 Remember back in the day when people told you that playing video games was a waste of time? Well this is Team Liquid right after they won over 10 million dollars at the international Dota 2 tournament grand finals. Gaming went from a hobby to a legitimate career. As you can see from the top gamers there are those who are making more than most people with a college degree for video games. Prize money is a great source of income but with the growing popularity of Twitch gamers have the opportunity to get paid while streaming their favorite games. Summit 1G gets massive donations while playing. Fallen is not only on one of the top teams and makes a ton of money from tournaments but he also makes money streaming and he has various brand deals. Then you got guys like Dr Disrespect. He's not only a good gamer but he's grown based on the character that he plays on camera. But this isn't a success story. This is a story about how addiction destroyed my professional gaming career. What's up everybody this is Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution. And this is a story that I don't share too often even when I share my story of addiction and recovery. I just kind of leave it out and I don't know why because gaming is kind of a big deal these days. So kick back relax. This video is going to be a little bit longer but I want to explain to you how I actually had a professional gaming career and my addiction completely destroyed it. So the first thing I want to do when I start off this video I'm going to talk about some people that I hurt and harmed and things like that. And if any of them are watching some of them I still have on Facebook and if you happen to stumble across this in any way I want you to know that I'm truly sorry. I was a selfish self-centered egotistical asshole. All right. And I do apologize but I have you know grown some of these relationships back and things like that. But for anybody else who I hurt in the past I am truly sorry. All right. So as some of you know who follow my channel you know that I am a drug addict and alcoholic in recovery. And something I want to point out as you see how this story goes my addiction for me personally the way my addiction manifests it is almost 1000% based on my pride and based on my ego and you will see how that played its role in me destroying my professional gaming career. My addiction was only a symptom of the issue but my pride and my ego is what led me to drink and use more drugs. All right. So I want you to remember that as we go along. So anyways since a young age young young age I was born in 1985 the year that Nintendo came out I was probably four or five years old when I got my first Nintendo gaming system and I was hooked on video games ever since. You know I grew up playing Nintendo then I switched over to Sega then I got myself a PlayStation and just onward and upward. It was around high school when I really got into PC gaming. I got my first computer I was hanging out with a friend and he was like yo let's check out this game. I think it was Starcraft the first Starcraft and I sucked but I loved it I loved it and we played the original Warcraft. Something about me I'm very competitive like not in a in a crazy way it used to be in a crazy way but not anymore but I'm very competitive and you know in high school I was triathlete I did football wrestling and track but gaming was another way for me to be competitive and a lot of this played into being the child of an alcoholic mom and not feeling like I got attention not feeling that I was good enough like competition gave me a way to prove to myself and to prove to other people that I was actually good at something whether it was real life sports or whether it was e-sports so I remember having my friends come over bringing over their play stations and you had to use that link cable and two separate TVs like this is like pre-high speed internet ladies and gentlemen all you kids out there and that's what we did I remember playing the first or second Warcraft on 56k dial up with my friends right but with broadband internet coming out and my friend introducing me to some games on the computer I ended up getting a computer and my dad made a deal with me he said we can get high speed internet if I joined the wrestling team if I just tried it right and that's how I joined the wrestling team and I was like no that's lame you gotta wear like these tights and you gotta wrestle around with dudes but I was a natural and I actually excelled like crazy in wrestling we ended up going to the state championships I ended up getting a nice little ring which I lost in my addiction oh well but anyways throughout that time I was a hardcore gamer um the first first person shooter that I really got into was quake 3 loved it loved it I could play that all day long and what's crazy is is that you know with all of my anxiety and depression that I struggled with throughout high school gaming was actually the reason why I didn't start drinking until the very end of my high school career I remember every Friday night we had our varsity football games and we'd play and then everybody would go out and party and they'd invite me and my buddy um and we'd be like no no thanks and we would just go and play video games this was when land centers were on the rise um gaming cafes if you will and we would just go hang out there and we'd play and then I was introduced to my first addiction which was a game called counter strike boy did I fall in love with that game like I think it's also important for people with addictions to realize that we were often addicts long before drugs and alcohol came into play and what I mean by that is when I got hooked on counter strike I had an obsession I couldn't stop thinking about it I would stay up until two or three in the morning playing me and my buddy would ditch class to go home and play counter strike like we were obsessed with this game but anyways my junior and senior year as I'm playing counter strike um and I was really into the competitive aspect one of the land centers here it had a local league and we were we were one of the best teams in