 Namaskar. What's your name? Esteban. Esteban. Is that a Spanish name? Yes, but I am not. I just experienced the Kundalini was blocked in my head, and I was struggling with it for years, I would say. And just now it entered here, and I had so much pain. Now you have it? I'm better, but it's in it, and I just give you that experience to know what I need to do with it. Can you sit down on the ground? Sit down, bend, meaning you just lie on your stomach, face your head towards me, fully flat on the ground, put your arms out, such strong like this. Just lie there for a moment. Just very quiet, relax everything, shoulders relaxed. Are your shoulders relaxed? Just see a little bit quietly there a moment. I'll just take a few questions, then I'll come to you. Just stay there a moment. Yes, just a second. Esteban, how is it feeling? Went out. You're feeling okay? Feeling better? You'll just lie there a little moment longer. If it starts to hurt you, you can get up, otherwise just stay there a moment. And just connect with me. It will all be fine. Yes. So I don't know why this came up now but it feels like a sort of sudden realization that... How is the...have you been doing any practices, Kundalini practices? Yes. Under some teacher or...? Shaktipat's initiation. Shaktipat's initiation. Shaktipat, is it quiet now? Yes. See all these Kundalini...you know Kundalini, Shakti, Ma, she is awake. She doesn't have to be awakened by anybody. She doesn't. What happens is that all these things disturb her and then she starts to get tough, you know. I would suggest to you to just not do those things anymore. Just be in surrender, you know. Just it's simple. It's much more simple. And then you start sitting in the body again. I mean, it's fascinating what she's experienced because that's what I've been talking about. It's that real. It's that material. And the thing is that that is a joy which cannot match with, I mean, or rather the joy of this conceptual experiences or even of that awakening and all that stuff. It's one millionth of what this is. Here, you know. You can feel that grounding. Pain has gone. The back is a little less. Ah, that's good. Actually, when you were talking about putting your attention here, I felt it directly. Yes. For like 15 minutes it was so strong and it moved and the energy went back into here. And that's so much pain and now I feel relief. So in your case, what has happened is that the Shakti, the Kundalini mother, Kundalini Ma actually, she has been disturbed by all these practices. So what happens if you disturb something, then it starts to react. It starts to push here, there, here, there. So if you are in a situation again in the future, today you were here. We could quiet it down, right? What you do is you immediately think of being in this satsang. Keep me in your mind and bend down. And after a while it will stop. And then you can gradually start to bend to the Master within. Because this is a very, like it can become very, very, very painful. Like it's, you know, it's that extreme. We don't want to go there, right? So you have to bend down now. There's no other way. And as much as possible come to the satsangs when I'm here, so you can train the system to bend like that. You know, you'll be quiet and down. That is that thing we were talking about today. About the ability to quiet down. That is there over here in the system. I don't know from where it comes, but it's like that. So there are hundreds of thousands of people who have messed with Kundalini, Ma, and now she's... And they have pain, they have all come mad, like anything. You are lucky that you are here, so you just... I know it's the only way to go. I don't know any other way. So bend down, surrender, surrender, surrender. Life long. It will never end this process. But finally you have to go towards the soul. And try not to do all these practices of asking yourself, who am I, this, that and all. You don't have to know who you are. It's not necessary to know that. Just always quiet and in surrender. If you feel any pain, bend down. It'll go away. Again stand up, surrender. And be careful in sexuality. Don't just sleep around with just anybody. It's not possible for somebody like you to do that anymore. You understand? Be careful with whom you engage. What are the energies of the other person? Did you feel the energy leaving the system moving out of the head? No, it's still inside. Maybe it will slowly quiet down because you've come here and start to move laterally. It would be new because I've never had someone who's not my student with whom this has happened. So just keep us informed. Yes. How long are you here in Rishikesh? Seven days. So you come whenever you can. And don't do all those practices, really. Because you're messing around with something and the sad part is that those teachers that start to meddle with the Kundalini and awake, they don't know how to quiet down afterwards. They don't know what to do. And then the people are in that state and then they are alone in this world with neurological disorders, massive pain in the system, blinding headaches, all of that will happen. What is your profession? What do you do for a living? I do music, I do music videos. That's how you make your money? Yes. I'm having also a copywriter for brands. For? Brands. Brands, yes. So that's fine. Just also when you're doing music, try not to go into like, blessing out stuff. You know what I mean? Just be present, keep your eyes open when you're making music. Try not to close the eyes. This was preventing me from singing for like a year or so. Now you'll be able to sing, but piano, piano. Because you're a musician. Yes. Okay. How's it going? It's quiet and down, yes? If it reappears, you just bend down. But it's not just physically bending down, it's surrender, actual, you know? Almost like a devotional surrender. Yeah, exactly. It's down. If it starts the pain. How are you doing? It's really good. Now, but not hurting. Emotions. So it's a richer crisis. Unity consciousness. It's trying to actually, that surrender has to come there, then it'll move again. And then it'll start moving laterally. If you don't allow it to go out, rather you can't stop anything, but you try to surrender, bend down. More and more people, you know? Namaskar. Namaskar. I'm 100% with you on the surrender part. Totally agree, totally get it. Can you put love in words? Because I've been there reading surrender to love. And I had this question when somebody else was asking, you said love is an emotion. Can you expand on that, please? Actually, I said that in a context, of course, when I say surrender to love, what I'm speaking about is actually the soul itself. There's just a big need to say thank you to you, because I've been attending for five days and we've changed a lot inside. And I just feel a lot of God's truth to you. Pain is less, pain is less? Yes. So you remember when you leave, you're leaving soon, I remember you said, six days or something. When you are, you know, if the pain arises, now you know what to do, right? And that's lifelong. It doesn't just go away, it's lifelong like that. But that's fine. It's a chance for you to be in that surrender. You, like him, are the same creature. It's a chance for you to be in surrender. No? Yes. So it's beautiful also. I accept your gratitude. I feel very strange and someone says, thank you. It's like, no, it's not me, you know. If you ever, if something ever happens, your name is Esteban, right? If something ever happens or there is some, some, you just be in touch. You can contact, there's an email and there are a couple of the Sadaks, they'll read it and sometimes it takes a while to respond because of that many works to do, but we will, especially when it's undisturbed Kundalini, we take special care because we know that it's just not possible to do so easily to actually relieve it. But now you have the key, so that's good.