 Hi, everybody. Welcome. Thanks for coming on tonight. Look at you. Some people are driving. Some people are just getting home from work. Awesome. Um, yeah, so we're recording this session tonight. Are you happy? We're going to record it and we're going to figure out a way to get it uploaded on Facebook, maybe YouTube. I'm not sure yet, but we are recording it tonight and the goal is to get it uploaded so that you can go back and watch it if you want. Okay. We are not going to record the deliverance part. Okay. Um due to privacy. We want you to um understand that that's important to us privacy and so if you are worried about wow am I uh going to be recorded if I you know speak up and say I would like some prayer you are not going to be recorded. Okay. It's only the teaching portion. Okay. So, make sure everybody knows that. We're going to wait a few minutes. Let some more people jump on. Do we have any testimonies over from this last week? Something um great. God did in your life. Anybody like to share? Okay, Lisa. Hi, Lisa. Can you hear me? It was really interesting after the deliverance of my soul wound in the womb. God showed me that was my first wound. And I've been on their attack ever since. So, no, it's really good because actually I started reading pigs in a parlor and started learning some tools on how to walk in spiritual warfare and so every time he's pushing me on something I just start rebuking them and just been amazing. I don't think that Satan thought I would ever get to my first wound, you know, and hit the bottom, you know, hit the bottom of the pile where it all started. I feel like I don't know. I mean as hard as everything has been in the grief that I've went through the loss of opportunity with my mom and how it changed my vision of life. Not just my actions, my whole way I saw life. And I wasn't even aware, you know, I was a creation growing and it's just it it was hard. I was angry at first at Satan and then I was sad at the loss and so and I feel like that journey will be a little longer and I'm okay with that because there are some things I need to process with my mom through the steps but I'm really super excited what God is showing me for how to use spiritual warfare to walk in deliverance. It was like I feel like I was missing a step and all of this stuff since last week and reading the pigs in the parlor, I mean reading the word, I'm studying Ephesians and and my personal time and so it's been amazing. I mean it's been hard and amazing and I don't want to stay stuck anymore. I did anyway but I really don't know. You know when I when I chose the title for this this offshoot ministry of hardcore Christianity steps to freedom, I chose steps. If if any of you have done the stair stepper at the gym, you know how difficult that can be and walking up a flight of stairs especially a very tall long flight of stairs is very difficult and so when we walk up, we are taking our steps each step to our freedom and I give I give God, wow glory to God because you know in parenthians it says that we have spiritual gifts and it was one of the operating of the spiritual gifts. The Holy Spirit told me in the womb and that began our conversation which led to yeah. Thank you for letting me share. It's been amazing. It's great. It's amazing. I feel like I kind of feel like in some ways I really started the delivered journey on my own not my own merit my own steps because I you know I first initially got delivered in Kansas when brother Mike was down there. It's still funny because I lived in Arizona for a decade and I just moved back in 2020 to Nebraska and I never heard of our core ministry out there and I went to school for psychology out there and still didn't hear so just amazing that now I'm I'm you know it's like I there's just all this stuff out there and I'm finally starting to see it for myself you know so just amazing. Thank you so much. It's great. Thanks for sharing. Wonderful. That is truly wonderful. We all if you're born again you have the Holy Spirit and you have the ability to operate in the gifts of a spirit and there are they're listed there in 1 Corinthians chapter 12 and 14 talks about them and I can't imagine you can't I can't do this ministry. I don't think anyone can do this ministry effectively without the gifts of the Holy Spirit so we must have them and they're available to each one of us and the Lord will reveal to you if you're struggling you know with something and you're like I just don't know what the root causes. I don't know what this is. He will reveal it to you. We have to sometimes shut the fear up. We have to quiet ourselves to hear but he will he will speak to you speak to us and we don't always need a minister to help us you know the Holy Spirit is the one who does the work. So and I've talked with lots of women I've read some books you know and I went through my own journey of healing have been for a long time and this type of deliverance is just part of the steps to freedom you know a lot of you have been you've been going through your own personal healing journey for a very long time and you're here because you're like okay I've done I've done all that I can do now I need some help I need some soup to get to the next step so that's great all right someone said they'd like to get the miracle list if you could send me an email I'd be happy to send it to you at StepsToFreedom, ADC, at gmail.com so this is StepsToFreedom those of you who are just jumping on maybe that for the first time for a ministry that is connected very closely with Brother Mike and the heart of Christianity I'm here in Phoenix Arizona I'm a counselor at the Arizona Deliverance Center tonight I'm we're going over the miracle list and we're on number two. Number two talks about negative thoughts about yourself specifically so there are negative