Vegas we were always within the top three me and my friends and I was just I love the competition of it and around that time we started watching um international tournaments that tournament to watch back in the day and some of you old schoolers you know what I'm talking about it was called CPL it was like call I think it stood for the cyber athlete professional league and every year they would have two tournaments uh in Dallas one in the summer one in the winter and then other tournaments started to spawn in other countries and things like that and what we used to do back in the day me and my buddies would all go over to my friend's house he was freaking rich and we'd all bring our computers over and we'd stay up all night just watching these tournaments like whether they were here in the states or they were in other countries and I will never forget I'll never forget I remember watching one of these tournaments in another country and I was like man I would love to travel the world see the world do something that people don't even get a chance to do right I would love to do that for video games and another thing about us addicts and alcoholics is that when we set our mind on something like we go get it unfortunately that's typically with drugs and alcohol but anyways I locked in on that I was like I want to do that so right after high school I ended up going to a small tiny tiny college in northern California and there was a website called got frag and there were a website covering all of the major counter strike tournaments they were doing feature articles and things like that and I kind of realized like I humbled myself and I was like okay Chris you're never going to become a professional gamer but I was always known as one of the smartest guys in the game so I wanted to sign up and start writing for free for this place this website called got frag I wanted to do that and work my way up the ranks and become known and go to tournaments you know because I figured I couldn't make it as a player so and it's an interesting story too so I ended up wheezing my way in because I used to make counter strike movies and they needed people to who are video editors and I'm like yeah sure sign me up so I did that and I was I'm one of those guys I still am where if something needs to be done I volunteer I just want to do it I just want to do it I like work I like working hard I like impressing bosses you know and all that stuff so they ended up needing graphic design done so I started doing that even though my stuff sucked but I was really in a photo shop back in the day so I made some stuff well anyways CPL had a league an online league called Cal okay cyber athlete amateur league I think it was and every week they would do predictions okay and whenever they did predictions I remember watching and reading these articles and the guy who did predictions sucked right like he was just he was just really half-assing it okay and I was looking at him like man I could do such a better job and I was always asking like can I write something can I do something can I do some predictions because I like really watch these teams like while some people like are really into like football or hockey or baseball and they know every single player and they know how this team operates and how that team operates and how the matchup is going to be like that's how I was with Counter Strike well lo and behold one day this dude's computer got a virus and he could not do the predictions and we were talking back in my RC chat and they're like we need somebody to do the predictions and I'm like pick me pick me so I ended up doing the predictions that week and everybody who read my predictions loved it they absolutely loved it and they're like this guy needs to do more of them and by the way my gaming name is boot man so you might hear that throughout this video so everybody's like this guy needs to do them from now on right so what they started to do they started letting me and the other guy do predictions together eventually that guy just left I kept doing predictions but now I had my foot in the door and I wanted to do more I wanted to write about my thoughts about Counter Strike strategy and different players and player moves and you know player trades and gossip in the community I just wanted to do more and get really involved and I started doing it and it it exploded with this one thing so the guy I looked up to and he's one of the guys if he watches this I would like to apologize um Trevor Midway Schmidt so if any of your old school gamers like he he's still in the in the scene but he's more in the background but he was the dude he went from being a pro gamer to running Godfrag he was one of the the first guy one of the main guys who started Godfrag and he was he was like a mentor a big brother to me helped me out a lot but anyways he did an article around big tournaments called Midway's playbook and I loved him I loved what he did but something that I do I'm I'm always thinking outside of the box that's why you see a bunch of different content on my channel I'm always trying to think outside of the box and I was looking at what Midway was doing and I absolutely loved it and I was like you know what I think we could do more with this I think we could do more with this I in my brain I always related Counter Strike to football right it's very similar football you do a play you stop you regroup you come back same thing with Counter Strike you play a you play around you stop you regroup you come back right and I was like okay well if it's kind of like football then maybe we can start analyzing the offense and defense maybe we can start predicting what the other teams are doing so I talked them into letting me do a guest playbook and Trevor's articles Midway's articles his playbooks they were about a page or two pages long they were great they were great articles right but I ended up taking about man I don't know like eight eight hours 12 hours and I did this extremely in-depth playbook there was a team that was on the rise at the time called NOA it was the first time that international players and North American