 I hold your hand and I trust in you, holy There is one question that you can have with anything and that is what is it for? And there's a little book that we have at the back that says purpose is the only choice We have to realize that when we get all entangled in this world the ego has invented many purposes What is the purpose of a cup? What is the purpose of a shoe? What is the purpose of a microphone? What is the purpose of a phone? Eden talks about what is the purpose of a telephone in the workbook He says you believe it's to reach someone who is not in your proximity That's the purpose of the telephone You believe that's the ego's purpose for a telephone What's the holy spirit's purpose for the telephone? He says the real question you should ask yourself is what do I want to reach them for? What's the purpose of the phone call? You see the difference between the level of form where the ego's made up the phone We don't have to have telephones in heaven We don't even have words in heaven Words are but symbols of symbols twice removed from reality But the spirit's taking us inward and saying what do you want to reach them for? So like when Kiske was talking about her job and relationship and those kind of things Instead of just accepting, okay, I know what the purpose of the relationship is and I know what the purpose of the job is in an egoic sense We have to have kind of an inner dialogue with spirit and start to really honestly deeply start to look at what are the deeper underlying purposes which is taking us more to a purification of motive A purification, you know, Jesus said, blessed are the pure of heart that they shall see God So I remember when I was in university and I was in grad school and I would go and burn the woods next to the University of Cincinnati and I would take these long walks and I would meditate and take these long walks and talk to Jesus and I was in university for ten years full time So I was like a professional student but they were saying to Squirrel, you know, undergrad and then more undergrad and then graduate school and taking a walk in burn the woods right next to the University of Cincinnati and talking to Jesus and I'm talking about us getting kind of stressful Master's thesis and on and on and on, you know, like how the woe is me I've got a really difficult complicated life and Jesus says, Jesus says, what's this for? What is this ten years of university for? And I said, well, it's for education He said, what's all this education for? And I said, well, it's to get degrees I'm working on my second degree here and I think at that point, I already had two, I was working for the third one He said, what's the purpose of a degree? I said, well, if you want to have a career it's good to have a degree and so I'm getting a degree so I can have a career He said, what's the purpose of a career? I've walked a long way There's plenty of questions Well, the purpose of a career is because I don't want to be flipping burgers at McDonald's I would like to have some substantial money coming in and not be getting minimum wage and so Jesus says, well, what's the purpose for this money? Jim here I'll go with you The reason I'm earning the money is because I want a relationship and down here on earth poor people aren't exactly when you go out in the first date and the date has to pay for the date and the second date I said, so there you have it I need the education, the degrees the money, the career and the relationship He said, okay, what's the purpose of the relationship? What's the purpose of the relationship? Intimacy That's what the purpose of the relationship is I want intimacy I'm going through all this all this work and getting all stressed out because I want intimacy So at this point Jesus starts talking and he goes, well, I said also I want some freedom Money, what if I want to travel? What if I want to do things? It's not everything in this world is free It's not like heaven, you have to pay You don't have to pay to get into the parks You don't have to pay So I said, I want to have some freedom I think the money would help out get the freedom and I think it would help a lot with intimacy and intimacy He said, you have every right to want freedom You have every right to want intimacy These are traits and qualities that you were given in your creation God created you free God created you with a deep sense of intimacy deep sense of connection and love But you are looking for love at all the wrong places You are looking for love in way too many faces You are looking for your intimacy in a way that you will never find it You are following a voice that will forever lead you on a sense of unfulfillment, abandonment rejection, loneliness We've all had that experience where you felt lonely in a crowd even when you're around a lot of people where at New Year's Eve and everyone's partying and all the noise is going and you feel melancholy We've had that experience where we feel extremely empty and lonely even when we seem to have a partnership So Jesus said, you have every right to ask for that That's your inheritance but you are going about it completely the wrong way And that means that all the things you've been doing to try to get the intimacy and get the freedom have very much of a body component to it In fact in A Course in Miracles if you read the Course pretty far in the text he will say things like What do you want? Freedom of the body or freedom of the mind for both you cannot have for both you cannot have That's pretty strong coming from the Master You can't have it both ways You have to go for freedom of the mind Think of people like Gandhi Gandhi stood up for some very strong beautiful principles non-violence and equality and he was locked up he spent quite a few of his years in jail He actually was fine with that because he started to have the realization from spending so many years in prison that he wasn't really imprisoned in prison Isn't that a wonderful realization? Wouldn't that be a spiritual insight if you spent years in prison and suddenly aha realized that you weren't imprisoned in prison and he realized that it was freedom of the mind freedom in his consciousness is what he really wanted So I've been working and talking to Jesus for these years and that started to change my perspective when I started to look at the schooling and I started to look at the jobs and careers and everything I started at that point to begin to question whether I needed all of that to have the intimacy that I wanted in the freedom and then I went on a journey with Jesus and he said, here I'll take you there