thoughts in general there are also what we call intrusive thoughts but tonight we're going to talk about negative thoughts you have about yourself and hopefully I'll bring some information to you give you better understanding maybe help you recognize the voice of the enemy speaking to you because you know the enemy uses first person right and you think it's yourself oh I'm so stupid you know you think you're saying it to yourself but it's really a spirit an evil spirit that is speaking to you and when you go yeah I am so stupid you just came into agreement you just yoked yourself together with that evil spirit and now you're walking arm in arm I'd like to say so we want to come out of agreement with those things though before we start we're going to pray um Sister Jennifer would you like to open us in prayer hi sister Julie yes Heavenly Father we come humbly before your throne of grace and mercy tonight Lord and I thank you for pouring your spirit out here on this meeting Lord I thank you for touching the hearts of every sister that has come here tonight we thank you for all the healing and deliverance you're bringing for all the revelation you're pouring out on each one of us Lord we're all in this journey and we're all looking toward you and one another for love and support and I'm just so thankful that you have brought us here this is divine appointments for each one of us Lord we come against every spirit of distraction in the name of Jesus and I bind your power all distraction everything that would turn people away or distract them or keep their attention on other things we just bind those spirits in the name of Jesus I come against all discouragement and bind those spirits I bind all fear in Jesus name I thank you Lord God for opening our hearts and minds to receive tonight thank you for this blessing thank you for your anointing Lord thank you for your healing and deliverance in Jesus name hallelujah amen thanks thanks for that all right where do we start say if you recognize recognize some of this um have you ever heard yourself saying this I knew I would fail why do I even try I am a loser no one wants to be around me look at me screwing up again can't I just be normal who am I why am I even here and who cares would anybody notice if I was gone these are negative thoughts and you might wonder you know where does that begin and for most of us it begins in childhood so when we grow up in an atmosphere that we don't feel accepted we're not protected we feel unloved then we develop these ways to protect ourselves and we um think wow there must be something wrong with me why am I not being loved and then there is this internal conflict because you know you're like wow this is my mom and my dad they're supposed to love me but I don't feel love and legit and a lot of times it's legitimate they're not loving you very well some some of you grew up in homes that were really awful and some of you grew up in homes there's a spectrum right some of you grew up in homes that were not awful they were they were pretty you know pretty good but for some reason you still felt unloved you know like why is that I feel like a I feel like the odd man out I feel like an outcast I don't feel like a part of the family when I was in junior high school is when it launched for me um I would come home I played sports so I'd come home after sports late on six o'clock at night eat dinner do my little portion of cleanup and go straight to my room I did not want to socialize with my family my mom would call to me and say come down and watch tv with us and I would yell no I don't want to I didn't feel welcomed and there was really I can't say my mom didn't try she was loving but she loved through here's your food I'm gonna clean your room I'm doing your laundry she went to work every day she worked very hard um she taught us right from wrong she was a very good mother but she was she lacked the nurture the hugs the cuddles the kisses that as a young girl I did need and I I don't have any memory of that all so um you know there's that internal conflict that we grow up with and then what happens the body reacts to it the person is rejected then the person rejects themselves and that invites a spirit of infirmity so um we have quite a few people on here not a lot of faces though if you can turn on your camera for just a minute and say hi that would be great um how many of you maybe give a hand raise you have some type of infirmity hello there thank you hi Claudia so nice to see you hi so how many of you oh look at all these wonderful beautiful faces thank you so much awesome awesome great great great great be sure to get a picture of that uh Stephanie all these beautiful faces love it that's for me um how many of you struggle with infirmity of some sort some disease syndrome illness how many you have some diagnosis or you have symptoms of something look at this almost 100 of the people on here are raising their hand um did you know that 95 of the population on the planet earth has some type of disease or infirmity 95 percent so i'm not surprised at all that the majority of you have some type of infirmity and so when we go through our lives and we are not we don't feel safe or accepted or loved in childhood either by parents by siblings by aunts and uncles cousins maybe it started at school it can invite a spirit of infirmity and so i'm going to talk a little bit more about that um i want to bring to your attention some of so when we talk about you having these negative thoughts right and you're turning against yourself it really turns into um it's a lack of self-acceptance it can turn into self-bitterness and self-hatred and it is progressive it doesn't you don't start out with hating yourself but that's the progression of it and when you get to the point when you're you're bitter towards