players merged together and made a team so NOA stood for you know it was like North America as well as I forget but anyways they were like they were from the Nordic countries so like like Norway and Sweden and stuff like that but anyways they were on the rise and then that was my first playbook I did this really in-depth one and I've really focused on the defense and back in the day so any of you CS go players and I think you can still kind of shoot through walls in CS go but back in the day in CS 1.6 you can straight up shoot through a wall like it was paper so what I did was I was watching demos of these teams and just watching and I would find each of the players favorite spots on NOA and I released this massive playbook this massive playbook all right and because I did that Godfrag actually flew me out to Dallas to the CPL and it was right after I launched this playbook and something insane happened you just saw that teams were destroying NOA there were shooting these guys straight through walls because my playbooks were on point they knew exactly where these people were going to be and I remember because I was kind of friends with some of the guys on NOA and they were like upset but like in a joking way like it was and I was like oh my god like I really hit something and that's when I exploded that's when I became a big deal people were like bootman's playbooks bootman's playbooks bootman's playbooks and I started writing a lot more writing a lot more just so many more things and I was just hooked on that I was so I was working a regular nine to five job and I would come home and just write and write and write like this was going to be my ticket and I kept doing that and eventually Godfrag flew me out to Sweden to go to something called the Nileva land so I was about 19 years old I think and I just got a 100% paid for a trip to another country and it was a dream come true and right about this time okay my drinking wasn't terrible okay I started off with just alcohol no drugs at all and it wasn't terrible but I liked a party I loved a party I had that kind of frat guy mentality even though I wasn't in a fraternity so you know that international flight I got to drink I got to drink when I went there it was still somewhat under control what ended up happening was there was a team called team 3d okay and team 3d came to me and they said listen we love your playbooks we need some help because 3d used to be the top north american team they just used to be this rivalry between north america and sweden and they're like look we want to hire you to make us like personal playbooks for the other teams and they were going to wcg in san francisco I forget what year it is it might have been 2006 and they said we want to pay you to do it I think they wanted to pay me like 500 bucks and I went to my bosses at goth bag I'm like yo can I do this and they ended up letting me do it and I was like okay so so I did this really in-depth playbook it was kind of hard because there's so many teams at that tournament and you don't know who they're gonna play so I think I did like the top teams and my roommate one of my best friends in the world his name is weenus so he he kind of uh he started growing as a name in godfrag 2 I hooked him up with a writing gig and he got bigger and bigger too but weenus back in the day he used to work at office max so I had him print out this playbook like these used to just be online and they printed it out put the little spiral thing like I was being all professional and I ended up going to wcg in san francisco and I gave 3d this playbook and for the first time the first time in I think a year or two and in gaming time that's a long time for north america to win a championship team 3d ended up winning the world championship they took down sk who was the top swedish team at the time that people thought were invincible and now I'm sitting there like oh my god like I can actually like help teams like in a new way now now I know like it was it was very I don't even know the words to explain it was it was amazing seeing that what my work can do what this effort I was putting in can do and at that time by the way back then back in my day there was no coaches there was no coaches in the scene now I'm going to let you in on a secret if you're still in here with this story I ended up becoming the first e-sports coach in the world all right and some of you are going to say no you weren't what about that guy vesselin and you know these other people back then a lot of people were getting hired and getting the name coach right but they were basically just somebody they were like a hype man they would stand behind the team and just hype them up and say come on yeah let's do it right that's what they would do they weren't they weren't actually coaching so I made one of the hardest decisions I had to make in my life which was leaving Godfrey and becoming the coach of team 3d but I wanted to do it I wanted to be the first coach I wanted my name to be somewhere and I think maybe my ego is playing a little part in the reason why I'm making this video nobody talks about me and maybe it's because of the relationships I destroyed so I accept that I accept that and I move forward but nobody talks about how bootman was the first real coach in e-sports now when you see this professional gaming tournaments across all the different games you see that all of them have coaches right and legitimate coaches so team 3d hired me my drinking was escalating a bit but let me dial back a little bit back before I left Godfrag this is when my ego really started to take a turn for the worse and this is when alcoholism was actually starting to cause a problem when I was with Godfrag and we were in Dallas so keep in mind this is what I was 1920 years old I was not of age to drink and I would sneak into parties I would find alcohol I would have other people you know buy me alcohol and it was kind of normal like all of us were like right around that age 1920 like if you were 21 you were already like a geezer so there was a lot of underage drinking back in the day and what ended up happening was I