions that are down there where it seems so perplexing like how, how, and then we're given, you know, this wisdom. A lot of insights has been shared this week and also examples and inspirations of like that lets you know in your heart, okay, it's happening. I don't have to be concerned if I'm going to heal or not. It is happening. It's so full, so present with us right now. And we have, she was jamming it. Her thing was she would go into the shower, we had a wood shower at the peace house and she would go and turn on the hot water and just spend all this time in the shower under the hot water just tuning into Spirit and everything and singing in the shower and then come out and pretty much just channel our website into Spanish and I've had different so-called transiders show up too to just channeling. Instead of me speaking in English and then the Spanish translation coming they will simultaneously translate just like two channels, the English channel coming to me and the Spanish channel so we speak simultaneously instead of back and forth channel the message like a pentecost you know, all the tongues coming back in the days of Pentecost and everything so it's really helpful too to see how huge it is that we're not trying to bring the Course into our lives that we have all these collaborations coming. There's a man named Bill who is very touched by the psychotherapy pamphlet of the Course of Miracles and wants to work more with reaching psychotherapy, the field of psychotherapy some of us have been touched by Carl Rogers and many great psychologists that were so in tune with Spirit. The psychotherapy pamphlet that Jesus dictated is amazing and yet you know have it start to trickle down into modern day psychotherapy instead of plotting along with let the Master inspire the psychotherapy so we can reach the psychotherapist of the world we often times were guided to use the church symbol so that symbol is being used well with letting this presence come through, trickle down through Christianity we have a lot of friends that are into non-duality some very vibrant friends we have a friend Lisa in the UK who's a non-dual teacher some may say it's just presence coming but we have all these different ways in which the Spirit is using the symbols to let it trickle through in a way through music obviously the music is coming through, collaborations with movies screen writers we also have somebody in Brazil who is a financier of movies all kinds of different things coming that are coming right around the bend where it's just the Spirit using the symbols in very inspired ways and we're like little children like beholding the gifts like oh did you see the latest thing to come through oh my gosh people were trying to figure out whether I had ever been married or not I don't have it on right now but I have the symbol sometimes and whether I've been married or not so they're trying to figure all these things out on the timeline and it's like I am union that's the answer in case anybody wants to know people talk to me about a lot of different Course in Miracles teachers what do you think about this teacher and that teacher and I did on YouTube years ago where I said they're all working for me I'm not one among them, they're all me if you can hear it, it takes it off the timeline it's just central casting is doing all of this and it's coming through with such presence it can't be figured out from the personality perspective you can't figure it out from the timeline perspective but you can feel the glory of it and that's what all of this is being shared for years ago I got an email from a woman who said I am the only Course in Miracles student in Belgium and then the next day I got an email from a man who said I am the only Course in Miracles student in Belgium and you know it gets your attention when you get that kind of email so I emailed them both and said listen I think you should have a cup of coffee if you think you're the only two Course in Miracles students in Belgium so they did and they got a third and so then the three of them met and then they emailed me back and they said well we've decided to invite you to Belgium and we only have one question can we keep you to ourselves or do we have to share it that was the way the question came back and I said I will back share so then they started going around and they started traveling around Belgium and meeting other Course in Miracles students and finding that they were not the only Course in Miracles student in Belgium and so then they said ok and then they found an American woman who had a farm and so by the time I got over there to visit the two students people came from seven countries to this farm in rural Belgium and it all started with two emails I am the only Course in Belgium so it's so beautiful what we're seeing here just the ripples and ripples and ripples are good stories of how it's central casting really having fun with the whole thing but our part is essential I may regret this but that yes is a big yes and every little yes that we make opens it up for us to take in the big picture, drink in the big picture thank you all for your yes for playing your part perfectly it's just this generosity just so much love and it's what's so beautiful a lot of times when you go together you meet people who are into the Course but now I know your mother I know her and the story of her devotion to the Course and she talking to me in Durban and saying I'm seven children again and you are seven family secret studies but it's all this open to we got to meet Paul we got to meet your son down there we're getting to meet and I got to meet your daughter in the hospital we're doomed to do these gatherings but because all of our lives are entwined and connected we get to meet people and it just radiates out it's not just a Course in Miracles gathering it just kind of spills and radiates really to the whole universe and that's why we record these people are getting to hear the heart of South Africa really your hearts are speaking and that's what people want the most they want to feel that connection maybe they've never come here themselves but they get to hear the generosity and the love of the work and that's really that's priceless it's absolutely priceless and David's authentic it's authentic if you don't give it you love it and you don't love it this is nothing fantastic I was going to say this the Holy Spirit also had a very very strong font and a range in the sleeping concept together because what happened in the room was actually there's the three smallers not smallers none of us knew whether we snored or not and the next morning we were told no private snores when we go to sleep we all say all onto your sides collaboration let's see if we can get back this is the raw side of Sharon and me because we have to leave at 8 tomorrow morning so clearly this also didn't start in class the gratitude the feeling just of every person that I have not had a good connection with in the beginning was just orchestrated and I was sitting next to them and I would see this beauty and you know all the judgment was just washed away and all the time this is the best law that I could possibly wish for thank you Hamely Hamely and I have emailed probably back and forth over 10 years and she's so much wanted to be a part of all this but for some reason wasn't on the team or was told and here you've said all this love where everyone's totally enmeshed and enjoined in this great love and you can see how central casting is doing it and that was your part was to just come and really feel all that love and behold it and even if you have to leave early tomorrow morning here this session just spills out and just exactly what's perfect but you know I'll say how upset I was initially and then as a time to grace I saw the huge if the organizers were giving us you know all we had to do was show up they didn't always work for us and being I really realized I would never have the time to do it and everything is always right it's just that you know it's beautiful thank you