yourself you just you love other people and you're probably a great lover of other people you're a great help you you um care you have a lot of compassion but when it comes to yourself really hard on yourself so this teaching is for you self-loathing develops over time it's typically triggered by one or more factors okay and i got this from like the psychology today type magazine so it includes past trauma perfectionism false expectations social comparisons and several other learned behaviors so we all know that evil spirits can get into the body the brain the soul through trauma and so whether it was a big trauma maybe a divorce of your parents maybe it was some type of abuse physical there's sexual abuse there's emotional abuse that manipulating there's the spiritual abuse that is a very common i hear it more and more these days about spiritual abuse a father a mother you know somebody in your life using scripture to guilt you make you feel guilty try to control your behavior causing a saying things that that then make you feel like i'm afraid of god and he's mad at me and and i'm just waiting for the you know the hammer to come down on me so um that is all traumatic and as children they begin to view the world as unsafe and that people are dangerous people cannot be trusted and they interpret that as you know i'm not even worth being loved and so the other way the other contributing factor i guess i would call it is these false expectations it is normal to want to be accepted to be loved to perform a task well that's normal however sometimes our expectations of self can be so high and so unattainable by any human um that we are destined to fail we set ourselves up for failure these extraordinary expectations often lead to us falling short and feeling we have failed reinforcing the voice you're a failure you know we we want to please other people especially women we are nurturers we want to love we want to yes can i get you this can i help you with that that's god created us that way it helps us it helps us to be connected to other people we may have learned over time that meeting the expectations of others works well we might learn through social experiences that when other people are happy with us we feel happy with ourselves this is an unway of this is an unhealthy way of thinking about relationships that may lead to significant patterns of dependency co-dependency the next contributing factor to these negative thoughts and feeling really low of yourself is perfectionism i know a lot of perfectionists perfectionists if you went to college you met a lot of them you have to perform you have to do very well athletes they have a high level of performance people who are very you know in business I love very driven a person is often viewed as someone who allows themselves no margin of error no wiggle room for human mistakes or limitations perfectionism they expect perfection of themselves and others at all times in all situations that's really and that's that's an unhealthy view of yourself and others because we fail all have fallen short of the glory of god there's only one man who was ever perfect on this planet and that was jesus that is jesus right um we compare ourselves in social situations that that's a big voice right I look at somebody or you look at somebody and you're like oh my gosh that person's you know better looking than I am they are thinner than me they're more success they're further along and they're deliverance than I am comparison right that's going to reinforce um that is going to feed the voice of self-hatred self bitterness I like the scripture in third john one two um well third john only has one chapter sorry verse two this is dearly beloved I wish above all things that you prosper and be in health even as your soul prospers and when our soul is burdened with things like perfectionism and um these high expectations were comparing ourselves to others a bunch we're not seeing ourselves accurately we have these false expectations maybe false burdens um we're not prospering in our soul I want to read this other scripture to you it's songs 103 3 to 5 it says god is the god that forgives all of our iniquities and heals all our diseases and so I see you there that iniquities can be related to disease verse four says who redeems your life from destruction maybe you felt that having a disease has brought destruction to your life and god wants to redeem you from that destruction he crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies who feeds your mouth with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle the lord desires for us to be in health to prosper he desires good things for us and this is part of renewing the mind you've heard that a bunch right you get deliverance you got to renew your mind are you renewing your mind and so what does that mean exactly well you have to think about your thinking is your thinking lining up with the word of god what are you thinking about what are you thinking about um there are these common spirits that you you hear talked about a lot um the most common one is rejection right rejection is definitely it's like it's like a tree that has all these branches connected to it deep deep roots rejection we hear a lot about fear and lust and witchcraft occultism addiction anger there are a couple of spirits that i want to talk to you about tonight just briefly and i'm going to show you a little video it is it's a little long but it's very very good and it's talking about the different um ways our body breaks down because of our thinking um these these negative thoughts about our cell begin with the spirit of accusation accusing ourselves accusing ourselves i'm i am a bad person i am i suck let's just say it right how many times i said that i'm such an idiot how can it be so stupid what is wrong with me right