ended up going to this party with an open bar and just getting completely plastered and we went over to one of the team's rooms I forgot what team it was but back in the day there was a girl one of the players girlfriends and her whole shtick back then was to talk about gaming gossip and we went into that room I didn't even notice she was in there she was wearing a wig it was weird and she ended up recording me coming in there drunk and she caught me on camera saying well look at me I'm 18 and I'm drunk or however old I was and she had that on film and Godfrag came came to my aid and they they ended up getting her to not release that get rid of it and sweep it under the rug and I hope I'm not like making Godfrag look bad but anyways like it was it was it was a bad situation all around but I put myself in danger my career in danger at that point but anyways I started having a lot of problems with my bosses like these guys like I had absolutely no humility at all no humility as I was rising and I was becoming a big deal you know I my brain was telling me like Godfrag would be nothing without me you wouldn't get you wouldn't get the traffic without me you wouldn't get the sponsors without me you wouldn't get the ads without me nobody would come to this crap hole website if it wasn't for me the boot man right and I would say this to the bosses I used to have insane anger issues so when I was like just like this big whiny baby and like whenever I didn't get my way I would just throw this tantrum and I would fight with them and you know one of the heads of Godfrag he used to talk to me for hours and talk me off these cliffs when I wanted to quit because nobody respected me and just all this stuff and to be honest that was one of the reasons I ended up taking the job with 3d and it was completely based on my pride and ego and when I started working with 3d cpl started something the cpl world tour and basically they were popping up every every month or every other month they were popping up in different countries and having these tournaments and team 3d kept getting invited to them so at this time I'm getting flown all over the country I used to go to New York once a month to be with the team we would all fly out there and then right before we went to Spain so I got to go to first I went to Sweden then I went to Barcelona Spain and we went there but first we met up in I think it was Virginia and we did like this boot camp so as a coach while they were practicing and doing scrimmages online and stuff like I was over there analyzing teams making play books and things like that so we end up going to Spain to the world tour and we got demolished this is back when team complexity who was another North American team great great guys a lot of them were good friends here's actually a picture of me with one of the guys who was on the old complexity team trip and then as well as my buddy Josh Dominator Severs and so we went out there we ended up getting destroyed but when I would go out of the country like my drinking would just go insane like the entire time on the plane I was getting plastered because as soon as I would hit international waters now it was time for me to drink and I would just get wasted on the flight and when we got to Spain I immediately hit the bar and this is one of those things like I would go to another country and I would spend more time drinking than actually like exploring and sightseeing and stuff like that most of the nights while we are in Spain I was just you know we would leave the tournament and I would just go find a bottle I would go buy some booze and just get blackout drunk in my hotel room but like to me it was like oh we're just partying because we're out of the country but like while my my teammates the guys on my team and other gamers they were just like kind of relaxed and chilling having some drinks like I was just like I want to get blackout drunk you know and after that we ended up going to another WCG event which was in Paris France so now I get to go to Paris France and this is a story that I look back on and I'm just like man like if that's not somebody who's addicted to alcohol I don't know who is so we went to France and again just buying all of the booze I can and I remember I remember people kept going like when it wasn't time for the tournament they would go to the Eiffel Tower and see these amazing places in Paris France and I remember thinking this thought I remember wanting to drink instead I wanted to just get wasted when we had free time I just wanted to get blackout wasted and my brain told me I said don't worry Chris you can see the Eiffel Tower the next time in your you're in Paris like what what like spoiler alert it's been what is it 2018 it's been over a decade now I still haven't been back to Paris so that's to show you where my priorities were rather than going to see the Eiffel Tower I decided to get wasted instead right and fortunate enough for me the tournament was actually inside the Louvre which is a famous museum in case you didn't know and so I got to see that just by going to the tournament but fun fact about that tournament we were the first team to tie every single one of our group stages stage matches like in in the history at that point I don't know if it's happened again but yeah anyways here's here's another picture of me we were doing a kind of like a aftermatch press conference um with the media like back then like people were having me sign autographs and um here's here's a screenshot and you can't see it but we were sponsored by Nvidia and I was on this like this was just building my ego and building my ego like when when random people are coming up to you and having you sign stuff and you're getting put on boxes and I remember signing posters for giveaways we were doing and stuff like my ego was just out of control and the problem was too is that coaching them became difficult it was difficult for me to coach these guys when they're like these big deals like they're the famous ones like we're talking about guys and these might be names you don't remember but all the old schoolers do we're talking about