 Hey guys, it's show. So today is the day the day. I'm going up to Denver Whoo, I'm meeting with my surgeon Dr. Robert Leland who I greatly Respect I like him. I'm gonna chat with him about the conversation whether or not we are going to amputate my leg I will get the results of the scans. I've been having over the past couple weeks and Make a decision on if we're gonna move forward with other surgeries or just go to the finish line and Have that amputated I had a about an hour-long conversation with my best friend Abby today on the phone talking about if I'm I'm just asking her like am I insane for Considering this option, but I think I'm almost past the point of thinking that I'm losing my mind For considering it because honestly it feels like every day things are getting worse and If we did that option every day things would be getting slightly better. It would be incredibly difficult I think way more challenging than I can even imagine or picture But I'd be moving towards life and right now I am just hurting more and more every day and imagining another surgery where we're trying to salvage my ankle I Have moments where I'm like, okay, that sounds a lot better than chopping off a part of my body a significant part of my body But then thinking about that option just makes me so depressed the idea of just going through more surgeries in hopes of prolonging what's going to be inevitable anyways and I Won't have a choice If I go through another Fusion and you know replace it and try to salvage things and buy another a couple years It's gonna end in amputation And I won't have a choice And I don't want to be in that position a Lot of things in my life haven't been in my control everything with my ankle has always been okay like this has to happen and I am in a position right now or maybe I could make this choice and not Be forced into a corner and have to have my leg cut off. I could Even though this is not an option. I want to be Facing neither one is a good option. I'm not looking forward to this in any way shape or form. I don't want to be in this position. I At this point have a little bit of choice in the matter and that means something to me. I have a good support system I'm young. I'm otherwise healthy. I'm Light I would recover pretty quickly. I think given no complicating circumstances, which we can only hope would be the case. I Don't have kids. I have a job that will allow me time off So I'm gonna go talk to him my husband is coming and my mom and my dad are gonna come to because they've been with me since the beginning and They can all provide input. So we're gonna go up there and chat with a doctor and see what comes and If you watch this video That means that I will have moved forward with amputation because I'm not gonna make any of these live unless I do it So if you're watching this, you know what I decided. Thanks guys. Thanks for watching. I appreciate it My name is Joe Joe Beckwith. Thanks for watching. You guys take care