if thought these things it's not you thinking and that's the problem and so we have to renew our mind we have to change our thinking and really understand that those that voice oh my gosh i forgot you know oh wow this is terrible this is you know happening in my life this oh my gosh thought this frantic thought that rushes into your mind i will tell you right now it's not you it's not you speaking it's an evil spirit speaking putting you in fear getting you to accuse yourself to condemn to make you feel bad about yourself yeah call the spirit of accusation think about you have to slow yourself down to catch it what are you accusing yourself of what are you accusing other people of the spirit of accusation is is accusing you and telling you you know you're not good enough you're unrighteous you know maybe you lost your salvation look at what a terrible week you just had you know that's not how it works you're righteous because of what jesus did on the cross you are not righteous because of your right living you are righteous because of what jesus did and only because of what jesus did isn't that good news that's the good news that is the good news um so accusation i have a couple things to read to you so the goal of an accusing spirit is to break down relationships so that they do not function anymore some of the characteristics of an accusing spirit projects fear oh my gosh what if you don't you better call that person or they're gonna think you're you don't care for them anymore you don't care or you're mad at them analyzing other people's motives towards you you offend or are easily offended that's the spirit of accusation and operation you're quick to judge based on misunderstandings oh my gosh do i have a story for you this is a crazy miss this is the craziest miss understanding i was at a friend's house and um i i i prepared a little food and um i was gonna i was just gonna eat some you know kind of like you know let me just let me just take the edge off and eat some food here and um because my friend had stepped out so i said no let me wait and we'll eat together well my friend comes back into the room and starts to season the food that i had prepared which was fine because i didn't do that and started eating it taste he was tasting it i thought that person started eating without me total misunderstanding and i got so like offended i was like i waited for you and now you're eating without me and that wasn't it at all i'm just putting salt on and making sure it's good for both of us okay it was a complete misunderstanding ridiculous i realized wow that i was accusing without even thinking um and i say i did it because it came out of my mouth you know the spirit put the thought in my mind and then i said yeah that's what happening and then i spoke it i yoked myself together with that spirit okay um exaggerating offenses um you know that person then put a napkin down by my plate on the table oh they must you know they did it on purpose just to get back at me from last weeks you know this imagination this exaggeration of offenses do you use the terms the word always and never that's actually from a spirit of accusation the other spirit that you're going to hear about in the video clip that i'm going to share in a minute is called the unloving spirit how many of you have heard of the unloving spirit okay a few of you so good um the unloving spirit is a spirit that attaches a self to you making you feel self-rejected you reject yourself unclean unworthy and no good and that you don't measure up it wants you to reject yourself and who you are the evidence of an unloving spirit it wants you to dislike yourself based on your outward appearance your voice your personality everything about you it will nitpick you to death the unloving spirit it wants you to debate with yourself as to whether you belong here or not have you ever said that i better just leave i better just not even go i don't belong there these other people belong there but not me it wants you to think others hate you because you can see it in their eyes yes thank you patricia the unloving spirit is the same as an antichrist yeah the unloving spirit wants you to isolate isolate and not be in fellowship with others it thrives in isolation if we're in isolation we cannot fulfill the the two the greatest commandment jesus gave us two commandments he said okay all the law all the rules and regulations from the old testament are summed up in these two laws remember what they are matthew 2237 jesus said unto them thou sh thou shalt love the lord god with all thy heart with all thy soul with all thy mind this is the first and great commandment the second is like unto it thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself on these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets if you're in isolation you can't be loving other people because you're not around other people and if you are not properly biblically loving yourself it's going to be expressed in your relationships with other people so i want to um take a break here and i want to share this video and and um if you were on last week you know i'm talking i am using a lot of information from a ministry called be in health they're in thompson georgia i went there a few weeks ago and when i look at the miracle list i say okay these are the spirits that we you know need to focus on unforgiveness that was number one right we gotta forgive and number two is talking about negative thoughts towards yourself which really is self rejection self bitterness self hatred right so what are the what are the spirits which i just listed a bunch and then what effect does it have on the body so the be in health ministry their whole ministry is centered around the spiritual roots to disease okay this is a book that i'm gathering information from and um if