 I knew that I was different. I really, really struggled with the way I looked. And at one point I was in a very dark place. So I'm not just mental. They don't care what you look like. They've given me life and they've given me a purpose. I'm Beth Lewis and I've been helped by Project Calt. Project Calt is funded by the National Lottery. It was a project which we applied for in order to ensure that every person with an additional need could access equine therapy. My disability is called apens syndrome, which is a cranial facial condition. Growing up in these conditions was quite hard. I had a lot of operations. I was bullied for my appearance and my family were also bullied for my appearance. It got worse as a teenager because I was growing up. And as a teenage girl, appearance is quite important and mine wasn't that good. Horses have an ability to interpret our emotions. They can mirror our emotions. They are the most wonderful tool, if you like, to work with people with complex needs. My first memory of Beth is a very quiet and reserved young woman. But it wasn't about developing her horsemanship, her riding skills. It was about tapping in again to Beth, the person, and for her to develop in her wellbeing and confidence again. Before Project Calt, I was really, really down. And at one point I considered not being around. I would never think I would get into riding. I was so nervous and so scared. And then I met Sal, who taught me on a mechanical horse and got me ready to ride. Even though it wasn't a real horse, just the feel of the horse moving just felt breathtaking. I'm so glad I did it. The first time I rode a mouse was last year. It was like getting on a big teddy bear. He gave me a real bounce. We were so happy that I became quite happy. He's not just an Allen one. He's everything. He's my best friend. He puts a smile on my face every single day. I've always been able to communicate with horses a lot better than with people. With horses they taught me how to communicate. They gave me a lot of comfort. If it wasn't for the horses, I wouldn't be able to speak to anybody now. I would like to say to the people that put money on the lottery, thank you so much. You've helped a project which has helped me to become a person called Beth.