 I want to make a really nuanced point about trauma. Trauma, you could say it's a lack of love that we experience usually in our formative years, you know, for talking about complex trauma or developmental trauma. And of course, you know, that's the most basic form is just almost like a lack of touch that we experience. Certainly then a lack of attunement to the inner world of the child over time will develop into complex trauma, just then of course, like just explicit abuse, neglect. Now the subtle point I'm going to make here is that the trauma now as adults that we're living with, maybe this is an obvious point, but I just felt like I wanted to say this in a video. You know, as adults, it's not what happened to us. That's the trauma that we're carrying. It's what we interjected about ourselves back then that we are still carrying inside ourselves. It's technically that's what's the issue. Whatever trauma is outpaced as a child, there was some sort of a philosophy even you could think of behind that behavior that I met that we met. And that sort of goes in and it sits there as these sort of energies. You could say they're like thought forms almost. Now they're incredibly powerful when they went to the body and they are held in the body. You know, that's true. That idea that the body keeps to score that's very true. But really it's something that I've come to accept. Like for instance, I now I'm holding onto shame because of this defective story that there's something wrong with me. My authentic personality is not going to hack it here. Interject. Now I'm carrying that. Now there may have been all sorts of ways that I learned that but neglect and shouting and abuse. But what's important in my life now is that is this thing that I've interjected. There's something wrong with my personality. That's what I'm walking around with. That's the unconscious thing that is creating my world for me. It's influencing all my relationships out here. So the idea here is that what we're trying to do of course there's an awful lot of body work with trauma, but we're trying to find the interject, the thing that we swallowed in and we're trying to get it up and put it down and spit it out effectively. There's so many of these things but I have found and it's a theory I always believed in but in practice I've seen it so many times. Like it is shame. It's guilt. It's unworthiness. It's smallness. It comes back to that all the time. The precursor for that is a sense of being abandoned or rejected. But then we go into this as children we go into something's wrong with me. Why have I been rejected? Why have I been abandoned? Why am I alone? Why is my personality running into all these problems? Something is wrong with me. We don't even know we're interjecting this but we are taking it in. We don't even have the language for it but it's almost like the concept, the idea, the philosophy is interjected. The language comes later maybe when we're a bit more intellectual but we are inquiring all the time into the triggers now as adults and those triggers they're felt in the body very viscerally but there is an idea underneath them. Now there may not even, this is a strange thing I'm going to say here, there may not even be any language behind that idea but it's an idea nonetheless that is causing that energy in the body. I think I might make a video on that at some point. Ideas are different to language. A concept can exist before we have the language to describe it or to communicate it, to express it or share it. So these interjects are sometimes you know they're not even verbal but they are conceptual. In any case what we do is we find out what this thing is and we start to question it because the good news is also that none of them are true and you know I think sometimes people think that's so naive to make a blanket statement that there's nothing wrong with anybody but again you know like when you sit with enough people and you do enough inquiry and questioning into these interjects, these shame based stories, self perceptions, you realize that they can't really hold up to much scrutiny. You do realize that this isn't true and nobody's story of shame and neglect and defectiveness and unworthiness is actually true. It's just a story that's all it is. Now it may be multi-generational. My father had it, my grandfather had it, you know his father had it but that's all it is. It's an old story but you know you can always change your story. You won't want to. Your nervous system is trained and carrying that story. It's very attached to that story and a part of changing the story is realizing that it is safe to let this go now. I don't need to carry it any longer. It's not protecting me far from it but that's what we're trying to do here when we're working with trauma is to it is somatic, it is body work but we're trying to find the sort of the concepts or the assumptions that are underneath those intense emotions that are being triggered all the time. Guys I hope that's somewhat useful. I know I was rambling there quite a lot but again I hope this was a useful video. If anything I've talked about here has brought up anything for you, you can contact me on my website and I'm available for one-to-one work as well in therapy. Guys take care yourselves and I will talk to you again next time. Bye for now.