you're struggling with the disease or syndrome um it might be a good book for you to get to learn about what are the spiritual roots to disease this this ministry this book and some others a more excellent way based on 30 years of research and so what i'm doing is in this class this round i'm taking what i learned at when i went to that retreat i'm sharing some videos and sharing some information with you to help help you understand what's going on and to help motivate you if you you may not have any disease or sickness in your body but you know you have negative thoughts about yourself well if you continue to have negative thoughts about yourself and you don't change what will happen you'll get sick because the body responds to thought there is new scientific research uh relatively new that has connected thought to the disease and so if we don't renew our mind the way the bible tells us to we're gonna end up sick we're gonna end up inviting that spirit of infirmity and um and then we're then then life is not good it's not fun it it really keeps us in bondage it really does so um i'm gonna share i'm gonna attempt to share this video once again i did it last week and we'll do it again see it well hey everybody my name is david levin with being held and hope of the generations and today i want to talk to you about the subject of the unloving spirit in fact it's not a subject at all it's a spirit that we're going to be talking about and here in thompson georgia at our for my life retreat that we hold once a month we die deeper into this topic but today i think you may just find the answer as to why you might feel separated and god your father so i want to start by reading a scripture here you can find it in matthew 22 verses 34 through 40 and this is really the foundation for all that we're going to talk about in our time together so matthew 22 starting in verse 34 but when the Pharisees had heard that he had put the Sadducees to silence they were gathered together then one of them which was a lawyer asked him a question tempting him saying master which is the great commandment in the law and jesus said unto him to listen thou shalt love the lord your god with all your heart with all your soul with all your mind this is the first in great commandment now jesus does not just stop here there's another commandment that he wants to instill here verse 39 and the second is like unto it thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself on these two commandments paying all the law and the prophets it's a really startling statement by jesus because what that means is that the totality of the bible really represents three things love with god loving and accepting ourselves and loving others now many of you know that scripture but it's become such a cliche in the church we we use it all the time but the truth is if i was to ask you the question do you struggle with things that cause you to do the exact opposite of what this scripture represents i think many of you would say yes at the same time many of you would have a hard time admitting to that because you feel like it's a personal failure to not be able to live up to this verse and that is exactly where i want to start with this unloving spirit you know we are born again we do love god but we struggle to love god ourselves and others sometimes some of us more than others okay but i want to tell you this it's not you and we're going to talk about the element more how this unloving spirit is not you and those thoughts and feelings and emotions that come to resist you loving god yourself and others you can actually overcome it but right now we feel stuck with it and we hate it and the tragedy is that we end up hating ourselves and that is exactly what an unloving spirit wants you to do an unloving spirit is an evil spirit that will resist you receiving and accepting everything that father god has done for us through jesus christ it will give you thoughts feelings and impressions that cause a breach between god for self and others so here's how it kind of works the bible says that you are forgiven right but an unloving spirit comes along and says no you're not the bible says that god loves you but an unloving spirit comes along and says nope he's mad at you an unloving spirit really what it wants to do y'all is make you your own worst enemy but here's the problem with that when you look at Ephesians 6 12 that says this that we wrestle not against flesh and blood are you flesh and blood yes you are so won't wrestle with flesh and blood but against what principalities powers the rulers of the darkness of this world and spiritual wickedness in high places so during this time together i really want you to see that this thing is not you but we struggle because it speaks to us in the first person i know the thoughts that come i know that we struggle with thoughts like i'm so dumb i don't measure up i never do anything right it's not like we have thoughts that are like you don't ever do anything right or you don't measure up it's always in the first person and because we're thinking it we buy it as if it's our own mind not knowing that we may have just come into agreement with an unloving spirit and when we do that we will struggle with this scripture i just talked about loving god yourself and others so we try harder but we fail so we try harder again when we fail again and then we hate ourselves more and more we try really hard to believe but then an unloving spirit comes it makes us believe that we can't believe you may even find yourself not just blaming yourself for this struggle but beginning to blame others as well basically the unloving spirit has you spend your day in a world in which you never measure up and i'll tell you guilt is a huge factor in the unloving spirit you know i've been a believer for over 15 years