like k sharp rambo bombs moto right these were big deals and they wouldn't listen to me and I didn't know how to keep them in check you know what I mean and there ended up being some uh some shake ups with our roster around that time 3d went through quite a few shake ups but anyways what ended up happening was we actually recruited two guys from that team in a way that I originally play booked and these were two friends of mine right Mikey so and Griffin banger also known as method and shag wire okay and this is when it took a turn for the worst and my ego got out of control and I was drinking and one thing about drinking is it makes you depressed when you're when you become an alcoholic and you become completely delusional and I just started butting heads with these guys and it's really sad too so Mikey Griffin if you're watching this again I apologize like here's a here's a picture of me and Griffin like Griffin was like one of my favorite dudes in the world I still love that guy like for those of you who don't know like he was shag wire back in the day but now he's Griffin the professional poker player like he actually made it to the final table at the World Series of poker was it last year or two years ago but anyways here's a clip of him at the final table and he's like a big deal in the poker world like I I have much respect for this dude like he's just one of those guys where you know when he finds something like he gets really into it so I'm glad that he's still doing great but anyways I ended up leaving the team just leaving the team and then I went back to Godfrag with my tails between my legs begging them to take me back and I even cut my deal I said listen if you guys take me back you don't have to fly me anywhere I just want to basically I just want to still be relevant just let me write again and da da da da right and man it took maybe a couple months for my ego to just go crazy out of control again and this is right around the time when Godfrag was just getting huge they gave me a second chance and I blew it and my drinking was just off the rails at that point I'm talking every night blackout drunk hungover still drunk the next day terrible I could barely even write like I don't know what I was even doing back then but anyways I was yelling at them how come you don't fly me anywhere I'm always comparing myself to the other staff members and stuff like that and I ended up quitting and that was that was pretty much the end of it and you know it was one of the biggest regrets when I first got clean and not even when I first got clean man like during my act of addiction like it's one of the things that fueled my addiction I was so depressed I hated myself for what I did I hated myself because I fell out of the scene and not long after that Godfrag got bought out by MLG for millions of dollars millions of dollars like millions of dollars and I didn't see a penny of it okay um looking back I don't know if I would have I wasn't like a stakeholder or anything but the guys at Godfrag were amazing and I'm sure they would have hooked me up or helped me out but you know I was on this path to making this what I do with my life just being involved in video games like being involved with video games would have been part of my life but instead I chose to just keep drinking and drinking and drinking and drinking and I just fell out of the scene and meanwhile my buddy Weenus he ended up doing great things he helped him out I helped Godfrag out with a magazine they launched real quick he ended up getting a job with Team EG back in the day he also became a big deal at CGS so back oh man this was about 10 years ago direct TV started a league called CGS and they sent everybody out to Los Angeles well in the Los Angeles area and the players lived there and it was a weekly televised thing there was Counter Strike there was FIFA there was Dead or Alive and there was a Forza I think it was right and Bobby ended up getting me a job with them I ended up writing for one of the teams called the Las Vegas Venom and at that time I was unemployed my drinking was insane and I got to go out there for a little while and I remember just begging people to buy me alcohol like man like that's not a good look y'all like I was begging the players I was begging my boss Alex Conroy also known as Jax who was a big deal back in the gaming days and stuff like that so Alex if you're watching this like I remember one night the my paycheck was like late and I remember begging Alex because me and him we were staying in the same apartment I was begging him for booze money begging him like how pathetic but that's what that's what us alcoholics and drug addicts do and like it was just terrible and anyways I ended up you know walking away from that not long after it like shut down anyways out of nowhere but you know I would beat myself up in my in my addiction as well as my early recovery because I sit back and I still love I still love gaming I still love gaming so much and I sit back and I would watch it and all these guys all these guys were just going somewhere they were going somewhere they were making tens of thousands of dollars if not millions of dollars guys I used to hang out with and be friends with and I'm just sitting there it's like that you know it's like that uh that that football player like I could have been somebody I could have been something like that was me when it came to gaming and it fueled my depression and my self pity and things like that and I just I couldn't believe what I did but anyways throughout my recovery I found this new purpose I found this new purpose of one first and foremost just being a father to my kid but also helping other people recover from addiction and that's one of the reasons why I'm sharing this story with you um we're taught to share our experience strength and hope what what happened and how I got through it and where I'm at now and you know I'm I'm glad that you know so many of the guys that I used to be friends with who are succeeding in esports and you know they're able to support their families like back then like none of us had kids none of like none