very directly, through miracles you are designed to be a miracle worker I'm calling you out of the world I'm calling you to be a miracle worker but yes, you are ready because I will do them through you I say you're ready and you're ready So suddenly, which I all those 20 some years had never when I was growing up as a child I never heard from my parents Hello little David, you grew up to be a miracle worker My parents weren't telling me I'd be a miracle worker My teachers weren't telling me My guidance counselors never told me I would be a miracle worker and then, you know even when you get maybe later on in the course of miracles groups your facilitator might have said well, you're not going to be a miracle worker you've got too long to go we can't hold on to any kind of limitations because Christ is calling us to be a miracle worker and to let miracles be performed through us for our own perception for our own expanded consciousness our own expanded perception and I simply started there in the woods by asking what Jesus said ask yourself these questions what is it for? what is it for? and I started to apply that with relationships and now that I've had people I've worked with for years they start to look at their relationships and they start to really ask the question what is this for? is this relationship really to maximize the healing of my mind? that's an interesting question to ask with a relationship is the relationship really here to maximize the healing of my mind or are there egoic motives that I'm trying to have this person act something out for me or I'm trying to think that I will be much better if I'm in a partnership for example like when you go in to trade in a used car for a new car why are you doing that? why do you trade in a used car for the new car? maybe the used car is older maybe it's more broken down maybe it's not so beautiful anymore why are you going into the dealership to upgrade? what if you try to do that spiritually with your relationships? what if you've got a single model and you want a couple model you want to go in for an upgrade I'm a lonely single model but I think I'll trade up for a couple model convertible when we try to shift our self-concepts to try to cover over unworthiness and try to make our self-feel more worthy and we trade we keep shifting the deck chairs of the Titanic not realizing that the ship is sinking and we're really trying to just get a better arrangement before the ship goes down we have to start to realize that we really need to be asking what is this for? when you go on a date the ego will tell you all the things that are ticked off that you want to have all the dates should go and what kind of partner you want and I see a lot of times people now are shopping for partners like they go and shop for meat in the grocery store or vegetables in the grocery store they're squeezing them and they're shaking them and they're testing them out what's the expiration date on this if you go to the grocery store you check out the expiration date if you're on the first date you say what do you do for a living? you check out the expiration date on their financial it's the same thing you might as well be squeezing the cantaloupe or something you know is just trying to evaluate the Holy Spirit if you say no the Holy Spirit bring to me the best relationship for the healing of my mind and for the good of the whole universe then it gets really interesting to see who shows up and when you get on the date you're just going oh, Holy Spirit this is terrible I wouldn't even let this guy through the door we would never have the first date if I was in charge of it I give the prayer to you and this is what you show this is how it works the Holy Spirit is going to help you undo the ego it's going to undo your self-concept it's going to undo your pride it's going to undo the things that the ego thinks you need in this world to be more worthy more intelligence more beauty more something a better form when people get on to weight loss and so forth they feel unworthy with a certain weight and then they feel they'll feel better about themselves when they're at a different weight actually the Holy Spirit doesn't think like that the Holy Spirit is not thinking oh, you'll be much more worthy if you don't die if you lose a few pounds that's not how the Holy Spirit thinks it really doesn't think that way at all the Holy Spirit loves to see mirrors come up and when you go oh, I hate that the Holy Spirit says oh, let's take a look what do they represent in your mind you can look at that with me and we can let it go together now that's how the Holy Spirit operates so it's a whole different way I mean if you truly invite the Holy Spirit into your life into your relationships things can get shaken up like the turkey pan pretty good and I've seen that in my life in the lives of many people I've worked with but actually it comes out beautiful you come out glowing and shining when you go through this purification process and just trying to cling to the old ways and try to go through self-improvement that's really the ego that's trying to do the self-improvement thing totally, it's honestly not a flippant question I'm just, it's rather personal but you're married I am not you're not? no, I have had like this band on my finger is basically I have all kinds of stories with bands because these are props to me and so over the years the figures have had the props on and off and everything but it has no meaning in fact in other cultures they tell me it means different things different figures and so on and so forth but actually this particular I can't even remember how this one came but I've had rings given to me by women men course inscriptions on and so on and so forth and to me it's just a beautiful simple symbol of no beginning and no end so when people say married I say married to God because in the truth that's where the union really is everything in this world just gets used to help us forgive the illusions that are keeping us from knowing our union with our source so yeah, that's I've never been legally what the world would call married I've been just used in purpose would you like me? if I already am that would be like saying I'd like to be pregnant with she's already pregnant that's a new point and if I'm already married and all the thinking I'd like to trade it in for something lesser model from the experience not from the form this is good you guys are getting down to it and this is all recorded for the whole world so we're trying to save time for the whole universe and you guys are doing a great job of it