i've been in full-time ministry for over 10 years i have spoken with thousands of people not at surface level either but the real depths of their heart and these are people that are born again and i don't think i've met one yet that hasn't struggled with guilt and shame and not loving themselves at some level like i said some more than others you and i were called to receive forgiveness receive love from god and enjoy that and give it out to others he know at being health we deal a lot with specific spiritual roots to disease and this unloving spirit is a major spiritual root behind many many diseases and many of them life-threatening first one on top of the list would be autoimmune diseases in fact all autoimmune diseases are rooted in not loving yourself feeling guilty feeling shame not feeling forgiven making yourself the enemy blaming yourself for everything even though you're forgiven think about it let's think about it what is an autoimmune disease well an autoimmune disease by medical definition is when the immune system in our body begins to attack the body so for example in diabetes one the immune system begins to attack the eyelids on the pancreas inhibiting insulin production with lupus the immune system begins to eat away at the connective tissue of the body rheumatoid arthritis it begins to eat away at the joints and the cartilage in crones it means to eat away at the inner lining of the intestines and these these are just a few of over a hundred autoimmune diseases now what's the common factor the immune system is attacking the body y'all god gave you your immune system to protect you to protect you from the real enemy and foreign invaders that could actually do harm to your body but instead the immune system is attacking the body why i'll tell you why because our bodies are responders to how we think and as we think about not loving ourselves we meditate on that not receiving god's forgiveness over time the immune system means to pick up on our thinking and actually begins to attack the body let me read you a really great testimony here of some healing that we saw here at for my life from a major autoimmune disease this is lauren okay here's her story she says this i have some incredible healing back in 2013 i was going through some terrible symptoms with lupus which is a autoimmune disease i was in and out of the hospital several times my kidneys were not working properly and i had terrible joint swelling over my entire body i couldn't make a fist or bend my arm fully because my joints were constantly swollen i had the lupus butterfly rash on my face and i had visible bumps around my joints because of the inflammation when i received the diagnosis of lupus i did not want to believe it i was given medication but it didn't help and in one case i was severely allergic to a medication which caused an awful rash all over my body the doctors told me that quote the torch had been lit and that there was no cure and i would have this the rest of my life i walked out of that office and into the hallway but before i even left the building i called my sister and i said i refuse to accept this diagnosis but i am desperate i need to know what they taught you in georgia i mean thompson georgia where we're at her sister had previously attended the for my life uh retreat and been healed of something else so lauren continues to say this i attended the being help for my life retreat and learned the truth i had to remind myself that i was going to be healed and that the lupus was not me it was just affecting me i thank god for the healing that i knew was eventually coming i continued to take my thoughts captive and then listen and to remind myself that i was forgiven by god that was so huge and then i no longer needed to punish myself for past sins because i don't know if spirit will have you punish yourself for past failures exactly what christ died for so that you didn't have to punish yourself she goes on to say i also had to cast down thoughts that would make me feel guilty for what i had done nearly 10 years prior i repented and i knew i was forgiven by god and i also continue to cast out evil things that were causing those bad thoughts and reminders of past sins that pop into my head over time i gradually started to get better and i can say now with full confidence that god healed me of the lupus what is even more amazing is that i recently had my first child a healthy baby boy the doctors had told me that i was high risk for pregnancy complications because of the lupus i had an ultrasound every week for 12 weeks in a row one point but week after week i got great news the baby was healthy i feel so incredibly blessed for the healing from lupus and then i was able to have a healthy child after the healing from lupus and my pregnancy i'm even back to doing gymnastics and water skiing again it's pretty good for something that could not close their fist at one point my health has been fully restored the doctors rarely see healings like this happen because my rheumatologist still has me coming for blood tests periodically and for two years now every time they test me i have normal results thank you god amazing you know an unloving spirits behind all autoimmune diseases but also many other diseases certain types of cancers certain types of cardiovascular disease addictions and even mental illnesses have a root and component of not being able to love and accept oneself and know that they are forgiven why because when you don't dwell in love you actually dwell in fear first john 418 very important scripture says this there is no fear in love but perfect love cast it out fear because fear has torment either fear is not made perfect in love are you struggling with love are you struggling with forgiveness towards yourself and others i'll tell you the number one way an