of that stuff and like now we got families and you know my buddies are getting married and things like that and I'm glad that gaming is something that they're still doing that completely supports them I'm no longer a hater I'm no longer sitting around miserable like I'm like awesome and you know in my recovery in the past two or three years I've actually had a chance to run into them quite a few times um we went to the Intel Extreme Masters tournament up in San Jose a couple years ago bumped into a bunch of old friends and talked to them and things like that um last year I've always wanted to go to Seattle so I actually got to go to Ti6 amazing experience I'm a big Dota 2 nerd and player and I still play a lot of video games by the way but I got to go there with my friends and it was it was an amazing experience it just gives me ramped up about esports again over the past couple years I've dipped my toe back into the esports thing a little bit but I finally realized that this what I'm doing right now with you is just this is my true passion this is my new passion and this is what I love doing now I I found every time that I tried to get back into esports because I still I didn't burn every single bridge and I still had some opportunities and I I'm pretty sure even if I just shut down the rewired soul right now like I can work my butt off and get back into it but this helping people like you with your mental health addiction recovery whatever the case may be like that is my true passion now but one of the things that I get to do now is that I get to do gaming with my son I get to play with him I get to tell him these stories I get to be the parent who encourages him like do what you love like we live in an amazing time that's something that that helps me get out of depression by the way it's just knowing that like we this isn't something you could do 50 60 years ago and not just for gaming if for some reason you're still with me watching this this isn't just for gaming like you can literally like anything that you're passionate about you can turn it into a career you can turn it into something that pays the bills and I like being able to teach that to my son and say look dude if you love gaming like just get good at it you have to have the workout ethic you have to practice you have to do the deal and this can become a career but if he doesn't want to he also wants to be a marine biologist but hey maybe he'll be the first professional gamer marine biologist but yeah I've been able to take him to some gaming tournaments since we live in Las Vegas I've been able to take him to some tournaments we went to a Heroes of the Storm tournament we went to the Evo tournament which is console fighting games he didn't come with me to the most one of the most recent ones but DreamHack came to Las Vegas I got to go there again I got to see some of my old friends I also ran into my buddy Hedon you don't believe that I knew Hedon well check this picture out but anyways Hedon he used to be on SK big deal but yeah I still stay in touch with some of the people but now I'm a more casual gamer I'm not a crazy competitive one sometimes my competitiveness comes out when me and my son are playing but I try to I try to turn it down a bit you know what I mean my girlfriend calls me out on it all the time but it's cool it's something that I get to do now and have fun and do with my son I still stay involved I'm still kind of watching in the background seeing where esports is going CSGO is a thing I play I played it for I go off and on on you know CSGO I don't like it I'm a 1.6 guy and one of the reasons I don't like it let's be real I suck at it you know but you know all of my friends I still have a bunch of people in Las Vegas a lot of my friends who I grew up with we're all still 30 plus year old gaming nerds and we play together I play Dota 2 with them we've played Overwatch and things like that but one of the best things that I've done is is that you know start a YouTube channel with my son by the way if any of you want to check it out I'll link to it in the end screen as well as in the info card me and my son started a channel called dilly and dad and we do gaming videos on there and I love playing video games with him and he hasn't gotten to the competitive aspect of it but he will now but if he wants to but anyways like I hope you I hope you enjoyed this story you might be new to my channel if you are welcome but yeah if you like this video do me a favor give this thing a big thumbs up and do me another favor go tell that guy Thorin that he needs to do a video about the first ever esports coach in the world I'm just kidding that's my ego talking again but anyways I'm glad you stuck around this long thanks so much for watching and you know what here's what we're gonna do here's what we're gonna do if you happen to watch this video if you want to learn more about addiction I work at a drug and alcohol treatment center now I have a website where I put up one of the courses where I teach about the disease of addiction and how it actually works and if you watch this video you made it this far go over to www.therewiredsoul.com go to the science of the addiction course and it's usually at $100 use coupon code it's free it's F R E E I'll have it right here so if you want to learn more about addiction there's your free code go check it out but anyways again thank you so much for watching please don't do what I did if you're a kid watching this video and you aspire to be a gamer like keep your eye on the prize yo because you can do it you can develop a career in this thing you can take this thing places all right so if you're new here and you haven't yet hit this little round subscribe button because my channel I'm making all sorts of videos about addiction recovery I'm also making a ton of videos about how to help you without anxiety depression and other forms of mental illness you want to check out some other videos or subscribe to me and my son's channel click or tap on the subscribe button or the thumbnail right below it all right but again this is Chris from The Rewired Soul I'll see you next time