 I wasn't really diagnosed, like I'm dyslexic. And I found that out after the first year of college. So I'd gone through exams, I've gone through all that stress. And then after that, you do like, what is it? It's like a standardized learning difficulty test or something like that. It's like just a standardized test, you do it every beginning of the year to see if you've got learning difficulties. And they were like, I finished it and probably around five minutes, it was meant to take like 15. And I was just like, yeah, that, that, this one, this one, done. And then the teacher comes around and then they're like, all right, Callum, you're gonna have to take that again. And I'm like, all right, why? And then they stay with me the entire time. And this time a proper go through it. And then they're like, I'm like, all right, yeah, so I scored like an 80. Is that good? And then they're like, no, it means that you probably have some learning difficulties. And then I went into college and they gave me a proper thing. And I found out I was dyslexic. And weirdly, it was like how I see it is like a very micro miniature version of how FMA said, because I hated school. I always hated school and education, all that stuff. I just despised it. And when I look, it's very visual, isn't it? Oh, yeah, especially like a school with the light bulbs and the blackboards and stuff. Oh, yeah. Well, it's like, when I look back on it, because what dyslexia has done to me is that if you give me a set of instructions right now, my brain will manage to flip them by the time you've, I'd like, it comes for me to do it. So if you gave me like the instructions to get to the shop, and I was like, okay, so it's a left then a right, I will go right and then left and then get completely lost. And that's like having a mirror, a mirror in your brain. Yeah, pretty much. And that kind of was my experience of school. So I was in like bottom set for everything with all like the bad kids and you know, the people with undiagnosed learning difficulties and the diagnosed learning difficulties. And people just thought I was stupid, to be honest. And like I said before, I have like major confidence issues. So that didn't help. Pretty much I was in it. It can be very destructive, can't it? Because it is, you know, school, as you said, the sets that kind of divide you into different learning groups and you automatically, you know, assign people as smarter when they're higher up in the sets. But when you have a learning difficulty, it kind of puts a little bit of a block between you and the information that comes in. One of my family members, very, very, very smart individual, has a lot potential, was really, really crushed by their experience with being dyslexic. They took it like as a very, very personal thing. It's like, I don't have dyslexia. It's not something that requires a lot of attention. It's just that I'm stupid and I can't do this and I can't do that. And the thing is, is that they are actually very, very intelligent, very, very good at socializing, very, very talented, I would say. And it's kind of that experience of them at school really made sort of the confidence levels very, very low. Oh yeah. It ends up like for me it became, because alongside that I was bullied and I had like a really abusive step-parent when I was a kid and it just kept mounting was like all of this stuff where it was literally beating me down at an incredibly formative point in my life, I'd say. And it led to me viewing the world in an extremely dangerous way. So I became, because the nuts thing is, is like, I completely, well, FMA is my dad. So I relate to him in a weird way. Not even in a weird way is my dad, what am I saying? He's my relation. But when I first, on TV, when I saw people have relationships, like having a girlfriend and having alcohol and having these things that instantly made those characters happy, just instant. Like there was no sort of build-up, there wasn't any self-improvement, there wasn't looking in yourself. It was, I have a beer, I'm good now. And I became incredibly obsessed with a ton of things at an age that I shouldn't have been obsessed with them at all. So it's like, I have vivid memories of being like really young and putting my mom's wine in like a Rabina bottle and going into primary school with that and stuff like that. Not nothing I'll be drunk, but in my head it was like, that's the thing that makes me feel good. And these things kept developing. And I kept like, through the way that school kind of isolates you when you have learning difficulties of just keeping you kind of in the bottom set and just keeping you away from like all these other kids. And you're in probably the class with a lot of people who have issues and who maybe aren't the nicest people through no fault of their own, but you're in those classes. And it just kept reinforcing this behavior until the point when I had to, literally my mom said that I couldn't live with her anymore. And I needed to go and live with FMA. And that was where music started. But the only thing that was the connected throughout all of that was rap and writing lyrics. And that was like the only thing I became like hyper obsessed with that, like listening to like, why do you why do you think you gravitated towards rap music? Like why not sort of mainstream path? Why not metal? Why not reggae? Like, I think what it genuinely was looking back on it was metal was angry. And I've always liked metal. But rap, there were like two major things. One, there was the confidence of it. And the confidence that they were talking about all of these like systemic racist messed up lives that they had lived. And they were now in a position where they were telling you that they are the best thing on the planet. They are that confident and they've gone through so much crap. And pretty much the next thing that I just really liked about it was I think it a point in my life where I felt extremely lonely and isolated in school and by a supposed friend group that I had at that time where I was the punching bag of that friend group. And it's also weird, isn't it? Because you don't clock on to it until you look back at it. When you're a kid, it's like, oh, yeah, these are my friends, these are who I go and hang around at lunch. And then when you look, it's like you don't have the ability to be serious about anything. Like, yeah, to take anything personally, because you decide, oh, well, this must be what life is like. And, you know, there's nothing wrong with this because this is all I know. And yeah, yeah. And you just kind of eventually like looking back, I think you just clock on to the fact of no, those weren't jokes, you were all pointedly joking at me. You weren't making jokes with me, they were at me. And yeah, so that was like the friend group and stuff. So when I listened to rap, and it were these people just being hyper confident, and then I'd hear a punchline. And I don't understand that punchline. I felt like the cleverest person on the planet. And like, while I was at school, and you know, they were like, bottom set, you know, you, you can't do division or long form multiplication or any of this stuff. And then I was like, yeah, but I understood the line that DMX just said, did you? It turned into this whole thing where I genuinely saw when I look back on it, I genuinely think that those were my friends. I had rappers who would tell me about their lives and would give me these stories and these positive stories of why not to go to jail. And you know, what to do in these situations and stuff. And I just loved it. And it became as a kid, it became almost a thing. Because that same friendship group, when I mentioned I wanted to rap, or be a rapper, they were immediately like, oh, you can't do that. You just can't. One thing that they liked to do was in classes, they would give me random words to rhyme until I couldn't rhyme a word. And then they would proceed to then, you know, have a massive thing at me about, see, this is why you can't be a rapper, you need to rhyme words all the time. So it's literally like, you're rhyming and rhyming and rhyming, you do all these, like, you're literally doing what they ask you to do. But as soon as it comes to a point, like they just keep going and going. Yeah, and then of course, at some point, you're gonna, anyone's gonna have this like difficulties doing that. Yeah. And it kept repeating. But that gave me the kind of chip on my shoulder, I think I needed to pursue rap, like, not all of the other horrible things that like my brain became obsessed with. But to pursue rap, I think that really helped because it literally made rap my only focus. Writing was my only focus. It was, I didn't like school, my friends weren't really friends. The only thing I had was listening to rap and writing rap. And that was it. And then with that same energy, when I came to live with dad, who'd already been in a band, who'd played me rap before, and who I knew had done all these things I wanted to do, it was like having personal access to M&M.