unloving spirit gets into somebody's life is when someone who is supposed to love and cover them and protect them fail to do so and the abuse and the anger and rage that they took into that victimization they took right into themselves and this spirit caused them to internalize it and then blame themself for all the problems do you struggle giving and receiving love without fear if so you may be struggling with an unloving spirit and that's a great news because it means that you're not the problem and that you can be free from it and we have seen hundreds if not thousands of people who struggle with themselves hated themselves had diseases and addictions and problems that all stem out of not receiving god's forgiveness and loving and accepting accepting themselves completely changed and healed and delivered why not because they got smarter not because they were finally able to make the change but because they received they were able to understand that these thoughts and feelings were not in them and then they were able to finally accept who they really are in the one i want to do that stop i didn't want to go um would you guys think about that video yeah good um we are gonna pray tonight of course but i want to go over a couple more list a couple more of these diseases that or syndromes actually that are affected that have spiritual roots in self esteem issues self bitterness self rejection okay i before i do that i want to say the greatest thing the greatest news that i i keep hearing it again and again those negative thoughts those negative bombarding thoughts that i'm not good enough i'm not forgiven i i'm never gonna make it this is this is my life forever those are not my thoughts and those are not your thoughts and when you start to come out of agreement that means you start rejecting those thoughts then you have to reject them no that's not me talking no i'm not listening to you get away from me get out of me you know it doesn't matter is it devil inside is he on the outside it doesn't really matter you just want him gone right we just want him gone we want him to shut his mouth and leave um so there's are a few i wanted to go over with you that i found really interesting um premenstrual dysphoric disorder so this is a severe form of premenstrual syndrome that anyone have a very very difficult time with their period when they were younger or maybe you still do now lots of pain lots of cramping this is the that causes marked social impairment in approximately five and 100 women women can present with multiple symptoms such as fatigue headache feelings of hopelessness irritability and bloating okay i think that's all of us right but um was it severe i guess these occur occur exclusively and tend to for uh excuse me these symptoms occur exclusively in the 10 to 14 days before the menses so you know that that's that list right there is basic pms right we all experience pms so this dysphoric disorder premenstrual is called pmdd um is a more extreme more severe form of it anybody ever diagnosed with that here the pmdd anybody oh ellen okay i'm looking anybody okay all right ellen will you read this already okay so someone must have just jumped on so here we go um the possible spiritual roots guess what spirit of fear that i hate that thing as in stress and anxiety lack of self-esteem self bitterness self hatred self rejection guilt spirits that may have gained access as a result of lack of nurturing sometimes not accepting oneself as a female how many of you you were born and your parents were like dang it i wanted a boy yeah i had three brothers and i always said man they wish i was a boy too because it seemed like you know they got to go to work with my dad which was favored um i had to stay home and like do housework oh i hated that there was such a discrepancy there i wanted to learn how to pound nails and make things too um yeah you know lack of nurturing if we don't feel comfortable when people are trying to get their love to us we're going to exclude ourselves from that environment which is going to prevent us from getting the nurturing that we need like me in junior high school i took myself my mom you know she said come and be with the family let's watch whatever sitcom was on and i was like no i'm separating myself from the family and i started doing that around 12 13 years old yeah so you know people are commenting right now a lot of rejection happened not accepting oneself as a female being caused you know that excessive bleeding a lot of fatigue and depression irritability that a very extreme form i thought that was really another um a disorder that came up is attention deficit disorder anyone ever been diagnosed with that i was anybody just raise your hand if you were just wave at me anybody ever diagnosed with adhd or add okay all right here we go possible spiritual roots generational spirits of ungodly order in the home passive male and dominant female okay let before i go back over that hold on a second attention deficit disorder is characterized by inattention disorganized and difficulty completing tasks attention deficit hyperactivity disorder consists of motor hyperactivity and impulsive behavior okay the spiritual roots generational spirits of ungodly order in the home passive male and dominant female leading to double-mindedness deaf and dumb spirit confusion rebellion here it is self bitterness self hatred self rejection and guilt this this spirit these spirits that are telling you all these negative thoughts about yourself this this is what it is that it's it's self bitterness self hatred self rejection and guilt all right addictions addictive behaviors represent confusion confusing and complex patterns of the human of human activity these behaviors include drug and alcohol abuse some eating disorders some compulsive or pathological gambling excessive sexual behaviors and other in temperament behavior patterns okay we have to look that up possible spiritual roots to these addictions rooted in the need to be loved feeling insecure in being loved what we are addicted to allows us to avoid ourselves by giving us a poor substitute for love in order to be fulfilled or to fill the void addictions are an escape mechanism works in conjunction with the unloving spirit do you guys see a pattern okay which can be seen along with self accusation self hatred guilt and shame this is a type of self fear fear of man also considered performance issues in competition coming out of feeling inadequate is this helping anybody are these helping helping you maybe identify what might be going on in there with you okay um a goiter here medical definition is the enlargement of the thyroid this is okay there are a number of factors which may cause the thyroid to become enlarged a diet deficient in iodine can cause a goiter a more common cause of goiter in america is an increase in the thyroid stimulating hormone tsh and responds to a defect in normal hormone synthesis synthesis within the thyroid gland okay possible spiritual roots spirits of can you guess fear as in stress and anxiety self bitterness self hatred self rejection and guilt drivenness and performance possibly not taking proper care of your temple your body all right um can i say this word this is the stomach agastric condition it's a severe so there's different several different types of cancer that can occur in the stomach and so the most common type is called um adeno carcinoma did i say that right where's ellen okay it's a very long word i go i think it's a deno carcinoma which refers to the way the cancer looks under the microscope scope often occurs when the stomach meets the esophagus that's right where your broth strap hits right there so there's a sole mind connection being overly concerned and in knots are all tied up about what other people think of you and your performance if you fail you blame yourself so this is a type of um gastric cancer that they found these possible spiritual roots uh spiritually fear of man leading to extreme self bitterness rebellion spirit of infirmity spirit of death and the last one i'm gonna read is cancer uh colon cancer my my uncle actually died from colon cancer it's a very terrible death terrible cancer all cancer's terrible but um cancer in the colon or the rectum it's called lynch syndrome is a rare inherited condition that increases your risk of colon and other cancers that has historically been known as hereditary um non-pallow versus uh okay h and p cc i'm not going to say the whole word okay possible spiritual roots this type of colon cancer is generational slander with the tongue slander with the tongue habitual defiling of others with the tongue what you're saying about other people generational critical spirit generational accusation against yourself others or god fear as in stress stress and anxiety and death so those are the possible spiritual roots to that type of colon cancer all right when i've been since i've been uh learning more about the spiritual roots i feel really motivated to start really catching my thoughts stop accusing myself and others checking in with god more often how am i doing you know repenting quickly forgiving almost immediately this is no joke we have to take the word of god seriously we have to now there are some people on here um maybe you don't have any physical ailment and you're like yeah well you know i'm fine that's not gonna you know that doesn't affect me but see this is progressive so if if you recognize that you have these negative thoughts that come into your mind and you're not catching them and rejecting them then your your door is open for more of these spirits to come in and and it will start attacking your body will turn on itself it will do it so um number two on the miracle list okay this is your homework i don't even check in with you i hope you all did last week's homework this week you are focusing on you're really paying attention to what am i thinking about and i think is that a negative thought about myself is that a negative thought about somebody else but really about yourself how are you thinking what are the top negative thoughts i gotta put my glasses on because if you've ever seen the miracle list by brother mike the font is like this big okay um number two says make a literal numbered list of all the things you don't like about yourself i hope you don't need another notebook okay good somebody laughed excellent um all the things you don't like about yourself and repent over each one of them release and forgive yourself this is good this is a process okay i want you to work really hard over this next week pray hard and release the awe the negative feelings you have for yourself release your mistakes and regrets paul said i don't look behind myself anymore i only look ahead towards the prize okay you have to forget what's behind and look ahead um you need to release your mistakes and regrets don't stop until all the emotion of self-discussed self-hate condemnation i'm gonna throw in guilt are gone if you have bad feelings about yourself it will block your recovery and your deliverance self-hatred is as bad as hating other people and we know we can't do that so that is the homework okay if you do not have the miracle list we're working from the miracle list for troubled christians please send me an email or you can email brother mic at hardcore christianity.com mic at hardcore christianity.com is you can email mic you can email me at steps of freedom adc at gmail.com and i'll send you a copy um yeah so that's it for tonight is there any questions could you repeat the steps of freedom adc at what email.com thank you we just posted it in the chat thanks